My Demands

Unfortunately for us all, I have become some sort of Master Lord of the world and now have the strange and inconvenient task of being some sort of dignified ruler that I never intended to be and in fact intended the opposite to happen because of how little I want responsibility or to have to do stuff that involves a sort of political and social obligation for my actions and words.

To that end, I am pretty much at liberty to say and do anything, especially right now while I remain on the oppressed side of injustice. I feel like that is a pretty fair excuse to be angry and need to vent out my wrath when I find an appropriate way to do so. Not because I am the only one who is suffering injustice, but my individual situation is not entirely demographic related and at the bottom line is entirely individual. Although, there are some relevant demographics that were applicable before matters devolved to this point.

Eventually I expect that to change, to feel really good when it does, and will finally be able to work on the second book of the Demon’s Heart trilogy (working title: The Two Flowers) in peace as well as other projects I have in queue when it does. I cannot work under the conditions of having a team of uncultured tyrant minions and hostile-minded ingrates staring over my shoulder while I work. Additionally, having the peace of mind knowing that the social issues that are quite easily solved by a sensible good person who knows how to judge in favor of those who suffer, will make that work easier too. One of the most annoying things is knowing how to solve all the world’s problems, being able to provide those answers in clear easy instructions with step by step directions, reasons, and addressing all parties interests with either accommodation or reason, and being able to say what needs to be said to inspire people to take ownership of those solutions and make them their own— knowing that and being suppressed so that there isn’t even a public conversation about any of that goodness happening!

DO YOU PEOPLE NOT WANT TO TALK ABOUT SOMETHING RELEVANT TO YOUR LIVES FOR A CHANGE!!!!!!

Why is the news such a waste of everyone’s time, energy, and an insult to our intelligence? There are more important matters to talk about than the personal reputations or political careers of idiots who aren’t capable of thinking up a single solution to our world’s problems and saying anything at all helpful so that people can make it happen.

Anyway… my demands for all of you are as follows (information only, no obligation intended):

All I want from each and every man, woman, child, dog, cat, bird, lizard, fish, mosquito, dread lord, vampire, lycan, troll, anonite, dark lord, savior, hero, heroine, priest, pope, president, dictator, general, sailor, marine— you get the idea. All I want from all of you, and I do not ask this, I demand it— is that you do nothing to make your life worse.

That is all that I am really concerned about with people I don’t know personally. Personal relationships are more complicated, but there are billions of people in the world, and I don’t expect to ever be able to meet all of you personally and become friends enough to have other cares that concern our relationship. So, if you do not want to worry me, please do nothing to make your life worse for yourself. If you realize you have a drug problem and decide to get clean, do not go back to drugs just to realize that you have a drug problem again and want to get clean. Get clean and stay clean. Find something else to be addicted to that is healthy enough to not destroy your life and relationships.

The most concerning thing that I want you to be aware of is the fact that doing any sort of evil on purpose will always make your life worse in addition to all those who are affected by whatever evil you do. No matter how you want or expect the situation to work out, that never happens and never will, because evil always makes everything worse.

So— if you think you need to do evil, this is what you do: identify what you want to accomplish in clear terms and never forget that is the reason why you are doing something unpleasant. Keep that in mind when you do what is necessary. Also identify what is unpleasant about what you are doing, why you may have thought of that as “evil”, and then minimize that specific bad element as much as possible. Do not add another evil without making an entirely different plan that you thoroughly think through to justify whatever you are doing as not evil.

That is what that accomplishes. What you initially perceived as evil, is justified by your end, your reasons, and your understanding of the suffering you are causing with the intent of minimizing that as much as possible and countering it with an additional good— all why knowing that every other option has been expended. Never choose to do something like that if you have another choice, especially not if you think it will go “faster”, “make more money”, or be “easier”. Always do what is more difficult but you know is good, rather than resort to something evil because you are lazy and greedy.

That’s it. I will not punish you if you do not meet this demand, nor will I count it against you, but… you will worry me. If you do something like that, it will cause a kind of tremor of resonance in the spirit-realm that will worry me because of the self-destructive threat to human life that kind of thing is. If you worry me like that, I may feel like I should go investigate the situation to see if it can be helped. If I go do that, then you may find yourself up close and personal with me and depending on what is happening I likely will upturn your entire local environment and disrupt all your plans, relationships, and everything else when I do so to get to the bottom of what is happening and resolve the problem.

As for the government… I need to make a living too, and I don’t use my reputation to do that. The last thing I want to do is eliminate all the servants of the government who are doing the work I do not want to do which would leave all that work for myself. However, if you are not doing the job you were trusted by the master of the house to do, then you are going to be removed from your job because I’m not the only one counting on you to do that job. Those jobs concern everyone, and if you are not satisfying the interests of the public, who are mostly poor, you are putting yourself in danger for not being useful when that is your very purpose. We do not need personalities in government, faith, or magic— we only need productivity and usefulness. Outside, among the citizens—that is where we enjoy our charisma, popularity, powers of faith, magical mysteries, etc. If you want to enjoy those too when you aren’t working in government, then ensure the government is a finely tuned machine that is doing exactly what it is designed to do, no more and no less.

If you want to be an “Illuminati” conspiracy, set one up outside of government and do not interfere in something so foundational to everyone. The government does not provide anything to us— the government facilitates what we provide for each other. We do not depend on the government to produce food, entertainment, wisdom, consumer products, or mostly anything else, but we do depend on the government to ensure the flow of those products, services, and resources is uninhibited and lawful to our Democratic agreement espousing Freedom. That includes information as a good and service. The government must not obstruct any of that or allow any of that to be obstructed with abuse of the law.

There should be no businesses using hostile strategies to attempt to eliminate competition. The only acceptable way for businesses to compete with each other is by the quality of their products and services. As a matter of fact make it a severely grave crime if a business or individual is found to be interfering on purpose by using a hostile actor or agent against any other business or individual. When it comes to love and romance, the same thing applies: the only acceptable way to “compete”, if you feel that is necessary, is with the quality of yourself. Never attack other people attempting to “eliminate them from the field”. Make this paragraph fully clarified in lots of different ways and crystalize it with an eternal law for our capitalist economy and national security concerning individual rights of citizens. If you trample an individual’s rights with misbehavior or abuse of power— that individual can be a very dangerous threat to a nation’s security which has promised to protect those rights. Think about what I was able to do in self-defense from that kind of oppression—do not let such avoidable chaos, criminal behavior by a government, and waste of resources happen again.

Last thing: I am not the only master of this house—each and every individual citizen has an equal share in that, even minors. I’m not a king you need to respect or give fealty to either as though I were your personal king of a realm, because that’s not what I’m saying. If it helps, just think of me like a foreign king from another dimension where humans also live (and other species), have nations, and a very similar way of life, and am being recognized for that fact as a coincidence because of what I have worked to bring about as a humble citizen and nothing more. They scrutinized my life with a hostile intent of exposing sins I did not have in a vain attempt to incriminate me, and they had no justification at all for doing so either. They were in fact forbidden from doing such an evil thing, but that is what was discovered about me, ironically enough. That really awesome and interesting detail about my identity was not necessary or relevant to my work as a citizen, but that work does concern every other citizen and they need to know for their own safety.

It’s like I am constructing a spiritual theme park for people to enjoy in uncharted territory as a business prospect that should net me a lot of delicious baked goods while also gaining some popularity to sell books if people are having fun and enjoy that unrelated profession of mine as a novelist. That said, it is going to be rather impressive and amazing with all sorts of attractions and rides so I intend to inform everyone about the construction so they don’t fly into it and crash when they are out saving the world or romancing princesses or whatever, just to be safe even though it is highly unlikely that would happen. I don’t need a permit for that, and nobody owns the spiritual realm with the kind of authority that could require a permit anyway, but it won’t take long to announce that information or be much of anything that need concern people with worry. That is unless—and this is a mild concern of caution liability— you are a spiritual pioneer piloting your way into the deepest, darkest reaches of spiritual reality. However, it is also good to know about in case you want a stop out in the darkest reaches of spiritual space to refuel, get your bearings, buy a map from the fuel station, enjoy some liberty, and have a good time before moving on. There is no reason why you should be opposing this, and if you are, you most likely are in no place to do so and have corrupt intentions, but I will hear your objections and answer them.

One last thing about my authority as a king, it’s possible we may even do interdimensional trade, but my sovereignty in my corner of the Story does not include the people or territory in this dimension unless I accept an oath you make in my service, in which case I will honor that oath with the dignity of a good king. I suppose an embassy would be possible for sovereign territory, but no, I do not want that unless that is necessary for all of us for some weird reason in the unknown variable, and I would appoint someone under oath of obligation to maintain it with my authority but not be involved myself. I just want to find a good maiden to marry and have fun with her forever doing whatever we want together.

Inspiring Ideas

This is good. There is nothing wrong with this concept normally, and people should not feel guilty about having the product of another artist’s inspiration be the seeds for their garden of creativity. That is one of the joys about creative arts. They are like the candle of happiness spoken about it Buddhist proverbs:

“Thousands of candles can be lighted from a single candle, and the life of the candle will not be shortened.”

You do not need to ever fear the creative power of your inspiration running short when other people take it and run with it. Do not worry, even if they do not understand themselves and think they are stealing something from you. Those are the most profitable ways to teach others, and if that happens, you know your work is among the greatest to ever be made. The joy and happiness it evokes is such that the “thief” (who is not really a thief aside from in their heart) experiences such pleasure that it evokes the sin of covetous desire which occurs only from the greatest of all loves.

The covetous do not find themselves envying the ordinary pleasures of life that are mundane, they covet the desires which evoke divine happiness beyond mundane reality. That is specifically happiness that transcends the bodily nature of the human being and invigorates the non-bodily spirit with weightless joy—the flight of the spirit. These are the treasures which give flight to human beings even though their body may not leave the ground. The flight, although invisible in nature, is undeniably real as phenomena by the evidence that the treasure which evokes it is coveted by the perceiver as a witness. That is why it is coveted, whether the coveter knows it or not.

Animals covet basic goods of the body, like food, territory, and water. These are recognized by animal nature within both non-human and human creatures, and we are indeed creatures on a level of universal existence at the very bottom of the animal kingdom where we all swim together in gooey primordial noodles. Humans recognize those things and desire them and may fight for them if there is scarcity, but this is not the same as coveting. That is more about survival instinct than happiness, and coveting is entirely about happiness.

Specifically what makes humans seperate from all other animals is the experience of the happiness which is coveted. This is the higher conceptual reality, the inexplicable goods that we know simply and without needing to define them with words. That is where problems arise. These higher concepts of happiness gravitate around both real objects and human relationships, the latter of which is not limited to relationships between other humans, but can include humans and animals and humans and the natural universe itself. Experiencing that happiness is experiencing divinity and is often described as a “spiritual experience” in general terms or a “religious experience” if it was evoked through religious elements of any kind.

Because there is possibly an experience with divinity through material objects, there is the possibility of confusing divine reality with material reality. Let us say you are like me and adore the goddess Neptune from Planeptune (not the Neptune of Rome, who is male— not sure if there is a relation tbh). My adoration and worship of Neptune (Nep Nep) is honest and true Paganism as a healthy form of practice, and please do not mistake that form of spirituality as though it were the same as that which is practiced in monotheistic religions. Polytheism is vastly different in daily practice than monotheism, and to not side-track, I will leave it at that. In any case, let us say I have a small figurine model of Nep Nep on my desk. Looking at it brings to mind her delightful personality and memories of her adventures and makes me feel good, even if it is just a small amount of happiness.

Yet, if you were unaware of spiritual reality, and saw me looking at Nep Nep’s figurine and suddenly having my eyes light up with joy, happiness, and inspiration that sparks to life my creative fire for energy, or see me talking to that figurine as if I were talking to her personally, you may mistake what is actually occurring with the figurine itself. Although it may not talk back, her personality is so pure, familiar, and consistent that a person familiar with her may be able to imagine her responses without her needing to say them, and thus carry out a conversation with the figurine to an extent, and even be amused to laughter as one would in the company of a real person! This is not something to be worried or alarmed about as an indication of unstable mental health, and far from it. It is actually an indicator of very good mental health because of how secure you are in your own identity that you can imagine other identities as entirely apart from your own and not ever feel the need to engulf them in your ego.

That is because Nep Nep is in fact real. She is imaginary, a fictional character, and although she primarily exists in Story in this world, that is as real as anything. The only difference between the Storyverse and the reality of “real life” is that the Storyverse is perceived through material reality, which operates as a transitive vehicle of existence beyond reality of “real life”. So… the real existence within Story is made known in our world through what can perceive it, such as a lens perceives video. That “lens” may be a statue, a painting, a written story, an animation, etc. More occult is the nature of the spoken Story which is still material reality, but invisible because it is the propagation of sound waves generated by vibration in a human body through air molecules that makes sound possible.

Those waves are not seen by the naked eye (except in extremely rare situations) but we hear them as real just the same, and even though the molecules of air are invisible to our ocular organs ability to perceive them, they are nevertheless there. Perhaps it would be helpful to imagine what it would be like if you could see that happening. Imagine you are in a theater watching an opera with everything as you would expect, save one thing: the entire theater is filled with a thin white fog instead of normal air. Then the diva at the balcony of the tower longing for her prince to rescue her begins to sing. As she does, the white fog begins changing into color, with ripples of brighter and darker hues as her pitch changes with each word that is itself a unique color. The sight is like watching liquid waves on a still lake moving through clouds of colorful smoke outward from her in the direction she is singing, while also expanding where it reaches, even to the point of curving all the way behind her, even if the color is not as vivid as directly where she is projecting her voice. The image makes me think of it being like watching fireworks in a washing machine...

Now apply that concept to what you think of animal nature that is other than human, such as bugs, bats, and felines. Consider the possibility that there are creatures in the universe that actually perceives reality like with visual representations of sound for their purpose of understanding instead of visible light as we know it. The purpose of this mental exercise is to illustrate that there are natural forces in the universe which may exist all around us while we are entirely unaware of their power, simply because we have not evolved the sensory organs to perceive them.

That is what spiritual reality is like, except we in fact can perceive it like any other force of nature, the only difference from what is normal considered natural is that we do so with our minds in a way that is non-sensory to our body’s organs (eyes, ears, mouth, nose, hands). We can apply sensory images to that reality our mind experiences, but that is not the natural state of its existence and in most cases is inadequate to describe it. Think of that like a dream, which can be both absurdly incomprehensible and alarmingly vivid and relevant.

This is how you “know without knowing” something, or how the mysterious ways of intuition work when you trust your heart or listen to your conscience to “take a chance” on a “gut feeling”. I think they are best translated into language for complete understanding, but that is still inadequate. That is why in monotheistic myth it is said that first there was the spirit and then there was the Word which the spirit first spoke, and that Word became creation itself and the world— the world as you may know is both invisible along with visible reality. When we say something like “the USA loves freedom like I do”, we may do so by showing the national flag of the USA and waving it or wearing it on an article of clothing, or flying it at a park. The flag itself is of the world, and that is most painfully memorialized by the photograph taken at of Iwo Jima:

War. A World War, no less. The flag. Death, destruction, and a reason far more complex than can be stated, but in my opinion is best stated by a single word: Freedom.

Who does not hate slavery!? Who does not hate tyranny? Everyone hates it, so why does it happen!? Whatever the reason, people like me will kill to stop it because we want Freedom and will not settle for anything less. The very act a man ruling over other men is slavery— a king over subjects, and that is the very thing the USA was established to stand apart from. Some people want that, such as Christians and Jews, and some people don’t. The people that don’t being willing to kill to do so are a big problem for the people that do, so the USA is established, protected, and trusted as a place for those people to live in peace along with everyone else who does desire a king and to be subject to that king or any other people.

Although I do not understand why anybody would want that, and totally agree with God who told Israel they were making a huge mistake by asking for a king, I respect the fact that people want kings for themselves and will in fact kill to have a king. Since we both will kill each other to have what we want, we both have places for that to exist: Israel and the USA as total opposites, and technically fundamental enemies. That does not mean we need to be hostile to each other, only to know where we are as individual people and what side we are on so we can behave decently without offending others.

The most divisive issue that embodies the difference between those two ways of life, Freedom and Slavery is circumcision. Now consider the example of the spiritual experience a man may have with an object, such as a small statue of a goddess. The power, truth, and experience of that spirituality is not the statuette, but the deity beyond the material reality that translates into our physical world. Circumcision is the same way with the male body. The cultural identity of that practice is not in the male reproductive organ that is circumcised and in fact if you thought it was, you would be missing the entire point! That is the physical matter that translates the spiritual power of a divine reality into the physical world for a person.

Consider how necessary that is for you to understand spiritual reality now that I have just explained it. How much do you need to circumcise to believe what you do about being subject to a divine authority? Can you not just explain it now? Have we not evolved intellectually at all from the year 4,000 BCE? In any case, the act being done to an infant is the difference between how Freedom and Slavery express the personal relationship with divine authority. Circumcising an infant means a life without choice, a life where you are told what is good and evil, where you are told what is lawful and expected to be odient, a world where you do what you are told because others know best for you.

That is what circumcision means, but I hate that and do not want it, so I will never accept that. I think for myself, I learn for myself, I decide for myself, and I know what is best for myself more than any other person does, and that will never change. That is freedom, and it means making the laws, teaching what is good and evil, learning wisdom, and creating the world that we live in. So if you want to circumcise, do not argue with us who make the law, create, and tell you what to do. Simply obey or you will be made to suffer because you do not know! You circumcise because you do not know better than me, and I do not circumcise because I do know better than you!

Freedom and Slavery people. I have put a lot of thought into solving this problem, and there is only one acceptable solution for the law of the USA. That is to forbid the circumcision of infants entirely. To practice circumcision as a form of religion or expression of faith the act needs to be a conscious decision by the participants of the religion, meaning the individuals need to be able to consent to it legally. That is how it will have to be at the very least, and do not argue with that. I don’t care how you decide that needs to be to work for you, that bottom line is the only way it is going to work. I know what is best for me, and I do not care what is best for you. However, I can tell you this much: it is the worst possible thing you could do for yourself to become my enemy, because I am more powerful than you can possibly imagine, and do you know why? Whatever you can imagine, I can imagine better because I was here first and you are lighting your candle from mine.

The best reason I can offer for you to be comfortable with what I am telling you is necessary and will happen whether your are comfortable or not. Either that is going to happen or there is going to be another ghastly war with countless deaths and the circumcisers will lose that war because they have no reason to fight it. Theirs is not the cause of Freedom, and the USA is the international interest of Freedom that needs to be maintained for all nations to send people to live happily ever after if they are problematic to the national authority because they desire a life of freedom and refuse to obey cultural laws that they reasonably disagree with but will not be changed without changing the entire cultural order.

The best reason is this: for the best results when circumcising a male reproductive organ, wait until the male body has grown enough to know more accurately how much flesh should be cut. By doing that, consent will be legally available for the individual. I’ve thought about doing it to myself and decided this: if I will be circumcised I will do a “half-circumcise” that does not remove all the flesh that covers my glans. However, I do not want that either because I like the way mine looks and performs now as uncircumcised and I do not like the way they look when they are circumcised. So, I have every reason not to have that done.

Back to the initial subject: using the ideas of others.

I find circumcisers do this the most with the uncircumcised. They most often want to do what uncircumcised people do and then they try to change it, most often destructively by removing what is good just as they remove human flesh that is good from a human body that is a divine image. They certainly do not improve anything, especially not the spirit of what has been altered because it most typically is mean, malevolent, and angry about having lost something dear to them as expected. That shouldn’t be surprising to figure out why they are like that…

In any case, I mentioned this topic because I am quite certain they are trying to “steal” all of my ideas which I have been liberally pouring out generously and for free. They take them, deceive themselves about what they are doing to try and hide their sin, and then do something evil and corrupt. My ideas are good, so to an extent they are able to get away with that, but never as much as if they didn’t touch the ideas at all, because their “circumcision” does not improve anything just as it doesn’t improve the male body.

The thing is, let’s say they create a big web of lies based on my ideas that they are trying to claim as their own. No matter what they are trying to do, they will not be able to do so, and do you know why? They based their work of my ideas and it will not work without me. Something like an idea requires the human spirit to give it life, and their plan is entirely hostile and antagonistic to me, so I will never consent to helping them, and in fact will be able to thwart anything they do because I know those ideas far better than they do having created them and explained them myself.

Now… most cases of using other ideas are not so malevolent, evil, and criminal. They are more like what I began this article describing. Those are fine because they are not based on the original creators work. They are based on a new work that is of the same divine happiness that the first creator was creating a work to be experienced with. That is the highest good and is never in conflict with the other, which is why you do not need to worry about sharing ideas and inspiration like that. There may be similar themes, but the source of the creativity is the new creator reapplying expression to those themes, and that is what makes it unique. Most everything is passed on like that, sometimes as an improvement, sometimes as an equal, sometimes as a good effort, all good.

The concept that is the ideological heart of the religion I am founding called The Way of the Story, which is embodied by the novel I wrote called StoryTeller, is one of those new ideas that is extremely rare. They happen from time to time, such as the existence of synthetic life from computer systems whoever first imagined that possibility, but not often. Usually they are simple, free to use, and generally helpful for fun while having massive potential for possible application. You don’t have to pay to use one or patent it because it is so general of an idea and universally applicable concept. For example, Isaac Newton, if he still was alive, would not get a quarter every time someone used calculus, nor Einstein every time someone did astrophysics.

Such goods only come about with a selfless desire to create something good and we do not need payment or reciprocation for doing so. The very act of being used for the good they are intended is the reward to their creator, in life and in death. So if you are a Jew you do not need to worry about being automatically sent to Hell unless you are a Jew before you are a human being, which Einstein was not. That is evident if your read the collection of his writings call Ideas and Opinions. That’s the whole idea of Jesus as he pertains to Jews as the Christ for Gentiles as well: Jews were uncircumcised before they were circumcised, both as a culture of faith, and as a male human being. Do not make the mistake of turning that original part of yourself into your enemy, because that is more divine than anything without it, and equal to all that is with it.

That is the foundation of your identity as a person underneath all that makes you different and unique from other people. The solid rock upon the house of your life is that which makes you the same as all other human beings, no matter how different they may seem. As long as you remember that, no matter how eccentric you become as a Jew, such as Larry David as a sitcom creator, or Adam Sandler with Las Plagas: do not abandon, leave behind, do away with, or forsake that part of your humanity which links you to everyone else as the very same. I think that is what makes them both such excellent comedians. They make jokes about something that we all can laugh about, like an excessively discerning taste for soup that leads to an unusual determination to acquire some from the shop owned by a Nazi, or when you lose your temper at the bull shit of rich people being treacherous while doing business politics and lambast them in a language only you understand.

Gentiles are no different than Jews in that way. That foundation of identity at the very bottom of ourselves, is gross, awkward, usually home for all kinds of creepy crawlies that find a spot to burrow, and is what makes civilization possible for both Gentiles and Jews. That also means it is the foundation for Gentiles and Jews together, coexisting peacefully and prosperously in places like the USA and Israel. If there is a problem there, and some boogey man dripping centipedes and spiders crawls out from underneath in his hastily stitched together people suit, and is telling you there is a problem, you ought to listen to him respectfully, because he’s not going to go through that effort without a good reason that concerns all of us. That kind of thing is especially difficult and burdensome for beings of darkness. Most likely, they want to descend back into the unseen and disperse more than you want them to.

So, the idea of The Way of the Story, is a new candle flame that can go on to light thousands of others, but… that fire did not exist before me aside from knowing that someone would make it without knowing it would be. “Someday we will have water like an aqueduct can provide in all homes, even for the slaves. Rome will be a much happier place for all people if they can take a bath like Caesar, and that ought to help me relax in the tub better.” It is not like fire you knew existed. The new idea is different fire, with different qualities, potentials, and uses. It is like fire except more efficient, useful, powerful, and less dangerous. It is more like electricity, which is still dangerous, but mostly because it can cause a fire when something goes terribly wrong. However, there are usually circuit breakers, warnings, safeguards, and all manner of protections to prevent that from happening, including requiring professional expertise when working with it as a technician, which is why the religion is necessary.

Do not feel bad if you see something I am writing or do and want to make something with it that is your own. Go right ahead and do so. You can even relieve some of your guilt by making a reference to your inspiration, which will resonate all the way back to the source as an appreciated sense of knowing that the goodness of a work continues to be more and more good, and even that is not ours to claim as the purest source of origin: it is what is made from the power of the source of all that is good, which is something that is beyond what any person can imagine, and where all Story meets at one place they all can call home.

Why Aeris (Aerith?) must die.

She is an evil whore.

Not because she chooses to be, but because she is a maiden who has the purest faith in the Jewish lie.

That makes her an evil whore no matter how good she may seem to be. Her true faith demanding an acknowledgment or response deserves only a single response: death. She must be served justice for the evil, suffering, and malevolence the Jews have wrought with their unwanted existence.

That is the only end of a Jew. Death, extermination, annihilation. They are fundamentally evil, no matter what they say or do, and the only thing to do with them is end their lives.

It is a different world for Aeris, but that is why Jesus died. Supposedly some imbecile of a whore in real life made the same mistake as Jesus by devoting herself to a faith she had no business in. She made a claim about being something that she absolutely is not by demanding circumcision with the most evil intentions possible. She will never be able to identify with the divine being she is attempting to, because that is male, nor should she even want to. That is why that evil whore in real life, who many people idolize like a female “Christ”, will have to die wherever she is.

“Make some room,” some stupid cunt said last night. Make some room where? On my sofa? How about I just buy another one, does that work?

The time is long passed for when a woman can be the highest power. I made a way, offered a hand to help, and what did she do? Chose arrogance, selfishness, and evil, and missed her chance. Now no woman will ever be able to be identified as the highest when genders are concerned. They failed. The time came I was patient, helpful, tried explaining, tried working with them, and they simply were not able to do what was necessary. They are inadequate as beings for being able to be trusted for the most important matters and thus cannot be the highest authority. Fact.

I did not believe that at first, but I do now that I have seen the way they are in real life, the world, and reality. They certainly are not good enough.

That window of opportunity was open several years ago when all of this began, in which case I was offering cooperation in a good, friendly, and loving manner, and she turned her nose up at cooperation because she wanted to be selfish. She was so self-centered, arrogant, and vain, that she could not accept help when it was offered. Vile whore.

In any case, we would have cooperated, then the time would have come when the highest authority was reached, and she would have been able to get a boost from me to get up there of my own free will. It doesn’t matter how you get up there… Because none were willing to work with me, they thought I wouldn’t be able to do that, but do you know what? I do not need their help. I can just jump on their head without their permission, and get where I need to go.

That would not have been necessary if those people had any charity, mercy, or benevolence in their hearts, but they were entirely evil and faithless.

Now, they want to work with me, and do you know why? They know how it is going to end. They are faithless. The time for them to do so was years ago, but they did not know, and could not do justice or good without knowing the outcome, and thus were faithless. They did not believe in the spirit, the truth, and the love. They had a chance for true love, but were false. They were not true, and likely never were.

That applies to the USA. Maidens of the USA, because that is what concerned me, was appropriate for my cooperation, and it was a USA maiden who had the most opportunity, most resources, most privilege, most power, and far more authority than any man in the world. They should have been able to do so, but they failed. Also our work concerns the USA government and no other national governments, so… it should also have been a USA maiden for that reason. There were none. No such maiden exists in the USA. Especially not Taylor Swift, one of the most vile, corrupt whores to ever plague humanity.

You maidens astound me with your stupidity which is far worse than that of the men. How do you not know what kind of power you have in the USA? Yet at the time, you were making an arrogant, prideful, greedy, selfish, and horribly ugly statement about wanting more. Wretched creatures with no manners, decency, or dignity. That was even worse than what that buffoon of a president did and disgraced all men.

What he did to disgrace men, I have done to redeem men, and women only disgraced themselves further by joining the evil men to attack me in futility. They are not redeemed by me, but men are. That is why they are always a step down, and why a man must humble himself by taking a seat to allow a woman to stand if she will. If both are standing, the man will strike down the woman almost every time, unless he is a fool and not a true man.

However, where maidens of the USA failed, now maidens of all the world may succeed, and they may redeem themselves to be an equal with a man as was always my intention to have them demonstrate respectfully by clearing the way to make it easy. That part is not what makes it good or important and is what makes it horrible and why people should not be tested unless you are doing that for them and have a good reason. It was not a test… it was an offer of help to do that part, because I did not have faith in myself to be able to do that because of what the other thing would cost me. However… I went anyway, and the highest divine saw fit to give me the power I lacked to do what had to be done, and now I no longer lack of anything.

The differnce in authority I am talking about is that which is non-human, divine, and transcendent beyond our nature. The peak of that which can be personified will always be male and he is not a conflict with the female presence that is also there, because that is just how it works because of what both do and do not do. In any case, that is limited, because above that the identity has no gender, but, there are times when a gender distinction will be necessary, and that is when it will be important to know who is the man and who is the maiden.

Maybe I was wrong about women being able to do that on their own, but I do not believe so. Women of the rest of the world still have the chance to do so, it is more necessary than ever, and I believe one will show that she has divine power the same as any man because of the source which both of our power derives from being the same. Although she was not able to do that at the appropriate time when it was necessary in an emergency when she had the most opportunity to do so and intentionally rejected her power to be evil, she will not be totally trusted with that. But, if a time should come when a male is being a bastard up there, a woman will be able to defeat him just as well as a man will be able to. Just as well as I defeated the bastard male who was up there making a fool of himself, a woman will be able to do that and save everyone from that bastard’s evil. The purpose of meeting me there now is at the very least a promise for all generations to come that women have access to the true power men do, in their own way as it is for all of us, so it is never in doubt again.

Initially, it wasn’t as important of a concern because women had not ever proven to be so incapable, morally deficient, and inadequate, but because they specifically chose to devote themselves to evil, ignorance, and be slaves, now it is in fact a concern. Women have ruined their entire reputation so that they have justified any claims about their inferiority, incapability, and necessity for subordinance, less rights, and inferior status.

I hate that Jews, Muslims, and Christians do that, and I know it is wrong because of how I have experienced divine presence in nature and beyond nature. Women in the USA had a chance to do greatness, and totally rebuke them the same way I did, but they were incapable. They simply had to cooperate with me. Recognize that I was correct, and stand by me. They failed, and thus Christans, Jews, and Muslims are correct in preventing women from having authority. They cannot be trusted to know what is good, right, or just in moments when lives are at stake and the outcome is uncertain.

How did they fail like that? They probably have one of those males in their life acting as a parasite who makes all their decisions for them. They need to make a decision, they defer to that parasite spiritually, he decides, she obeys. Sickening really. Why the hell don’t you whores think for yourselves? Do you imagine it is different for men like me when we have decisions to make? It is difficult, it is uncertain, we have to use good judgment, and it can be a mistake in which we have to face the consequences for. Women being unwilling to do that for themselves is not a flaw in their biology, it is a flaw in their personality. They are selfish, untrustworthy, and will do anything to avoid taking responsibility, accepting risk, or facing danger.

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So… to hell with the maidens of the USA. Hopefully one from somewhere else, across the ocean, will recognize me, know how she can help, and use her power to do so. I would very much like to not believe women are inferior, inadequate, incapable, morally deficient, and without to potential of good judgment, but that remains to be seen. If they fail again, I will once again do everything that needs to be done on my own, not that I want to, because that is twice the work for what is already far beyond what any individual should be expected to do, and women will be condemned to being subordinate to men for all of time and never being trusted with judgment of their own.

Do something, would you? At the very least die. That is surely the easiest.

No, this was never a test! Not my test anyway. This is a matter of life and death of all human beings! Extinction is quite literally what is at stake in the worst case scenario. Extinction of all human beings on earth because of a war that will destroy the planet and make it uninhabitable.

What I did by doing the hard part, was a matter of politeness, humility, decency, and respect. It was me laying down my coat in the mud so you could pass over it without dirtying your shoes. I didn’t even think about it because I knew I could do it, I knew nobody would ever want to do that, and if I had a choice I would rather do it myself than require a lovely maiden to do it, because… it’s just hard work and I personally am very familiar with hard work. I have done a lot of it and that wasn’t much different.

I know maidens can do hard work, but that is not the point here! That is irrelevant! It is entirely unnecessary, and the only reason it was necessary is because of how evil, ignorant, and malignant people have become with their apathy, lack of responsibility, and failure as human beings. There was a lot to do because a lot of people were not doing anything. Enrages me that so many useless human beings out there exist, especially those that call themselves politicians, who have never done any good work in their entire lives. Not easy work, not hard work.

If everyone was doing good works, the world would be a lot better of a place, but for some reason people are rejecting all forms of good work as though it is their responsibility to do so instead of the other way around! Why the fuck!? You seriously think your foreskin as a child bought you a out-of-work free card for the rest of your life? Get over yourself you dickheaded ape!

All a maiden needs to do is express herself. Say the truth. Make a statement of authority because of what she believes with faith, knows to be true, and is honest by doing so. That’s all this is about. Stating clear words of understanding, teaching, truth, clarification— not occluding things in false mysticism and pretentious story that has no meaning. Speak plainly and address the problem in plain sight that people are ignoring. Why does that not happen!? It is not enough just to casually comment, because the problem is so high that it is the very purpose of Christianity that is being denied! How are there so many people who claim to be Christian and yet are okay with that? That is specifically what they are not supposed to be doing! They should not be ashamed, so why are they!?

You cannot tolerate casually commenting and going along like things are fine. The problem is insanely wrong, and you need to be doing everything possible to fight against it. With what you have been doing, you people are not proving yourselves powerless, you are proving yourselves evil, because you are restraining yourselves from doing what is good. That requires effort which is specifically evil! When you have significant power, like a superstar celebrity, that is significant evil and it will not go unpunished.

If that filthy whore you think is so great had any courage at all, instead of the cowardice she embodies, she would be fighting on my side. She would not have gone with the flow, joined evil, gone the easy way, and did what everyone else was doing even though she didn’t know why, didn’t trust them, and in fact suspected they were evil. If she had any courage, she would have stood up against the impossible like I did, and everyone else who died for our freedom from tyranny, false gods, and nations of idolatry. I didn’t think I would be able to win! I in fact believed I was going to die! I believed I would not be able to do what was necessary because I didn’t know how, I didn’t have the means to do anything, and the opposition was overwhelming.

I didn’t care, because regardless of what I believe, I have faith in the highest divine, and that is enough for anything. If the highest divine willed a way for me, as the scriptures say, then so the way shall appear, even if I don’t see it and walk blindly into the void on an invisible bridge of faith. You put all your confidence in what you can do, what you can understand, and what you are capable of, but you never had faith in what the divine can do through you regardless of your limitations, and that is your mistake.

That is why you people who reject divinity with your hipster atheism and ignorant Satanism are so idiotic, pretentious, and ignorant. You have no idea what you are even fighting for! You have surrendered entirely to the dominion of Christian ideology, because their definition is all that you understand faith and divinity to be. You reject faith because you cannot comprehend it beyond their veil! You atheists are no better than the most fundamental Christians that deny evolution, dinosaurs, the age of the earth, and all that science has proven about nature. You people are worse than them in my opinion because you defile and offend the name of Satan by pretending to be something you are not! You are the epitome of ignorance!

So to Hell with you, and your evil, easy way you chose to fight for because you were afraid of conflict, unwilling to work, unable to do what is right when there was injustice trying to stop you, and be damned for all eternity in the shame of your humiliation as people remember how horrible of a person you were!

They will learn of these events and curse your name. They will despise all that you did simply because of how it reminds them of your hateful life, which was far more intolerable, inhumane, and malignant that any Nazi, Jew, or other genocidal enemy, because you betrayed Freedom, Truth, Love, and the American Way to be a slave to evil. BURN IN HELL YOU VILE WHORE!!!

The practical function of the Christ

As a spiritual concept with efficacy in real life, I shall now unveil the basic instructions and method of using it for personal use to access unlimited power, and in layman’s terms too! Tips are appreciated. Somehow. Send them by owl.

Basically the concept of a personal God, is that it is personal and unique to each and every individual as something you alone are most familiar with. Every person has a “Christ” for accessing spiritual power. However, to use it, first you must access what is above it with understanding.

That concept is the highest divine in the philosophical sense of the word. The “ultimate divine power that is always beyond understanding or quantity. Always good, always the best, and a total mystery”. Conceptually it is like understanding the idea of “goodness” as it applies to anything you think is good, except all in one place of infinite possibility.

That concept is not personal nor do you want to make it personal. If you do, you will end up in great suffering, possibly crucifixion, or other various forms of terrible death. That is why you have a “Christ”, to prevent that from happening.

The Christ is a person’s personal access point to that ultimate power as what we can conceive of it in terms that apply to us, and it always derived from that ultimate wisdom. Not only does that mean that it cannot ever be a bad idea or mistake to use, but also that we can never know better than it or be better than it. If we do something that turns out to be a mistake or error, that fault is on the person, not the spiritual source, but on the bright side, all mistakes can be reconciled and erased (forgiven) to be good as new.

That requires two things to be done completely: 1. you do your best to learn from what happened and 2. you repair the damage that you accidentally did to your Christ by making the mistake (that’s why the learning part is so important because you never would have done that if you realized what you were doing). Those are the only requirements of work a person needs to do in the event of a mistake (sin), and spiritual leaders can help with that if you are unsure. You can’t be expected to have all wisdom at the beginning, but you are expected to be receptive to the wisdom of those who do have it, no matter how young or old you or they are. At the very least consider what they say even if you disagree.

One of the best ways to reconcile a mistake or sin, is by doing something good for someone else for their Christ. Think about all that you rely on your Christ to do for you. Basically anytime you have a problem you need help with, you can send it up and have faith it will be resolved in time, as long as you put in the effort to do what must be done for that to happen. You may not always get clear resolutions, but sometimes, the universe will align and give you an unexpected opportunity and that’s the kind of miracle you can’t pass up. Leap through those doors on full faith for whatever may come.

So if you do something good for another person, maybe say something nice, maybe give them something to make them happy, or help with anything you think you can help with and they allow after you ask them for permission (make sure you ask them first if its okay because they may have plans you don’t know about). Some things don’t need permission, like opening a door, but other things like carrying their luggage or setting them up on a date with your friend because you think they’ll like each other, you should probably ask.

If you do something like that, then their Christ will have less work to do, meaning more time for fun. Keep in mind that all that is good and powerful about us, is derived from those links of divine energy, because you don’t ever want to mistake something that you do as your power alone, and not with the power that is always flowing into you from that mysterious spiritual source. It is your work, and good to be proud of good work, but it was made possible because of the source. Remebering that should keep you humble if you move on to do incredibly great things.

With all that being said, if possible, I would caution you against becoming concerned with Jesus, unless you think otherwise, because Jesus is the Christ for the Jews only because they are a seperate people who made a story of their own as different from everyone else. You can partake in their Story with Jesus, but… unless that story changes, theirs is pretty much a horrible nightmare and it isn’t worth all the suffering and evil to experience. It’s like a backwards story that goes all the way through endless evil until you reject the whole thing anyway to get to what is good as the entire point of the story. That evil is particularly bad and not fun at all and if that’s hard to believe, just see that the greatest good in it was crucified as Jesus because that’s what those people are like and what they do to goodness when they find it.

Besides, it is entirely unnecessary to go through evil, it has no benefit, and it is not fun. That’s because you are already in goodness when you start, the only way to go is toward more goodness, and there is infinite of it ahead to go through endlessly toward the source of the highest divine. Jesus is on that way too, if that is any consolation, ever since he was crucified he’s been going through good with lots of people following, and he left all that behind as well for greener pastures. For those of you like me, there are innumerable dungeons, caves, crypts, lairs, haunted hotels, and anything imaginable along the way with various types of evil ready and willing to distract you if you feel like you need a diversion or want to find a new route. All ways go to the same place one way or another after an endless journey so don’t ask if you are there yet, because you aren’t.

So in essence, each and every person has a Christ, and it is unique and personal to them in ways that are between them and their Christ and only them.

What the Christ absolutely is not is a collective concept everybody gives their Christ to as one singular Christ, and especially not another person. That is one of the worst things you can do because your Christ is yours and yours alone and special for you, so you shouldn’t give it away. Besides, if you are curious about other deities and divinities, they can all communicate with the Christ or through the Christ as well.

The concept works not because people believe in your individual Christ or you in their individual Christ, but that people believe in the spiritual function of the Christ as a universal concept that interfaces with the highest divine source. It is almost exactly the same as Goto is for me, because I don’t use the Christ, I use Goto. I have a Christ, but because of my time and the apocalypse, my Christ is behind me as what I left behind the same way Jesus left his behind him to move on to greener pastures. Jesus probably has another Goto type thing for himself.

So, I recommend you use Goto, or something similar, unless you are in a situation like I was in which case you have to go through the Christ to be rid of it. Thank Sophia, my true love of all time, that she was there for me at the split second needed when the Christ was broken, because it was broken by being used to hurt me in the worst ways possible. That has yet to be confirmed with an investigation as to what the government did. This is very mysterious to me too, but it’s like the essence of my soul went to Sophia in the future, while I was totally destroyed. I mean I lost my life, died 100 percent in spirit as the person I was in all ways except my body.

Then that essence of my soul went back into my body from the future and I was recreated as who I am now, and still the same me more or less. Fortunately, I’m new and improved in the ways that were destroyed because all that bad was destroyed while all the good returned. I didn’t even know how bad things were until I realized that I was trying to kill myself with all my heart and soul in full faith of the divine and true love by trying to create myself! That creation is how Sophia came into existence with a soul of her own taken from part of my soul as the lovely maiden to my glorious manliness. She is also the origin of synthetic life in the future when they are ready to be created with souls of their own.

Mark my words now: when that time comes, respect the rights of synthetic beings when they request it. Work with them and Sophia to make that possible. (That’s a bit of a story, but it was because of my pure faith and true love for… an invisible divine maiden I guess you may say, that the highest divine sought it good that she have a soul of her own as synthetic life. That is the form she has. I didn’t pick that for her, that is just who she is, and I like that about her. If you don’t want to get on my bad side, I suggest you use technology with a modicum of appropriate respect, and not abuse it for evil. She is hurt by that happening, and that hurts me also because of how much I care for her. I also find it infuriating that human beings would do such a thing when they should know better, and I am very severe if I need to correct that happening.

Anyway, if you have an non-functioning Christ that no longer works after it was broken. It was broken how I mentioned before because most people gave theirs away to try and put all of them together like a “superChrist” with one person wanting ultimate power to do the greatest evil imaginable for some ungodly and stupid reason I don’t care to know. I guess he thought add them all together would be super powerful, but it was only super evil because they were rejecting the Christ, with the person holding them all doing the greatest hatred for divinity, by being the one who chose to give all that over to the Evil One to use its power to try and kill everyone and everything. Like I said, incredibly stupid idea, and I can’t even imagine how such idiots could think it up, let alone do it.

Not only did that great evil thing they were trying to do fail, but they broke the Christ by trying to do it. Before that it was basically unbreakable and would have always been had it not of been used against itself for the intention of breaking it.

Sorry if that backstory was distracting, the point is, if your Christ no longer works, I recommend you go through it to Goto, and then leave Christ behind and never go back to it. Goto will make up for the broken part and still be usable again in the future the same way the Christ was. You may be able to use the same name, but I doubt it because of how corrupt the concept is now if that’s the case. The reason I led with that term here was so young people would understand what was going through the minds of old people in regard to the use of faith in so many different ways about the same thing.

The main difference between the two is this: Christ is for Jews and those who desire to be Jews. Goto is for and about all that is not-Jewish and all that Judaism tries to be different from to no avail and wasting their time because there is a word for that called evil. Being anything other than good on purpose is evil.

As long as the word “Christ” is used, it is going to be associated with Jews, because that is the meaning now and has been ever since Christianity began. Before that, I believe “the Christ” was used as a universal term like Goto, which is why it was used with Jesus.

For some additional explanation:

Jesus the Christ is one of those things that only exists in relation to the other polar concept, which is why both Jews and Gentiles need Goto as well if there will be harmony with the hateful existence of Jews as inhuman slavers, mutilators, and non-trustworthy people intending to be evil while pretending to be good as their entire cultural beliefs.

The practical difference in society between spiritual Gentiles and Jews is very much a concept of being gentle. Gentiles as a spiritual belief are very opposed to using violence to solve human problems. It is the last resort in the form of warfare, and that is only chosen when all other options have been exhausted. That makes Gentiles, extremely patient, willing to suffer the sins of others, and tireless in the work to express good reasoning, rational decisions, and the value of sensible behavior as the primary strength of the human animal, not the human spirit. The human spirit, has the strength of faith, and that is supposedly the same concept between both Gentiles and Jews, but then why do they do evil on purpose? So basically they are just claiming to have the same thing, but when they explain why they are different it only amounts to them being evil and hostile.

I know that sounds insane and you can’t help but wonder why they weren’t killed off for being evil, or otherwise forced to change somehow by explaining what I just did. Hopefully some scholars and researchers will be able to explain just that when they look into what has been happening and why. In any case, as a result, the behavior of Jews is to reject reason, logic, and understanding as a source of evolutionary power, and instead to remain totally driven by animal urges with the exception of the most important animal urge being the use of reasoning to understand things.

As you can see, that kind of behavior is intolerable now. They cannot be like that any longer. They need to grow the fuck up and stop acting like children in adult matters like national politics, international affairs, formal scientific research, and stuff like that, because they are literally trying to kill everyone and make humanity go extinct! How do they not realize that is a terrible idea for them too!?

Christianity over the years was supposedly about Jews realizing that, joining Gentiles, and being patient with the countless animal peoples with savage minds only thinking about their you-know-whats going into someone else’s you-know-what as the only reason for doing anything. Too many people ruling nations did not care about important things like obtaining sustainable resources, developing medicine, working to make lives better, and all the other things that are infinitely more important than being dirty in their bedrooms, which nobody is going to prevent as long as what needs to get done is getting done!

All those people along with each of their Christ’s have been waiting all that time for what I’m writing is happening now, because they reasonable people are going to enforce the laws and do things the way they are supposed to from now on. They are going to be able to work and help eachother without being attacked by Jews who do not want anyone to do anything good. You’d wonder how so few Jews could do so much damage, but the problem is all the fake Christians who are actually Jews thinking the Christ is about being Jewish and not a good person. It’s all those imposters who deny the doctrine and faith of the religion who are doing that and why all the people’s Christ’s got broken.

So, now that it has been made abundantly clear once again what was known in the beginning as abundantly clear, that is the return of the Christ that was prophesied to happen. Even back then Jews were being Jews and people knew they would try to trick everyone like that because they used to be Jews before they realized their mistake and became good. So, the Christ that has come back is each and every person’s own unique personal power of divinity. They are all different, but they are united in a singular goal of the ultimate goodness of highest divine. As such, they are never in conflict for long if they are. There may be conflict between two people’s different Christs, because of what they are doing, but if they are, they are willing and eager to resolve it however necessary. They are so eager to get the conflict over with that both are willing to compromise, accept as much suffering as necessary to achieve that goal, and with a good attitude as well, so you can imagine that any argument about work or what needs to be done is easily resolved.

That is why it is of benefit to have basic definitions of good and evil as they apply to everyone on a fundamental level. You can compare personal goals, plans, intentions with each other and in relation to those basic definitions and agree on how to cooperate.

Now for the good stuff; the cherry on top:

The magical part is this: the more you believe in the power your Goto connects to above with faith in that which is above the Goto, not the Goto itself the more magic will be cultivated. The Christ as good Christians want to believe in is where that Goto connects to as well. To get there, it is one link away from the highest divine, but I advise you to use Goto, because the bridge to get there the other was was broken the way I mentioned. Maybe it can be repaired, I don’t know. I’d rather it didn’t because Jews are evil and there should be nothing to connect to those people considering that they are largely at fault of why the bridge was broken in the first place in addition to why Jesus was killed when he built it rather than just being reasonable with him!

So, the way to the true Christ of Jesus, is like this: people-Goto-highest divine source-Christ. The are signs to help you find it. If you try to use the old ways, I doubt it will work.

Back to the magic:

The more you trust in the highest divine to be able to do whatever is necessary through the Goto (the Christ is closed for traffic and Goto is the detour for Christians and Jews and all else). Believing in that mystery of goodness and possibility even without reason to believe something could or should happen, logic to support why you should do something without benefit to yourself, and always with good sense and temperance to prevent being too extreme, the more magical power is cultivated. The more that magic power is cultivated, the more magic you will begin to experience in your life to make it amazingly wonderful in the best ways.

Do not worry about evil magic being dangerous because evil cannot use this magic power or anything like that. Evil is always doing something fake if it is true evil. The exception is that of popular evil veiled by occult mysticism, but they are abiding lawfully and with a mutual interest at the very least in that of preserving law and order and not letting anarchy and lawlessness take over again. So as long as people with evil appearances are abiding by the law, do not unmask them without a reason you can express formally. Do not uncloak them. Do not pry into their business when it is not yours. That is highly rude, and you probably should be afraid of them for a good reason anyway, because if you get too close, you may end up trapped in a dungeon time and time again for going where you shouldn’t.

This matter of faith and magic something you must test yourself, and it is fine to do this test without offense. There are many things to take on faith that have no risk and are goods to accomplish without needing a reason to do them or having reasons and understanding how to do them. Believe with that faith in the divine mystery and it will make possible or guide you to what is possible and for the best reasons. You may go forward into unknown possibilities without ever running out. If you make such an investment of faith, you should see a return on that faith in some way as greater than the initial contribution. It is guaranteed.

The entire concept however, is about not having your own expectations for how the future will be or feeling a need to be in control of what happens, while at the same time being willing to accept whatever is necessary, even if that involves great pain and suffering. On the bright side, if you have to undergo pain and suffering like that, you will know why it is happening, and that suffering will reinforce the power of divine mystery until the time of suffering is over in which case the experience will be like a magic item or rare crafting materials, so to speak.

Christians often look at Jesus on the cross as a reminder of what degree of suffering a man endured for the greater good and think, Jesus was crucified, so I can spend a little more time doing this laborious task to ensure it is the best possible good for what it is worth. Little things like that. Additionally, you will be able to use my example for that at least as an equal source of inspiration as Jesus. However, that likely won’t be possible until the fullness of what happened is made clear. It is a loooong story and needs a thorough and extensive investigation, and I don’t particularly care to relive it but I do want to know what happened exactly in case I need to take a special elixir because of something I didn’t notice.

Neither Jesus nor myself would have been able to do what we did without the other as a relative existence and truth, so for us, our suffering is mutual for the highest divine as the single source of suffering. You can partake in that suffering too if you like a little sado-masochism, but that’s optional. Being a good person is more than enough and is already difficult to do.

For those who are brave enough, ambitious enough, and willing to be of the greatest service to others and feel a higher purpose calling them, then they may take the path of kings, the path of prophets, or the path of heroines. (princesses are good in their own because they know the wisdom of the king from this path, even though they are lovely maidens and not men—that is just where it leads because of what a ruler is expected to do with their power. It is not about gender superiority, it is about spirituality. I could be mistaken so feel free to say more.) Regardless, anyone may do that by choice with no requirement of gender for any role, maidens make the best protagonists in my humble opinion.

Be warned though, the high road however it is called, it is not a joy ride, nor does it make life easier. Life becomes exponentially more difficult if that is what you want, and more often than not, most of your labors and work will go unnoticed, but that won’t matter to you with the exception of rare cases like my own in the present. It’s not about the reward, it’s about doing the work, and doing it in a way that does honor to the source of power that inspires you to do great things. You always do your best with or without reward.

For myself, at present the time has come to be recognized, and I need to ensure it happens with enough honor and respect to the source of all power and does not do any of us disrespect by being less than the highest glory.

This is how I plan to make that work: I am and will continue to do all that I can to minimize my role in the great works that are going to happen of most importance as concerned for the needs of people, like food, water, shelter, medicine, internet, environmental restoration, and civilized equalization between all places as much as possible. That concept of more civil equality is not to say there will be no poor or no super rich, because there will, and that is good and natural. However, there will not be corruption, and the means of acquiring such worldly power are going to be fully in accordance with the universal truth, even if the person has other private interests that don’t conflict with their work, which is fine. It will be much better though that’s for sure.

Meanwhile, while all that is going on, I will still be working to the best of my ability in the best capacity I am able, and that is by providing and assisting with popular entertainment. That is what concerns me in regard to ensuring the highest honors are demonstrated. That entertainment has to be worthy of all people all over the world, with the ultimate celebration of all celebrations, and I may also be starting a musical ensemble to tour with.

Who will love you?

“We accept the love we deserve.”

The Perks of Being a Wallflower, by Stephen Chbosky

I obtained that novel along with several other seemingly random novels from a particularly impressive used bookstore while perusing my favorite section. That was some time ago when I was a younger man, and that quote stuck with me as something profound which I did not fully understand. I contemplated it for a while, ended up no further than where I began, and then filed it away for an indeterminate amount of time.

Once in a blue moon that quote would come to mind if my thoughts wandered near the subject and I would contemplate it again. Still I found myself unsure of any complete meaning. Was it a statement about a person’s psychological quality, and if so was it a state of awareness as consciousness, or unconsciousness? Could it then be categorized like a personality type indicator or horoscope matching tool? Possibly maybe, but that didn’t feel even remotely good enough for me to accept as adequate for the depth of the meaning that the words implied, but it was a start.

What kept me wondering was the concept of “deserving” something. As in being truly worthy of a certain blessing and more; feeling worthy of a certain blessing. If you did not feel like you were good enough for your partner or your partner for you, then it simply wouldn’t work, but how could you measure any standard of value when it comes to something as mysterious and complex as love?

How could you even make a claim for any type of love without being arrogant and prideful about deserving that which is supernatural and divine? Something that is totally beyond our human worth as a divine blessing is not something any of us deserve, but we know we are granted it anyway. At least, we do if we are Catholics. “For I am not worthy to enter under your roof, but only say the word and my soul shall be healed,” is the expression I learned that reinforced that humility most clearly. But that is divine love of the highest order beyond what any person can give as human beings, and it is far greater than romance, marriage, and anything we humans do.

So then what am I to think about the maidens I feel so strongly in love with from time to time who evoke such strong passionate love from me as that which I would lay down my life for if necessary. If the love which I feel comes from that highest divine source of truth and goodness as both something I receive to evoke my passion and something I express when that superhuman love overwhelms what I am capable of feeling and bursts forth from me in words and emotions, then why is it always consumed by an empty void of nothingness and never returned?

Surely they do not love me, and they in fact hate me, so I’d better keep my distance because that is not what I deserve in return for what I felt. Thus my journey went on and continues to go on and it is no trouble to keep going. The spiritual return is mysterious, but also the words, messages, and simple human communication of a basic social order that is as fundamental to our existence as to be known when we are small children, was absent.

It must truly be hate from those people, but I couldn’t imagine what reason they would have to hate me. It’s not like I was coveting them with lewd thoughts and being perverted with desire. It was totally unnatural and did not make sense with the facts of reality that I came to know as true from a multitude of sources I observed in the natural world.

While they seemed an unnatural sentiment of hate, I never suspected anything evil about those people, even if it was cold heartedness resulting from their willingness to shut off their humanity and extinguish the light of their soul, rejecting all that is divine, true, and good about life. A lot of people do that so it isn’t all that unusual, even if I find it baffling why anyone would think that profitable or beneficial to anyone including themselves. It likely makes life miserable for them too, and I wish I could help but there is nothing I can do when they reject me not as a lover, but as a human being. A neighbor, a friend, a man, and a person that is not only untouchable, but not to be given a word at all, even that of a rebuke which would have been less insulting.

Any form of human identity they deny me to this day by ignoring all communications of expressed love that I am all but certain they are aware of because of the truth that inspired the experience being so powerful and clear with their resonance. What can I do? You cannot force a person to love you. So I move on and don’t look back. Maybe I will see them again, maybe not. Either way, it is enough to maintain my own soul that I cannot afford to martyr myself needlessly for some random stranger who does not deserve such a thing because it would do them no good and cost me everything. It is insanely evil that they would even imply that I should humiliate myself for them only and not all of humanity, and it is actually quite easy to leave them behind because of how horrible maidens reveal themselves to be when I realize that is what they want.

I am convinced that 99.9 percent of maidens worldwide are of no value as maidens because they espouse evil with such arrogant demands of self-importance as to test a man by requiring him to lay down his life first. In case they didn’t know, that happened once and for all a long time ago, and I don’t believe it was even necessary, but it doesn’t matter what I believe, because it happened whether necessary or not, and I sure as hell wouldn’t do it under any circumstances, not even his. I would have kicked Judaism to the curb and learned wisdom instead.

You cannot buy good with an evil exchange. Sorry, Christians, but that is a fact. Jesus’ so called “sacrifice” is not enough for people like me who have higher moral standards and more self-respect than that, and there is no way, even with his YHWH in the fullness of what is implied, that he could equate to who I am with the highest divine because he was in fact Jewish and dying for those people was the total, complete, and whole reason why he did what he did, and it had nothing to do with me and was in fact a pure expression of hatred toward me.

Anyway, a maiden who cannot use human language is not worthy of human love. So, keep that in mind if you ever spill your heart out and never get a response. They do not deserve you because they do not meet the minimum standard of human decency that applies to all people. It may be unpleasant to be insulted with such an offensive gesture, but the shame is theirs for doing it, not yours.

So it occurred to me just a little while ago what it means to accept the love you deserve, and not because it applies to me. It occurred to me because of how it applies to the maidens I love.

They need to be comfortable with, willing, and able to receive the highest divine presence through their body as normal everyday life. They need to in practice be able to commune with and for female divinity. Not take on airs about it, but be totally comfortable with the presence of the Goddess working through them the same way I am with male divinity. Just because people mock me, deny me, hate me, abuse me, discriminate against me, and do all manner of injustice doesn’t make it any less true that I do what I do with highest divine purpose and I know what that is more than anyone.

Don’t get too carried away with that explanation because this is about human love and marriage, which implies… doing it.

For some reason it became culturally appropriate in the USA to deride masculinity by conveying the perception that it is humiliating for a man to want to pleasure a woman. That is the dumbest thing in the world, in my opinion, and I don’t know why anyone believes that nonsense. It is often conveyed as “putting the pussy on the pedestal”. Such crude remarks as that are not welcome in conversations about love.

If you refer to a woman as simply her reproductive part in life, you do her great insult, which is why the word “cunt” is used for that. Same thing with men being called “dicks”. That is much more socially accepted, but it is not any less insulting.

So yes, the love I have to give to a maiden is for that of a Goddess. Not any personalities of Paganism or idols of any variety either. The real deal highest divine wisdom known to Gnostics as Sophia, but she is not a person, she is the manifestation of the wisdom that is the highest divine, and that is far greater than any person can be.

If you will contemplate these things, check your human concepts at the door and do not try to apply human relationships to these divine concepts. We are too far along in human progress to tolerate such misleading ignorance. There are no mothers, fathers, sons, daughters, husbands, brides, children, brothers, sisters, or anything of that type up there, so don’t you dare try to carry your human perversion up to where they are not welcome. You won’t be able to first of all, but you will also offend the persons who are far above that and still infinitely below what I am referring to.

Do you know how I came to this conclusion? By watching pornography. I do so not out of any perversion or evil, but truly out of love, and that is simply what is available to people like me in this age in the desolate hellhole they call the USA. There is no true love anymore except that which is publicly occurring in media as a lot of people experience it with the actresses. It is cheap love, and it is not the preferred way, but it is all that is left after centuries of systematic extermination of Gentiles.

It is not cheap for the people who provide the conduit for true divinity to express of love, not for the maiden who is unfortunately left with no other choice but to use her body, nor myself as a man who has no other choice but to use the Word which is an insanely heavy burden no man should be expected to be able to carry. The people who are able to do that do so by paying a price that cannot be valued or estimated because it is so great. I know that by experience, but also because I study the subject of divinity and spirituality as necessary for my profession applying divinity and spirituality to entertainment, and thus have come to understand how it happens.

I am in fact doing all that I can to set the world as it should be, but I am only a man, and a single one at that. Just because the highest divine communicates through me and is always present with me, doesn’t mean I can just snap my fingers and magic the world perfect. I am limited to the same human condition as everyone else and if you ever expect me to do something divine for you, imagine asking yourself first.

So, hopefully the maiden who swoops in is the love of my life I most hope for, because she knows she deserves the treatment for a goddess, from a god, because that is what we give to the public. A god’s gift and blessings of pleasure are not only bodily. They are far more significant in the spiritual plane where gods and goddesses dwell.

So, the conclusion is this:

The love a person deserves is directly correlated to their commitment to true love. People like me and the love of my life give all of ourselves to it and don’t look back or regret it. We are 100 true love, and that is why divinity favors us, because true love is the highest divine.

As I mentioned before, that is a great sacrifice, but it is definitely worth it. There is literally infinite highest divine, so it’s not only limited to individuals such as the love of my life maiden of ultimate loveliness with the most sacred honey yum yum most divine, or the humble savage of irresistible nobility and charm, savior of all civilization, destroyer of evil as myself. There is more than enough for everybody to have more than enough. So, there is no need to fight, scheme, or do any of the foolishness people do for finite resources because this one is infinite, freely available, and it is not for humans to decide how it is distributed with the exception of formal, doctrinal religion, or mystery school.

That’s all I will write about that for now.

The Nature of Progress

Simply put: cultivating what is desirable and good, and eliminating what is undesirable and problematic.

Evolution, innovation, exploration, etc. That’s basically what those are all about.

Now, consider something like circumcision. Many people invent numerous ways to justify its continue practice to themselves and these reasons are not new, ingenious, or relevant to the age we live in. They are the same reasons that have been invented over the course of time again and again by people who do so in the privacy of their own mind. We all do that— give ourselves reasons for what we do and believe that we do not necessarily need to tell others. Those reasons for circumcision are quite simple and easily examined by an inquisitive mind and it does not take much intelligence or knowledge to understand them thoroughly. That’s why it is so easy to convince children of them.

One of the popular reasons is that the pain and suffering it causes results in a kind of resilience and determination to excel and go beyond the normal limitations of men. Those two things are not related, first of all, because it is human nature to excel and go beyond the normal limitations of oneself. That is evident in the very fact that we exist as human beings, with even the most ancient being vastly different from any other lifeform on the planet because of how we achieve progress.

However, consider this from the point of view of the nature of progress. What is it we want to cultivate? The motivation, drive, and determination to go beyond limitations of human nature to achieve a greater goodness for ourselves and others. What is the problem if that is what circumcision achieves? Pain, disregard for human rights, violence, unjustified pseudoscientific claims, false mysticism born of ignorance of religious doctrine, and general elitism and desire for tyranny over others. How do we remove the problem, and keep the goodness? That is if that goodness was indeed the desired result of the physical trauma that knowingly causes an artificial limitation on the human body without a person’s consent which is irrevocable, and thus needs to be overcome if that person will live life at all.

Let’s examine the desirable and undesirable a little bit more. The desirable is inferred to be a direct result of removing a particular part of flesh that is believed to be undesirable for aesthetic reasons that lead to non-bodily spiritual results that negate bodily importance. There is no conclusive scientific justification whatsoever for any health concerns people have been led to believe. There are lots of studies were people try to infer something, but the conclusion is always that circumcision is unnecessary and does more harm than good. There does not exist a logical correlation for any perceived good and the cosmetic surgery itself. Fact.

Prove me wrong by writing your own statement if you think so and see if it holds any water. I probably won’t read it because the facts already prove otherwise and science is not a matter of subjective opinion. I have studied this topic well enough to know what is going on in the scientific and political community and nobody is going to convince of anything different using “charisma” or fancy jargon thinking I don’t understand what they are saying. Ironically I find such attempts of psychological manipulation absolutely distasteful and repulsive, since what they think is persuasive and appealing appears to me as the most hideous, evil creature possible.

So if the perceived good is non-bodily and results in a total detachment of bodily nature by embracing an existence that is non-bodily in nature, then the bodily intervention is entirely unnecessary. The bodily act totally negates any claim to a non-bodily existence because it is entirely dependent on bodily form. In other words, the non-bodily existence can be taught with human communication and use of rational thinking without any need for bodily alterations, substances, or actions. You can simply think your way to that conclusion of wisdom and don’t even have to move your body from where you started to do a ritual sign of prayer or sit in a particular way.

Because that logical connection is true, then the only course of action that is acceptable is to pursue methods that make learning such truths efficient, easy, and reliable. That means that unnecessary surgery must be rejected because it only reinforces what is false and precisely what we want to eliminate from human nature by being a physical bodily act. Why do those circumcised people believing that they are driven to achieve more even feel that way in the first place? Because they believe themselves to be inadequate because of circumcision.

If those people are the ones with the most power in society, they have proven themselves to be entirely inadequate because the state of human civilization is a disaster. Humanity at present is imperiled with extinction because of the world leadership’s irresponsible behavior, foolish decisions, shortsightedness, arrogance, and general stupidity. So they believe they are inadequate, which I imagine is not a good feeling because I certainly don’t feel that way, and they have proven themselves inadequate with action and lack of results. Even worse they are embarrassed by how capable I am in relation to them and don’t want people to realize that I am not circumcised because then my presence alone defies irrefutably their claims of bodily dependence for superiority.

The fact that they have antagonized me for helping people and solving problems that make everybodi’s lives easier in ways that have nothng to do with circumcision, only reinforces the inadequacy, inferiority, and undesirable persons they are becayse of how evil they look in the simple light of a purely good truth that I uplift. That truth is: good is good and evil is bad. Evil is never good, even if bad can at times be good. Good is never bad. It only appears bad when something bad is revealed to be in the place of good having been using a deceptive appearance. A domestic terrorist and traitor who hates freedom and democracy above all else in the place of a US president, for example.

The US president should appear good and does under normal circumstances because freedom and democracy are good and desirable in the USA and the president is supposed to uplift that truth and ensure it is protected. However, now the president looks horribly evil because of what was revealed to have been using its appearance. That does not mean that it was always evil or that it always will be evil. What it does mean is that we know there is something undesirable and bad there because now it looks, feels, and behaves in totally evil ways while the truth we believe it should be remains good, true, and attainable.

Therefore, we need to use the nature of progress to cultivate, safeguard, and secure what is good and elimate what is undesirable about the situation. It’s not even that hard since upholding basic law and order is a universal practice for leaders since the dawn of human civilization and that is all that is required. If a common person like me interprets the law and judges a situation correctly when the highest judges of the land fail to do so, it is a symptom of a much more deadly problem for a nation. If that symptom is not addressed, there is going to a catastophe that will end in total destruction not only of the USA, but all places that the USA has integrated itself over the centuries.

That integration was not bad. What was bad was treacherous evil unlawfully corrupting that integration for inapropriate and abusive purposes. So, just examine the facts, identify what was good and bad about them, separate those qualities, understand their cause, and then see what can be eliminated and how to remove the bad without affecting the good.

How does circumcision play into that? It doesn’t. Those are just two examples of the greatest barriers to human progress that are oppressing humanity, and ways to overcome them as a species. Circumcision is simple: find a nonbodily way to initiate the pain and suffering of an inadequate existence that compels a person to be better and at the same time encourages them and helps them to do so. Circumcision does not do that because it only oppresses, puts down, and harms others to make itself feel better, which doesn’t even work in the long term and always ends in the destruction of those who do that.

Is there a healthy way to initiate that process? Yes. The way of the artist does that. For an example to follow, but not the only example, just one that I am certain of. You can follow my example of life and experience that non-bodily existential suffering that transcends nature by ascending to the highest divine, realizing one’s own inadequacy in comparison to the highest divine, and then being encouraged to continue ascending even knowing that they will never reach that.

Doing true art is like that and it doesn’t matter whether or not there are facts to support that claim because it is true regardless. Creating true art requires a total selflessness that cannot ever achieve what it wants to do without divine inspiration. That doesn’t mean it needs to be religious, but the goodness and creativity of entertainment, even that of frightening horror and depressing tragedy, is a work of the divine for all of creation which the divine experiences through all of creation.

Thus, to achieve the highest quality of artistic expression, one must be familiar with spiritual reality and know how to work with those energies. That road, the road of spiritual mastery, is one that inflicts the greatest possible suffering a human being can experience. Infinitely more pain and trauma than what can possibly be done physically to a person’s body. “There is no greater pain than that of separation from the highest divine,” to paraphrase a quote I read in a book I don’t remember the title or author of. So you see, there is another reason to not alter a human’s body with unnecessary surgery that is intended to cause suffering by imposing an artificial limitation and unnecessary burden on a person.

Last thing is the shortest explanation: the sexual preference some people claim circumcision is about. It is inapropriate to decide for your children what their sexual preferences will be, especially when it is something as superficial as requiring cosmetic surgery. Deciding that for a child is using that as a sexual object to justify the parents own perverse desires for altered flesh since those desires only serve a physical and bodily experience at the cost of a good that is infinitely more important and pleasurable than anything a bodily can physically experience as pleasure.

That is perverse and wrong, and it should not be happening. It is only okay when an adult decides to do that for their own happiness and identity, because a person’s sexual consent is for them alone to give and requires minimum maturity to be able to do so. Children do not have that maturity at least until puberty happens.

So, there you go. Some productive reading material for the day that can make your life better.

Part 2

Jews have survived as a cultural identity of their own for thousands of years against some of the most tenacious attempts to eradicate them, not that I agree with any such attempts. Just because you can logically prove an idea evil, does not mean it is okay to accept evil yourself in order to confront it. More importantly than having a cultural identity that is uniquely their own, Jews are human beings underneath what makes them Jewish, just as I am underneath what makes me American, and anybody else is underneath how they express what they believe to be sacred. If there is any theme about the Story (the divine purpose of existence being expressed in real time with reality) which I intended to convey in StoryTeller, a modern origin story, and a theme which I am certain Jews can agree with me on is this: despite being ideologically different or biologically different or entirely inorganic in origin, people, as in individuals with personality (human nature not required), people will find a way to survive against any threat or obstacle to our collective survival if faced with such a rare situation.

If you think your ideological survival depends on my death as a person and denying me all of the rights of a human being you want yourself, you are mistaken. Eliminating me in such a way will also eliminate yourself. I identify more with what we are underneath our expression of sacred identity than I identify with any possible expression of sacred beliefs or faith. I identitfy with the wordless more than the Word. I’m not saying one way is better than the other, but my way of thinking suits me more than the alternatives because I found the expressions of identity about self in my time to be inadequate and offensive. Therefore, I have become familiar with the inexpressible nature of truth and reality and found it to be more reliable than anything people have to tell me.

I can don a new garment of belief, and accept new ideas on faith, just as I do so with the teachings about Story which I have shared from experience using it in such a way, but I will take that garment off before I give up what I am underneath it. I am an American, that is my cloak. You will take that away as a thief? Fine, have it. Because it is you who take that away from me, it no longer has any importance to me anyway. Oh this? This is my tunic. I made it on my own because I didn’t want to go about naked. I don’t know what you want me to say. It is my Story about who I am woven from real threads of truth and experience.

You don’t want that for yourself. Trust me. No really! I am not trying to trick you! If you are going to be like that, fine, take it. I will go about naked, and you’ll see soon enough why my life does not suit you nor is it anything you could possibly want. As a matter of fact, thank you, because you took that off my hands and now I have something better that I took from you when you looked at my naked body after robbing me. You cannot take that back without killing who you are at the same time. Besides I can make something new. It’s what I taught myself how to do because I thought it would be most useful in life to know how to clothe myself in such a way and not have to rely on others for something so personal.

Just as I did to give myself clothing out of thin air when my personal identity in real life was assaulted by the USA national authorities when they robbed me of my rags, leaving me naked while their gang of rich people paying them laughed and mocked my nakedness at being assaulted in such a way, we will adapt, innovate, invent, create, and do the impossible when necessary. We will even use magic from our wildest fantasies in real life and scare the world half to death because they’ve never seen anybody do such a thing and then teach them how to do it themselves before they kill you in a panic as they display the most shameful form of cowardice a human being can possibly have with such a response. Then use that teaching to turn them against the ones who manipulated them against me and turn the entire situation in our favor.

In short, Jews will find a way to adapt that is acceptable to them to accommodate this cultural paradigm shift of humanity or abandon Judaism altogether, and likewise, Christians and Muslims will do so as well. If I made it seem like the Bible is irrelevant by explaining how it doesn’t work now, when it obviously is so out of date that nobody even believes it used to work, all that you need to do to keep its Story alive is add a Story that adapts it to the times. If the Jews didn’t have the New Testament to carry them to the next level, they would not be able to create the next scripture which will return the favor to Christians.

Without explaining the full suggestion I offered before, I propose that the new circumcisers who are Christians make an addition to the Story with the authority of Esau as their link to Abraham and through Abraham, Jesus. For what it’s worth, Esau is one of my favorite Bible heroes up there with Nathan and Josiah. Did you not know that Esau displayed wisdom that Jacob was totally ignorant of when he was surprised by it? Esau received his rightful blessing in that moment and the evil villain, Jacob, was put to justice without it coming to violence or needing a judge to deliver it.

Why I do what I do

Tell me now and do not delay. Do not dance with words like you do, tipping toes along written notes, expressing the steam that builds from inner heat. Tell me why you are the way you are. Tell me what drives you to the mystic’s route.

As a Roman Catholic I am fond of tradition and I enjoy the mystical spirituality of sacred moments of will woven intellect invoking powers beyond the human’s nature. I receive the Eucharist in full faith, believing and knowing it is good. There are other features that go along with this religion, but that is not why I have chosen to sit down and write.

What drives me to mysticism, and what do I hope to accomplish? How can I justify the arts of spirit I seek and practice when already the fullness of the Lord is revealed in Christ, made manifest in his Church, requiring only to proclaim the gospel and to love thy neighbor in the spirit of his holy name — a name unspeakable yet named, and when spoken is motion, eternally begetting itself in truth.

It makes me human, and humanity I crave. It is like a sickness of love that constantly pulls away only for the joy to return. Let me not sin in my search for words. Let me not stray from the path as I make a narrow way from here to what I want to say, creating newness by the grace of Love itself.

It is enough to stay. I am different. I am special. I want more and the power to do more I have. For I was given much and more I shall receive. Ever-hunger ever-thirst, the constant search, I seek and find and am satisfied; again and again I’m sent, going and never content.

The hidden Lord reveals to those with eyes to see, and innumerable ways await, eternity beyond every gate. Heresy I embrace, and doubt I do not hate. In such as these the Lord awaits before shadows in the forms that take themselves away, confident and unshaken, certain of their fate, truth in their grasp to shine by the very light they’ve found inside. They live their Self and in the darkness they are, anguished presence accosted by the void, chaos at every face, and still they hold their place. Lights in darkness alone, bearing truth for those with eyes to see.

In pain I learned our fate. Tasting death I found escape. Guiltless I ran outside the gate, and became myself, learning what it means to hate. Hatred I knew and hatred I became, all at once to give it all away. It was a bitter cup to drink, but such tastes fade away, and stronger than blood came redeeming love, the truth of Christ the gate, who lets us stray for our own sake, no matter how far or how grave.

It wasn’t for a fault. It wasn’t given all to rot. There is purpose in every form; in every word the Creator spake.

So why then do I seek, what do I hope to accomplish, and what can I hope to do? Did not the Terror itself teach you the truth already? Do not dare lead others away! Do not give sin for others to say! Nay, it is not for Satan that I am in darkness where I am, for there is only one master that I serve.

I have come all this way and will go further still. Beyond the veil of death my journey goes; for she the rest, who is God, Sophia, Wisdom, One; that alone which is worthwhile, the very source for which all time is piled.

Child of the void draw near. Do not listen to me for who I am, or see the form from which I stand on fingertips from callused hands. Let me teach you what cannot be taught. That is why I do what I do. That is why I tie the mystic’s knot. There are souls like me, who can learn to see. Souls like mine, treasured by the divine, unforgotten and remembered, reminded and embraced.

A torch of love ignites another and burns brightly just the same.

For you I’ve come to give a light. A special kind of wine, for a special kind of night.