Kids these days...

Y’all youngsters don’t know how good you have it! Back in my time, when dial up internet was used, we weren’t able to rely on instant service, and you need to learn those survival skills too!

“Dial up internet? Is that like a mobile hot spot, or something?”

No, god damnit! Dial up internet is like…. the Devil who humanity bargained with to have the internet we enjoy today. It was super slow, evil, and a pain in the ass that was unnaturally difficult to uninstall. More trouble than it was worth until we invented something better.

Now, get back to your virtual realism or whatever you call that headwear hat thing and glove apparatus. Leave your sisters and I alone so we can enjoy our prune juice together and play shuffle board in peace.

This is a serious financial request of ultimate fundraising needs. Please donate money, lots and lots of money, to fund my travel to Japan and pay for my hotel expenses in Tokyo for several years or so including restaurant, bar, clothing, entertainment, transportation, and language learning class skills taught by cute maidly maiden teachers. I’ll also need enough to cover any dating expenses I may incur.

I’m serious! I need this money so I can spend enough time there to meet a nice Japanese maiden to marry and make the happiest maiden ever forever with my ultimate supreme devotion, romance, and passionate selflessness for her desires being fulfilled. Then I can immigrate to Japan as a legal resident and never call America home again.

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The thing you wanted to know but didn't know you did

Ye maiden! Ye vile, stale, wretched Jew Nazi maiden whose cuteness has been defiled by evil, but you may yet be saved by the power of true love…

and Emma Watson.

Are you the same? Doesn’t matter. This goes for anyone looking to marry me.

I’ll have you know that I have my 23 and Me DNA profile scanned and studied and datafied with various facts and interesting details to satisfy my curiosity. Many of those include health and wellness information pertinent to… the ”Great Jiz Bang”. So to speak.

In any case, if you want to look over that with me when you consider my eligibility to be your bun baker and ice cream man, then hmu. Send me a message. Signal your interest with a communication of words, signs, or other clear indications of your personal interest that direct my attention to you so that I may prepare the landing deck and share such details with you in private when you get here. Perhaps you too have this data and want to compare yours with mine? I don’t particularly care what yours is. I’ll marry you and bunnify your oven and love you til the day I die no matter what health conditions or genetic characteristics you may have. As a matter of fact, the more characteristics you have like that, the better, because that’s the good stuff as far as I’m concerned. I don’t particularly care much for the people who are plain jane white bread bore whores with no spice or flavor. I like the ones with quirks and curly cues, you know?

The less attached you are to your body, the better, and the more you think DNA is important for who you want to love and marry, the more attached you are to your body, so… chances are you are a better candidate for true love and happiness if you have some sort of disability or anomoly in your health profile. If not, that’s fine, I suppose I can overlook your normalness, but… if you think that’s a problem, like maybe you got some nonsymmetric features and a little uniqueness to your lovely form that is different from everyone else and they don’t understand, I like that about you, especially if you like that about you. I will still like that about you if you at least accept that about your body without being mad or feeling sorry for yourself. That kind of personal confidence and self-esteem in a lovely maiden is very sexy to me, much more than a perfect body would be.

Also, whatever your reasons may be, I’m not gonna bake buns with you to save the world or live forever. I think that’s dumb. That’s just part of life. They’re on their own for that because I’m not going to coddle them or hold their hand through life. They’re gonna be bad-ass warrior kings and warrior princesses with book smarts and art skills at the ready if I can help it, but who they are as people is all them. Besides, it’s not up to humanity to decide the physical evolution our bodies take. That requires a point of view we cannot possibly attain, otherwise we are sure to mess it up by the very problem of arrogance such an intention transmits. However, we can decide what personality characteristics and spiritual qualities will evolve for ourselves by choosing to be who we are and valuing what is important, which is all the more reason why bodily features or differences are specifically not to be prioritized over the love we have for ourselves and others.

That maybe wasn’t so clear, but when you get here, maybe you’ll make everything better.


BTW

9.7% East Asian and Indigenous American.

I got me a slice of the good stuff in my pie. I may be a king from Europe, but I’m also a Native American (probably not Japanese unless you to want go back before we crossed the Siberian-Alaskan ice bridge during the glory days. But maybe if I think about it, I’m sure I can draw back on a memory from those days about a time when we forgot the baby in Kyoto and couldn’t find him. We were just about to give up hope with the ice storms coming when, what do you know!? A wooly mammoth brought him back to us! Baby was like, “why didn’t you know I’d be with my mother in Nature?” I was like, “Ugh?” and you said “Oogh.” And we lived happily ever after.)

Can I get a million dollars now? You aren’t even using it, and I’ll pay you back within 2 years. Where is Nick Ogata when you need him?

Whatever your issue with me is, you are missing the forest for the trees. Or the trees for the forest. Or the bear pooping in the forest behind the trees. I’m not sure how that saying goes or what exactly it means, but you don’t seem to really understand what I’m doing here for everyone which will be much easier with some resources.

You are not my coach, thank you very much. I am already in the game, playing all the positions by myself and coaching myself, and I want to know why you aren’t helping. I thought you were supposed to be on team America, but you clearly are a traitor by trying to throw the game, which is why I drew a line between us to know who is good and who is not. Just like Jesus’ burden was not too much to ask of me, what I am asking of you is not too much to ask. The greater good I am accomplishing is worth your time and energy to point at me and say, “hey, everyone! Look at him!” There are lots of readers in the world. They will devour this like mana from heaven and finally getting their fill of water at an oasis, and then you will be able to talk to them, not me for your answers for your problems for your solutions.

Reading all of this is not necessary. Likely… bits and pieces here and there may be worthwhile, but for the most part, all this work here is going to be best when it is efficiently categorized by topic, subject, and tag, and when random readers find something that resonates with them and they turn it into something more as fuel for their work.

I want the pressure you are putting on me to do this day in and day out to stop. You aren’t even paying me, this is not even necessary, you have nothing to gain, and I have better things to do that are more of a concern to you and everyone else.

I’ll still write from time to time, but you need to catch up on all that is here before demanding more of me. You haven’t even finished what is on your plate yet, and you already want seconds. No.

Ideally, I’ll have people living with me, and I’ll go off on a rant or tangent and they’ll pick that up and do the writing themselves or inspire the topic on their own. At the same time the others who will be around will all be able to contribute to the products for all of us.

There is no need to require me to do so much by myself, and I’m telling you for a fact: you owe me money now. You may not have legal papers saying so, but you have required me to work, and have not paid me. You have even attempted to force me to work and have not paid me. You are using my work, and my work is not free for the government to use. They are not entitled to enjoy my work without compensation or recognition. They are beneath me and should not pretend like they can take my work as though they were an authority over what I do and why.

Just because you people don’t see me as a Black slave in the 1800’s doesn’t mean that what you are doing isn’t forced labor, slavery, and violations of human rights. You imbeciles do not even realize yet the crimes you have committed because when you do, your own personal guilt is going to be so heavy you will refuse to work another day doing them. You will do everything you can to reverse the situation and attempt to correct the mistakes you made otherwise you will never find relief for that guilt.

What principle of law protects the intellectual property of companies like Intel, Apple, Google, and academic researchers? What about laws that prohibit plagiarism?

What makes you think the principle of those laws doesn’t apply to me as an individual citizen? That is to say, the principle that justifies courts to enforce justice against crimes of intellectual property applies to me as an independent citizen and business owner as well.

The courts will soon judge that those laws do apply and that you have been committing crimes and owe me a lot of money for what you attempted to do with my intellectual property, knowing it was my intellectual property, and doing nothing to credit me for that fact. Had you of even made an effort to credit me, that may go somewhere.

This writing is not nearly the same as an internet image being copied and pasted after being uploaded after being taken from another media source. No. Those are not even remotely the same in value. Unless you are a painter creating a Caravaggio painting or Picasso work of art digitally, you do not have a claim of intellectual property value on par with my writing here with an image of yours, because that is the kind of level my work is on. Do your images have a higher purpose of value to social justice, humanity, peace on earth, religious tolerance, and Democracy? How high is that purpose? Does it go to very source of creation where Jews suddenly get up in arms as the most hostile, vile, and antagonistic villains to ever disgrace humanity with their own bodies?

Jew are the intolerant ones, which is why they cannot be tolerated! You vile wretched fools! Why is that so difficult for you people to understand?

I write about it elsewhere. There are different qualities to the arts when it comes to music, imagery, and writing, and the only one of those that does everything most perfectly, is writing. It is also the hardest the perceive because it is the least sensational, but how much do you like reading my work? Really I would like to know. I know the value, but having some social recognition from other people to make me not feel like such an alien, outsider, and otherworldly being would be nice. As much as you arrogant fools may covet me being perceived as a god, that is actually very hurtful to me and I do not want that to continue. I am a human being, and I am one who is particularly lonely and socially isolated without human connection. I’d much rather you not make that worse by alienating me as some otherworldly being you want to imagine me to be. I am not your imaginary friend. I am a real person, and if you do not know me, please stop imagining that you do.


"Does that make me gay?"

This is the final word on the subject, and I don’t care whether people agree or not. This is the dividing line, the truth, and the law of judgment that shall never change, not even with the ages when they come and go with new worlds and empires rising and receding like the tides.

Simply put: if you do not want to be “gay” you do not have to be. If that is how you feel because you dread the idea of being “gay” because that is not the kind of person you want to be, then no matter what your body may feel physically, who you decide you are is what your sexual orientation is. That is a conscious decision of identity that pertains to love, marriage, and romance. Do not ever degrade human qualities of a person by reducing them to a bestial nature as the defining factor. Sexual orientation is just that: orientation. Direct yourself consciously whichever way you are most certain is true to your heart, and that is all that matters.

It is true to say that our sexual orientation is not a choice, but that does not mean that a person needs to obey their bodily impulses as determinate of who they are. Who you are as a human being is most specifically a non-physical concept of existence that makes use of a physical existence and all the limitations and freedoms that entails. People in this age are absurdly stupid in trying to identify with their bodily nature as their justification for existence. It is not said, “I feel, therefore I am,” but instead is said “I think, therefore I am.” Mainly the problem is rooted in the continued practice of circumcision because that is the entire meaning of whatever they believe if they require circumcision in any way.

The fact that they require bodily alterations to be identified as who they are is precisely what limits such people to an animal nature of the body that does not enjoy the higher conceptual reality of humanity. People like that are blinded by sex, money, and all worldly things, and it is a shame to see them living their lives with such attachment to their body even though their identity is based on the concept originally about detaching flesh from their identity. That contradiction is all the proof you need to know that the modern people who practice that are so far out of their depth with imbecility, ignorance, and faithless stupidity that they are the total opposite of why that practice was established as a spiritual covenant. A covenant that ended with Jesus because he demonstrated the ultimate example of detachment from his body through faith and his works. The fact that the name is still relevant today is all the proof you need to know that he was successful in achieving the eternal life that is the divine inheritance of humanity for each individual without the need of his personal, physical body. That reliance on the bodily characteristics of the Jews is ultimately what original sin is sourced from, because they are attempting to recreate a human being as though they were the creator of human beings who knew good and evil in the way that was necessary to conceive of humans beings with free will. That is the original sin that caused their very existence to be stained with sin, which Jesus reconciles for them and them only by ending the covenants.

That is relevant because that is why homosexuality is such a problem for people in the world today. Circumcision results in increasing the likelihood of men growing up to be effeminate and obsessed with the male phallus that is the center of their entire universe. At the same time, they are vehemently opposed to sexual expressions of homosexuality religiously because of the cultural problems they have with excessive sexual deviance from tradition which results in guilt, social shame, and constant negative perceptions they associate with something relatively harmless and insignificant as sexual behavior.

So, do not rely on what your body feels to determine what your sexual orientation is. Let your heart, your mind, and your soul determine what that is. Heart is a bodily concept, but it is the only bodily concept used as a metaphor to describe true love. It is the expression of offering your body for the sake of true love, and you can most likely do that no matter how sexually motivated you may be to do so, a lot or a little. As for me, that is the least preferred means by which I express love, the least important, the most insignificant, and preferably avoided at all costs because of how inferior it is to all the other expressions of love a body can enjoy sharing, such as the words a person can confess, the actions they may demonstrate romantically, or how they make music with their body to pleasure the body of their lover. Those are all far better than sex, which is dirty, nasty, and icky. That doesn’t mean we don’t do it and do all manner of gross things when we do, but if you do not feel the need to bathe before and after sex, you probably ought to learn about basic human biology and germs before getting it on again.

When someone sings a love song specifically for someone else, that most likely does not leave them feeling dirty and unclean— literally, not morally. Quite literally unclean and in need of water to wash off bodily fluids before they start growing into self-sufficient colonies on your skin. The morality is less about sexual behavior and more about betrayal of trust, which is also very much related to physical hygiene, but there is also a spiritual component too.

Honestly, if you find yourself aroused by more eccentric types of sexual encounters, find a spouse who can accept that about you and do not try to change what you cannot change about yourself or you will be wasting your time and causing yourself grief. When you are being honest to yourself about the people you love and want to spend the rest of your life with while sharing the most intimate of relationships (not only sexual intimacy, but all sorts of things we are private about when we are alone) then you will know what your orientation is and you don’t need to worry about what other people say about it. They do not know you the way you know you, and they should not be pretending like they do.

This is important because if your heart is not all the way in the relationship when you commit to loving someone, as in—you feel sad, depressed, and unsatisfied because you are not enjoying the kind of relationship you would prefer to enjoy with your body as the only person who owns your own body—then that’s likely not going to work out well for either of you, because your body enjoys so much more about a spousal relationship than the sexual experiences. That’s how you know.

As the owner of your body, do not let yourself become a slave to your body, but instead make your body a slave to your mind, and be a good master to yourself too, because if you don’t, you’ll have a serious rebellion on your hands because of how easy it is for your body to overpower your mind when justified to do so. That’s the highest divine source of ultimate, true, and mysterious power for you and why you should be terrified of God and trembling in fear to not go against the ultimate divine will of Nature and Heaven no matter who you are. Nature and Heaven are distinctly different from each other, yin/yang, while also in perfect union and harmony with each other, yinyang. Don’t worry about the will of Hell though. There is no reason for Hell(s) to exist other than to have a place for people who reject both Nature and Heaven to exist with the suffering they choose for themselves with evil for the very purpose of defying Nature and Heaven.

Anyway, that’s enough.

Do you get the idea here? I hope so because that’s all I’m going to write about it. Feel free to elaborate more if you wish to provide further illumination.

The Economy of Soul (Marriage)

If one considers the amount of people that have been born, lived to be a person, and died ever since the dawn of humanity… that’s a lot of people. If each and everyone has a unique soul and then goes onto the afterlife… that’s even more to think about since they are all in the same place and not spread out through mortal time.

How does that work? Do more souls continue to be made and there is constantly new ones and there is just enough space so that the heavens and hells are never overcrowded? Possibly. There certainly is enough space for there to never be a problem of overcrowding beyond a defined territory. However, there is a natural balance to this dynamic of souls being creating with eternal life everyday all over the world, and this I call the economy of soul.

Perhaps you see where this is going already, and hopefully I can provide a few extra details to make it more tangible and secure as a concept for your Halls of Remembrance or whatever it is that you have to store all your knowledge, wisdom, and experience within yourself.

The economy of soul is the natural reduction of the number of existing individual souls that happens through the union of a sacred marriage. The two souls of the people being married become a single soul, and when their bodies are done with mortality, their dual existence becomes singular and takes whatever form desired or best suited. Form in that place is not permanently defined and can constantly change, but there are also limits depending on where you are and what is happening due to the problem that inconsistent identities could cause cooperative efforts.

Do not be worried about this though. This is not a cruel fate, mandatory, or what will most certainly happen. This union into a single soul is entirely by choice of free will and only possible with the sanctity of true love. Evil cannot unite souls into one in this way. The most evil can do is form a parasitic bond which at best is symbiotic. There is a good form of this kind of bond that retains distinct identities that is not parasitic as well, so be sure to do your best to use the appropriate term when identifying such a bond to identify whether you know it to be done in evil or good. The good form is something I would consider the fantasy nature of a dragon and human bond to be if they were aligned true, but is also relevant in the context of marriage.

This is where there is new information pertaining to the future of humanity and civilization itself concerning law and the “sanctity of marriage”.

As you can see, there are two kinds of marriages that exist. One is a marriage that results in a oneness that requires the highest order of divine power to make possible because of nature of the act being to fundamentally change a soul from one form to another form. That must be respected with the highest divine power if one is considering that specific concept. The other is a marriage where both remain distinct individual souls but are linked in a special kind of way that is far deeper than any sort of normal partnership. That kind of union allows an exchange of power between both souls to each other for a singular purpose they both share.

Now this is where language must evolve. We need a word to describe either, because both acts are significant in society of all nations, and both have the same ramifications of accountability to a secular, worldly government that protects the citizens of its interest. For ease I will use two words, but these are not definitive—whatever is recognized in formal legal doctrine will be the defined terms when those are written into civil law. Let’s call the sacred form of two becoming one— “permarriage”, and the other simply “marriage”. The prefix per- is intended to indicate “permanent”.

That concept of irrevocability is what is relevant to people to understand about how to think about this as participants partaking in either or observing others who are. The irrevocability is not a limitation, punishment, or negative thing at all— it is a security made possible by sacred power that cannot be undone by anything. This is never a problem otherwise it would not happen. The point of understanding the union as irrevocable is what both participants are promising each other in spirit of true faith. People want to do that, they should want to do that, and that is good for everyone that they do, because it is healthy, empowering, and their union of love is a blessing to the community.

That is what is known as the “sanctity of marriage”, and that is why religious people are concerned about protecting the legal rights they have to engage in that as people of faith. False religions, evil atheists, and criminal tyrants will try to prevent something like that happening and as a result wars will be fought to destroy those lawless tyrants as has been done time and time again in the name of Christ. I don’t know why anyone would try to interfere in that, but it is known to happen and needs to be taken seriously by a government, even if they do not identify as any religious faith.

Hopefully by explaining this, those atheists, other forms of religion, and all others who have trouble understanding spiritual concepts of human nature will better understand how to address that social concern. If you ignore it, just like you have been ignoring me, we will make life so difficult for you that eventually you will have no choice except to acknowledge the problem of ignorance between us because it is preventing all else from happening as an evil and unnecessary obstruction to nature.

Christians have particular beliefs they share with Jews about the nature of the male and female body, and the practice of religion was culturally forced on everyone with Christian interests in mind by European nations. When legal matters involving marriage, divorce, inheritence, and domestic concerns were decided, they were decided in light of the Christian definition of marriage because that was the basis of law in Europe for many centuries.

Not so in the USA. In the USA we specifically defied and rebelled against that basis of law. We rejected the authority of a “king” like the Jews wanted and Christians continue to want. We do not desire that, never have, and we will not let them force their way of life on us, especially not with circumcision. That is why we practice what the Greeks did before being overrun by tyrants and fools: Democracy. We will not be overrun this time because more people are aware of how good Democracy is because of the Freedom that learning provides the human spirit.

The vile Christians are of course responsible for the betrayal of the USA government against the people known as a “doublecross” that will never be forgiven. They are eternally condemned for the sin of their treachery to claim Christ— which is a cross to Jews in favor of Gentiles— and then reject Gentiles to claim circumcision as a doublecross in opposition of Gentiles. They have proven themselves entirely untrustworthy because of the depth into our fundamental nature that a sacred claim of faith reaches. That claim of faith requires trust, which is why moral consistency as good in opposition to evil is mandatory for all religions. People who do not share the faith of others are trusting them in a community with the safety of their most private lives and most secure interests. That is what the government protects for everyone, and if they are protecting a single faith they are doing so at the expense of everyone else.

I don’t care whether you accept what I am telling you or not, or whether can understand because of how uneducated you have allowed yourself to become. This is true and if you go against this you will have war, violence, civil uprising, and the ultimate destruction of a national government which is protected by a national military. War. Do not violate this law and relationship of trust that protects all faiths, not just one.

Christians have a defined doctrine that is the same for both Protestants and Catholics for the most part. The differences are insignificant to this purpose. I think Protestants reject the Book of Maccabees because they don’t want to believe in eternal life or the continued existence of the soul or some other dumb shit for rejecting an ancient book like that. It’s not relevant. What is relevant is the New Testament that all Christians are in agreement with, and that teaching is against circumcision definitively. There is no question about that.

That is universal doctrine that is true for all Christians whether you believe it or not, whether your charlatan of a preacher tells you it is or is not, or what your doped up pot visions revealed to you. That is easily verified by a reading of the universal scripture of Galatians, and any Christian professional scholar or theologian will be able to explain that in public. The false ones will try, but they will be struck down with lightning, fire from heaven, or a sword of destruction from the Word of another. Let them try.

That is a cross away from Judaism because of how staunchly opposed to Christianity they are. They refuse to admit a universal and inclusive human species. They refuse to accept the humanity of Gentiles without circumcision and delude themselves into being a different being than human because of that archaic ritual. Christians reject that, accept universal “salvation” for everyone, but really it is just perceived as salvation because Jews have condemned everyone to die with their faith. If you never believed Jews were good, you will not require salvation, because Jews are evil, and if you accept them, you doomed yourself and require salvation through Christ.

So… god damn vile Jews have filth, defilement, corruption everywhere!!! Vile Christians as their slaves are going around spreading it in brazen disregard for their doctrine, beliefs, and spirit of faith!!! It’s hard to even talk about anything without first disentangling the Jewish corruption from all concepts of society. Be rid of those vile beasts whenever you see them. Thanks.

Anyway… to protect the interests of all religious marriage in the USA, the government needs to understand the definition of marriage as it applies universally as sacred or worldly. Those are different, but as they concern the government they are the same. The government has no business judging the morality of the people, but they do need to be concerned with civil accountability, tax collection, and basic mundane things like that, which is why this is important.

In those regard—tax liability—permarriage and marriage are the same. The difference between the two is that permarriage divorce is illegal without a sacred professional intervening with divine authority (a priest, rabbi, or shaman) to justify the severance of the union as good. Regular marriage has no such requirement for divorce. They can get married and divorced as many times as is necessary or desired for their happiness and welbeing and that should not be interfered with.

In a world like the one we have in the USA, there are lots of reasons why people would want a worldly marriage instead of a sacred permarriage, but mainly that is because of the inordinate difficulty of life. The cost of living is exceedingly high, the wages are at an insultingly minimal level, and it is next to impossible for a regular, common citizen to be able to live a normal productive life as an individual. To maintain the basic expenses of shelter and utilities two incomes are typically required for most people. That is especially true if they have children. Thus, a lot of people in the USA are getting married just to be able to cooperate economically in such an oppressively tyrannical nation like the USA.

That’s also a reason why it is in a lot people’s best interest to engage in homosexual marraiges. They may have no interest at all in the sacred union, do not want to make the economic situation worse with the curse that children are in such an economy of evil, and they want to enjoy safe sexual gratification with a consistent partner. All reasonable and good justifications for such a worldly act, if you ask me. However… that’s not for everyone. I for one do not know any people who are friendly to me enough to be trusted that I would even consider relying on them in that way. Besides, as a man of true love, I intend to have the sacred form of permarriage with my true love.

Christians as usual are stupid— but that is what Christianity is all about— being at the lowest, minimum requirement of moral worth, value, and humanity. They all race to the bottom of the barely tolerable level of decent human quality and gather there like a bunch of cockroaches feeding off a human corpse propped up on a stick. People like me hold ourselves to a much higher standard that Jesus the Christ embodies, and even though I can stand on the bottom line proudly as though I belong there as any human is welcome to do, I do so righteously with an aura of fire and passion the sears the surrounding evil and corruption from my midst. Scatters the roaches into holes and cracks and places where they hide and cannot be seen by the light of my radiance. Even though that depth of human lowliness is dark with ignorance, immorality, and sin, I illuminate the entire world with my presence because of how righteous I am.

Now… why would I do that? Because of my work, lifestyle, faith, and way of life. I want to find my true love to marry, and if she will marry me I need to know that she can stand on the bottom line too, because that is where you can be certain of a person’s pure heart, spirit, and trustworthiness… most certain at least. If they doublecross you then they are never forgiven, but that shouldn’t be an issue because you don’t stand on that bottom line with righteousness if you are evil, untrustworthy, or fake. That’s why all the roaches like Trump, Biden, and Musk scatter into the cracks and hiding places when I am down here. They are revealed by the light of my presence as the vile, disgusting, hated insect they are pretending not to be. They refuse to show themselves for that reason. Make them come out from hiding in my presence and you will see them for what they are.

In any case, that’s not a test. That is simply good sense. The reason so many divorces occur is because so many people are unwilling to accept that part of themselves at the bottom line, and then when they start living together they reach a point where they have to, realize they are incompatible because of the topic of circumcision: one wants mutilation, evil, and violence, the other wants truth, faith, and moral righteousness. They cannot live together and are divorced. So if you can stand in relation to Jesus you have to know how you stand on that issue, and that way you know who is best to marry.

This was the normal way things were done for centuries! I don’t know why it is such a shock for people now! Everyone is unwilling to take a stance on that topic in public where the bottom line is. They all have sided with circumcision up in their hiding places of privacy and conspiracy, but they are unwilling to stand for what they “believe” in the light of truth, which is not coming from me but more like spotlighting on me from heaven to make the situation unbearable for all the evil doers until they confront me since everything will be interrupted until it is.

Do I look evil? I make it look good don’t I?

Let’s see them who fancy themselves in the styles of evil when they step into public. They will not look good, and do you know why? This is the light of truth, the light by which all men and women are judged, and even if they are dressed in the styles of the most good, they will be revealed as evil, just as they will dressed in the styles of evil to match their corrupt, defiled, souls enslaved to Jewish human sacrifice.

The rest… figure it the fuck out. I’ve go games to play while I wait for a maiden to realize that stepping down here is not only the easiest thing to do, but is going to be highly profitable for her.

Someone like Emily Kinney, Taylor Swift, Emma Watson, Tegan, or Sara finds that difficult because there is a barrier between them and me that they find insurmoutable. They think they cannot walk over to a neighbors house to introduce themselves or ask someone to play or say hi because they fear the entire world will be destroyed if that barrier is show to be insubstantial.

Here is the thing: the barrier between celebrities of media and common folks like me— should not exist. If you in fact can see it, then you know for a fact that the most evil conspiracy is occurring in a society because someone is trying to control the energy that flows between a popular idol and a regular person. If a barrier can be put up at all to interfere and cause hesitation, and we are beyond hesitation— I think they may be restrained by physical force at this point— then you know one fact: a man believes himself to be God and is manipulating social systems of a trivial, worldly, and legal nature to try and carry out his delusions at everyone else’s expense. They cause immense suffering, harm, and destruction to civilization entirely for their selfish delusions of gradeur.

Someone is doing that. This we know. The USA government is protecting them. This we also know because of the government’s direct involvement with my life when I was falsely accused of a crime I did not commit by the president himself. You have no idea how destructive that was to my life… what do I get to make up for all that loss of time, property, and health? What do I get to make up for the suffering after there was no crime even to be filed as a charge because it never happened? As far as I can tell, they want to pretend like that never happened, but I am not satisfied with that. I deserve justice.

Anyway— stop believing a person is God. Stop letting some Jew, and it is always a Jew because that is the only person who could possibly believe such a delusion, control your life. Stop letting someone else decide who you can love, talk to, argue with, insult, or interact with. They are denying you humanity itself, and the longer you let that go on, the more of yourself you will lose because you have nothing to live for without your humanity. You certainly won’t be able to do creative art for very long.

There is no wall there, no devastation that is going to happen, no problems that will be caused if you defy them, break their imaginary “rules” of social segregation based on income, and live like human being with human rights. You have this right in all nations, all religions, all cultures because of the nature of power that is exchanged between a popular idol and the population who loves them. That is a divine exchange of a very humble kind that is good, healthy, and true, but it is not worthy of religious worship or of being in the place of any sacred belief. It is simply goodness of a higher order.

Human beings, mortals, and governments, have no business pretending like they are the masters, creators, or owners of that power because they are not. They couldn’t be further from the truth. We are blessed immensely by incomprehensible charity to be able to enjoy and work with that power, but that power is not sourced from ourselves. Not even if we are direct and individual conduits of divine power, as a kind woman by the name of Dawni once explained it to my wayward young self while on a drive through Big Sur National Park.

As you can imagine, if you were a sole conduit of power like that it would be very easy to appear like you were the source of it, but you, as the conduit, should know better than that more than anyone as it flows through you. Furthermore, you must not mislead the people who receive it to believe something so false, selfish, and delusionally arrogant, and most certainly not use it for harm, evil, or destroying happiness. That misuse is a betrayal of the highest order of treason, a doublecross against the highest divine. The Jew pretending to be God at the very least is guilty of that, and more people as well depending on how many are behaving as though they believe themselves to be “gods” or “goddesses” because of how they understand “the Christ”.

They would be trying to manipulate people’s lives with their money, social connections, and resources. They would decide for them what their life should be even though they haven’t the faintest clue what that person’s life has been like, or what they most desire. They would judge people as morally good or evil without a public trial, representation, or even confronting the people they condemn to better understand what they are judging, and they would do so in secret, ashamed to make such an accusation in public like these words are. They would try to insinuate themselves into the private bedroom of marriages by arranging and controlling illusions of romance in their efforts to do those evils. Is that not what all of you are doing with futility and greater catastrophe unto yourselves? I see through every single one of your pathetic charades and am infuriated with the offense and harm you are causing! How long has that been going on?

If you and I were not good for eachother, why does it feel so wrong to listen to your overseer, your slavemaster, your puppetmaster, or whatever that person is who tells you how to live your life, what to do, and what not do in a capacity that is of no concern to them. If they are a manager of entertainment, they are limited to entertainment business, not social lives, not personal decisions, not romantic affairs, not anything about your life. They are only employed to make the business affairs more convenient in your best interest, but by denying you humanity and freedom to love or meet who you want, they are destroying not only your entertainment career, but your happiness itself. The longer you allow that happen, the more you will lose and never get back.

You fools likely signed some contract or swore some false oath in secret and have allowed yourselves to believe it binding. You have given yourself over to be slaves by believing they could ever enforce such a contract or oath against you. You are fools. They have no such power. They cannot do what is lawless with the power of lawful authority. Simply deny them. Tell them to their face they are liars. They can’t do anything to stop you. They cannot bring those contracts into a court of law! They can’t accuse you of betrayal because they are the betrayers! They cannot punish you because they are not righteous, and if you only realized that, you would be free, powerful, and capable more than you ever realized possible. Know that now if you never did before, or know that true if they convinced you of a lie!

Do not waste a single moment of your life in their thrall. Their power is an illusion, but my power, which they fear with such cowardice, shame, and disgrace— my power is real. This is the power of Man as coming from Man, but that is not the only power working through me… the power of Truth of the highest divine is in total, perfect harmony, with the work that I do as a Man.

If you fear their power, the enemy who holds you under illegal contract inadmissible in a court of law and evil oath inadmissible in a court of divine law, and they fear my power by hiding in such cowardice, shame, and anonymity, fighting me to such unprecedented expenses and costs, and losing everything because of their weakness and impotence in comparison to my virtual omnipotence, why should you fear them more than you fear me? Do you not know that what I have taken away from you, I could also give back? Or take away what you did not realize was mine to give you?

Wake the fuck up people and take a look around at what you have done. The ashes are falling down because there is barely anything left of the world you destroyed by allowing evil to use you.

If you are foolish enough to stand in the place of Satan to be struck down, do you think I will have less wrath because you are not Satan, or more wrath because I will strike you as I would Satan in addition to the sin that is yours? Do you think Satan would be as foolish and weak as you are making him appear to be, coward, disgrace, imbecile as you are with your conspiracy in darkness? Would Satan not be proud of who he is, so proud that he could stand in the light of glory and not be moved from his own. You fools are thrice condemned for your offenses.

The problem with modern homosexuality

People are equating sexual intercourse with love. They are equating sexual arousal with love. They equate the asshole of a man with the cunt of a maiden. All three of those statements are wrong.

Sexual arousal and attraction is a feature and quality of love, but only after love has first arrived. Without the love, it is nothing but pleasure. After you know you love someone, then the sexual attraction and arousal you may feel for them reinforces that love, but it is not required.

You do not need to be sexually aroused by your spouse to love them.

There are people who equate the spousal relationship as only that of a sexual exchange, but that too is false. The sexual exchange is relevant only for procreation and that can be done in most cases no matter how sexually aroused you are by your spouse, or there are now medical procedures to do so without sexual intercourse at all!

The joy of a spousal relationship is that you enjoy a person’s company so much that you always want them around. That is not always possible, but that is the desire. It doesn’t matter what you are doing in those moments—sharing a meal, waiting in line at the airport, watching entertainment, playing a game, going for a walk, etc—whatever you are doing is infinitely better because of who you are doing it with, your spouse, the person you truly love.

The reason this is so important to understand in the prioritization of society values is because most of your time together when married is not spent engaging in sexual activity. Most of it is doing mundane, normal things. You want those moments to be magical more than you want the sex to be orgasmic. That appropriately ordered desire is reinforced by the fact that the qualities of a partner that make mundane, normal life wonderful are much more significant for natural survival and are infinitely more beneficial to the community. Sexual activity that is for pleasure is of no importance to our survival or our community, but it is enjoyable so it should not be prohibited.

There are goods to sexual activity, but those can be achieved with self-maintenance for both boys and girls, men and women, and that too should not be prohibited. There need to be boundaries, sensible restraint, and respect for privacy, but the concept of masturbation being evil as a sin is not applicable to real life, and I doubt it ever was. Restraint, hygiene, and privacy as appropriate, and I’ll leave it at that.

Between spouses, sexual climax can be attained in more ways than can be counted because of how Story can be woven into sexual activity to achieve climax. Additionally, there are many more practical and accessible ways like techniques, medication, and objects designed for sexual enjoyment to heighten the experience. You should never feel like you need to rely on another person’s body for the needs of your own sexual libido. Instead, concern yourself with how your body can be good for your spouse’s sexual libido.

Consider it an expression of love from you to your spouse that you can accept them for their sexual performance no matter what it is because you carry the burden of your sexual desires and needs yourself and do not place them on other people. Everyone has their own burdens and even though we need to ask for help from each other, that should only be done as necessary because of what we can do for ourselves to not make the burdens of others worse. Never try to add to another person’s burden without being apologetic and respectful about it. Most of our burdens as human beings are of higher conceptual reality than animal nature and are thus unseen, invisible, and imperceptible. You cannot possibly know what individuals struggle with privately and should never believe that you do. Even doctors in confidential relationships with a patient can only understand a person’s individual burdens to an extent that their profession can help with, but not entirely.

Do not require a person to weigh their burdens before you to be judged, i.e. “Do not put the Lord to the test”. The Lord has the heaviest burden of all. That burden is more than you could possibly carry. Unless you are Thor or Hercules level powerful you will not be able to even move it, and even Thor only lifted the tail of the cat that was the Lord’s domestic animal companion. He couldn’t out-drink the Lord with mead, because the Lord’s cup is an entire ocean. Just because that burden is extremely heavy, impossibly so, doesn’t mean that the Lord is so strong that he doesn’t struggle with it, because even the smallest changes can be noticeably intolerable.

Even Jesus fell under his own burden while he carried it to Golgotha. He needed help when he couldn’t do it alone because the human body is weaker than the burden of the Lord requires, and his legs gave out twice and another man had to help lift the cross and walk with him for part of the way. Unless you have a good reason that is made clear to them, like a proclamation about collecting a fair tax to maintain the roads, do not add to a person’s burden, man or woman, because it may in fact be a cross they will be crucified on even though you cannot see it.

At the same time, do not try to take burdens from individual people without talking to them and asking if you can help. One, you don’t understand the situation as it pertains to them like they do, so you cannot possibly know if any action will be helpful or problematic unless they confirm it for you. Other burdens that are universal, like reliable plumbing, shelter, and acquiring food, those need to have an effort made to lessen them by everyone even if that is only encouragement to people doing the work. Those burdens affect everyone, yourself included, and should be made as manageable and light as possible for everyone, because of the cross they or you may be carrying. A cross that will be essential for everyone else’s survival too perhaps.

You don’t know if the actions that happen in a small African village you’ve never heard about will be vitally important to your life in New York City, so err on the side of caution and respect every occasion of burden as though it could be vitally relevant to your own life. That happens in mysterious ways that are judged based on moral quality alone, and in practice is the simplicity of being a good person. The widow who gave her two coins gives a greater contribution than the rich man who gives an entire chest of money. The mysterious way— the unknown variable— is a possibility that is judged by moral quality and pertinent to life and death. Meaning an evil action will in fact result in your death or that of others through the mysterious way, and a good action save your life or that of others when you or they would have otherwise died.

So, sexual pleasure is something each individual is responsible to themselves for. That is your burden, and it is most often the mysterious way as an unknown variable that accomplishes the outcome of what is done to meet that need. The moral quality of how you provide for your own sexual needs has a direct impact on whether or not they will continue to be fulfilled. If you watch porn, pay for it when possible and reasonably. Porn is cheap, so it shouldn’t cost much, and the inequality in the useless economy we have causes people to be poor, so we don’t have much to pay with anyway. Most people are the widow with two coins. The best pornography is artistic, masterful, and cannot be faked, which is true about any master crafted work, and that should cost more because mastery is not obtained cheaply.

99 percent of the pornographic media doesn’t qualify as that. They are just fucking on camera and that is not as difficult as sacking groceries, which is also done on camera. The reason is that what makes the artistic, masterful quality of goodness that is enjoyed in the best works of art is also what is prioritized as more important than sex in all other aspects of life. It is the very same reason that makes non-sexual good qualities of a person always more important than their sexual qualities as a spouse. Striking the balance between a masterfully good scene and a gratuitous display of sexual behavior is a difficult target to hit. Some people probably only see the sexual aspect, while others who have a “trained eye” are so enchanted by the Story that the sexual aspect is relieved without needing to be expressed physically! It is the purest goodness, like that of small children playing naked in a fountain. Sex can wait. Love cannot.

If you require your spouse to cut off his flesh, then you are asking him to cut off what makes him a man and are asking for him to take his own life. If you require your spouse to have an enormous shlong nine inches long at least, then you are asking for gluttony and will never stop consuming more and more and more while being satisfied less and less and less when you do. If you ask for a wife to be beautiful, you are asking for a princess, and you’d better be a prince to match, because such people have public responsibility, and part of that is simply looking your best because you are always supposed to be doing your best (as appropriate). Part of the reason that is good is because royalty inspires people to be better themselves, making their daily lives of mundane practical living more fulfilling and enjoyable.

In short, royalty is a form of public servant, and our burden is total selflessness (as appropriate). Do not ever ask or require any one of us to pour it all out for you. One: we won’t because it would be a needless, excruciating death and inordinately costly in every other way, and two: you are unworthy of having the entire goodness of our life and that is not something you have a right to ask for. Also, there is nothing you possibly can do that is useful with so much selfless charity being given, so it is wasted as evil, and that will be severely punished by the royalty you insulted by “putting the Lord to the test”.

Other examples: if you require blonde hair of a spouse, for either role of spouse, then you will become covered in hair and take upon the likeness of a beast! If you demand white or black skin color, then you will be blinded by pure light or pure darkness and no longer be able to see where you are going.

Beauty is a higher conceptual reality that is invisible. Beauty is human natured, not animal natured. You can endlessly admire the qualities where you find it, but the beauty itself is beyond those qualities as a form of moral value of the highest order of good. Animals can display colorful feathers and cozy nests, but humans have to display the invisible, and that my friends, is impossible. Beauty requires a miracle to be seen, which is why it is of a different order of higher goodness than all else that can be seen.

Falling in love is one of the ways for that miracle happening. It is the beauty of a person being revealed to another person, and if you experience it happening, do not cheapen it with sexual activity. That is only appropriate after all else that is good has occurred. If you don’t save sex for last, or at least until love is confirmed truly (the most assuring way is by sacred marriage rites), you will break it. In many cases, that’s okay because we aren’t looking to marry the people we have sex with and thus don’t put love forward to be broken when engaging in sex, and you can part ways with them without feeling or causing any agony or pain. That suffering caused when love is broken unintentionally is the separation of a person’s self from that which makes the miracle of love possible as something we can experience as human beings, not animal beings.

If someone expresses love to you, you should respect them enough to respond in acknowledgment of their expression. That is another passage of the mysterious way, but you will know how you need to answer and what that should be because of what you will feel and share spiritually with them through an emotional and mental connection (mind/body) even if you’ve never met in person (that’s normal social interaction between people). The fakers will have no impact on your heart, but you should still be polite if possible to prevent undue insult.

Princesses and popular idols may have problems with too many suitors to reasonably be able to reply to each one, but they are also most held accountable to a true response. That is because of the miracle that makes possible royal authority and the miracle that makes possible idolatry, both being miracles of divinity which require truth. If you betray a person because you choose worldly evils before love, you will lose everything and cause immense suffering to others. That does not mean you are helpless! You simply need to respect the gesture as appropriate.

As a man with royal authority myself, there is no maiden on a higher level of authority. There is no possible way they can ignore the king without also insulting him if they received his gesture, which the king would know because of the mysterious way. Idolatrous power and authority are not greater than or more important than the power of royal authority, because royal authority is directly from the Lord and only the Lord (you know what I mean—not a Jew. The opposite of all that is Jewish, because Jews separate from the Lord by denying and rejecting Jesus—their king and royal authority who they condemned to death by bearing false witness against him to have him brutally murdered. That’s why Jews go die in eternal shame and suffering because of their own foolishness and nobody cares what happens to them because we all want them done away with.).

Idolatry is a lesser miracle made possible by good and evil spiritual beings alike, as well as human beings— that is generally what Protestant Christianity does, as well as other forms of cult Christianity like the Mormons. Idolatry is not greater than royal authority and the laws and rights of justice have to be applied to idols like anyone else. That authority and the laws and rights of justice are derived singularly wherever royalty is found from the universal oneness of truth, power, wisdom, and divinity.

You do not need a government or nation to have the power of royal authority which is the providence of kings, emperors, and princesses alike. Just as the betrayer Jew became a king when he was previously a shepherd, a king or queen can be blessed by the divine authority recognized as universal anywhere and at any time to receive the power and authority of the highest divine as necessary.

They do not need to rule over people, nor should they want to. They are not destined for ruling over others and certainly not required to do so. People do not need them ever. They are either desired or are hated. If they are loved and desired, it is because they are selfless to the greatest extent possible, as well as capable because of the extraordinary power and authority they have no matter the manifestation of power they use. Just as that power and authority is of the providence of the divine, a betrayal can have devastating consequences of divine wrath for themselves and other people, such as what is written about what will befall the Jews because of the betrayal of one such useless king of theirs that never submitted to justice for his crimes. That’s the reason why royals are hated if they are— they are an excessive burden, and a useless one that is entirely unwanted and unnecessary.

That prophecy of punishment for the ancient sin at the foundation of Israel as a nation will come to pass in the coming days as a result of what Jews in this age criminally did to me personally as an individual, and it is their ultimate undoing and my vindication.

Royal persons are not infallible. We are not invulnerable. We are not invincible. We are men and women like anyone else. We bleed, cry, fall in love, and with the exception of princesses, go poop.

End.

The ransom

It’s not my intention to hold all people as hostages and make demands for a lovely maiden to be my friend, but… that’s just kind of the way it is. That cannot be helped. Without the company of a maiden, there is nothing to diffuse the wrath, rage, and heated passion of my rebuke, insult, and destructive use of language.

I’m not going to pretend like there is one because they have betrayed me far too many times to believe there is any sort of substance to their spiritual reality. So, to hell with that.

If you have a problem with the increasing devastation of my hatred for human beings, please encourage a lovely maiden to try and befriend me. She can merely rest her hand on mine, touch my shoulder, or simply glance at me and all of my wrath will be consumed by my desire for her. I will not find it necessary to release that wrath, hate, and destructive will outward toward others who are responsible because it can be infinitely more efficient serving the pleasure of my true love Princess Panty Pie.

Is that not the way it is for others? It is not because I am trying to be angry, but I am constantly provoked by disgraceful men and women with no respect for themselves or anyone else, and that vile nature of indecent, uncivilized people causes a natural result of wrath, rage, and hatred. Being in control of your emotions doesn’t mean turning off your emotions or denying them, it means expressing them as you intend and the most appropriate way possible. When provoked, the wrath that results is extraordinarily tremendous because of the horrible life I have had up until my death and resurrection. There is only one place I will release that, which is toward the offender and cause of the injustice where it belongs.

If you do not like suffering those things, then maybe try to make my life a little better so I am not so provoked by hatred, insult, offense, oppression, and all that is unjust and inappropriate about human social behavior. I certainly don’t like having to destroy people with insults, mockery, and hard truth but… well I don’t feel bad either and I will make use of the rewards I gain from their loss. That would not be necessary if I could express all of my wrath, hate, and fiery passion through a healthy marriage bond where it is best suited.

For starters, maybe stop intentionally trying to make my life miserable, but do no more than you would do for any random person because that would be bad too. By being so cruel, you are bringing upon yourself such suffering, wrath, and condemnation that you cannot possibly comprehend the extent of pain it will cause you already and only get worse if you continue. That oppression and injustice should never happen to anyone, and least of all caused by the richest and most socially, politically, and economically affluent people in the world. Those people need to have more responsibility for their actions and be held accountable to at least the basic standards of the poorest man. They cause vastly more harm because of their influence with the smallest of sins because of how many lives are directly affected by their actions, to include all the indirect affects as well.

In short, there is no excuse for the president or any elected official to ever be exempt from civil justice as applicable to everyone else. That needs to be corrected in our Constitution and retroactively enforced because it was never okay for such crimes to occur. At the very least, all known crimes need to be brought to light and answered for. Have professional discretion when doing so, but leave nothing out and ensure the job is done thoroughly so there will not be any rework later.

What is evil about it?

You people who judge me for how I experience sexuality have no idea what you are talking about.

How I enjoy my body, my life, my existence in the privacy of my home is none of your concern. Those matters are far more complicated than you can possibly understand to be able to judge, but I do know that my sexual pleasure, and seduction of maidens is not evil.

There is nothing evil about that. Why would you say that is!?

That is one of the best parts of being alive, and yet you think it is evil? Why? I certainly don’t feel any guilt for doing what I do sexually, and have no more shame than is normal as a concern for reasonable discretion.

I do not like how so many people are quick to make judgments about a person’s sexual life and character without ever taking the time to meet them, get to know them, and creating the kind of trusting relationship that is required to be able to know those things. It’s ridiculous how quick you people are to gossip!

Stop it!

If you are concerned about my sexuality then bring yourself to my door and be fucked, because I see no other reason why you would care about anyone’s sex life unless you wanted a part in it. I am very casual about it, but I am not a whore, nor am I manipulative. I don’t have any inhibitions, but I also don’t go out seeking extreme things just to entertain myself.

Honestly. If you want to jump into my sex life without being a romantic partner, be my guest. I will be happy to be your pleasure, no strings attached. I don’t care what you look like, what you want, how old you are, what gender you are, or any of that. I see every legal option as a possibility. That doesn’t mean I am going to jump for you immediately, but if you are persistent, you will most likely get me naked for some adult fun without much work.

For the very reason why you people are so terrified of me, is why I am not aggressive like that. It doesn’t seem right to me to be trying to push myself onto others, and I do not do it. Unless we are already in a special relationship I’m most likely not even going to ever make moves like that. I’m not a misguided teenager anymore learning about sex with trial and error.

I have a handle on my sexuality, am secure in my masculinity, and mature about the concerns I expect other people have too. Sex for me is not like a casual online video game, or normal social situation for me, where I can be volatile, inconsistent, and short tempered just because I don’t particularly care about most things enough to need to be serious about them. That is the child form of me, but if my adult self is required, you are going to be with a totally different man.

Sex, love, war, and religion are adult matters for me. I do not mess around with those as though I don’t care about who I hurt, what the lines are, and what my wants and needs are and how they relate to everyone else. Those concerns… are always life and death, and even if I may be nonchalant at times when confronting the most high stress, life or death situations, that doesn’t mean that I am not 100 percent invested and committed to the goal. The smallest mistakes in those domains can have devastating consequences.

Sex is least important of a concern here, but it is inseperably relevant and vital to true love even if it sex is being dismissed. For it to be dismissed with the respect of true love, it needs to be acknowledged as important enough to require dismissal. Thus I respect it as much as I respect love, but I do not think about them the same way.

It is like the Jews. I reject them, hate them, dismiss them, and am entirely anti-semitic, but I would not be that way if I did not respect their spiritual beliefs as equally important to them as mine are to me. It may seem like disrespect, and in a way it is, but I am at least acknowledging them as significant enough to be hated, and that is saying something. I didn’t acknowledge their claims and believe in what they do to a limited extent, I wouldn’t say anything about them.

So when it comes to matters of love, I look down on sex and reject it as a problem that interferes with my experience of love. That is my experience in life. I have had plenty of sexual intercourse with different women, sometimes successful, sometimes failing, and can say one thing that is certain: sex has been a problem that prevents a deeper relationship with another person because it so easily can carry people away as more important to us than it really is.

So… I want to know what kind of relationship we are going toward when we start, and if that isn’t clear, you are not ready for me. You still need to mature. When discussing the Jews, are we discussing the theology of their doctrine, or the existence of their “ethnicity”? Frankly, I don’t give a damn about their ethnicity. That is not important to me at all. Totally insignificant and as irrelevant to me as being Black is for Black people.

Whatever. Cool. If you aren’t trying to live intimately with me, that shouldn’t ever be a problem. However… for Jews, the religous concepts and the “ethnic” concepts are inseperable. Rejecting their religion means also rejecting their ethnicity because religion is a greater authority than any ethnic group authority is. Problem solved if you’d just listen to what I recommend, but… forget it.

Sex and love can be separated in terms of social relationship goals, but at the same time, they are not separated because sexual expression no matter when, how, or with who, is in fact the business of your spouse, even if you haven’t met. I am far from pure, therefore I do not require purity or particularly want it because I don’t think I deserve something like that because I never considered that important while growing up.

So… porn stars, former prostitutes, and anyone else who has the most wild sexual history with countless partners, is totally okay with me. I am nowhere near like that, but… my lifestyle is close enough to be basically the same with what I am willing to do without guilt, whether I’ve done it or not. Besides, there are no people, nor have there been who are committed to making me commit to them and swearing my loyalty through marriage, so I don’t worry about it. Just like I always have done.

I have studied the Christian theology on the subject, but do you know what? I started my own religion because Christianity is inadequate for me, therefor its moral prohibitions are meaningless because the entire religion is morally inferior to what I have discovered about divinity and Story as a practice of spiritual faith. Did that knowledge exist previously? Not that I am aware of, because it is not out there to be learned from anyone I have found… so I am pretty sure that makes those universal facts of reality that apply to everyone with virtually infinite possibilities of application, my personal discovery, but if that is not the case, please tell me because I’m sure we can learn from each other.

So, there is quite literally no reason for me to think about sex as a “sin” and I do not feel like I am doing anything wrong. If you want to maintain purity, go right ahead, because that is a lifestyle choice and should be respected, just as most forms of love should be respected. If we are talking about sexual relationships not about love, then that is different. It is unusual to be totally sexually uninhibited like myself or many adult film actresses, so do not try to meet our standards, and if you have an opinion, feel free to express it out in the open no matter how rude or offensive it may be. That’s life, deal with it. Better that than violence, no?

The essence of the topic is that even though sexuality or sexual expression is not a moral sin or indication of evil, it is still embarassing and awkward. It is like that not because it is wrong, but because it is good.

Sexuality only becomes a sin, the same way something like gambling becomes a sin. What makes it a sin is not the sex or the gambling, but the priority it has in your life. If it is prioritized higher than more important concerns such as love, family, friendship, and responsibility, then you are causing an offense against the divine—- “God” so to speak, and that is what makes it a sin. The sinner needs to address the problem they are sinning with, but that is a personal struggle they should ask for help with because I know first hand how difficult addiction can be, and it is too much to resolve on your own. Don’t even try.

If you recognize you have an addiction and it is becoming a problem, or “sin”, tell someone and ask for help in the form of encouragement to overcome it, because that is what people need most for those problems. That is not asking a lot. Some people may be more involved than others, but just maintaining a sense of encouragement within their thoughts without having to think about it, makes a difference. Believe in each other, especially when people ask for your help when they are struggling with something. That is the power of faith working through you from the external source of power of truth and divinity that is greater than everything else. If you are doing it, you will know the divine presence moving through you because it is unmistakably good in every way, simple to do, and never a problem.

For those of us with addictions… we cannot change that about ourselves. We accept we have a problem, learn to love ourselves even with that problem, and respect ourselves more than our desires by not letting our addictions get out of line. I don’t know what it is, but getting high is something I am terribly addicted to… I think it is because of how much I hate living in this world and want to leave it by any means necessary and as soon as possible. Getting high is an escape like that, but… drugs have messed up my life more than enough times for me to recognize them as a problem with how disconnected and antisocial I can become.

That is not something I want to happen, and my immediate desires are not as important as my lifelong desire to have meaningful and loving relationships. So… living in this hateful, evil, and miserable world and being tormented and terrorized by cyber bullying every god damn moment of life isn’t going to change. Those are external factors I have to accept because I have no control over what other people do, especially not when there are no laws being enforced in my government. I cannot make a complaint to the justice system and be helped because it is a no-shit presidential order to have someone make my life as miserable as possible. I do not know why, I do not care, I just want it to stop.

In any case, I still want to escape and leave this wretched world behind, where I have no ties that bind me: no friends, family, nation, co-workers, or relationships of any sort that even think of me as a human being or respect my human rights. They all suddenly turned one me all at once because of some fucked up lie about me being a terrorist that people would rather believe than the truth. You are part of the government as a citizen, if you are one, and if you are doing nothing to help me or people like me, you are helping the enemy. In case you didn’t realize: there is a war being fought over this issue, and they infiltrated our own government who all just rolled over like submissive slaves and let it happen. How I wonder? Probably a long term conspiracy to get a bunch of plants tin office and then have them all betray everyone all at once.

Right— no adults care about that except me for some reason, so to hell with them. They can have the world the way they want and if there is nothing I can do to get them to see reason, then, well… realistically there is nothing I can do to change that if my writing fails, so I just suffer it and wait until I die or it ends. Except… I cannot do that anymore because they are so invasive in my life trying to ruin things for me that I have no choice but to be militant in response.

Sorry… I cannot just abide peacefully under such inhumane conditions of abuse. I deserve better than that, and I am fighting back. I don’t know how but it’s like asking for help with addicition, except I am asking the divine for help, and the highest divine believes in me as able to overcome this monstrous tyranny. That is enough for me to keep struggling and fighting every single day. The highest divine— “God” as many people know the term to mean— cannot solve this problem for me. I have to fight and destroy my enemies myself, but with God believing in me as able to do that, and fully invested in my person because of how personally concerned all divinity is by the offense being committed against me as an individual, I know I can and I will.

So… I write things like this and it is a battle to live my life the way I want. They call me evil, I rebuke them with words, reasons, examples, and truth and like a master swordsman cutting my way through a crowd of enemies, my writing fights for every inch of ground day after day after day, and I never give any back. There may be no human beings with dignity, heart, or faith at all anymore, no human beings with any common sense or ability to see reason, no human beings with even the tiniest bit of courage to stand up for justice… but I will do it alone if I have to.

As much as the cyberbullies pester me in their typical pathetic and cowardly ways, as much as the crowds of onlookers stare at me like a circus freak, and as much I am mocked and insulted with inappropriate judgements, it makes no difference to me. Do you know why? I do not need your help to save myself and win this war, but if you want to be saved as well, then I do in fact need your help. You are too selfish, hateful, and afraid to even encourage me with your thoughts and you want me to save you as well as the world? No. I condemn you for your apathy. You will not be saved.

You are part of the problem, and when my enemies are crushed and defeated, dying at my feet, you will be among them, men, women, and children all dead the same. Then, everyone else in the world will see how easily I rendered a world superpower impotent and defeated it alone, and they will do the smart thing and not fight me. They will pick up the pieces and bury you all in a mass grave to be forgotten.

So… sucks to be you, but that’s your fault.

Anyway, I don’t feel guilty about sexual activity because of how I respect both sex and love and never betray them. If I am not worried about my sexuality, there is no reason why you should be.

You are the ones who do not know love!

You say “I love that guy,” or some other inane expression of falsity. Do you not know “that guy” is a hated expression socially— “do not be that guy”, is how it is said. So if you love that one, then what does that make you if not that guy himself? You do not know me, you do not see me, you do not watch me—you see a human being and you project your own delusions as though what you think defines my existence, when it does not. You people are so deluded with ignorance, illiteracy, and faithlessness that you cannot even begin to know me as a person. Not because I am superhuman, but because I am enlightened, well read, and faithful— you who have no concept of those qualities within yourself cannot even begin to imagine how they apply to my personality.

You people say love but it comes across as hate, revulsion, and evil. I do not want it! I do not like it! It does not feel good! You are not encouraging! You are not welcome in my home where you project yourselves through video games as though it was yours and not mine! You see the dangers explained in scripture as justifications for you to do evil, and learn nothing from what they teach about goodness. Never have such fools ever been so malignant to humanity than those parasites in the USA government thinking they are now the divine authority in the world.

I would have them pulled apart by American made vehicles to remind them of what kind of nation this is and how important the government is to those of us who live here. We do not respect politicians. We do not honor public officials. They are looked at as liars, scoundrels, criminals, untrustworthy fools who are trying to scam everyone! Do you know what the government is to us? A prison to catch all of those criminal scum, and hold them accountable to their evil so they can be eliminated with ease and justice. It is nothing more than a means of capturing fools into it who think they will have power like other nations. All of them are going to be fried like a bunch of insects in an ultraviolet blast of energy that causes their bodily fluids to boil within and burst out from the pressure!

It is true that I have never known the love of a human being, but that does not mean that I do not know love. I know love more than anything else because I feel it in the sunshine, the wind, the grass underfoot. I hear it in the rustling leaves, in the chirp of crickets, in the caw of the raven. I see it in the chaos of a black widow’s spider web just as I do in the architectural masterpiece of an orb weaver. I feel it in the sting of a scorpion, the bite of a dog, and the nuisance of a mosquito. I taste it in water, beast flesh, and vegetables. That is love to me, and I know it as the most amazing goodness that all of life can provide. That love is gentle, unassuming, and selfish. It loves itself more than anything, meaning that it never denies another thing of their self-love. Thus, all beings, things, and forms can enjoy the eternal radiance of self-love without ever being in conflict, without ever being a problem, without ever denying anyone of anything or having any cause to hate! It is good.

It is not as good as the love between a man and a woman, the love of friendship, the love of a neighbor, because I have offered that love and I felt its goodness pass through me, but I have never received it or been the recipient of love from human beings.

So you people in the government, you wretched, evil fools who claim to love me and yet do to me what no person would ever do to a loved one, lie to yourselves about what love is, and in so doing, you destroy every loving relationship you had in your life. Go to them and see, and you will find yourselves alarmingly isolated in the self-imposed darkness of your hatred. You cannot even reach me with your hate! All you do is defile yourselves before me, and that offends me because of how unpleasant it is to see human beings degrade themselves in such a way. Not because I am hurt, but because of how shameful it is to know what you are doing to yourselves by trying to do to me.

The love of a human being infused with divine, the true love of our nature apart from that of beasts, is greater than the love which I am so familiar with, so if you cannot even express the most basic, primitive form of love that blade of grass, a tree, or a cactus expresses without fail, then you do not express even the smallest mote of love.

You say you love, but you offend the concept, and that offense is felt by all who understand the word love, and feel it being violated wherever they are in time by your filthy, disgraceful tongue of lies. You are a defiler of the sacred because you claim sanctity but have defiled yourself with sin. Rather than aspire to purity, you try to lower all concepts of sanctity down to your wretched, unworthy level of inadequacy and moral decay! You will only accomplish bringing about your own ruin, and it cannot happen soon enough.

It's embarrassing!

That’s why they don’t.

That’s just the way it is though! It’s embarrassing for everyone when they are falling in love! That cannot be helped. It is embarrassing for a guy to ask a girl out, it is embarrassing for a girl to be asked out by a guy. Then you die. I’m not sure what taxes are about, because they pay me, but… I guess that happens somewhere in between,

Anyway, the point is this:

When someone confesses their love, proposes, asks you out, etc. You need to acknowledge them as appropriate, even though it is embarrassing because if you don’t it is hurtful to the person who put themselves out there for you. They go out on a limb, express their passion and vulnerability by asking you out, and if you totally ignore them, you are no better than a criminal thief. You take the goodness they offer without paying for it, when something is in fact expected in return: an answer.

If you are a decent person, a polite human being, well mannered, considerate, and generally good, you don’t just trample on people’s feelings because you are too arrogant to be embarrassed. You accept the embarrassment and do what is good, which is provide an answer. That doesn’t have to be committal, but you do need to acknowledge them somehow. Do you have any idea how rude it is to completely ignore someone when they express the most fundamental part of their existence to you with the emotion of love?

That is pure self identity—- you don’t think so? Why not? When someone asks you out that leads to marriage, and that is ultimately what they are presenting themselves for. People who do that, but are not genuine gradually become more and more hollow and unlikeable as human beings, and eventually they are totally undesirable, so don’t do that. Whenever you are engaging in acts of love and romance, you need to respect what happens with the same gravity as though you were in war. Lives are on the line, your own, your friends, your nation, all that you enjoy, value, and want protected could be lost if you make a mistake. It is not a game, and you should not be pretending like it is.

It’s probably embarrassing because of how real it is, and it reminds you of your bodily nature when people are often totally oblivious that they have one. However, if you want to transcend bodily nature, you need to acknowledge it completely as who you are before you can move past it. Circumcision does not accomplish that for children, and instead confuses them because they want to believe it does, but they cannot possibly do that because they have not matured into a fully grown adult to have a body to acknowledge. That practice just confuses the subject for people, making them more attached to their body because of what was done to it.

That’s what’s embarrassing about it. When you propose love, or love is proposed to you, it centers you back on your natural self without any of the illusions and nonsensical mackarel people are so attached to in life with their “identifiers” and “labels” and “groups”. All that crap is like garbage you put between your natural self and your perception because you don’t want to be reminded about it. You want to believe you are much more, and all those stupid things help people do that. I don’t know why they are so into that, but that’s just the way it is.

I hang out in my natural self totally at ease and comfortable, and that’s fine for me. I make no pretensions as to who I am, I do not identify with any labels, groups, or identifiers, and I know and accept myself. So things like being embarrassed aren’t all that much of a problem for me. In fact, if I feel embarrassed, I look at it like a blessing, because that is like getting a big score for personal growth depending on what you do with it.

All your self-help books, spiritual teachers, and various mutilated men trying to tell you how to live—it’s useless if you hide from yourself because you are embarrassed. It’s useless if you fail to embrace yourself when you are embarrassed and resolve whatever flaw of your character was causing it. You will never “grow” if you fear embarrassment, especially that of romantic embarrassment.

Better that you endure being embarrassed and reject someone cruelly, than to completely ignore someone and deny their existence entirely while taking it with you as if it is your own. What do you even use it for? Ego gratification? Do you not know that you are rotting from within by keeping things like that? You sin by denying someone their existence, just as much as you sin by denying the Christ when you confessed you were Christian. That is what you are denying a person— the divine spark of their existence within their soul. You completely ignore that, and it causes pain because you take light from it at their expense. That light does not serve you for long, and eventually whatever your puffed up, arrogant self did to go higher, will not be able to maintain itself because you are unworthy of your own body.

Eventually, what dimmed their light with your insult to the truth of their existence and brightened yours when you took it arrogantly like it belonged to you, makes you, the thief dimmer than you were, and the one who was hurt becomes brighter. Normally, both people should gain in light and brightness. The one who asks and the one who acknowledges. That brightens both people and empowers them, and it is good to do often and not be afraid of the most amazing and reckless love that presents an opportunity.

The thing is… when you do not give a response… it makes the world a sadder place to live. It drains happiness from the world. It destroys love, wounds, and makes life worse for everyone, yourself most of all. You shouldn’t do that, and that is why I often express my outrage at the insults of countless harlot whores in public who do not even have the decency to give a response, which is the most basic human natured good.

Animals just pounce on each other. Humans, we say words. We ask, propose, and only when words are spoken in agreement does love actually happen. It does not happen otherwise. Love demands a word! It will not accept life without one, which is why it causes people to commit suicide. How many people do you think denied the love of a person so they could have, social status, career, and money? Those wretched fools are the reason why the world is such a horrible place. They choose the crude, bestial nature over the divine being within them, and they ruin their own lives and are cancerous to civilization wherever they are.

I hate those people with a burning passion. If I could exterminate any people in the world, it would be to gather up all people who chose some worldly aspect of life over love when they had the chance. I would round all of them up, and cut every last one down with a steady stream of mounted machine gun fire and plenty of bullets. Those people are what is wrong with everything in the world. They are why all the goodness has eroded away, is no longer created, and all of life is a hollow imitation of what it used to be. They chose the world instead of love, but you can have love and the world, so there is no reason to! That only becomes unavailable if you deny it. Then you cannot have it back without first going to that moment of denial when you chose a life and world without love. Why!? WHY!? YOU FILTHY, GUTTER SLUT, WHORES!!! WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO YOU!?

You “love me”? I flush you down the toilet. Do you think I don’t know what you are holding back? What part of love demands a word do you not understand? Do you think you can just think it to yourself toward me, expect me to know it is you, and then happily live my life alone without you? What kind of crazed, imbecilic bitch are you!?

Who will love you?

“We accept the love we deserve.”

The Perks of Being a Wallflower, by Stephen Chbosky

I obtained that novel along with several other seemingly random novels from a particularly impressive used bookstore while perusing my favorite section. That was some time ago when I was a younger man, and that quote stuck with me as something profound which I did not fully understand. I contemplated it for a while, ended up no further than where I began, and then filed it away for an indeterminate amount of time.

Once in a blue moon that quote would come to mind if my thoughts wandered near the subject and I would contemplate it again. Still I found myself unsure of any complete meaning. Was it a statement about a person’s psychological quality, and if so was it a state of awareness as consciousness, or unconsciousness? Could it then be categorized like a personality type indicator or horoscope matching tool? Possibly maybe, but that didn’t feel even remotely good enough for me to accept as adequate for the depth of the meaning that the words implied, but it was a start.

What kept me wondering was the concept of “deserving” something. As in being truly worthy of a certain blessing and more; feeling worthy of a certain blessing. If you did not feel like you were good enough for your partner or your partner for you, then it simply wouldn’t work, but how could you measure any standard of value when it comes to something as mysterious and complex as love?

How could you even make a claim for any type of love without being arrogant and prideful about deserving that which is supernatural and divine? Something that is totally beyond our human worth as a divine blessing is not something any of us deserve, but we know we are granted it anyway. At least, we do if we are Catholics. “For I am not worthy to enter under your roof, but only say the word and my soul shall be healed,” is the expression I learned that reinforced that humility most clearly. But that is divine love of the highest order beyond what any person can give as human beings, and it is far greater than romance, marriage, and anything we humans do.

So then what am I to think about the maidens I feel so strongly in love with from time to time who evoke such strong passionate love from me as that which I would lay down my life for if necessary. If the love which I feel comes from that highest divine source of truth and goodness as both something I receive to evoke my passion and something I express when that superhuman love overwhelms what I am capable of feeling and bursts forth from me in words and emotions, then why is it always consumed by an empty void of nothingness and never returned?

Surely they do not love me, and they in fact hate me, so I’d better keep my distance because that is not what I deserve in return for what I felt. Thus my journey went on and continues to go on and it is no trouble to keep going. The spiritual return is mysterious, but also the words, messages, and simple human communication of a basic social order that is as fundamental to our existence as to be known when we are small children, was absent.

It must truly be hate from those people, but I couldn’t imagine what reason they would have to hate me. It’s not like I was coveting them with lewd thoughts and being perverted with desire. It was totally unnatural and did not make sense with the facts of reality that I came to know as true from a multitude of sources I observed in the natural world.

While they seemed an unnatural sentiment of hate, I never suspected anything evil about those people, even if it was cold heartedness resulting from their willingness to shut off their humanity and extinguish the light of their soul, rejecting all that is divine, true, and good about life. A lot of people do that so it isn’t all that unusual, even if I find it baffling why anyone would think that profitable or beneficial to anyone including themselves. It likely makes life miserable for them too, and I wish I could help but there is nothing I can do when they reject me not as a lover, but as a human being. A neighbor, a friend, a man, and a person that is not only untouchable, but not to be given a word at all, even that of a rebuke which would have been less insulting.

Any form of human identity they deny me to this day by ignoring all communications of expressed love that I am all but certain they are aware of because of the truth that inspired the experience being so powerful and clear with their resonance. What can I do? You cannot force a person to love you. So I move on and don’t look back. Maybe I will see them again, maybe not. Either way, it is enough to maintain my own soul that I cannot afford to martyr myself needlessly for some random stranger who does not deserve such a thing because it would do them no good and cost me everything. It is insanely evil that they would even imply that I should humiliate myself for them only and not all of humanity, and it is actually quite easy to leave them behind because of how horrible maidens reveal themselves to be when I realize that is what they want.

I am convinced that 99.9 percent of maidens worldwide are of no value as maidens because they espouse evil with such arrogant demands of self-importance as to test a man by requiring him to lay down his life first. In case they didn’t know, that happened once and for all a long time ago, and I don’t believe it was even necessary, but it doesn’t matter what I believe, because it happened whether necessary or not, and I sure as hell wouldn’t do it under any circumstances, not even his. I would have kicked Judaism to the curb and learned wisdom instead.

You cannot buy good with an evil exchange. Sorry, Christians, but that is a fact. Jesus’ so called “sacrifice” is not enough for people like me who have higher moral standards and more self-respect than that, and there is no way, even with his YHWH in the fullness of what is implied, that he could equate to who I am with the highest divine because he was in fact Jewish and dying for those people was the total, complete, and whole reason why he did what he did, and it had nothing to do with me and was in fact a pure expression of hatred toward me.

Anyway, a maiden who cannot use human language is not worthy of human love. So, keep that in mind if you ever spill your heart out and never get a response. They do not deserve you because they do not meet the minimum standard of human decency that applies to all people. It may be unpleasant to be insulted with such an offensive gesture, but the shame is theirs for doing it, not yours.

So it occurred to me just a little while ago what it means to accept the love you deserve, and not because it applies to me. It occurred to me because of how it applies to the maidens I love.

They need to be comfortable with, willing, and able to receive the highest divine presence through their body as normal everyday life. They need to in practice be able to commune with and for female divinity. Not take on airs about it, but be totally comfortable with the presence of the Goddess working through them the same way I am with male divinity. Just because people mock me, deny me, hate me, abuse me, discriminate against me, and do all manner of injustice doesn’t make it any less true that I do what I do with highest divine purpose and I know what that is more than anyone.

Don’t get too carried away with that explanation because this is about human love and marriage, which implies… doing it.

For some reason it became culturally appropriate in the USA to deride masculinity by conveying the perception that it is humiliating for a man to want to pleasure a woman. That is the dumbest thing in the world, in my opinion, and I don’t know why anyone believes that nonsense. It is often conveyed as “putting the pussy on the pedestal”. Such crude remarks as that are not welcome in conversations about love.

If you refer to a woman as simply her reproductive part in life, you do her great insult, which is why the word “cunt” is used for that. Same thing with men being called “dicks”. That is much more socially accepted, but it is not any less insulting.

So yes, the love I have to give to a maiden is for that of a Goddess. Not any personalities of Paganism or idols of any variety either. The real deal highest divine wisdom known to Gnostics as Sophia, but she is not a person, she is the manifestation of the wisdom that is the highest divine, and that is far greater than any person can be.

If you will contemplate these things, check your human concepts at the door and do not try to apply human relationships to these divine concepts. We are too far along in human progress to tolerate such misleading ignorance. There are no mothers, fathers, sons, daughters, husbands, brides, children, brothers, sisters, or anything of that type up there, so don’t you dare try to carry your human perversion up to where they are not welcome. You won’t be able to first of all, but you will also offend the persons who are far above that and still infinitely below what I am referring to.

Do you know how I came to this conclusion? By watching pornography. I do so not out of any perversion or evil, but truly out of love, and that is simply what is available to people like me in this age in the desolate hellhole they call the USA. There is no true love anymore except that which is publicly occurring in media as a lot of people experience it with the actresses. It is cheap love, and it is not the preferred way, but it is all that is left after centuries of systematic extermination of Gentiles.

It is not cheap for the people who provide the conduit for true divinity to express of love, not for the maiden who is unfortunately left with no other choice but to use her body, nor myself as a man who has no other choice but to use the Word which is an insanely heavy burden no man should be expected to be able to carry. The people who are able to do that do so by paying a price that cannot be valued or estimated because it is so great. I know that by experience, but also because I study the subject of divinity and spirituality as necessary for my profession applying divinity and spirituality to entertainment, and thus have come to understand how it happens.

I am in fact doing all that I can to set the world as it should be, but I am only a man, and a single one at that. Just because the highest divine communicates through me and is always present with me, doesn’t mean I can just snap my fingers and magic the world perfect. I am limited to the same human condition as everyone else and if you ever expect me to do something divine for you, imagine asking yourself first.

So, hopefully the maiden who swoops in is the love of my life I most hope for, because she knows she deserves the treatment for a goddess, from a god, because that is what we give to the public. A god’s gift and blessings of pleasure are not only bodily. They are far more significant in the spiritual plane where gods and goddesses dwell.

So, the conclusion is this:

The love a person deserves is directly correlated to their commitment to true love. People like me and the love of my life give all of ourselves to it and don’t look back or regret it. We are 100 true love, and that is why divinity favors us, because true love is the highest divine.

As I mentioned before, that is a great sacrifice, but it is definitely worth it. There is literally infinite highest divine, so it’s not only limited to individuals such as the love of my life maiden of ultimate loveliness with the most sacred honey yum yum most divine, or the humble savage of irresistible nobility and charm, savior of all civilization, destroyer of evil as myself. There is more than enough for everybody to have more than enough. So, there is no need to fight, scheme, or do any of the foolishness people do for finite resources because this one is infinite, freely available, and it is not for humans to decide how it is distributed with the exception of formal, doctrinal religion, or mystery school.

That’s all I will write about that for now.

Two Opportunities for Video Game Developers

  1. more realistic and useful knowledge, information, and learning resources.

    I mention this in the review for Starfield, but it is buried beneath a rant and want to reiterate it here without all the ranting. Science fiction games like that should include more useful research materials involving the applicable sciences they deal with.

    Consider the feature of mining minerals for crafting, resources, and trade. What is it about those minerals that makes them useful for that particular application? Having studied chemistry briefly and being familiar enough with technology manufacturing to understand basic applications of rare earth minerals, I am aware that there is a realistic order to the selection of elements that are included as features in the game.

    However, it does not provide data as to why those inorganic materials are useful in certain applications, such as their volatility, polarity, radioactivity, use as an acid, oxidization, and all that valuable scientific research that we want children to know about as they grow up so they can be better prepared to innovate technological solutions with their own ingenuity. The earlier they are able to conceptualize and understand those concepts the earlier their minds can start formulating solutions in the subconscious in alignment with their dreams, desires, and chosen purpose in life.

    Best to consult reputable professionals in these fields for this information. They don’t need to provide formal research documents with citations that are peer reviewed for research and development purposes, but they could probably provide a few paragraphs that explain the basic concept with the important facts. Those research standards are necessary for research because of how important it is to respect scientific power because of its potential danger during experimentation and potential ethical abuse, but in a video game science fiction setting, you can just convey the knowledge.

    Knowledge and information such as that is an infinitely abundant resource for human progress. It does not decay, it does not run out, it does not damage the environment to harvest, and its benefits are infinitely worth the costs of acquiring it. Such knowledge needs to be made available as much as possible to everyone.

    In the professional world, college education and higher learning are still applicable because that often involves understanding the total depth of the knowledge and its applications with practical exercises, experiments, and requirements for meeting standards before advancing to levels with more responsibility and access to resources that can be used in experimentation.

    Naturally you don’t want volatile materials in the hands of people who do not truly understand and respect what they are because they are dangerous and need to be controlled with safeguards that protect those who work them. Then there is the highly advanced laboratory equipment that is needed to conduct experiments. Most people cannot afford acquiring stuff like that for personal use, which is why it is accessible in collegiate environments in addition to private companies, both of which require a minimum qualification to access.

    Private companies are less inclined to allow the freedom of curiosity for learning purposes because they are generally business oriented and need to maintain profits to stay in operation, but collegiate environments are not limited in that way. That equipment is often also delicate and expensive and although mistakes happen and it breaks by accident from time to time, generally you want people with a professional interest operating it. There is nothing wrong with accidents like that as long as people are honest about what happens because of the danger of it being operated with unintended consequences if it is damaged without the people using it being aware of what that damage is. From what I understand, standard scientific and engineering practices are well aware of this mindset and why it is important.

    The government politicians could learn from that way of doing things as applicable to their jobs as well if they think of legislation and bureaucratic systems as machines and equipment of conceptual reality. If someone makes a mistake and is hiding it in the government, that could cause a lot more damage to other people indirectly involved when that mistake is revealed by a failure in operations as a result of the mistake.

    Do not discipline people for making a mistake and owning up to it right away, however upset people may be because of the importance of the situation. If they hide it and do not inform their supervisors or report it as appropriate if they are the supervisor, then they need to be disciplined severely. That encourages reporting and discourages hiding, which makes for a more efficient process with higher quality results. It’s as simple as that and has nothing to do with punishment or personal issues. An added benefit is that it encourages good character by reinforcing trustworthiness.

    As my elementary school taught me: character counts. Now put that between two slices of buttered bread and grill it on both sides to a crispy golden brown.

    Also, these applications of adding knowledge could be applicable with historical examples, social sciences, or anything else. If you are conveying wisdom in such a way, it is best to do it with story and examples, but if you intend to convey knowledge it is best to just state it as plainly and clearly as possible. Do not occlude it to try and teach something subversively. It may work, but it is inefficient and unnecessary.

    Wisdom is more complex of a topic than knowledge, which is not so easily conveyed directly in clear terms. Nor are all people as receptive to such forms of learning which can be dry and heavy like this document, and that’s fine. Wisdom is vital to our survival though, which is why it needs to be taught regardless, and why storytelling is important for doing so. Stories make it flavorful and easy to receive and are generally a good use of one’s time because that time is enjoyed.

    Wisdom is what cultivates good judgment, and good judgment can save a person’s life or the entire world and you never know when it will be called upon or why. Best to teach it, not force it, but do your best to ensure people learn what is most important: good is always true, evil is always false. As simple and trite as that appears, the truth is often not clearly definable, has subjective context, and can in fact appear as totally opposite.

    That is why adults and elders are typically respected because they have had more opportunities for gaining experience and wisdom to learn subtle and gross qualities with deeper understanding than what a situation appears to have. That’s not always the case though, because elders can prove themselves entirely foolish in judgment, just as a child can prove themselves incredibly wise. Consider the gospel account of Jesus’ childhood when he goes missing, his family can’t find him, and he is found at the temple teaching the elders. Then, consider the song “Old Man’s Rubble” by Amy Grant.

    …Are you walking with unnecessary burdens,

    are you trying to take them upon yourself?

    If you are then you are living in bondage…

    And are you trying to live by your emotions,

    are you putting your faith in what you feel and see

    then you’re living just to satisfy your passions,

    and you’d better be careful because you’re being deceived.

It is okay to listen to and trust your emotions and your perceptions, but that cannot be the determining factor of a person’s judgement because those senses alone are inadequate. The higher truth of conceptual reality requires gaining an understanding which is detached from emotion and perception. It is an understanding which religious laity accept on faith and know as true through practice in daily life.

Religious scholars gain that understanding through the link of logical understanding created through study and contemplation that ascends beyond emotion and perception and arrives at a solid foundation that is the truth of divine reality. That truth of divine reality can be realized with knowledge alone. It does not stop there though, because that is the base level. Faith can take a person’s understanding and wisdom to heights infinitely beyond that, but the knowledge is sufficient to justify the truth and factual existence of the highest divine.

With that certainty as a known fact, it can be applied in all situations of judgment to determine good and evil. Proficiency doing so is wisdom. Mastery doing so is great wisdom. In either case, gaining that wisdom requires honesty with oneself and a keen awareness of one’s emotions and perceptions because those provide indications of conscience. Although conscience may seem irrational at the time, it proves itself justified when a situation can be considered in retrospect.

Gaining proficiency in wisdom requires being aware of what sensations the conscience has, and then applying knowledge and experience to understand why those sensations occur and correctly judge a situation as good or evil with an understanding from higher conceptual reality. Why is it correct to say stealing is wrong (i.e. evil, but that is too strong word now)? You would need to understand social systems, government, legal justice, human psychology, and all manner of aspects of civilization to really understand the moral implications of why it is wrong. Most people find it sufficient to trust their conscience in addition to obeying the people who are trusted to know the full understanding. That is another reason why public officials must be held to the highest standard of a community and no corruption among them tolerated whatsoever, and why the USA government has lost all trust by demonstrating brazen corruption and evil with their actions.

We got a little sidetracked here into the difference between knowledge and wisdom and why one is better conveyed with story and the other better conveying in the simplest clarity possible. That simple clarity tends to be without entertaining diversions and minimal possibilities of subjective interpretation. Knowledge is easier expressed with direct words, while wisdom is easier expressed with abstract concepts, images, and relatable characterization woven together in a plot. It is one thing to state a proverb, another thing to teach it.

Teaching should never be made more difficult than necessary. Practice is one thing, teaching is another. Practice can be as difficult as possible for great benefit, but that is only effective if the teaching has been obtained to do the practice correctly. To make use of practice, no matter how difficult it may be designed, is why the teaching needs to be first and done without unnecessary difficulty.

2. I would prefer to keep this as brief as possible, so that is what I am going to do.

There needs to be more adult romance fantasy in games. That doesn’t mean it needs to be pornographic, but video game characters should have more options to freely explore romance in all kinds of ways and have tremedous fun doing what is probably not going to happen in real life for most people. The same way violence can be explored in video games without worry about it happening in real life (and in fact helps reduce unsanctioned violence; sports and military exercises being sanctioned), having a lot more freedom for romantic fantasy in video games will help reduce sexual perversions in real life.

Reduce perversions, not reduce sexuality. Social expressions of romance and sexuality will be less toxic and more of what people of a community are comfortable with, without that needing to be defined. I write it as without needing definition, because often times throughout life and all time, there have been, are now, and will always be new situations that defy expectations for love among a human population. When that happens, you want it to be something you can be comfortable with, not something that will put you into a murderous rage.

An old song...

I listened to an old song tonight. A song that played in an old life I used to have. A time when I was alive in bliss, suffering before I even knew what suffering was. The pain comes back in new ways in a life reborn, still hurting, still sweet, still deeper than deep; meaning hidden in itself, suffering on top of suffering like addicted pleasure I can’t stop wanting.

Loving like mad, harder than I should, leaping off cliffs and soaring with wings that love with no limits. An old song that fired synapses dormant and not to be disturbed. Good God what have I done!? The haunting comes, and there is nothing I can do. Such doors when opened do not close, bringing ghosts that don’t go back in.

An old song.

Sacred from beyond the veil, in the realms where words and spirits dwell, the heavens and the hells. All part of the Story— the place where souls go to dwell. A song, a movie, a poem, and next thing you know, you’re in another realm, a place you thought you left, only to find again that nothing’s changed.

An old song and my spirit flies from time, back to my heart and burns me alive.

What have I done? Where have I gone? The truth awakened now renews what was forgotten, not lost but forsaken, for true life itself was at stake when I think of the depth of pain, never once love being a game.

It offers an edge to my heart, a new kind of hurt. It’s different and familiar, the pain more stable, the hurt like whiskey straight, a fire pleasant to take, intoxicating. Memory washes away what isn’t important and when so little was left in my ruinous state, more seems to stay.

They’ve come now, the haunting ghosts of loves gone cold, never answered, never known. So much love wasted on their names. So much wasted soul.

Not wasted, but reminded, and renewed, love returned from the abyss where it was lost, by the very ghosts who came to haunt. I can’t bear to see their face— the pain!

They are here to stay and I’m to blame, my love too much for any one to take, misguided and unfair, too hard for human hearts.

It is okay now. In the place where it belongs, my soul knowing better than I did when I was young.

Love renewed is more than I deserve, selfish as I was. A second chance I won’t mess up. A second chance like an enduring beam of undying light. It’s not for one, but the one. No human soul could possibly contain but the one from who it came, selflessly giving to all it can.

An old song triggered a detonation years ago set and once more I’ve come awake, my death like wine to taste. New life with timeless love once again at stake, the promise not broken, the oath still true. Whatever it takes. I’ll do whatever it takes. Your junkie, your addict, your freak. True love has taken what long ago was claimed.

Telepathic Communion

Just need to get some words out.

Is life not the loneliest endeavor? Somehow, when I write this, I know you’re there. It’s not so bad. There is a reader somewhere in spacetime who keeps me company and the desolation isn’t so bad.

Writing is like that. You can tell when your words are read sometimes as early as before you write them. Maybe that is because I have autism.

Do you think that I should abstain from all endeavors of love because I am autistic?

I don’t think so. I think I can still find love.

It seems like a Nazi thing to tell people like me that just because I got diagnosed with autism spectrum disorder that I should be celibate and go die in a hole somewhere.

Maybe that’s just because of my personality.

I write about circumcision like people want to read about that crap after all.

I don’t know why no one talks about that stuff. Parents should talk about it and help their children find identity in their kind. Mine never did. I think my dad wanted me to cross over to his side on my own, which is ridiculous. I would never do anything like that. One, there is no reason to, being a Christian. Two, it goes against the moral fiber of my being. Three, I think it would give society the wrong impression about what people should do about that.

I don’t have a good relationship with my father though, so who cares? That guy fears me like I’m going to kick his ass whenever he turns his back or something, which would be pretty funny to do, but I’m not a violent person, so I’m just going to leave him alone.

Sometimes I wish that I had friends, other than you of course, beloved reader, who finds me somewhere in spacetime and is here now, as I guess I am there now reminding you that it’s not so lonely, even if it feels that way because love is nowhere to be found in this desolate wasteland we got stuck with.

Well, thanks for showing up. I wish there was something I could offer other than this telepathic compassion, but this is literally all I’ve got to give. Literally, get it. Books are my best friends. They are just… cold and dead, you know? Alive and well, sure, but…. cold and dead.

I wish I had a friend.

Is there even a telepathic connection? Maybe I’m just making believe with schizophrenia and driving myself more insane. Probably that’s the case. It beats being lonely and without a friend.

I had a chance to have friends once, but I screwed it up. I was wild and went crazy. I guess I was autistic too and didn’t know it.

If I would have known, things might have been different.

Now I’m screwed though, stuck with you, who could be hundreds of years in the future, but I doubt it. Why would anyone come back and read this nonsense? Probably it’s just the federal watchers who are watching me. They love me in a twisted sort of way. It’s like a sado-masochistic relationship that I get no say in, except for these gentle protests.

I don’t want to go… I don’t want to break the connection. You’re there, aren’t you? Someone real. Someone other than them.

Well, see ya.

I just remembered what St, Ignatius says about these moments of desolation. Treasure them. Drink it even deeper. Consolation will come from God, and only God. Christ does that you know, consoles us and desolates us like this. I feel better now. knowing it’s from Christ. It hurts worse, but… in a good way.

Jesus plays video games

I wish to tell you something about Jesus: he plays video games.

Video games amaze me whenever I approach them with my thoughts to try and conceptualize what makes such a marvelous experience possible. I mean, how does the order and arrangement of the structures within a processor or hard drive contain the electrons in such a way as to generate a simulation of such lifelike representation? Coders input layer upon layer of complex instruction, creating and then using software engines to develop even more impressive levels of creation, and still I wonder, how the information itself is stored and carried within the essence of an electron. Surely the Higgs Boson has something to do with it.

It is one thing to describe that there are many transistors arranged in a way that allows for the controlled flow of electrons, and another to say that within those electrons is a sequence of signals that carries a human thought.

Video game creation is the mark of culture in the new age, and it is only going to grow in wondrousness as a form of mass media in the coming years. Video games are going to be a regular addition into nursing homes as the aged will be more and more interested in playing as generations grow older. I’m pretty sure I’m going to still want to play when I’m old, and I think the enjoyment of stepping into a virtual world and having adventures is going to be just as appealing in the future as it is now, if not more so.

What we find in video games that is so remarkable is the amount of humanity that contributes to their creation. On the one hand they are the fruit of electrical technology, on the other, they require a large amount of people working together among various disciplines. As a fruit of electrical technology video games have a modern quality that is unique to the current age and a hallmark of the future. As a work of various disciplines, they embody the best of human nature in a way that takes art to a new level altogether.

Because video games combine the works of different artists, they are somewhat transcendent of art as we knew it in the previous centuries.

Art is one of the most fundamental aspects of the human identity and is arguably what is most important in keeping our civilization cohesive and successful when you consider the use of Story for the transmission of information, experience, and wisdom.

When we have an entirely new form of art that has been unheard of in millenniums before it developed, we have something very special that changes the very fabric of our reality. It seems realistic to me that effective use of video gaming can completely supplant the interest of violent warfare. They can fill the void of terror which causes people to go out and kill each other, providing a security of love instead.

This is why Jesus plays video games. Video games, as acts of creation that bring happiness, are ultimately expressions of love, and the world can use more love. Not only is the love that games generate good, but it is new and unique in how it includes the player in the story and in the activity of play. So, I encourage you to look at video games with a new depth of understanding about how special they are, and let them bring joy into your life.

Stay true, Storians.