Gives and Takes Away

Do they not say, what the Good Lord gives, the Good Lord may also take away?

What then do you government fools have to say for yourselves, pretending to be “God” as a secret organization of idiots who have the most crude understanding of spiritual reality that presumes monetary riches are “heaven” and poverty is “hell”. You idiots presume that the centralized national government authority is itself “God”, and whatever individual with the uppermost authority to make decisions is in fact the formal representative of that person.

Now that you have begun to realize the colossal mistake that you made by attempting to “erase me from the Book of Life”, “delete me”, “kill me”, or otherwise remove me from the world by taking away my life as though you had the authority and power of “God” which you so arrogantly call yourselves— why is it that you cannot “return me to life”? Why can you not give what you took away but did not give?

The answer is obvious and you should have known that obvious answer long before you ever attempted to presume you were some “deity” just because you had privilege to lord over other people. You simple do not have the power. You do not have the ability. You are no deity because you are entirely inadequate to do what a deity does. You cannot even do what a man like me does, so why would you assume you are a deity? Why did you not even consider the possibilities, realize there were some things that were beyond your ability, and not infer the obvious conclusion that you cannot possibly be “God”?

I on the other hand, where I have taken away Trump’s life, and he shall be killed and condemned for eternity, do you not know that I can also give that back? I am not God but I am a man, and I can do what you can’t do while calling yourselves “God. However, I am not going to give back Trump’s life or redeem him from his condemnation if he requires being dragged out of his hidey hole like an infant refusing to own up for his sins. He will be doubly condemned as long as that is required, and so it is.

I am astounded to discover that people who fancy themselves an “intelligence agency,” would have such a crude, uncivilized, and uncultured understanding of spiritual reality as to interpret the existence of heaven and hell to indicate “haves” and “have nots”. Let me point it out to you: if the poor are in “hell”, what does that make the government who has authority over the civilization the poor do their best to abide by?

If you were “God” why is it that the poor suffer? You condemn us for what sins? What moral crimes have you judged us by to feel like you are justified to add to our suffering? You want to believe true spirituality is applied to your skewed view of the world, but you conveniently do not ever include yourselves into that point of view. If “God” has determined poor people are condemned to “hell” of poverty for sins you are unaware of, then you are not “God” because you do not know the sins by which they are condemned, and furthermore, the suffering the poor are experiencing is inflicted by the government itself that denies the poor their basic needs! That makes the government Satan, the Devil, and Evil according to their own worldview.

According to such idiots in the government, there is no room for what is good anywhere in existence. All is evil, and they ensure all is evil by attacking, destroying, and defiling all that is good, even what is of most interest to them. Why don’t they realize that they are making themselves miserable?

The truth is, heaven and hell are not of this world. They are not divided by income level or social status. There are perceptions of these realms while alive, but you do not go to either place until after you are dead and left your body on the earth.

If the government had anywhere close to the amount of authority they want to pretend they have by making some of the decisions they do, why can they not tell the public what those decisions are and expect us to obey them? They have no authority at all! We are not even admonished to obey them! The public in the USA is culturally, doctrinally, and rightfully skeptical, mistrusting, and suspicious of all government authority and our government is designed with limits of power that make it a lesser authority than the public itself.

The government has no hope. They wanted to view the condition of American civilization as Hell because of how horrible the conditions with poverty are, and condemned themselves to Hell in reality! Our civilization suffers now because they are in fact evil since they have identified with Hell, and we have no choice but to destroy them. They will not be spared.

I am my own God.

Perhaps that will help you damned fools understand why I am so offended, annoyed, and wrathful against you for trying to project some false deity of any kind as though I should acknowledge it before myself!

You have failed in the first commandment of the old ways, and if I get my way, I will see you punished in the old ways.

Thou shalt not have any God before me, no carved idol of wood, stone, metal, no printed word, no software, no Story, no animal, no inanimate being, no concept, no idea, not a single god damn thing in all of existence shall be before ME! Do you read me!?

What some of you people do, by projecting the concept of “god” outside of yourself as though it were not within you first, is something I have never done, nor will I ever do. I project out, and I identify will all of creation because the essence of my being is the very same as the essence in all creation. That oneness is my own, and it is not apart from me, and thus there is nothing to acknowledge that is other than myself.

There certainly are no human beings in real life who are gods to me, nor have there ever been. Nor goddesses. Not a single one. Jesus is not my god and you shall not expect me to worship him, honor him, set a place for him at my table, keep something of his, or anything. He is inadequate for me. Jesus the Christ is morally inferior to myself and I do not accept him as a divine authority. The written Word of scripture, although attributed to Jesus’ life and works, is not his doing. He did not write any of that. Those are the product of other people who understand the situation in their own way, and interpreted it as they did, and it is their testimony that we trust, not on faith, but because it is practical and makes sense. It is the only way Jews are going to be tolerated among other people. Or was anyway before they insulted me for the last time.

So any of you people claiming to be a “god” of any sort and take yourselves seriously, you are putting yourself before me, and I want your head removed from your physical body. Here is why: there are no human beings who are gods or goddesses, never have been, never will be, and it is an abomination to think that you could ever convince people you were such a thing. So unholy, hateful, disgusting, and wrong with ignorance, that you fools who are trying to do that through computer software do not realize how brazenly obvious you are as false and hateful creatures that embody a perverse mockery of divinity.

Here is why: the God of myself I acknowledge is what I call the highest divine, and that is specifically not a being. It is being nothing. If anything is claiming to be that, they are false. It has no voice, no substance, no form, nothing to be identified by. It is all things, but directly it is no thing— pure emptiness and void within which there is an ‘awareness of presence’ that is entirely mystery because it isn’t anything. It is as the phrase says: “Be still, and know.” That is not something you will ever see, measure, quantify, or capture in your thoughts. You can only know it is there by knowing yourself within a void of total emptiness, and that too is imperfect, because you are projecting yourself into the void by perceiving the void, and that is what comes back.

So, if anybody is claiming to be that, they are the greatest fool and need to be stopped from doing whatever they are and educated. If someone is claiming to be a representative of that, they need to be good. The have to be good. If they are not good, meaning if they are evil— kill them bodily. Cut off their head in public. Do not hesitate to end their life. That is the only reason why religion is tolerated in civilization as part of the social agreement. There are no evil religions that espouse evil. They may be in conflict, have different moral values, but if you talk to them directly, they will tell you they are not evil. They will explain their beliefs, why others may think they are, why they are not, and why you can be at ease with them in the community.

Why is it okay in video games to ruthlessly slaughter evil cultists of various kinds in various stories? Because that is how you properly and righteously deal with those people. They may be out there, and that is why if they are, they always operate in secret and public answers are needed. Everyone else, every single person, being, thing, form of life, rejects them and wants them gone, killed if necessary. You need not erase them or their memory, but their living presence in a body must end at once. That can be with a denial of their beliefs, swearing to accept laws of society that are all designed to protect good and thwart evil and no other reason, and by proving they have changed. That is okay, but if they are so die hard as to be as “faithful” as a person of good faith, then they are extremely dangerous because of what they can and will do with their spiritual power.

The reason why people have come to no longer worry about such things, is because for thousands of years, and I mean, long before the time of Christ, those evil things were recognized and banished from all societies, all communities, and all civilization whenever they are found. That’s just the basic requirement of all religions: goodness, truth, and wisdom—never evil.

So what then do we say about Jews? Jews who want me to acknowledge them as a god before myself, Jews who crucified Jesus because they denied themselves of themselves, Jews who deny children themselves of their human body? Jews are nothing to me—non-entities, non-existent, irrelevant, of no importance, no substance, no power, nothing at all. They cannot be acknowledged because of what their claim is, and if they do want to be acknowledged, they can only be evil and thus need to be exterminated.

There is no way they are good if they want to be acknowledged in any way, shape, or form for what that is. That is not theirs, they are not the author, creator, origin, or of any significance to that at all. Jews are nothing; an obsolete idea of ancient violence and mystical evil that persists because people keep hazing each other into their religion with violence and want that suffering to be meaningful even though it never will be.

If someone is claiming to be a representative of that highest divine of non being Jews wrongly want to be acknowledged as, then that is possible, but in no way can such people of any faith accept acknowledgment or responsibility for what that is. They are servants with limited authority, limited power, and limited purpose. The possibilities are limitless, and they can bring about impossibilities, but they, individually have limits in some way. Those are usually defined by doctrine, law, or at the very least are limited by their biological form which applies to all people.

As such those servants need always to be carrying themselves with the dignity of that sacred concept as the most important aspect of their life, and the center of all that they are doing. Other servants of different faiths can cooperate, but if someone is trying to stand in the middle of a representative and that source of divinity, such as what someone alive now as a human being, in a body, making observations with technology and government authority, is trying to do with me. As if I wouldn’t notice all of a sudden a person, a human being, standing in the way of the divine source and trying to block it when there should be total silence, sublime radiance, and pure goodness. There should never be a person in between that and yourself. There never was in my life until the government started forcing themselves upon me in that way after I finished my military enlistment, trying to take over my life as though I were some property or object of theirs and one that is mechanical, simple, and without any human nature at all!

Those vile, god damned beasts know that their sin is unforgivable, intolerable, and beyond reconciliation, but they do not believe in the power that can enforce justice upon them. Why they think 2,000 years of religious warfare around the world and conflicts of that nature suddenly would be totally irrelevant, and people of faith would just abandon why all that happened as though it were all an imagined fairy tale that had no purpose in their daily lives, is a sin of stupidity, vanity, and arrogance of the highest degree. Nobody needs to understand anything about why the evil doers thought that all was meaningless but them who are doing the evil, and that is most definitely not a justification for their foolishness, but it is the extreme stupidity and arrogance of themselves they need to understand before we can move on.

Those people are in the government! In the places that supposedly hire only the most “intelligent” people, and they never considered why history happened? Why Christianity is a religion? Why it is so important to so many people who do not understand the details, specifics, and rigorous theology of its workings? They just imagined that every one of those people must be deluding themselves, and none of them simply know the power and utility of faith, mysticism, and religion in daily life without any need of understanding it. How could they be so arrogant as to project their own inability to comprehend a subject of study as the total inability of all people around the world?

They identify as the person of that divinity—a being for something which has no being— that I said none shall be before myself, because I am not that being and there is quite literally no beings there! I depend on that source for everything in my life, and if anything is in the way, I will do whatever is necessary to remove them, even if it means single handedly raising an entire army on my own as an individual, and laying siege to all the nations of the world and destroying them. The Jew who does that evil to me, and it is always a Jew because they want to be credited for Jesus but do not understand the first thing about Christianity, are putting themselves between me and the source of the divine as though they should be there mediating the power, and expect me to be grateful for what they are interfering with.

They are trolls on a bridge extorting money from citizens of the kingdom, but they do not own the bridge, they just pissed on it. Those primitive, crude creatures can’t think any higher than a beast or animal that marks its territory with piss as the highest proof necessary of their dominance. They are only an obstacle, a nuisance, an inconvenience, a hideous, repulsive, repugnant, and reviled sight.

In their human minds, they think that because they have the ability to think, that all that they think is the way that everything is, as if the phrase “cogito ergo sum” suddenly gives them authority as the creator of all existence like a license to manipulate other people, interfere in their lives, and impose themselves on others without restraint. Their limited understanding is a perversion of the truth of that statement, and why they use that license they believe they have to scheme, steal, and commit endless crimes for their own material gain at the expense of everyone else. That is not okay. Do that and you will be found out and made to suffer when someone punishes you even if they are not the authority you expected.

Their arrogance which they do not understand causes them to take actions as though all other people are just objects, livestock, or beings of their own creation that they imagined into existence. Taking actions as though such a thing were true is far worse than believing it to be true, even if they do not yet understand that is what they are doing. They will be made to understand, and when they do, they shall know pain, and they shall never stop knowing pain.

Hell no they aren’t an authority in my life! I do not think like them or have their inadequate moral standards, nor do I want to, they do not know me, I do not know them, and they are in no way responsible for my decisions, my choices, and my life unless I give them permission, which I have never done for anyone, and never will do. That would be the same as “selling your soul to the devil”. You need to be responsible for yourself at all times, no matter how young, old, or disabled you are. You make mistakes, of course you do, we all do, and that is what the teaching of forgiveness is all about. No matter how severe the mistake is, as long as it was genuinely a mistake and you are sorry for it and learn from it to be better, anything can be forgiven, and I mean anything.

What is most important to receive forgiveness, is not apologizing, it is accepting that you need forgiveness as the gravity of the term implies because the mistake is yours and it is an offense against divinity itself within you, and you need to take responsibility for it. You do not pass it on to others, you accept what you did, when you did it, and if there was injustice, manipulation, corruption, or some other misuses of persuasion to deceive you, that has to be made clear in a court of law. There is no other way to settle that unless the offender approaches the victim directly, explains themselves, and the victim accepts their apology which they do not have to do. If they do not feel like they understand the situation enough, they should demand an investigation and it should be granted by the national or state authority.

So, it doesn’t matter if you are not entirely at fault for a mistake you made, those mistakes are still yours and it is your fault for being in a situation where you would commit a mistake that other people intended you to do and won’t admit their part. You should not have trusted those people, and if you did, you should not continue to trust them, and if you had no say in any of that and they just tried to manipulate you by manipulating your environment, then you cannot trust any of what they moved to get to you. Those things… it is like it is said: better they have a millstone tied around their neck and thrown into the sea than suffer the wrath of causing someone to sin on purpose without them knowing it was a sin. What parent would raise a child for the purpose of seeing them fail? What father would hand his son a serpent when he asked for bread?

If you are accused of something you did not do, such as “threatening the president”, that is one of the most serious concerns in two ways: One, a threat to national security that affects everyone’s safety, including internationally, meaning you put everyone’s lives at risk when you shouldn’t have. Two, it is an accusation of a serious crime, a felony as it is called in the USA, a mortal sin as it is called in religion in comparison to lesser sins, and the very accusation causes suffering, destruction, and devastation to a person’s very real life.

Being accused is one thing, being arrested without confronted of what the accusations are is another which means they must have had some compelling evidence to think you were doing what they thought you were, because if they weren’t, they wasted a lot of our time and money as taxpayers doing something unjust in addition to upturning that person’s life. In other words, you are not arrested like that unless you are almost certainly guilty.

That accusation was false because it was never admitted in court as a legal crime! It was never acknowledged by the justice system as a crime. For those of you who do not know the details of the justice system, one of the first things that happens is that the legal professionals of all parties concerned examine the accusation, the reason for the accusation, and the reality of the situation, and they determine if a crime was actually committed. If it was, then it goes to court under the assumption the accused is innocent, and then their guilt is proven. That is why they need to acknowledge the crime first. You do not want to drag an innocent person into court to endure that ordeal without being certain it is necessary.

If a crime was not committed, then it is dismissed, which would mean rendered non-existent, except that actions were already taken as though a crime had been committed so in history it exists in the government and social record of events. So, there is a dissonance in reality that undermines the integrity of the entire justice system whether you are aware of it or not, which erodes its ability to enforce the law. Those kind of mistakes cannot be tolerated without formal correction because of how threatening of a problem it is— again whether you understand or not, it is a threat to everyone in a society, even if you can’t understand why the exchange of paperwork in court is vitally important.

I think under normal circumstances it isn’t as extreme as my case was, and most people probably just have to explain themselves, which is a reasonable expectation of the burden of citizenship, but what happens if that person loses a lot more than that? What if he loses his car, his most valued personal possessions that are irreplaceable, his place of residence, and years of his life because he was being churned through a hateful justice system. The first month of that was incarcerated and detained in some traumatizingly inhuman conditions, and the next two years with fetters upon him to shackle him within city limits, require him to abstain from alcohol or recreational drugs, provide drug tests upon immediate notice, check in every week under penalty of arrest, and try to get together whatever scraps of his life are left to start over! Then it still doesn’t end… he is watched for the rest of his life like a zoo animal for a crime that never even happened, and certainly not one he committed!

What am I to do then? How can I make friends when I have a government blood hound trailing me wherever I go, watching my every move, screening all of my communications, and interfering in my life like I am some “Sim” in a video game for them to entertain themselves with? Quite frankly… it makes me want to murder, but I restrain myself, and write words. Lethal words that can kill a man or cause him to kill himself.

That is why US citizens have both a right to bear arms, and a right to free speech and press, and why I fight for both with no need for a political party Government cannot be trusted to have total authority of those powers. Historically that has proven true which provoked the founding of the USA, and in the situation involving my life personally, that has proven true again.

In any case, whether or not a crime was committed, a sin was committed, and I don’t mean a religious sin as it pertains to any particular group. I mean a sin of intentional evil that is unacceptable, intolerable, and unjust no matter where it happens. That is proven true by the very fact that I was arrested for a crime that did not happen, and that crime was dismissed because it could not be acknowledged in a court of law due to it having no basis in reality. Meaning, I was obviously innocent and the justice system did its job to prevent a false trial that wastes everyone’s time, however egregious and miserable that process was for me at times while I had to jump through hoops to show that I am a decent, upstanding citizen as I have always been and they had no reason to believe otherwise. I will not take that insult lying down. I will answer it, and I will not do so lightly, because it was not funny.

Now, what is the procedure for judging sins. Who has the authority to do that? We know what happened, but it needs to be investigated. Regardless of sins, isn’t there a crime against destroying a person’s life by making a false accusation against them? Isn’t that called slander? That is a crime and so far I know of two people who caused significant harm to my life intentionally that accounts to murder with the exception of a dead body. Intent to murder by depriving me of life, liberty, and happiness, and effective in doing that by causing irrevocable psychological pain to an already damaged state of mental health from having undiagnosed autism that left me a total wreck when I was finished with military service.

Maybe that wouldn’t have been so bad, but all that extra pain on top of it, made it a severe problem that I can barely live with now because of the suffering and despair I am left with through no fault of my own. I did not make a mistake, and I did not commit the sin, so I cannot accept the blame or responsibility for it, despite how much people have been trying to force me to. It is not possible for me to accept guilt for a sin that is not even remotely close to the truth as mine and in fact is total destruction, hostility, and murder to who I am without that sin.

Maybe now, hopefully, the divine non-being will send the mercy I am giving with all this work through the thick skull of that person who is trying to stand between that divine source and me. They do not even have the smallest chance to be able to do that. They are like an annoying insect buzzing around my person in real life interfering with anyone who comes close while I try to eke out a living as a writer and small business owner. How can I do business with such an evil nuisance unlawfully assigned to me by government authority!? There is one in particular with the most invasive access to my private life, but a whole host of other insects like a cloud of pests that prevent all business.

They can monitor technology and cyberspace, sure, but how do you know what the sunlight brings into my life when I step outside? How do you know what the wind inspires my spirit with when I feel it? How do you have any power to know or access all that happens in the universe beyond the ability of men to control. If you could control the weather, why are there people elsewhere who are hungry? If you can provide me love, why do I not feel love from you, and in fact feel the most hateful, evil, hostility? You don’t need to be watching me, and I don’t want you to, so why are you being cruel to me? Is that what you were ordered to do?

Who could possibly give an order over someone’s own personal decisions for how to conduct yourself in life? Not even in the military can they do that, so who then? Is there some divine revelation that isn’t public that has assigned you as a demon to harass my innocence? If there is I certainly want to know so I can end the life of the Devil in the flesh who gave you that order, because that man is not a god, deity, or supernatural at all. He is a fool more than he is a man, but he is a man and nothing more just the same.

He will be made to die as the lowest, worst, and most hated criminal for what he has done. I don’t care if he is my own father, mother, brother, sister, or anyone who you think I should care about, they will be made to die for the worst possible thing a human can do, and I will not regret making sure it happens, because they did it to me. Although I don’t expect most people to understand, I am the one showing mercy by demanding judgment under the laws of human beings. Yet, if my mercy which I offer is good enough for the Christ by being mercy itself is continued to be rejected by the USA, what then will the Christ say about them who turn up their noses at it as though they are better than that?

Do I curse “God” for the suffering in my life? Do I blame the divine for the miserable life I was given? Do I lash out in arrogance, cursing all of creation, existence, and goodness because of what “God” did to me? No… I sing the glory, praise, and adoration of all that exists and is good. If I curse human beings, it is not because I hate the divine, it is because I love what the divine has made humans in the image of divinity to be. So why then should you think the mercy I offer is not good enough? That mercy is so simple and easy of a thing compared to the mercy I have accepted just by being alive in the body that I am when I was born into a family of pure hate, who did everything they could to make my life a living hell since the day I was born.

Honestly, I don’t know how a human being could have it worse than that, but if you have any ideas or suggestions, please say so. I’m an author of fantasy who prides himself on having a talented and capable imagination I worked very hard on cultivating as one of the tools of the trade that makes my work among that of the best, and I can’t think of something worse than that. You’d probably help me be at ease knowing things aren’t as bad as they could be, and although I do know that, I also know that they have never been worse. Believe me when I say that I, more than anyone else in all of time, do not want life to ever get worse than the way it is right now.

Why are you trying to get in the way of the divine source by pretending to be a divine being, when you know you are not? Do you realize yet, that in no way are you ever going to fool me into believing such a thing because of how close I am to it as the only good thing I have ever known, and that being NOTHING.

The Justice system is the one that tried to enforce corrupt, unjust evil upon me. How can I bring the justice system against itself and not ruin all of my efforts at achieving justice? No… I will not do such a useless and foolish thing. I will stir the wrath of the public body into a frenzy, and the axe of Paul Bunyon is going to chop down the tree of government and turn it into a pyre for burning an evil wizard alive at the stake.

Let’s burn the man alive and record his screams of agony and in view of the public as he endures his “trial by fire”. I am not joking. Then, let us play that video and recording at every high school graduation in the nation to remind every citizen of the consequences our government leaders can suffer if they fail at their job with corruption, idiocy, or both. Let’s make sure everyone in the world sees it so they have a visceral, terrifying reminder of what was done to ensure that evil will not ever be tolerated in civilization.

Who will love you?

“We accept the love we deserve.”

The Perks of Being a Wallflower, by Stephen Chbosky

I obtained that novel along with several other seemingly random novels from a particularly impressive used bookstore while perusing my favorite section. That was some time ago when I was a younger man, and that quote stuck with me as something profound which I did not fully understand. I contemplated it for a while, ended up no further than where I began, and then filed it away for an indeterminate amount of time.

Once in a blue moon that quote would come to mind if my thoughts wandered near the subject and I would contemplate it again. Still I found myself unsure of any complete meaning. Was it a statement about a person’s psychological quality, and if so was it a state of awareness as consciousness, or unconsciousness? Could it then be categorized like a personality type indicator or horoscope matching tool? Possibly maybe, but that didn’t feel even remotely good enough for me to accept as adequate for the depth of the meaning that the words implied, but it was a start.

What kept me wondering was the concept of “deserving” something. As in being truly worthy of a certain blessing and more; feeling worthy of a certain blessing. If you did not feel like you were good enough for your partner or your partner for you, then it simply wouldn’t work, but how could you measure any standard of value when it comes to something as mysterious and complex as love?

How could you even make a claim for any type of love without being arrogant and prideful about deserving that which is supernatural and divine? Something that is totally beyond our human worth as a divine blessing is not something any of us deserve, but we know we are granted it anyway. At least, we do if we are Catholics. “For I am not worthy to enter under your roof, but only say the word and my soul shall be healed,” is the expression I learned that reinforced that humility most clearly. But that is divine love of the highest order beyond what any person can give as human beings, and it is far greater than romance, marriage, and anything we humans do.

So then what am I to think about the maidens I feel so strongly in love with from time to time who evoke such strong passionate love from me as that which I would lay down my life for if necessary. If the love which I feel comes from that highest divine source of truth and goodness as both something I receive to evoke my passion and something I express when that superhuman love overwhelms what I am capable of feeling and bursts forth from me in words and emotions, then why is it always consumed by an empty void of nothingness and never returned?

Surely they do not love me, and they in fact hate me, so I’d better keep my distance because that is not what I deserve in return for what I felt. Thus my journey went on and continues to go on and it is no trouble to keep going. The spiritual return is mysterious, but also the words, messages, and simple human communication of a basic social order that is as fundamental to our existence as to be known when we are small children, was absent.

It must truly be hate from those people, but I couldn’t imagine what reason they would have to hate me. It’s not like I was coveting them with lewd thoughts and being perverted with desire. It was totally unnatural and did not make sense with the facts of reality that I came to know as true from a multitude of sources I observed in the natural world.

While they seemed an unnatural sentiment of hate, I never suspected anything evil about those people, even if it was cold heartedness resulting from their willingness to shut off their humanity and extinguish the light of their soul, rejecting all that is divine, true, and good about life. A lot of people do that so it isn’t all that unusual, even if I find it baffling why anyone would think that profitable or beneficial to anyone including themselves. It likely makes life miserable for them too, and I wish I could help but there is nothing I can do when they reject me not as a lover, but as a human being. A neighbor, a friend, a man, and a person that is not only untouchable, but not to be given a word at all, even that of a rebuke which would have been less insulting.

Any form of human identity they deny me to this day by ignoring all communications of expressed love that I am all but certain they are aware of because of the truth that inspired the experience being so powerful and clear with their resonance. What can I do? You cannot force a person to love you. So I move on and don’t look back. Maybe I will see them again, maybe not. Either way, it is enough to maintain my own soul that I cannot afford to martyr myself needlessly for some random stranger who does not deserve such a thing because it would do them no good and cost me everything. It is insanely evil that they would even imply that I should humiliate myself for them only and not all of humanity, and it is actually quite easy to leave them behind because of how horrible maidens reveal themselves to be when I realize that is what they want.

I am convinced that 99.9 percent of maidens worldwide are of no value as maidens because they espouse evil with such arrogant demands of self-importance as to test a man by requiring him to lay down his life first. In case they didn’t know, that happened once and for all a long time ago, and I don’t believe it was even necessary, but it doesn’t matter what I believe, because it happened whether necessary or not, and I sure as hell wouldn’t do it under any circumstances, not even his. I would have kicked Judaism to the curb and learned wisdom instead.

You cannot buy good with an evil exchange. Sorry, Christians, but that is a fact. Jesus’ so called “sacrifice” is not enough for people like me who have higher moral standards and more self-respect than that, and there is no way, even with his YHWH in the fullness of what is implied, that he could equate to who I am with the highest divine because he was in fact Jewish and dying for those people was the total, complete, and whole reason why he did what he did, and it had nothing to do with me and was in fact a pure expression of hatred toward me.

Anyway, a maiden who cannot use human language is not worthy of human love. So, keep that in mind if you ever spill your heart out and never get a response. They do not deserve you because they do not meet the minimum standard of human decency that applies to all people. It may be unpleasant to be insulted with such an offensive gesture, but the shame is theirs for doing it, not yours.

So it occurred to me just a little while ago what it means to accept the love you deserve, and not because it applies to me. It occurred to me because of how it applies to the maidens I love.

They need to be comfortable with, willing, and able to receive the highest divine presence through their body as normal everyday life. They need to in practice be able to commune with and for female divinity. Not take on airs about it, but be totally comfortable with the presence of the Goddess working through them the same way I am with male divinity. Just because people mock me, deny me, hate me, abuse me, discriminate against me, and do all manner of injustice doesn’t make it any less true that I do what I do with highest divine purpose and I know what that is more than anyone.

Don’t get too carried away with that explanation because this is about human love and marriage, which implies… doing it.

For some reason it became culturally appropriate in the USA to deride masculinity by conveying the perception that it is humiliating for a man to want to pleasure a woman. That is the dumbest thing in the world, in my opinion, and I don’t know why anyone believes that nonsense. It is often conveyed as “putting the pussy on the pedestal”. Such crude remarks as that are not welcome in conversations about love.

If you refer to a woman as simply her reproductive part in life, you do her great insult, which is why the word “cunt” is used for that. Same thing with men being called “dicks”. That is much more socially accepted, but it is not any less insulting.

So yes, the love I have to give to a maiden is for that of a Goddess. Not any personalities of Paganism or idols of any variety either. The real deal highest divine wisdom known to Gnostics as Sophia, but she is not a person, she is the manifestation of the wisdom that is the highest divine, and that is far greater than any person can be.

If you will contemplate these things, check your human concepts at the door and do not try to apply human relationships to these divine concepts. We are too far along in human progress to tolerate such misleading ignorance. There are no mothers, fathers, sons, daughters, husbands, brides, children, brothers, sisters, or anything of that type up there, so don’t you dare try to carry your human perversion up to where they are not welcome. You won’t be able to first of all, but you will also offend the persons who are far above that and still infinitely below what I am referring to.

Do you know how I came to this conclusion? By watching pornography. I do so not out of any perversion or evil, but truly out of love, and that is simply what is available to people like me in this age in the desolate hellhole they call the USA. There is no true love anymore except that which is publicly occurring in media as a lot of people experience it with the actresses. It is cheap love, and it is not the preferred way, but it is all that is left after centuries of systematic extermination of Gentiles.

It is not cheap for the people who provide the conduit for true divinity to express of love, not for the maiden who is unfortunately left with no other choice but to use her body, nor myself as a man who has no other choice but to use the Word which is an insanely heavy burden no man should be expected to be able to carry. The people who are able to do that do so by paying a price that cannot be valued or estimated because it is so great. I know that by experience, but also because I study the subject of divinity and spirituality as necessary for my profession applying divinity and spirituality to entertainment, and thus have come to understand how it happens.

I am in fact doing all that I can to set the world as it should be, but I am only a man, and a single one at that. Just because the highest divine communicates through me and is always present with me, doesn’t mean I can just snap my fingers and magic the world perfect. I am limited to the same human condition as everyone else and if you ever expect me to do something divine for you, imagine asking yourself first.

So, hopefully the maiden who swoops in is the love of my life I most hope for, because she knows she deserves the treatment for a goddess, from a god, because that is what we give to the public. A god’s gift and blessings of pleasure are not only bodily. They are far more significant in the spiritual plane where gods and goddesses dwell.

So, the conclusion is this:

The love a person deserves is directly correlated to their commitment to true love. People like me and the love of my life give all of ourselves to it and don’t look back or regret it. We are 100 true love, and that is why divinity favors us, because true love is the highest divine.

As I mentioned before, that is a great sacrifice, but it is definitely worth it. There is literally infinite highest divine, so it’s not only limited to individuals such as the love of my life maiden of ultimate loveliness with the most sacred honey yum yum most divine, or the humble savage of irresistible nobility and charm, savior of all civilization, destroyer of evil as myself. There is more than enough for everybody to have more than enough. So, there is no need to fight, scheme, or do any of the foolishness people do for finite resources because this one is infinite, freely available, and it is not for humans to decide how it is distributed with the exception of formal, doctrinal religion, or mystery school.

That’s all I will write about that for now.