Neurotypical's Guide to Autism

It’s like this groupie:

Autistic people are all different. You can say the same, but to us you all pretty much look the same. However, there is something general that autistic people have in common:

We are extraordinarily sensitive to subtle stimulus you likely ignore, find negligible, and are not concerned by. This may not seem like a big deal to you, but I assure you the problem is very severe. If you felt this kind of discomfort, you would not think it “trivial”, “negligible”, or otherwise easy to ignore.

That difference changes our value judgments so that many normal goods become less important or good because the subtle problems are worse than the good. Thus, we tend to separate from the groupies who tolerate what we find intolerable. You do normal things I find horridly unpleasant, and I go to greater efforts to do good things you think are too much effort and would rather ignore the subtle shite you don’t notice than do any actual labor.

I don’t give a fuck. You people are extremely hateful, hostile, and physically agressive to me because I am autistic, and I am not going to be nice to you. I am going to show you that disabled people have rights in civilization just as privileged people do, and those rights will crush you savage, ungrateful numbskulls like bugs in a court of law.

That’s about all you need to know. So when you turn on that bull shit “suppression field” or whatever you call your EMF torture device intended to oppress people and manipulate populations, it is extremely noticeable to me and I do not like it. It is so noticeable, I am going to uproot your entire conspiracy just to make it stop with out giving any fucks to why you think you need to use such an evil thing.

Imagine if that was happening.

Is that legal?

No. Obviously not. That is abominably criminal, inhumane, and monstrous.

Is that actually happening?

Yes.

You are going to be crushed like insects and all of your conspiracy will be uprooted with all of your minions thrown in prison.

That’s one of the things that makes you bullies so horrible to us and why you enjoy bullying us so much. Those little things you think are little things are not so little to us, and it’s not because we can’t handle what you can that you think you can mock us over and torture us with. It’s because that thing is very unpleasant to us and interferes with everything we do because of how much the discomfort distracts with anything and everything, including basic life needs. Normally you are not needed to accomodate us for something like this, because we can just make a private modification to our clothing, choose our preferences with more importance for some things, and avoid what is problematic, and you might not ever notice the problem. That is one thing, but there is also a cognitive dissonance that causes us mental and emotional stress when we notice it. Why? I don’t know. I’m not a psychologist specializing in mental disorder pathology, psychiatrist with expert knowledge about neurology as it pertains to consciousness and stimulus, or some other scientific medical specialist who would be better able to tell you why.

I am capable of writing words that are reasonable, clear, and understandable in regard to very difficult things to explain, and I am pleased to say that is actually rather useful, I would think. In any case, I imagine it is similar to PTSD with a trigger response that is much less extreme. For whatever reason, those cognitive dissonance triggers subtle discomforts for most people which they ignore, accept as an unavoidable consequence for a greater good, and ignore. While that may be true at the beginning, I think that problem tends to get worse because people ignore it and then gain a maladaptive response to disregard the problem as not a problem at all, when the problem hasn’t changed and does in fact still exist for the same reasons that were problematic at the beginning. That maladaption then leads to decisions that do not factor the problem into the decision making process when it should be and result in making it worse and causing much more consequences that could be avoided if the original problem was considered in relation to them, and in fact those consequences are far worse than what the cost would be to address the initial problem.

There is a well known autistic woman named Mary Temple Grandin, who studied animal behavior and has made substantial contributions to improving the humane treatment of livestock and improved the industry overall with her contributions that have had both direct and indirect positive results.

Do you see where I am going with this? There is already a problem with livestock agriculture that we accept as a necessary consequence of agriculture, and I insist that you do not call that evil. It is not evil when a snake eats a mouse or a man eats a cow, that is just nature. However, it is a problem because we love our livestock and its normal for people to feel sad or upset when they are killed and then turned into a steak that they eat anyway and forget about how sad they are. That is a problem, but it is one we live with, and why some people are better suited for— “slaughterer” is the designation? — I’m changing that. “Slaughter” as a word has other connotations, and they need a more dignified title that is less crude. Some people are better suited for livestock… murder. Just kidding. Livestock… processing doesn’t sound cool enough. Livestock… cleaning.

There. That’s what you call it when you hunt and gut a deer, and it is a good word to describe what is being done to dirty, scary work people would think is evil if they didn’t know better. That which could be “evil” if you were killing humans or random animals without a reason, is being “cleaned” to be good enough for human consumption. They are technically removing sin from the act of eating meat, and that is holy work that both a hunter and a farmer does for the greater good. That’s an good and noble profession, and why you trust good people to do it, but they don’t need much in the way of required qualifications to be capable of learning the profession. They should be trained and not allowed to just do the job without special instructions to be efficient, effective, and humane, trained how to use the tools for job safely, and given practice with supervision until they demonstrate their ability to be successful without supervision, but I doubt you need a college degree in agriculture to be able to do that kind of work, but that’s not different from the fact that you don’t need a college degree to repair expensive, highly complicated machines. You would need the agriculture degree to be the boss of the entire livestock process from purchase, growth, care, breeding, cleaning, sale, etc. but any one of those they could probably teach you what was necessary if you had a mind to learn. Not back in the day, but now it is a lot more complicated than before, and I would expect that if I were going to hire someone to manage my cattle farm, and I would hire someone else to manage my crops.

Anyway there we go, that problem is solved with the right word now and which I have clarified with the divine authority invested in me because of whatever reason I have divine authority. The “cleaning” is what makes that not a problem. I think that is probably the practical link between ancient pagan religion and ancient monotheistic religion. That’s why you shouldn’t be antagonistic to polytheists. The monotheist may run the entire estate as lord accountable to the king, but they polytheist has a dynamic world of innumerable realms within those singular concepts that need to function in harmony with the singular concept. There is no reason to be hostile to eachother. Just as some people prefer to serve in a military as an officer, others prefer to serve as enlisted, and there is no difference in their human value for that preference. I suppose it all depends on personal identity. Some people want to keep their hands clean, and some people want get their hands dirty, and why? Idk and idc. We both have equal rights no matter our race, religion, or blood type. Pros and cons I guess, personal values, life circumstances…

So it’s like that, if you think you can ignore the problem of it being upsetting to kill and eat animals when you love animals, life, and care about all creatures because they are all good in their own way, then maybe things got out of hand and they invented ways that made it easier to kill animals but made the problem of why it is unpleasant to kill them worse because animals were unhappy, scared, or caused unnecessary pain, which includes psychological pain relative to an animal’s mind. This maybe caused consequences that were both direct and indirect and someone autistic noticed, and found intolerably upsetting for the distress they personally felt about what they cannot ignore. Their cognition is being triggered with a negative stress response, which although isn’t immediately traumatic, can be traumatizing over time, the same way smoking cigarettes causes trauma to the lungs over time, except perhaps result in greater mental health disabilities to include diagnosable autism that was previously unidentified because of new symptoms that are manifesting. Idk, just a rough hypothesis.

The point is that just because you don’t notice the problem the way someone else is, does not mean the problem doesn’t exist, which is why it is most important to listen clearly and carefully to what is being explained so you can understand the problem without feeling it. If they have trouble explaining, do not disregard their problem as non-existent, because you likely have the authority to do something about it and they are not the only ones suffering, but even if they are, you should help them if you can. Please make an effort to understand, find someone else who can facilitate communication, and try to find a solution that works best. You will be glad you went through that extra effort later.

So idk what to tell you. All of my life circumcisers were negative influences to me with their presence, energy, and passive hostility. Over time I naturally avoided that problem to be away from the stressor because it seemed like something I simply had to accept in life, and I couldn’t even identify what the stressor was as a child. I didn’t know. Then I became an adult, joined the Navy, was just as weird as I’ve always been without being a problem, and then struck out on my own, and it was like… that problem became hyper focused on me like a god damned concentrated laser beam, and I knew exactly what was happening.

That is intolerable to me. Just because you people have gone on to tolerate the problem that circumcising a child is, because that is a problem and you should not feel okay about that, does not mean you can make the problem worse by doing what you are doing with circumcision now that you are ignoring that as a problem with a maladaptation that disregards the negative stimulus to your consciousness that problem evokes.

I don’t give a shit what you think you have the authority to do, how insignificant you think I am, or why you think you are entitled to do what you are doing, but I cannot live with the suffering you are causing me. I am autistic. It fucks with my mind a lot more than I think you realize. I simply cannot live a normal life while I am experiencing that discomfort, so I am going to solve the problem and make that discomfort go away with an agreeable solution that is reasonable, good, effective, without cost, and simply the right thing to do. However, to do that, you are going to have to acknowledge the original problem your maladaptation is ignoring, because guess what that problem is dissonant with: human rights. If you ignore that problem, then the entire concept of human rights becomes corrupted with that dissonance and you lose accurate and reliable judgment about matters concerning human rights, which are universal and most vital to government purpose and a prosperous civilization.

Don’t freak out about what needs to happen because you are afraid of what you are ignoring. You need to acknowledge that, face that fear, and resolve it or your problems will only get worse until civilization is no longer protecting human beings and becomes anarchy, chaos, and returns back to tribal systems of brute tyrants, kings, and survivors. All will be fighting over dwindling resources that are not being replenished without a lawful society and efficient government.

You do not realize yet how fucked you people are. You’re like:

“Well if you are Christ then where is your lightning bolts as you fly out of the sky and destroy everything with magic god powers?”

You think I can’t do everything necessary alone and without help, and thus are testing me as some kind of mythical miracle worker you want to see the impossible from? I can do everything, but I don’t need that supernatural bull shit. All I need is human ability and I will go through every single on of your offices, give the orders necessary, sign the papers, ask the questions, and not stop until everything is done, because that is all the power that is needed to save everyone. However, I expect a lot of people are going to be upset that I am doing their job for them when they are hired to be doing that job, went to fancy ivy league schools, and worked for decades to have the experience for that job. I don’t know why they didn’t do their own jobs, but the people who employ them, all the citizens, will have every right to be mad that they are not doing the jobs they are employed to do. At the very least, I expect them to be fired, but considering that I am the Christ, they are denying me, and they are government leaders in a time of war, I demand they be given the death penalty as is just and right for their conduct.

If I need to turn on the cameras myself, walk back around in front of them, say what is necessary, send it to everyone’s tv, I will, but why the fuck are all of you going to be standing around while the Christ does all of your jobs and you test whether or not he is a human being capable of human actions? Are you not embarrassed to be seen by the Christ avoiding work like that? Who pays you? Tax payers? Is the Christ not a tax payer and a veteran who secures our national borders? So what is he going to think about you not doing what he employs you to do and instead has to personally leave his private residence, his throne of heaven, and go all the way down to your miserable little office in the world and do your work himself. I expect he will want to punish you the same way I do.

You who think you have a right to "punish" me

Who the fuck do you think you are to me to be in any position to punish me? You would make the mistake of insulting a man by punishing him for his behavior like he is a child and you are his father or mother?

The very notion is upsetting to think about, and I intend to make you pay the consequences for that mistake, because I am greater than my father and my mother both, and they have no authority over me. None at all. You couldn’t be in a worse position for yourself thinking you could manipulate my life or do anything to me as though you were a parent.

However, you want me to ask my parents for help, well, that’s you in this delusional fantasy of yours isn’t it? You are the one trying to punish me for behavior you find disagreeable even though you never met me, don’t know me, nor know better than me. I posted it a while back saying, “Can you spare a million dollars?” That’s you. Give me money.

How could I ask people who are beneath my dignity for help? They cannot possibly help me. They would only cause me further injury, make my life worse, and compound my problems. They are my enemies, hostile to my well being, and I wouldn’t trust them for anything, especially not for any sort of assistance. That’s pretty much the same way I feel about you in the government pretending to be some sort of parent to me, or you who the government sold me like a slave to, which is the same thing as far as I’m concerned because that is not something that washes off one’s hands.

I’d rather ask the beggars on the street, who are equal in dignity for help, but what could they do in a situation like this? They have more than enough problems as it is. How can I ask a bank for help when you have to already be rich to be able to borrow money at all? It’s not even about lending money to people anymore, it’s a scheme for rich people to collect interest. Ask rich people for help? I tried. Nobody responds to me. Maybe it’s because of this social blockade you have around my life, making you entirely responsible for my problems and my care. So, what the fuck are you waiting for?

If you think you can punish me, why can you not provide for my basic needs? Why can you not do anything a parent or teacher does? Why do you provide no socialization, no human compassion, no friendship, nothing at all. You simply punish me for reasons I can only guess at which is no punishment. That is bullying, torture, and abuse.

I am not so helpless as you may think. I am not so weak as a child. I am not so subject to your authority as you would like to believe. The greatest pain is separation from the divine, and that is what I have done to you between me because you are a leech who contributes nothing divine through that bond and I don’t need you. I am not your God, and you are most certainly not God because you are a leech. I have a bond with the true source, and you attempting to make one like that with me is an attempt to remove the one I already have. You will not enjoy the benefits of that through me as the enemy and adversary you are. I immediately severed that possibility between whoever you are and whoever I am before you could even try to do something like that, just as I severed that possibility between my biological parents. So, if you thought you were getting some kind of divine feedback, you are mistaken, and since you have been behaving as though you have been getting feedback, you are likely going to start experiencing the consequences of all of your mistakes starting from the beginning relatively soon.

It is interesting for me to ponder now that I think about that. It’s kind of difficult to explain but it’s like the very concepts of “mother” and “father” or parents in general were what I severed from my personal divine source of self-identity in my neurocognitive network of concepts and thoughts. Not just the people, but the very concept of a mother or father is something I will never trust. I find the very concept of people walking about as parents as though they deserve respect or “mother’s day” and “father’s day” to be horrid abominations I can barely stand to suffer in public without causing a scene expressing my hatred instead.

Seriously. Circumcision. Case and point. I will never trust parents nor should you. They do not love you, they do not want to help you, and they are not doing anything good for you. Cut them off from your life just to be safe, at least until an age comes when parents and old people are no longer a threat to our lives and future.

Like I write elsewhere: I have no interest becoming a parent or having children. None. Zero. Zilch. I actually feel morally superior for that too because the reason is that I would not curse a human being to be alive in this time, in this nation, and on Earth with other people the way they are. I would not bring a person into existence just so they could suffer, be oppressed, be miserable, and have no hope of enjoying even the smallest goods of life, like entertaining media, because that just isn’t possible anymore. Even if there is a worthy work, the enjoyment is impossible because of the global and international injustice that ruins all enjoyment for everyone.

If you people at fault were having any fun, why do you covet my fun?

I very much want to commit suicide, but it’s difficult to arrange that. I explained this elsewhere. It’s not because I hate myself, or decisions I’ve made, or anything to do with me, more so the unpleasant, boring, and mean-spirited world of evil that amplifies my depression and is not even worth the time to even fight except as personal exercise to divert my attention and prevent boredom. Kind of like physical fitness for enjoyment, except whatever. Who cares. Nobody who matters to me even sees this stuff. It’s all devoured by my most hated enemies, people I have no respect for, and people whose opinion I care least of all about. However, I’ve always had good old Tom Riddle’s journal as my companion, and that’s still working even now.

Part of why I fight is also to provoke them to kill me, because that is easier than killing myself. In the good old days we could do that and get crucified or put in a coliseum to fight to the death, but… all the good stuff has been banned by pussies and assholes who want to control every aspect of everyone’s lives and then ruin them with shit so they can laugh at how upset people become when that happens.

Seriously. I’m not an advocate of violence as the answer, but that’s why they conspired to drive people toward killing each other as a means of controlling their lives. Whatever, I’ll fuel the flame too so war and killing can start again because that’s more fun and more likely to get me killed than anything else as far as I know. It’s also the only answer right now because the tyrants are unreasonable, uncivilized brutes who only understand violence as a means of communication. The question is, who is going to strike the sparks, because I’m preoccupied with fuel at the moment.

I will never accept what you do

As far as I can tell, the USA government has created a scheme of formal elitism among video game players. They find individuals, bring them into some secret hub where they all gather and then hack into people’s video games to manipulate the computer’s role and personally antagonize the player. They target individuals they find incompatible with their own jaded personality and then interrupt their gameplay by any means necessary. These people are not gamers. They people are parasites, evil, and have turned what used to be my favorite form of entertainment into their own personal means of bullying me. They know how important video games are to me, and since they have experience with video games themselves, know how to ruin everything that is fun about them. Then, when I get angry because the game is no longer fun and I notice there is unjust, unwanted, nonconsensual invasion of human beings in my PlayStation, they become amused, knowing they are protected by government secrecy the government would rather kill every last citizen than have their schemes exposed.

This is consistent with the kind of malignant parasite the government has become, which is experimenting on a large populous of human beings with pseudoscientific assumptions that are entirely unsubstantiated, disproven, and hostile to humanity. They have invented technologies that have not undergone any kind of valid review for their safety and ethical use, and are using those technologies on the populous to collect data from people about what their “machines” are doing.

Again, as far as I can tell, the only purpose of that experimental technology is to disrupt people’s lives, cause them suffering, distress, and pain. Then they get measurements about when people react, how they react, and other useless information that will never be any value because humans will never accept a society that makes people unhappy on purpose. Especially not in prisons were people need the most patience, compassion, and commitment to their well-being. Even still, their experiments are poorly designed and the data will be inadmissable into any scientific community because it is unreliably inconclusive other than: our technology causes people to suffer.

Whooptie doo. Now you are going spend the rest of your life in the Leavenworth Panopticon, just to learn that your evil EM device is in fact evil and causes people suffering. Why the hell you needed to experiment on that can not ever be answered, because there was never a need, you were simply playing with human lives like that weird neighbor kid in the Toy Story movie who fucked with his toys. Human beings are not your play things, not your objects of experimentation, and not your experiment, and the hubris of you trying is nothing new, but the incompetence of a president putting you to task in the USA is unprecedented. Both need to be punished most severely.

First of all, nobody would ever want what they are doing. No gamer would ever enjoy what those control freaks are trying to do by disrupting game design. How could they have ever stood out as gamers in the video game world if they did not realize how bad of an idea they are being employed by taxpayers to do to ruin our entertainment. They are like a DnD dungeon master, except not a master, not a friend, not playing a game, and we don’t even know who they are as people. Nor did we go to the table by choice to play a game with our friends. They force themselves on us, stay hidden in anonymity, and then bully us because… why? Guess.

What do you people find to be your favorite activity?

What do you people “can’t help” yourselves stop doing?

What is the difference that you people think you are superior than humanity to ever delude yourselves into such a monstrous conspiracy as though it had any credibility, purpose, or use?

That is why the Jews are going to die. What you ruined for me, I ruined for you. The Jews being taken away is going to take away their circumcision culture, and they will be hated, all that they do will be reviled, they will learn that they cannot do their “favorite” “most dangerous game” any more. Without the Jews supporting all of you mutilators, you will not have any teeth, not have any claws, not have any voice, not have anything. You simply be misbegotten abominations, and fortunately for everyone else, you will be confined in prison and not a danger to anyone else again.

Because you people were evil about circumcision, all of circumcision is going to go away and I already accomplished that. I didn’t need your permission, approval, or anything from you, and do you know why? Circumcision is inferior, and I can banish it from this world as easily as their false-god created it, because that was no God. That was a sociopathic monster like you who wanted to experiment on large populations and accomplished nothing but causing people suffering.

So stop trying. Get out of my video games. You don’t belong there, I don’t want you there, and if you don’t stop on your own, you most certainly are going to spend your lives in prison for one of the most monstrous hate crimes against humanity to have ever been engineered by sadistic psychopaths with no moral compass, no empathy, no compassion for human suffering. You need all those if you are going to study populations, you pitiable wretches, but it is too late. You have already done the worst of what you wanted, and I will not let it go without legal dispensation in court, where all that you did, how, and who you worked with are dragged out of hiding, no matter how long it takes, how many lives are disrupted, and how many organizations are affected. If you have one of these people among you, you need them gone as well.

To think that you people would try to call yourselves my “friend”… it makes the barren arrollo of my empty tear ducts want to weep for how sad that makes me feel. I don’t know why, I can’t explain it right now, but I know what a friend is, and you people couldn’t be further from who those people are and what that bond is like. You are either lying, or you have never had a friend in your entire life, and you ought to take a look at your own life and consider why that is, because I don’t want to keep pointing out the obvious to you. Eventually, you need to open your eyes and see, because you are not really blind, you are only afraid of the light revealing the world around you. A world you created for yourself, a world that is your own personal, private reality, and you have no one to blame but yourself for allowing that to happen.

Every day I wish, hope, and pray for that evil to end. I wish, hope, and pray that someone in the Senate, White House, Supreme Court is going to realize that they are responsible for those people’s actions by diverting funding to them and passing secret laws about their activity. When is one of them going to turn away from evil and do what their jobs were created for. Why are all of them the same in this evil? The kind of crimes against humanity they are doing are some of most horribly unproductive, self-destructive, and criminally inhumane abuses of elected power, and I find it hard to believe that there are that many people alive in the world who would ever accept or allow such things to happen with their approval by not doing anything to stop it. That is their very job as a government protecting our homes from threats foreign and domestic, and by not doing anything, they are endorsing that to happen.

Someone help me wake them up by any means possible. Somebody help me shock their senses so they break whatever evil illusions they are under and finally see how much better everything would be if they were not evil. I’m doing all that I can… all that I can think of… and each day my despair and disappointment grows as humans prove to be more and more apathetic and approving of evil with their inaction. When one bully targets a victim and there are ten people around who laugh along with them, don’t stop, but also aren’t the main aggressor, they are all just as guilty as the main aggressor for not stopping him, but you all have gotten in your kicks, your attacks, your violence— haven’t you? Is that how you want to die? Knowing the kind of person you grew up to become as your last thoughts… would you be content with how you lived, with the meaning of your existence, with what kind of story could be told about you if all of your actions came to light, as they will? I’m not threatening you with hell, I am curious to know. How does that make you feel, knowing that despite all you have done to hurt me, I haven’t even be scratched, dented, damaged, or harmed at all by you people. Knowing all that you have done, failed at, and are being told how wrong, pathetic, evil, and inadequate you are as human beings by the very person you assaulted. How does that make you feel? Do you want to live every day feeling that way? Doesn’t it get worse each day?

I would never be anything like you people. I value life, I enjoy what is good for myself, and others enjoying what is good for them. I never think about crushing a person’s joy as a means of giving me joy, because that does the opposite and makes me sad. I want to live a life with meaning, make a difference for the better in people’s lives, help humanity rise out of the darkness of our animal nature with technology, wisdom, and civilization, and I want people to think fondly of me when they remember whatever memories we share, but I do not put on appearances to have them believe I am anything other than myself. I do my best to be good, think fondly of them, encourage others, be helpful, not be a burden, and do all that I can to make a good memory, for their sake as well as mine. Do see why I would never descend down to your level of dehumanizing lowliness? I experience what is much, much better, and I would not do anything to change that for the worse or descend into what I know I hate, do not enjoy, and want to prevent happening to others. I will never experience what you people are, and thank heavens for that, but I also will never understand why you choose that kind of life for yourselves, so tell me: how do you feel?

On a scale of 1 to 10 of existential suffering about who you are and how you lived your life, 1 being hatefully suicidal because you hate who you are so much that you want yourself dead, knowing what you’ve done, and 10 being content and satisfied with how you lived. That’s about as good as life can get as far as I know. I don’t think there would be anything better than feeling the way I feel now about myself, but if you know, feel free to share. I am never too proud for correction or for learning something new, even if it changes everything I thought previously. So what is? Are you totally content with your decisions and want to keep doing them, or do you hate yourself for them? If you hate yourself, then why don’t you try something different, and see if you don’t start climbing up that scale and find yourself at a 10 instantly. The very moment you make the correct decision, when all your burdens, guilt, and hate vanishes and you suddenly have abundant energy and motivation.

That will happen, and it is a religious experience for many because of the reasons why they changed, and what they can say about their lives, but in basic spiritual science, it is the force of your conscience breaking out of wall that you buried it behind so you could ignore. That conscience is divine natured energy imparted into creation the moment the universe came into existence, and later into your soul when you were conceived. You were not yet a human being, but you were human becoming. Then you were born into this world… this evil, hateful, vile, corrupt world we all inherited, and the sludge of all that filth somehow blocked you up and you totally forgot that divine part was even there. So when that breaks through, it truly is a divine experience of nature, as light illuminates all the darkness in your life, and even though there are horrors and tragedies you don’t want to see, there are also beautiful and amazing wonders so good to know that you will never regret the change that opened your eyes to all there is.

That is the kingdom of heaven, and it is all around you, within you, and everywhere else. When you first see it… you may not be where you want to be, but that is not permanent. Just like in life where we are free to go where we want, so too in spirit. You who would be Christ… are you suited to sit on the throne of heaven and earth above all creation? Be real with yourself, because there are consequences in heaven just as there are on earth, but the laws are divine, and if you don’t know the language of angels, chances are you can’t have them spelled out to you. Maybe you are suited for that throne, or maybe your time will come, but do not lie about the moment, because lies will only take you into darkness and shut all that light out once more, where you will have to be broken again to see how far you’ve fallen in death before you can begin your journey back to life anew.

You should never shut out the light if you want to descend in darkness, you need that close at hand because of what lurks in the darkness afraid of the light, and hungry to devour your soul.

What happened then? Did you shut out my light of the world? Then did that beast come for me, eat me, and then I returned and you don’t know what to think about all of it?

Good. That is not something you should understand, but even though you can shut off one’s light of the world, you cannot shut off the inner divine light of their soul. Just know that the beast is dead, and you don’t need to worry about people being eaten in darkness by something you can expect, control, and subject them to on purpose in a cruel pseudoscientific experiment of false mysticism and vain arrogance funded by a national government or world religion. That does not mean it is safe there, only that I know a more powerful beast that eats those ones you were playing with so foolishly. You will answer for the pain and suffering you caused, the lives lost, and the duties you betrayed.

The Soul of Life — that’s what you can all that divine energy which constitutes the self’s conscience. That’s what makes DNA spin. That’s why we get genetic sequence, not rando-scrambos. Everything trends toward that one divine energy in the universe. Even our social lives, economy, civil systems, and all else. That is why I keep emphasizing the one universal law - Good is loved, evil is reviled. Do good, reject evil. That should be obvious, but humans as I’m sure you know, can talk themselves into doing anything, lose their sense of moral direction, and cause a tragic and terrible catastrophe. Do not forget the one universal law to keep all that you do discernable from that constant point of reference.

I will never shut up about this, and for that you ought to be grateful, because someone tried to close humanity off from this truth, and I intervened to stop it. That’s what I’m doing now. This is not a religious matter, not a faith matter, not a mystical mystery to understand. It is a simple fact of reality. A law of nature. Scientific proof you need for divine mysteries, but is not the mystery itself. That law is plainly obvious and simple. There should never be any conflict about that. Seriously. All of the universe is in agreement with that. Everything. Do not be the one to go against the one universal law, draw the attention of the divine powers that be to yourself when you do, and get yourself rebuked into annihilation for being evil because you were a doodoo head. You ought to know better than make those kinds of mistakes.

What a genius plan of yours. Provoke the divine powers that be and try to capture, enslave, and harness them for power. What makes you think you are greater than God and could ever possibly enslave, capture, and control divine omnipotence? You people are out of your minds with ignorance by even discussing the subject of God as this, that, or there, as if you know what you are talking about. The very fact that you are pretending to know such a thing is proof that you don’t know jack squat! Have you never played a child’s game where someone pulls the “God” card and gets to break any and all rules to do whatever whenever and it doesn’t matter how or why? It’s like in rock, paper, scissors when someone is mad at losing and calls “God” to smack your hand away, because God beats everything and loses to nothing, and do you know why? God is nothing too, and only God can defeat God. Do you get it now? You people are out-of-your-minds loco and need serious mental health treatment for playing with human lives as if you know who is God and who is not.

You’re pulling the God card!? Really!? Fine, but that’s going to cost you five goats, cause now I know I already got them.

What’s that King Dump? You think you are God? Surpise, sucka. Cause you ain’t never seen the likes of this, and I just baked this up in my workshop for the hell of it five minutes ago for my own enjoyment. It looks like I’d be damned if I didn’t get the timing perfect too cause of what y’all conspirators where tryin’ to pull by doing the same thing for evil. Dang…. good thing y’all had me around to match them God-for-God and blast that pretentious, perverted fake out of existence for being evil, a liar, and a desolating abomination no creature alive wants to see. Even the stones of the earth were shuddering by being forced to share the same gravity with that vile thing. Begone foul beast! Back to the books with you, because you’ve got a lot to learn if it takes that many of you and all them resources to throw out a God card.

The horrible sound

Not long ago… maybe a month or two, maybe more (I don’t keep track of time so it is hard to say)… the sound started. I don’t know how else to describe it, other than as a high pitched frequency that is ridiculously loud. It is horrible sounding… makes me feel sick, distracts my thoughts to make it hard to focus, and is terrible.

It feels and sounds like some sort of technology being used inhumanely, and the only people I would suspect capable of such evil with no regard for the humanity they are affect are Jews, but I have no evidence of this so… I suspect the government because it is the kind of technology the government would have had access to which could be perverted by a simple minded fool who decided to use it for evil. Like the “comms laser” in the science fiction novels The Expanse. A communications array that is given a power supply that greatly exceeds its function and produces an electromagnetic radiation beam in the form of concentrated radio waves.

In any case it sucks. I want it to stop. This wasn’t happening several months ago, and I think it is affecting everyone in the general vicinity of my apartment.

Maybe it’s just severe tinnitus? Probably not. It is abnormally loud and clearly coming from some exterior source.

Idk… just writing it down now. What could they hope to accomplish with such an evil use of technology? Why would they use communications technology for the antithesis of communication?

How are you supposed to even get help for this kind of thing?

I’ve got nothing else to say other than to record for legal purposes how unpleasant it is to feel that device being broadcast in my direction. It makes my stomach upset, it is loud, obnoxious, distracting, and makes me feel unwell. They shift the power up and down, but eventually it stops and I feel better. Probably there is a change of watch. I wonder if that is the authorized use of that equipment…

What are they trying to do? What do they want? Why are they like that? Do they have a problem with me? What could that problem be?

These are all questions I want answered, but they have yet been able to answer. Maybe someday they will be found by the FCC who will know how to communicate to them the severity of the crime they are committing, which they are ignorant of, and punish them accordingly.

They seem to think that kind of domestic terrorism is okay because it is waveform technology, but do not realize how dangerous of a threat radio theory has always known that type of technology to be, and that is why organizations like the FCC exist at all. Radio waves and sound waves can be used to kill human beings invisibly. Any sort of abuse of that technology is as dangerous and inhumane of threat as biological or chemical weapons, if not worse.

It’s also possible I have a brain tumor, like my grandfather had. I suppose we won’t ever know because there are no medical services available for poor people. I wonder how he afforded brain surgery… well, that was a different age and we don’t have the luxuries of that kind of medical help anymore.

Brain tumor around his temple that after the surgery left him deaf in that ear, but otherwise was fine as far as I could tell.

Yeah, can I have a brain scan?

No. We are the doctors here and you will not tell us what you need. Besides it’s too expensive for losers like you, but I’m not going to even consider why you think you need one since you specifically requested that.

Who the fuck do you think I am if you don’t realize I am a loser!? Do you have any idea how miserable my life has been with failure, loss, and disappointment? I have never had anything that I want. I had a novel published, but immediately after realized that I did not in fact actually want that. I wanted something else which only I could grant myself. The novel being published was a horrible experience and I never want to do that again because of how hateful that industry is. Exactly like that… you’d think being published would be a cause to be happy, but… something about it was horribly wrong, unenjoyable, and made it a terrible experience. I am pretty sure my contract is up now, but I don’t give a shit. Dig that book out of the trash if you want to read it later.

That is a horrible industry of the most toxic and hateful people… Not for me. No thanks. That is not why I wrote a book. I’ll do some flimsy, cheap thing I can patch together on my own and not give a shit, because I don’t need you people for anything. Surely that fool of a publisher felt himself smug with arrogance as though it was him granting me something I want, but that couldn’t be furthest from the truth. He revealed how much I hate people like him and that very industry, and that is not anything I wanted, but I know what to do about it by drawing a line between them and me and never letting them pass.

Did you media pretenders actually think I would accept your help into the industry? Get over yourselves. I don’t need you, that industry is disgusting, dirty, unclean, and makes shitty products that are not worthy of my quality of work. None of that stuff is worth reading, because even though it may be entertaining, it is false with incorrect messages that confuse readers who are unable to interpret them well enough to reject them while knowing the truth. I don’t need to waste my time with those people’s work, and I won’t. Let them pat each other on the backs and tell themselves what they want, but that is nothing to me, nor is their approval of my work important since they are so confused, ignorant, and false with their livelihood.

I am definitely a loser though because I don’t play their games when I realize they are playing a game, and if it is something that is not a game, they don’t realize how screwed they are, because I am not playing. So, just because I got what you want does not mean that I wanted that nor that I enjoy it. As I have come to realize, you people are so far beneath me in dignity and morality that you won’t ever be able to see eye to eye with me. The fact that they crank up the torture device when I write those words is proof of how ignorant, crude, and uncivilized they are without morality.

Wrath for the rich

Oh you rich people…

lovely maidens and decent hard-working folk that are upstanding citizens excluded…

oh you vile rich people…

You think you can do anything with the lives of us poor people.

You think you can use your money to move me about like a pawn for your false prophecy, decide my fate with your “deals” that never include me. You think that your economic and social privilege makes you some sort of “judge” over my decisions and thus you can edit my life like your personal entertainment or pet that only rich people can “enjoy”. You think you can sell my information as a human slave while working underneath me as servant of the law that is enforced in my domain of freedom. You think those laws which I follow by choice don’t apply to you because you are rich and you can bribe your way through the police department and I cannot afford such corruption. You think you are immune from exposure because you can hire attorneys to defend you, cover your tracks, and incriminate your enemies while poor people cannot get any legal defense except when you attack us for sport and bring us to the court room. You think that just because you can intimidate your underlings to do what you want by holding them in dependency of your scraps, that they are loyal.

You rich people think that you can do that because you have been able to get away with doing it for so long, but you have never been able to do that, and you will not get away, nor will those who came before you, no matter how old or dead they may be. We will find them, bring to light what has been hidden in darkness, and they will be condemned while they rot in their grave at the very least.

The fact that something is possible does not mean you have a right to do it, especially when it concerns another person’s life.

What could be so dangerous about a fucking with just one unloved poor guy? What can he do to someone like the president? He is defenseless against a president’s corrupt unofficial payroll for a private army. Look at him scream, suffer, and cry out for help, breaking down on the brink of suicide over and over again! Let’s give him another push while he tries to get on his feet and laugh at him when he falls over in the mud again. Let’s display him suffering in front of our rich friends at a party while we make a show of power over human beings who have no control over what we, the rich, and few are doing to them. That is true power is it not? That is what it means to be a god, no?

What happens when they fuck with the most fucked up person in the world? A person who is already unraveled, unhinged, and barely hanging on to his sanity.

Ah, he really is having a hard time with this sport. I've never had so much fun! Let’s see how much of a reaction we can get out of him! How good it is to be rich!

I am going to get you people back. I am going to get every last one of you. I am going to make a spectacle out of what happens to you on such a scale that rich people in the future will be terrified of merely looking at a poor person in the wrong way, and never dream of interfering in our lives without explicit, signed, and legal consent. They will fear the accident of a misplaced glance because of what will happen to them in their time, and all because of what happened in my time. All because of what happened when a rich person bullied, tortured, and dehumanized the most fucked up man in the world, who also happened to be the most important and powerful man in the world. Powerful in ways you did not believe was possible. Far more powerful than you could ever hope to be, and we both know it, as well as your friends when they watch you react to what I am doing to you from down here, poor as poor can be.

He thought he couldn’t be reached, that rich, evil fool. He thought he was safe in his tower and would be protected by the United States military forever since he was president. He thought he was truly a god! He thought he would never be found out because someone before him made a secret law for a classification that only the president could access, and neither Congress nor the Supreme Court could know what happens in there, and they agreed to it! Certainly the public doesn’t know. The public has been kept out of the loop for over fifty years now! They’ll never be allowed to know what the government is planning!

No matter how this plays out, I am going to get you back. I don’t know how just yet, because it’s going to be difficult since it needs to be very, very, horrible, eye-avertingly wrathful suffering upon suffering with no end— an eternity of pain to experience for eternity, but it also needs to be appropriately lawful. That may take some time for a man like me to work out how to make happen, but I will. That I can promise you. After all, am I not Nick Bylotas, the Return of the F****** King?

Taylor Swift… you are involved in what they are doing but you do not realize how out of your depth you are in. You do not realize the kind of danger you are in. I will help you if I can, because I know you well enough ever since I heard your first song on the radio. That was… 2005? Sometime in high school.

If I’m going to help you, I need to know what happened to you, and so do you. Where you went wrong, so to speak.

Today I played your first album for some reason, and I realize what happened.

Just another picture to burn. You were poisoned by what I call a… maiden shank. Now… you probably didn’t do a full shank thrust, like others do, but you don’t have to do the direct and complete evil act to be affected by the corruption of evil. It was probably just a small prick of the skin to someone who was asleep if I had to wager, because you were pure of heart and couldn’t bring yourself to go through with it.

“Hang around with all of your best friends!”

That’s where you went wrong. Let me tell you why: we don’t care about stuff like that. That doesn’t affect us. We don’t get jealous like that. If we are through, you cannot make us jealous. You missed your chance unless you come back, and if you try to whore around to “get back” at us that will only backfire on you. Someone like the guy in the song, who is like myself, needs to grow up for themselves before they can give anything to you of ourselves. We don’t have anything to give you until we make it on our own and actually are standing on our two feet. That’s why he was likely not willing to go there with you. Simply not ready, and not interested in “pretending”, like so many fakers do. The reason why we are not interested in "pretending” is the very reason why I am in a position right now to write anything to you directly without ever having met you, and why you cannot find a man you like among so many others. They are all fake!!!

Part of being real and true, means not being dishonest with anything, even the smallest things or most private things you think only to yourself. If you grow up like that… you get truly good, and then when you make it on your own and stand on your own two feet like I am, you don’t even have to do anything, which is why we don’t get jealous. Other people aren’t competition in that way, and somehow we always knew that. You either see us or you don’t, and if you don’t, too bad, because that’s your problem, not ours.

So, I can help you with that. Just come befriend me the normal way. No disguises, no false identities. If I can’t abide with the fame of your popularity, that’s my problem, not yours, but I assure you I can. You people don’t intimidate me or impress me all that much. Some do, but it is not the fame and popularity that impresses me. It is another aspect of their pure hearts that I admire and respect, which is the same of any person no matter what they do, even if they aren’t famous or popular.

That’s one of the reasons why us poor folk aren’t all that interested in the money and status that rich people go crazy for. The respect and admiration of someone good and true is worth more than all the money can buy, all the fame can celebrate, and all else. For that, you just have to be good and true yourself because it’s not as easy as it may seem to be very good, and if you can do it, you will respect anyone else who does it and never feel threatened, jealous, or challenged by their goodness, no matter how much better they become if compared to you.

So… cease your dilly dallying and if you are going to cloak yourself in darkness, cloak yourself in light instead. Make a spectacle of your arrival as who you want to think you are by being in the darkness! Hiding in darkness like that is not for one’s vanity, pleasure, or fun. That is only done on that level because it is necessary and for reasons of the greatest importance that they are risking their life for by putting themself in extreme danger as a professional capable of handling any threat at all.

That’s not you, and I doubt you would want that if you understood what it was. Do not argue with me. Just walk out, and if you are afraid of having been seen by what is in the darkness and threatened by what they may do, hang around me until you learn what you need to not be. Did you know that one of the people in there was so inhumanely evil as the one at the beginning of this writing? Did you know that he is just a pawn in a larger scheme of people who are far worse?

Get out of that business at once, and take any other creative artists out with you that you can, even if you are enemies. You are enemies on a different level than what you are in the dark and can resume that later if you want. It would be different if you had a legitimate temple with priestesses and a mystery cult along with a rival on the other end of the temple quarter with a different goddess, but you do not have that. That is public, and that is real spiritual power, not an interpretation of idolatry that is confused as faith. Religion is not a trick, a scheme, or a conspiracy, and religion is not powerful because it is often backed by worldly objects like guns, money, and governments serving to protect it. Religion is powerful because it is true love.

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The Lord of the Rings. “One ring to rule them all, one ring to bind them…”

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Annnyway, the concept of the One Ring— let me fill you in: long ago, there were ten kings, one of them was Sauron. He made an agreement to form a circle of power with the nine other kings under the premise of sharing the power that he alone had access to which they did not understand was his. He made them each a ring of power and then a secret one for himself to have power over all of them.

Do you know what happened to those nine kings: the became undead wraiths of evil! They are not kings… the are not even men anymore. They have a cursed and corrupt existence of unnatural life very much like Gollum does.

Now, we are about to “undress the maiden” a bit here, but it’s necessary, so prepare yourself for a revelation.

Those nine kings are kings of men with kingdoms—nations so to speak. Sauron is also a king of a nation, but there is something more to it than that— he is a Jew. What do those nine kings all believe? Various forms of bull shit about Jesus the Christ and Allah and circumcision that they made up for their own vanity and ego. They do not realize that all Christians are beholden to the Jew king because that is the origin of all of their beliefs. That is why they became the slaves of Sauron and Sauron took all their power.

They do not have that authority in that religion that they all want to pretend they have, but the Jew is the only one who is justified to pretend because that is their Story and only their Story. The Bible and Qur’an is a Story about them and only them. They may wear different names or labels, but they are always the same Jews running the others around with a secret circle the others don’t know about.

That happened before! In history a bunch of idiots made that mistake, and someone made it right. They solved the problem by destroying that ring by carrying “the Christ” as themselves all the way to true love, where there is no maiden. There is only doom, despair, death, and destruction. Both Frodo and myself knew that from the beginning, but we were both best suited to destroy that damn accursed ring compared to the idiots squabbling over it as if they never heard of Jews before or ever thought to consider what the story of the Bible is about and why people care, because they do even if you do not.

No it’s not all that big a deal. I crush that god damn ring in my hand and turn it dandelion fluff to send off in the breeze, and do you know why? Sauron and the Jews are both pretenders of an idolatry that puts land before the divine. They have a religious faith that idolizes territory of the earth as their “holy land” and that is what has become their “God”. They are stupid. They started circumcising for land that was promised to them as their object of idolatry and they have never had a valid religion. That land cannot be given to anyone anyway, it is land! All that happened was they made a covenant with another pretender who was just some random dude doing an ancient social experiment.

Someone like me sees all that happening and stays far away from it to avoid conflict and enjoy the humble comforts of serenity and peace away from them. I don’t care, honestly. I believe in truth, know the truth personally, and don’t need other people to tell me theirs or confirm it. Also, they are wretched people and it is easier and better to live outside of civilization with less, than it is to live with a lot in civilization and suffer Jews as neighbors.

Except now… that’s impossible. There is nowhere left to go. So, I’m moving to the city, and first things first—- Jews begone! And Sauron puffs out of existence. That’s better.

Since I’m living here now, there are going to be some changes. First of all, you people have to wise up because you are all stupid for falling for that old Jew trick again. Second of all, here’s the new law to clean up all the filth you people are leaving everywhere— good is loved evil is reviled, do good, reject evil with no exceptions and zero tolerance. Third: while I’m up here, all the cute and lovely maidens may join me for fun and happiness you also didn’t realize was possible, while also learning the spiritual mastery of the secret mysteries of the true mystery cult I’m going to start to have something to do with my time so I don’t get bored.

Everyone else go away. Here is the Way of the Story. Connect the dots, then color it in, and if you have any questions ask a neighbor, look it up, and if you still don’t know, ask me directly by sending the person who owns the question.

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Why are you still here?

Go.

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Dehumanizing prisoners is torture

Isn’t that what the disaster at Guantanamo Bay was about?

Prisoners being dehumanized with some of the most insulting, malicious, and inhuman behavior by the guards who had no respect for their dignity as human beings. It is one thing to feel that way because of how you understand their ideology and choices, and another when you are making them suffer bodily.

Whatever the hell is happening to me does in fact feel like dehumanizing torture. The way they manipulate aspects of my life as though I were an animal in lab or zoo or cage, deny any free actions of my own and require all things to pass through them.

I cannot work the job I desire because they are preventing it, I cannot date the women I desire because they prevent my communication, I cannot do anything without my privacy being invaded and then that information is sold to people like non-bodily human trafficking as though I were not only an object, but one that was their personal possession and work to profit off of while I get nothing in return for that agonizing experience. It’s not painful bodily so much as it is existentially painful to my spirit.

That dehumanization is in fact torture, because it is affecting my body. When I am playing video games, using dating apps, or simply being in my apartment, their invasion of my privacy, and methods of interfering with me target my body. They never once offered an opinion, a reason, an explanation of what they want. Nothing. All they do is attack my body in ways they think is not bodily, but in this day and age, we know mental health conditions are physiological i.e. bodily, and not just a mental concept of the imagination. However, what they are doing is much simpler than that and is obviously an attack on my bodily person, through my human life which is non-bodily. By destroying my work, relationships, and enjoyment are how they are trying to hurt my body because they know those concepts have physiological affects.

That is what I am trying to get help stopping. It’s obviously very difficult for a torture prisoner to escape wherever they are being confined and how, so if you read this and can think of something, anything to help stop the government doing what they are, please do so. It could happen to you just as easily as it did me. I do not have a criminal record, I am a veteran with honorable service, and I should not be punished like a prisoner nor tortured like a prisoner in Guantanamo Bay except with new methods of inhumanity wretched people devised.

A few random things

First, I identify as my preferred wash cycle via the apartment community laundry room: ultra, hot, normal.

Second, as it concerns males of the mutilated variety, have you ever worn a pair of cheap boxers with a button that has some kind of imperfection so that it causes chafing on your junk? I was unlucky enough recently to wear such an article and it caused some minor discomfort on my forcefield gloryshield or what some people call “foreskin”. It occurred to me… “damn… that would suck if I didn’t have foreskin right now.” So, I just wanted to provide testimony to the benefits of the natural male body without the modification of circumcision.

Things like that happen to everyone from time to time. Just like something may cause a minor skin discomfort on your arm or leg, it can happen on your junk. While most occurances are typical of the human condition, if you find yourself sprouting new appendages, consult with your primary care provider unless one of the appendages is an extra dick. In which case you should probably show everyone in public so they can all admire your good fortune.

Third, please stop injecting viruses into my video games to hinder my enjoyment. Nobody likes that, and I probably hate it more than others because of the depth of value in video games I experience that the criminals at fault remain entirely ignorant of. It is a nuisance, it is criminal, and they do not understand the gravity of the wrong they are doing. I urge them not to think of me as a threat to them, though their destruction will be at my hand, but to consider the bigger picture of life, society, and reality that will be the one causing their destruction. I’m just the delivery guy on that account because they made the mistake of attacking me thinking I was weak and defenseless for being poor and socially isolated so that I couldn’t call for help.

For your own sake, stop the person who keeps instigating the bad behavior before everyone in his general vicinity is condemned with him as guilty by association. Not all of them are bad, some are helpful, but there is certainly only one person who is the root problem that needs to be reconciled.

Take note of that word: reconciled. You cannot just do away with the problem and ignore it. It needs to be reconciled. If you ignore it, push it away, hide it, or avoid it in any way, the problem is only going to get worse and worse in different ways that cause more destruction to the systems that are relevant to it. So, reconcile the problem. Identify it clearly as it relates to the parties of conflict, and then come to a mutual agreement that both can testify to in legal terms of writing.

For the Jews, you can use the Torah as their testimony in legal writing even if the criminal objects as an atheist or other goat fucker.

That needs to happen or it will only get worse and worse and worse for the people causing it by committing crimes against humanity upon my individual person without restraint, supervision, or governing legal doctrine that authorizes them. They are an abomination that needs to be reconciled by first removing from the rest of the system they should not be involved in, and then proceeding with the terms of agreement, even if they are unable to understand what they agreed to by choosing to do evil.

They agreed to being punished for evil, meaning sent to prison at the very least. That is the debt they incurred with their sins of abusing technology for torture, and no argument is going to change that because actions are more substantial than words. Criminal behavior needs to be addressed with lawful behavior that enforces justice through actions, and words are not sufficient. An apology requires an act of reconciliation with the person who was offended. It is inert and useless if they do not personally apologize to the person they wronged.

If the wrong was serious enough, they also must provide recompense and/or undergo rehabilitation until they understand that criminal behavior and evil conduct is wrong, why it is wrong, and why crimes require punishment. That rehabilitation is necessary to maintain peace in society based on mutual, neighborly trust between citizens and citizens, and citizens and government. Depending on the maladaptive arrogance of the criminal, that could take some time, especially if they are among the mutilated who fancy themselves as superiors because of their disfigurement and imagine themselves with delusions of divine right.

Their meddling was obviously apparent by the stark contrast between gameplay when I disconnected my internet provider’s equipment and continued playing offline. It was amazing. The way video games are supposed to be, and I demand to be able to enjoy them as such without the interference of nuisances who hack into the software to disable features, impose excessive limitations, and otherwise attempt to make the game difficult by modifying input responses to be self-destructive to the player. I do not want to have to keep unplugging my router.

The way you people listen to the evil doer responsible and trust whatever they say with no self-consciousness or reasonable assertion of your own interests which are in direct conflict with someone as selfish as that fool, is shameful of adults and children alike. So, I urge you to consider how easily you assent and adhere to the demands, requests, and excuses of the enemy, and then do the same with me, each other, and yourselves. It should be obvious why evil is ruled out when you consider doing that.

The way evil insists the best good must be eliminated, is actually the reason why evil is eliminated when they suggest it. The reason is the Christ. That happened once when the best good was eliminated and everyone learned how horrible that was when it was allowed to happen and it will never happen again for two reasons. Theologically, their argument for a spiritual necessity of divine and human sacrifice is already fulfilled in perpetuity in and through the Christ, Jesus. The other reason is because it’s common sense to not throw away ripe, fresh apples, and keep all the rotten, moldy ones, especially not when you are hungry and have nothing else to eat.

If you are a prisoner and given nothing to eat except dog food soaked in the guard’s urine, which he is not supposed to do, and you have no other choice to eat it to survive, does that mean you like urine in your food like the guard is insisting when questioned about it?

Oh yes, it is horribly humiliating and degrading to be in the situation I am, but it is not my fault, there is nothing I can do to change it, and I will endure and escape one way or the other. After being in such a nightmarish reality, can you ever expect a person to be the same? What can you possibly do to make up for the trauma that will forever taint a person’s perspective? How many lives will that affect when he may have been able to have normal relationships, or conduct business in the proper ways, or all manner of social interactions without traumatic injury like a chasm of distrust between them and all people?

That is not something you can ever make right… It can only be forgiven with divine authority, but that won’t happen if you cannot lay down your life in the name of the Christ as one with the Christ who atones for such monstrous and inhumanely evil sins that are beyond human ability to repay.

It’s not as easy as Protestants desire, the lazy fools. Should you go the path of the Christ, you will know crucifixion with the Christ, and it is because you share that excruciating spiritual experience with what he suffered bodily for you to have atonement that you can be forgiven… what will you have to do to meet him on the cross, pierced and spilling blood and water from his side? I cannot give you that answer. You must look deep within yourself to find it and though some may find that journey brief and direct, others may spend the entirity of their remaining mortality looking for it.

May I have mercy on your soul when the time comes, because their abuse of my humanity and dignity is such an offense that I feel what must be supernatural hate inside my being. A kind of response of righteous wrath that equates to the sin of evil, and it is more than I can carry alone. I can distribute it in creative media as good and enjoyable entertainment, but not while under such conditions of abuse. I can distribute it through intimate, private relationships of an unusual and rare kind that can accept it as healthy. Or I can distribute it like a monster of real life with the means available to me, similar to how the monstrous humans at fault used whatever was available to them.

That food has been served since the day I was born by my own family, and I have never eaten it. I do not need to eat it because I am fed with the bread and water of Life. Some call that the Christ, some call that YHWH, some call that Allah, some call that Krishna. I call that the highest divine, and that term best applies to my beliefs because it is impersonal, non-cultural, positively good, simple, and clear in meaning. It is most effective and powerful to express the truth more than any name a fool for a human could assign to it by thinking of it as though it were themselves by being a person behind a veil.

Let me ask you one final question, the rhetorical sort to leave you pondering evil and inhumanity: Is waterboarding prisoners or what happened at Guantanamo Bay torture?