Antrum, I suppose it's true...

So, there is the movie they had on Amazon Prime called Antrum, and supposedly, according to the urban legend, the movie is infamous for killing its viewers. Seriously. There was a whole documentary I didn’t watch before the movie that talked all about the haunted, morbid history of the film’s grisly life since first released in theaters. It was lost for a few decades, and people only talked about it being a movie, but I had never heard of it before (not surprising), and I imagine most people probably didn’t even think it existed if that was the case.

I guess they found it and now are showing it, and that’s what I’m writing about. Someday I’ll get back to watch the documentary they put together with the help of all their cousins and cousins’ friends to talk about the research of the paranormal events and haunted history. It looked interesting, but I wanted to get right to the meat of the matter, so I fast forwarded through until the film started playing, and then backed up a bit where they were talking about how different versions were found with unverified snuff films edited in where people had actually been murdered or something… I’m not sure what they were saying about that, because the film had scenes like that spliced in horrifically out of context from the plot of the movie, but maybe those were supposed to be there and more were added in later… or maybe those were what was unverified… I don’t know. Rather unpleasant to see, even if for a ghastly instant. It sounded like they had the real version, which most certainly would not have had snuff film in it as an official movie. I don’t think any self-respecting movie director of that kind of work of art would include real snuff, but what was shown was real enough to be believable, and I can’t say for certain what that was…

This movie was truly horrifying, and in the most subtle way I think I had ever seen. The terror I felt began almost immediately with the most eerie sensation of energy that opening scene presented. Nothing flashy or spectacular, and the movie was not particularly gory or with vivid scenes of fantasy violence or horror, but something about the sound, the home-movie style filming, and something else that I don’t know how to describe, made me sit up a bit in my seat and realize I was in for the real thing.

Aside from the plot, there was another presence in the movie that I suppose you could say spoke directly to the “fourth wall”, as in directly to the audience. What I mean is, all the extra elements that were spliced in for brief flashes of something that I never could see clear enough to know what I was looking at besides a group of words or a sigil of some sort. Then there was the snuff scenes… I didn’t know if those were going to be incorporated in later as out of place but with a place like in Memento, and I suppose they did, but not in context with the events in the story. In other words, there is a story being told, and another message beyond the story about something far darker and more personally relevant to the viewer by resonating with a level of subconscious knowledge akin to… something on the level of the fundamental personality archetypes. Base human nature before there were words to express ourselves.

Maybe that makes sense. I wasn’t even sure what I saw at first… lovers maybe? Two people barely clothed? I thought about pausing and seeing exactly what it was, but decided to just let it play through. Aside from that, the movie went on without anything particularly shocking with graphic violence or terrifying imagery, but the elements of the plot, what the characters were doing by digging a hole into to the “Antrum” (entrance) of Hell, and the natural setting in the wilderness with small elements of artistic directing here and there that were not attempts at illusion to frighten, but signs of revelation to illuminate the depth of terror that was increasing with each moment. Illuminating, yes, but with darkness, because these signs and symbols suggested a movement of away from divinity with eternal life to nature with mortal death.

I can affirm with my own personal authority as whatever I am, that being the occult way, the Left Hand Path. The Satanic Mystery. Knowing that while going with the characters in the movie added to the terror I was experiencing. That’s the kind of knowledge parents and preachers tell you not to seek and warn you to stay away from, and they are right to do so. Even still, like the kids in the movie, we go there anyway from time to time and for different reasons, and we don’t always come back alive. If we do survive, we also tell you not to go there, and it rarely works anyway, because we gain something from that harrowing journey that makes it seem profitable as only obtainable by the Left-Hand Path, but that is incorrect. That knowledge, power, and self-mastery we return with can be attained any number of ways, by any path, and you do not need to experience the desolation of the abyss to learn it.

There is a reason to go into the abyss, one that is to lose something and gain nothing, and that is for exceptional cases who have a piece of the “abyss” in them already for one reason or another. That kind of darkness should not be in a person naturally and is extremely rare by random chance or fate however you want to look at it when it is. The person with such misfortune is likely unhappy to the point of suicidal despair until they return the darkness to the source from whence it came— not in this world, but in the underworld— in Hell. That is the only way, even if they gained it through no fault of their own, and even if they don’t come back alive. That’s not something you can accidently misstep and just fall into btw, and most people who think they want that are going to turn away to get back where they need to be well before they find themselves anywhere near the mouth of the underworld.

That’s exactly why masters, teachers, and spiritual guides of the occult mysteries are always good to have around in society, and likely won’t be abundant because the demand for that work is small and it doesn’t pay well. If you are a happy go-lucky person, and were blessed with good fortune and better circumstances than most with a decent life, maybe not the best, but certainly not bad— then you likely don’t want to risk losing all of that goodness for no reward. More likely, you want spectacle, excitement, and mystery, and religion can provide that in all sorts of flavors. In those religions there should be an expert in the occult sciences/mystery who will be available, but that is not the kind of work like dentistry is, which everybody wants to done whether they like it or not, even if only once in their life. In a prosperous society most people should feel fortunate, blessed, and with good circumstances they don’t want to lose and they want to cultivate to become better and more blessed as time passes. So, you shouldn’t have to concern yourself with paranoia about occult masters and “dark lords” in your midst, nor do you have to do anything about us. We don’t want you meddling in our lives and are perfectly capable of taking care of our own business, and most likely make our best effort to comply with all social and civil requirements to safely abide by the law. All I’m saying is that if you discover someone is a professional of the occult sciences/mysteries, then do not jump to any conclusions about the kind of person they are. We come in all shapes and sizes like any other kind of professional, and our work is important to everyone, but most important to people who cannot be helped by anyone else.

Watching that movie evokes the power of that work being done, and I suppose that alone may cause a person to die, because that is the very same power of God except… pure darkness. It’s not something you can control, contain, master, or use and when it works… there is little you can do besides tumble into the rabbit hole and try to not break your neck. I want to say you don’t need to worry… but that’s what I believe was provoking my sense of terror while watching the movie, and if that is the case, then you certainly can be affected by that in ways you do not realize. You could initiate a process of change that when it is over you would say was death itself, because of all you lost in the world, and of your own sense of self, but that’s not guaranteed to happen and if I had to guess would only happen to people who misplace their concept of “God/Christ”. That’s what I see as the general “danger”, but that’s not all that’s there and anything can pull you in or go out with you that you may not expect or notice. If that’s happening and you don’t want it to, go see a priest or preacher and have an exorcism done. They will be able to help you, or a similar kind of professional.

There is a particular scene that I expect would be most horrific to the general public relevant to the danger. When a child is taught about magic with a playful and innocent intention, experiences the power of truth that makes magic real, and then applies that in a situation that is far more dangerous than an innocent game. I believe this is relevant to my personal experience, not because I was playing with magi, but because I answered children who were playing with magic, and they have not yet begun to realize what they have lost. I realize they were “playing”, but they did not realize how inappropriate that kind of “play” is, and what kind of harm it causes, and although my reaction was immediate, the consequences could have been minimized immediately, but have long since drawn on despite how much I have attempted to reason with them, ask them to stop, and convince them of the danger they were in. Honestly, I’m not going to feel bad when they get what’s coming to them, but I’m also not going to gloat over their suffering or make it worse. I doubt they could be trusted to do the same if the situation was reversed.

In any case, it was around that time in the movie, when the terror reached its peak and I very nearly turned off the film. I did not want to see what was going to happen, did not even want to risk seeing it, and was truly unnerved. That’s just me though. A lot of people may have more fortitude with movies like that, but I think that’s kind of a sensitive subject for me considering what I’ve recently been through. However, I didn’t turn it off. I wanted to see it through because the movie was a work of art, and the creators deserved that much from me. Fortunately, what I was afraid of did not happen, which is to say: the audience is not betrayed by the director. The terror is as bad as can be and keeps getting worse… and I don’t really know how to say it other than: the audience is not betrayed. The story remains truly good and worth watching because of the veracity it resonates at the depth of being in our base nature mentioned before.

That’s not to say that the other side who usually wants to see that kind of thing are left out. I don’t fault that crowd for their preference, because theirs is the interest in media entertainment for whom I am fighting for in particular, even if I most dislike that kind of media. Media as a form of creative expression for audiences serves as a kind of emulsifier that makes it possible to live as neighbors in a civilized community and be able to trust each other. Media necessarily needs to be available as an outlet for that kind of sadistic, masochistic, dark, and evil-natured expression, because if media arts are not available as an outlet, then that will be expressed in reality upon people’s lives. Do you see how important that is? Movies, games, and books can express such negativity safely without people being hurt in real life. They can be hurt, but no more than an insult hurts, and insults are perfectly fair and legal in civilized life.

If you do not protect the freedom of speech, religion, and press, then the oppression that will cause for people like me, who have been wounded by evil through no fault of our own, is to necessitate the expression of personal pain from an evil wound in real life, which equates to… turning human beings into our material to create art with, cutting away pieces of their lives, objectifying them into an object to reflect our own image with no respect for their individuality, and causing them unbelievable amounts of pain and suffering to no benefit of theirs and only amusement for ourselves. That is one of the most inhumane, evil, uncivilized, and intolerable crimes against humanity and cannot be allowed to happen. Why? That is why a serial killer like Dahmer does what he does. Is that the world you want to live in? With a steadily increasing population of serial killers who torture and then eat their victims? That’s what the censorship and suppression of hate speech and abrasive communication of conflict causes. That’s what the suppression of insults and fear of argument leads to.

I realize you people do not like that stuff, but we do not like the pain in our lives that is caused by people like you who do not care about others who are less privileged than yourself. You need to tolerate that as a compromise, or the result you are going to get for having censorship dull and degrade all your media and communication is an increase of the most horrific kinds of crime and violence. Stuff that will truly terrify you about who your neighbor will be. The more you suppress free speech, the more harm you are causing. The evil that is done to people and causes them pain, true pain, not your vain, arrogant, fragile egos who whimper when you are insulted or corrected, but true trauma to their perspective of reality, needs to be released, and media is the safe way of doing so. There is no other acceptable way to express the higher power of supernatural divinity in darkness than creative arts, and that supernatural divinity is the source of what has the potential for evil, but is not evil itself. You should all be literate enough to not be afraid of any form of human communication like art, writing, speaking, or anything like that, so why are you so scared of allowing people to say what they think, feel, and believe? If you are so certain you are going to be corrected and proven wrong, is that not all the more reason to listen to what they have to say!?

Now, as for you lot, my kindred spirits, you are not betrayed either, and that’s all I’m going to say about that. Take this on trust and see if I prove worthy to your “finer” sensibilities, because I have your interests in mind with my work, even if you don’t see me enjoying the same kind of activities you like to enjoy. I am one of you, but my interests are different. I suppose that’s because of the way I was hurt, which makes me want to see images of light, goodness, and “kids” stuff. If I had to guess, it’s because my entire life has been in darkness and my reality has been that kind of pain over and over and over again. I thought that was normal. I don’t want to see that anymore. I don’t want to think about that outside of a tasteful expression of true art, like Antrum, and I don’t even want to see it there, but that’s why the genre is called horror. A grim reminder of the reality the world will succumb to if I fail in my work to establish social change and end the injustice that violates the doctrine of Freedom.

I don’t need to be reminded, but it’s always a good reminder from time to time to reinforce the foundation of civilization. That’s why your “jokes” and “pranks” against me cause me such pain and suffering, and I am not going to let it go. I’ve suffered enough of that kind of evil and I am going to make someone pay for it. Whoever is at the top of your scheme is going to answer for what they allowed to happen to me. I need that to stop, because now I know that is not normal, and I want to experience life like a normal person. I want to experience friendship, love, community, and have my human rights respected like anyone else’s, and why shouldn’t they be?

Go ahead… keep pushing me. You have my permission, encouragement, and blessing. All the more reason I will have to respond to the “magic” you think you are doing with the long gun I use to kill when I need to kill. I won’t gloat over you, nor are you good to eat, but I will end your suffering swiftly with the underside of my boot and then take care of your sister. Even if someone gives you a direct order in your chain of command to do what you have been doing, you should refuse. A human being does not have the authority to grant that permission, or authorize that kind of action, and you know damn well I and the people you obey are all human beings. Nor would any good being command humans to do evil, so who then are you listening to and obeying as your god?

All in all, 10/10. A movie like Antrum is the only kind I would dare give a perfect score to. There is clearly a higher power inspiring the work, and it is the kind of higher power you fear and avoid, not find shelter with.

As for the snuff film… I’m going to believe that it is art, acting, and stagework, but I don’t know for certain one way or the other. That is to the credit of the director and creators of the film. I would be insulting them if I accused them of incorporporating something as crude as real snuff in a masterpiece film. It wouldn’t be a work of art if there was natural violence. It would be crime, evidence, and be of no value. However, given all the other elements of the film with value, I find it most unlikely that a creator with that kind of vision would make the mistake of thinking a turd would be a good addition on a dinner plate because it doesn’t match everything else at the table. That kind of artistic technique should only be done with great care and intentional purpose, never with mystery.

For example, StoryTeller, my first novel. Throughout there are numerous typos and flaws that I intend to be there, which are both naturally created and permitted as part of my purpose. The reason being: consider human history. Our story is not only horrifically imperfect with flaws that are uncharacteristically inhuman at isolated moments throughout, but a lot of our story is not a smooth flowing chain of events. There are bumps, gaps, and places where fabrications likely exist and it is difficult to be sure what actually happened. That works in tandem with all the suffering throughout the plot because in the present moment, the present universe, and the present Story, we need to do better than before. We need to prevent suffering, have a better future than last time, and be more accurate and professional with how we tell what happened.

Also, I was attempting to make a work like Antrum, knowing I was inadequate for the job. That said, I also knew that my goal was the same goal as what is terrifying about Antrum, because I have been a student of occult sciences/mystery for a very long time. I didn’t want to even pretend like I knew what I was doing, or feign some sort of mastery I didn’t have. I wanted it to be roughshod like early punk rock music by a bunch of angsty enraged teenagers who can play well enough, but their technical performance with the instrument is not the reason why they stepped on stage in the first place. They have the opposite reason, in fact, to challenge the norm, disrupt the status quo, and challenge the world with a point that needs to be made. People like me have something to express that needs to be heard, and not only for ourselves. For all the people who know why we are screaming on stage, challenging the world with the power of truth.

Oh and I suppose the urban legend is true, because I low key text asked a high school crush of mine if she wanted to get married while watching… coincidence, I assure you. I’m not saying that’s going to save your life, but you probably ought to confess your undying love for someone and pull your heart out just to be safe.

Evil in present media

I think movie directors that are trying to capture depictions of evil in movies to scare audiences are misunderstanding the concept of evil being welcome in Story and desiring to be celebrated for being evil.

Circumcision is not scary, not threatening, not dangerous. Circumcision is stupid, easily understood, explainable, and nothing more than a tribal practice of body mutilation for initiation into a group identity. There was a group of kids who did something similar when I was in high school. They burned cigarettes in their arms as a sign of membership. Whatever, I don’t care. They aren’t trying to get everyone to burn cigarettes in their arms, they are doing their own private thing, and I have no problems with it and don’t need to know anything else about it. I don’t know if that’s something I would have done or not if I was in that circle but the idea is about offering the flesh of your body as a sign of membership because of how intimate and important our bodies are to ourselves. The end result a scar that maybe goes away, maybe not, but isn’t really that big of a deal and doesn’t do much to mar a person’s natural beauty. That isn’t about them being different natured people, but a sign of their friendship and fraternity as a group of young men who probably are up to no good and keep each other’s secrets. Whatever. Not my business unless it is, and it’s not. Suspecting something is not a reason to investigate. A crime being discovered is.

In any case, that’s pretty much circumcision is for a tribelike mindset except much more committing. Also the flesh is the man’s you know what— you get the idea. That’s all that is. I point that out, Jews deny it, and in order to try and justify their body mutilation for initiation into their tribe, they try to get everyone else to do it and tell them all manner of lies or whatever they want to hear to convince them. The more people do it the more they regret it and the more they try to lessen that regret by having more people do it. Circumcision is honestly that simple and stupid. That is not frightening. Additionally, they are usually non-threatening people who are afraid of life because of the trauma they suffered, and mentally deficient because of their insistence on believing a lie rather than accept reasonable evidence of facts.

So… if you are using that in a movie as a “face” to scare people such as:

Whatever. The “ethical hackers” are blocking the search engine right now so I can’t bring up images of the popular media depicting the whorecunt expressions.

That is a frightening face, but it is not circumcision that is frightening, it is lawlessness, and do you know why lawlessness is frightening on camera like that? Because lawlessness is not confined to the limits of the Story. Lawlessness will not obey any laws, rules, or restraints, and in fact is now loose in the world because people are promoting something like that. Circumcision is lawless. Should have been stopped with Jesus, but people don’t know that despite there being shit-tons of Christians everywhere. They are lawless stooges.

Then consider the government, willing to betray all doctrine, all responsibility, all limits of power, and have no respect for human rights to get what they want. That is lawless. Extremely dangerous.

Usually lawlessness is more friendly as a look. Lawlessness is also fun at times and the kind of thing you are not too worried about as long as law prevails and people can be trusted. With circumcision though… lawless is very dangerous. They live without moral law, without ethical restraint, and make it their purpose in life to betray sacred boundaries of trust. This erodes the peace in a society, puts people in danger, and everything goes to shit.

That’s that look: lawless circumcision. Unjustified circumcision. People who have no moral restraint, no concept of good and evil, and no ethical boundaries. They are the most untrustworthy, unwelcome, and threatening people in the world because you quite literally cannot take your eyes off of them or they will betray you just to betray you! They will ruin anything and everything they can just because they know they are no supposed to, shouldn’t, and are intent of defying all natural senses of morality.

At first this may seem relatively harmless, but look at what most of you fucktards in the government have been doing to human beings with no concern for moral boundaries and ethical restraint. No concern for your legal limits of authority, and no respect for human rights either.

I suppose that is a scary look but that is not the most frightening evil… I can give you that, but not now. That is who I truly am, but I swear I am a good person. I can show you that part of me, within apropriate boundaries, but I don’t plan on doing that. You don’t need to know. You can just contemplate my life and strive to empathize with me to know how to do that look, but you won’t be able to go all the way there, which is a good thing. You wouldn’t want to. That look wouldn’t be scary unless you could go there and then go down a notch, which you wouldn’t be able to do without being genuine.

Going all the way, you would appear friendly to almost everyone except people who you likely are not going to trust, because they are mentally unstable already, schizophrenic, known for hallucinations and erratic behavior. Those people will recognize it, but only a small percentage of that group who are barely holding their mental stability together, and trying to tell everyone what they saw would likely cause them to snap because you wouldn’t believe the things they are saying and they would sound fucking crazy about wanting to murder people for no reason and because they are sane would be most terrified of themselves.

Meanwhile, nobody would notice, and all of a sudden you would all be in my power, subject to me, and I would be a mad man for fun, doing crazy shit while looking totally normal and being celebrated for all I do. Not like the pretender rich people who live now, because they hide in secret, but I would be in public, and have power of faith, popular culture, knowledge, and charisma to entertain myself with human lives doing spectacles that are most horrific, terrifying, and unnaturally violent that people would accept despite how inappropriate seeing such a thing in civilization would be. It’s not the kind of thing you want to happen, nor me, nor do I intend to allow that to happen. We are getting close to that every moment of every day as the law enforcement agencies in the world refuse to enforce the law, and our government will not answer for its crimes. If you fail to do that before it’s too late, you will actually need to suffer that kind of evil as a good thing, and it won’t stop with the death of the senators and traitor presidents, nor will I be the only one doing justice in such ways. People of all kinds would do their own acts for their own reality.

I honestly am a good person, I do not want that outcome, and you know this true which is why you don’t believe that could happen or believe me capable of that as something I would do. I would, and that is in fact very very likely. It’s very similar to my worst fear which I recognize that you don’t. I try to warn you of immediate life threatening danger of the worst kind, and you all do not believe me at first because I am one of those barely stable mentally aberrant people who had to come a long way to tell you and with great difficulty, and then after immense amount of unjustified insult, disrespect, and rude behavior from others, the only way I can communicate anything to you people so you will listen is if I entertain you while I do. Then you are so enchanted by the entertainment that you think what I am warning you about is just part of a performance. Stop right there: look at the whole chain of events and how it came to this point. I am not entertaining you by choice. I am doing that because you are so addicted to media that I cannot warn you of immediate danger without entertainment because you won’t pay attention to anything that isn’t media entertainment.

The dangers are real, the threat is real, and the presence of evil is real. That is my fear, because I see the presence of evil among you and around me mocking my inability to communicate to you which only makes me feel more alienated, more strange, more disturbed, and further upsets me, troubles my mind, and causes my mental health to deteriorate. That is what the evil is doing to me, to stop me, trying to make me snap, and you people in the government are purposely trying to do that independently of that evil. You are not being controlled. You have different reasons entirely for doing that, and you are not helping…

What I see as source of immense and threatening evil, you do not see when you look at me. You see something, but you do not see the truth that should concern you. You should be able to see the evil reflected from my eyes, because I do not take it into me, and you are mistaking me for being that evil, because I have had a fucked up life as a person who was bullied not only by human beings, but also evil beings, and even though I don’t tolerate that anymore because I know better and can defend myself, evil beings and human beings desiring to do evil to me left their mark on me. You see that, but do not see the threat I am trying to show you so we can prevent the disaster.

Honestly… I really don’t fucking care anymore. However, I suppose your idiocy at trying to ruin my life has somehow had an unintended good result. As bored as you make me with the destruction of all my fun, the ruining of modern media, the propaganda, and the assaults on my body with EMF radiation— I have nothing better to do than fight on your behalf for my personal enjoyment. So I write stuff like this. Maybe you will finally realize how much trouble you are in, probably not though, if you have gone this far thinking that if you ignore a problem and pretend it isn’t a problem it will go away or solve itself. You people are fucking stupid, but at least I’m able to enjoy myself trying to help you.

You people who make more propaganda to “fight” are only making propaganda intended for political purposes. If you had something to say, you should be open about it. “It’s suicide” you say, concerned about your own career. That is why those who seek to lay down their lives will most readily gain eternal life, or something like that. Yes, it is suicide for a “life” like that, but as media stars, your actions doing that would be a lot more meaningful than some random dude like me who nobody cares about anyway. If you realized how dangerous our government is to everyone, you would not make the situation worse by creating more entertainment for people to be distracted with. You would shut all of that off and address the problem and once the solution is happening and you are sure the solution is happening, then maybe it’d be safe to make entertainment again. People are too god damned stupid now to notice real life happening around them in a state of dire emergency that is entirely preventable and going to fuck them over most regrettably, and all because they want to just let everything burn and watch tv. Stop indulging them. Unplug the feed to the TV. Tell them straight up with public statements. Identify the problem. Do not try to cover it up, hide it, or keep people ignorant of current events. Reveal the situation. If not… to Hell with you because the future will not be kind when they evaluate your actions.

Movie Report: Ginger Snaps (2001)

First of all… “ends with a black sludge discharge”?

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For the record… that goes into a different jar than my libation ingredients.

Regardless, not a bad movie. Pretty good actually.

The point I have in response is that when people are like that… you can send them to me to indulge their destructive habits. They’ll lose their god damn minds doing their evil and violence and destruction to tear everything good apart for their madness and it’s not so much that I am immune or invulnerable, but I can handle that kind of problem without being weird.

I’m an independent professional with those types of… supernatural/paranormal problems.

It’s a real concern out there, especially in suburban communities in between natural wilderness and urban wilderness. People may think it’s all just horror stories, fictions, and make believe, but those mutilating psychopathic beasts are a real threat to civilization because of how they disturb the peace and long story short: Nazi death camps, Holocaust, Hiroshima, Cold War, Vietnam, Traitor Trump. Seriously. That is the kind of bull shit those fucktards will cause if you try to hide the problem, don’t know what to do, and are too much of fool to be able to euthanize them for everyone’s own good.

You can consult with me discreetly, in private, and as long as you are honest and not treacherous bastards and lying whorecunts, I will most likely be able to help you. Don’t fuck with me. Don’t try to manipulate me. You don’t have to tell me everything, but I will know if you are being sleaze sucking slime swallowers so don’t try it.

That’s all I think I should say about that… I understand why you feel like you can’t trust people about what’s going on either. With the mutilator religious hate that has exterminated all polytheistic religion in the West, the pseudoscience mutilators who imprisoned, experimented on, and did horrible heinous crimes for the sake of “mental health”, and the government’s cowardice submission to the mutilator freaks who bribed them to destroy all historical records, legitimate academic inquiry, and facts that are relevant, all make adults and civil authorities untrustworthy in general. I am not a participant in their system. I reject them entirely and have started new civilization all over again. That will take time to rebuild, but that will be better than trying to salvage their evil. Regardless, do what you will, but you will not fuck with what I have done because I will destroy you. However, I encourage you to try so I can destroy you.

Do you know which movie I hate more than any other: Happy Feet.

That penguin should have been killed for not being able to sing. If you cannot find your voice, that retarded tap dancing bull shit isn’t going to pass because that’s garbage and a waste of time. That is not art or creative expression. That’s just some needlessly complicated frivolity and everyone can sing. If you need help, find Clay Aiken who can teach you how to find your voice. Instead of tap dancing, do dancing. From this point on, I will never allow tap dancing at one of my stages, and if you try, I will throw you out into the gutter with no remorse. Tap dancing is forbidden because that is a Jew’s attempt to be beautiful while not being beautiful and is a waste of effort and time for the audience to watch. You will not be allowed. However… maybe you should try so we can haul you off stage by force and throw you roughly into the street and possibly kick you a few times to make you sure you understand what we think of you people.

The hunters are watching on the horizon. Times are lean. Ought to kill a penguin even though they are generally not eaten. Which one… bang… I don’t know what it was about that one, but it needed to die. Seems like the other penguins agree. The tribe will eat tonight.

Ladies and laidettes, the Jew hag and her boy, super Jew:

I realize the men at the station have been nice to you, but I’m not so nice. If you don’t get yourselves back to Israel, I am going to crucify you both like Jesus.

This is Jesus, super Jew.

Notice: when the Gentiles flipped him over, they did not allow him to touch the ground. When the Jews flipped me over, what happened?

Gentiles have won this eternal conflict. I also didn’t die like a bitch.

“He’ll just blame us. They all will.”

That’s because you know you are at fault, you vile god damn whore. Don’t think I won’t chop you up and eat you like Dahmer if you keep being like that. If Dahmer can exist, I can do worse by using him as an example at the very least. You don’t need to worry about the mutilator freaks doing that if there is a lawful society not corrupt by fucktard mutilator fools! If laws are enforced genuinely, honestly, and a zero-tolerance policy on corruption and evil, the mutilator freaks will shoot their eyes out and be caught long before they even become a threat. Do you know the easiest way to do that: operate your government in public. Light is a natural disinfectant for political corruption, conspiracy, and schemes. There should never be any hesitation or resistance to make government plans public. Never under any circumstances, and if there is, I find that a justifiable reason to kick down their doors, shoot every last one of them without asking questions, and unfuck the situation without them being alive to be difficult about it. Do what I want, or at the very least do something else, but do not let them evade the truth.

…

Shut it, Norman.

Tonight's movie selection "But I'm a Cheerleader"

Another night as a 34 year old, loser, loner with no hope of ever finding a girlfriend in the cyberage when the international government conspiracy of world domination is intent on cockblocking me from all sources of nut busting action by gatekeeping all resources of information technology I have access to for the purpose of preventing my messages from reaching new friends, new lovers, and potential business partners.

So… because media is now all garbage no matter who makes it because of the wordwide government injustice we all suffer, I shall be watching the movie “But I am a Cheerleader”, created in the glorious year of 2000 before the Jews raped the children and started trafficking humans because Muslims scared them with a 9/11 attack and Christians shamelessly became their slaves in defiance of Jesus’ gospel.

Meanwhile, I shall contemplate my debut as a femboi idol for the adult entertainment industry where I will be doing many a lewd and sexy act for the benefit of my adoring viewers. If you would like to invest in my dreams to be an femboi star, please do so by becoming my agent and manager, or if you would like to be my on screen partner, please let me know you are interested.

This is truly for my own pleasure and fun, but I do hope to be able to make a bit of cash with helpful donations from fans who enjoy my work.

Hang up the chick habit
Hang it up, daddy
Or you'll be alone in a quick
Hang up the chick habit
Hang it up, daddy
Or you'll never get another fix

I'm telling you it's not a trick
Pay attention, don't be thick
Or you're liable to get licked

You're gonna see the reason why
When they're spitting in your eye
They'll be spitting in your eye

Hang up the chick habit
Hang it up, daddy
A girl's not a tonic or a pill
Hang up the chick habit
Hang it up, daddy
You're just jonesing for a spill

Oh, how your bubble's gonna burst
When you meet another nurse
She'll be driving in a hearse

You're gonna need a heap of glue
When they all catch up with you
And they cut you up in two

Vile god damned commercials with the free movie…

no matter. I shall make use of this time.

Coming out in the movie was like coming out with autism in real life for me… “but I’m not… I’m not… I thought that was normal… I… I… I’m autistic 😭”

Now they are like, but you are a homosexual too.

I’m like, “no actually I’m not. You are for trying to make me one.” I am attracted to women as a divine being, and my body’s interests are irrelevant when it comes to what I love about other people romantically. Don’t get me wrong, I like homosexual activities as much as any gay guy, but that does not mean that I find men attractive or desirable to trust, love, and share my life with. They are not people I would find myself willing to live with, care for, and love until death and ever after when we part from our mortal bodies.

Men do not make me happy, they do not make me feel good about being alive, nor do they make a moment more enjoyable by being present. They are actually rather unpleasant and I don’t like most men because they are mean spirited, ill-mannered, disgraceful, dishonorable, untrustworthy brutes without anything worthy in their minds to talk about. They are not the kind of creature I want living with me. Men in general are simply incompatible with the kind of personal power I have as a human being, and they cannot receive the joy and blessing of that power unless they are 100 percent female identified.

Then its possible, but that is not the same thing. That is why trans women are included in straight men’s adult entertainment, and I agree. Their divine being is womanly, and that is what attracts me to another person, not their bodily identity, despite how much I could enjoy any person’s body as an object for my dark and twisted desires, which I do not project onto people without their explicit consent. I find such objectification of people offensive and do not denigrate others by expecting them to indulge my animal desires.

That is why I am not a homosexual. Human beings other human beings love are not sex objects, and you don’t need to be sexually motivated to love another person in the most complete capacity you are able to. Regardless of my sexual passions, what makes me a man is not about what I do with my body or what my body feels but what I do with my mind for the benefit of my heart and soul, which is primarily concerned with the way I judge my life decisions.

That is not something most men have much to say for themselves about, especially if they tolerate circumcision, because that is about submitting their wills to men like me, which I don’t think they should do anyway and don’t want them to do either. Why is my body attracted the way I am at times to male sexual expressions? Who cares? I don’t and I don’t know, but I think it’s mainly about their expression of sexual desire, not about me idolizing male sexuality. Besides, that’s cool with me if I am turned on by some of that, and I don’t feel like those additional passions interfere with or prevent my passions for women.

In either case, I am least interested in receiving pleasure and most interested in giving pleasure. I think maybe because my dick is not super large, women have no interest in my dick anyway, so that tends to not be something they want no matter what because they objectify me to the quality of my dick and have no concern for who I am as a human being. Whatever they may think of my dick whether that is personal or not, that doesn’t mean I don’t want their pussy in my mouth and their cum on my dick when I fuck them after. But if they don’t want that, then I suppose I won’t get anywhere with them using my dick anyway nor even the chance to use any other means, because they have already disregarded me as an unworthy object with no human value. That’s the main reason why I don’t chase after women anymore. They are like that everywhere in the USA and not worth my time and effort, especially not after the “Me Too” insult to human dignity of their collective selfishness and toxic feminism. Not much of loss cutting them off either because jacking it to skilled performers who sexually satisfy an audience is good enough to more than make up for their absence, and without the insult to my dignity that a selfish woman’s company would be with her unpleasant aura.

Honestly, I think the disdain women have for non-giant dicks is the universal cause of male erectile disfunction, because that is kind of an irregular thing for me to have experienced. I notice the problem is external if that has ever happened and it is unusual. I’m not even sure if that would be a concern anymore since I haven’t even had a chance to have sex with woman in so long and am long since a child trying to understand sexuality in a culture of toxic feminism and expectations of male mutilation. Besides, the last time went extraordinarily well even if there were two false starts first. That’s why I tell people who have that problem to not give up. Just give it another go, and keep trying. You’ll likely get there, but use some help if you need to, especially if she is the one disappointed in your male anatomy and killing the mood with her selfish objectification of men.

Anyway. That’s that. If you are gay for me, give it up unless you want to be my girl and are totally committed to being a girl, because I am more than enough man by myself, and I don’t want any more men in my personal life. That’s not something I would ever ask a person to do. It is too much to ask of someone to want them to change their gender identity because that is a superhuman effort, but you don’t need medical intervention to do so either. I suppose I could tolerate male company if there is a good reason for them to be there which is useful as an employee or housekeeper, but I doubt there is something another man can do for me that I can’t do myself because I don’t need nor want male approval or opinion for personal matters that concern me.

The main difference between a male and female identifying person: a man is willing to fight with his body to the death for what he believes, killing or being killed as the only solution if cooperation is impossible. A woman is willing to submit her body to a life of submission to fight for what she believes. She will let herself be fucked to protect who she loves, a man will let himself be killed to protect who he loves. Why do men and women do this differently? A man has a nature power to believe himself justified to kill other men (and women) and deliver unto them death, and women have a natural power to believe they can deliver unto others life. The natural power to believe is form of spiritual faith sourced for both gender identities by the singular source of all power that is true and ultimate divinity.

A man takes control of his own death and uses it is as a weapon to kill his enemies, and a woman takes control of her own life uses it as a weapon to kill her enemies. However, neither is excluded from the other, the main difference is perceived in the ultimate scenarios of survival against overwhelming antagonism, when salvation of humanity is at stake, and a person is doing what they have the most power to do to protect what we love. As a man, I am better suited for killing unto death, than I am for being a compliant and submissive participant whose power is weakness, a strength of being unwilling to fight and instead manipulating with seduction, temptation, and illusion. Women are naturally much better at seduction, temptation, and illusion for whatever reason they are, and men are better to sacrifice their own lives.

A man can give a woman the jizblast of procreation and be done with what his vital role is, but a woman must carry that burden, not endanger herself, and survive without physical fighting. I suppose that’s why we are naturally inclined to these dispositions. If a woman naturally develops instincts for being a healthy and strong mother capable of bearing children, she naturally will incline herself to develop talents that do not put her body in danger and entrust those responsibilities to others who are better suited to do so. A man does the opposite and thus becomes a warrior as the ultimate embodiment of man in times of war, and an artist as the ultimate embodiment of man in times of peace, and you’d better pray that there are lots of us at both occasions, because that what keeps civilization secure.

A good maiden capable of bearing children or being lovely at home is going to prefer a man who is able to protect her interests where she has entrusted him to do by taking up non-dangerous labors of civilization so he will be able to do what is dangerous. The most dangerous requirement of a man is a bodily fight against another person to the death, or a conceptual fight against another person to the death via the imagination and the sacred Word. Even when a person is victorious they have still risked great harm to their own body and suffering that harm could be devastating to child bearing for women in a way a man is not concerned with for himself. A man has much less need to protect his body to be capable of procreation.

So, to that end, I’m pretty good at the man’s role, but the women in the USA want to do away with me for the meek, submissive, and treacherous circumcisers who do the female role as men and put her out of a job, put her in danger by expecting her to fight the battles, and are less capable of what women are good at when they are simply present being lovely. I don’t give a damn whether you think you are tough, girl, you’ve got a body that is made to carry a baby in your womb, and when it comes down to the bottom line, there is only one man you need to have around if you intend to survive, and that is the man like me, not like Jesus. How will you protect your home if you are pregnant when the time for fighting comes? Don’t bother troubling yourself, because I will do that.

You fight by ensuring there is a home worth fighting for, and I’ll help you do that as long as there is no fight. But if the time for fighting comes and I have no home to fight for, I am not going to fight for someone else’s home unless we are friends, and I am not friends with any Jew alive. Not a single one. There is not a single Jewish person who I would call a “friend” and that is their problem, not mine, because I know better than them about everything and am much wiser too because I at least know and respect the Christ, Jesus, accepting him as the Christ, and they pointedly reject and do dishonor to Jesus, by denying him as the Christ and murdering him with false witness and lawless injustice, even though they claim to know him as their king and god with the reason they had him murdered legally by a foreign nation’s laws pertaining to foreign kings. That is the epitome of foolishness, antagonism, and hostility which Jews are the embodiment of as treacherous and untrustworthy cowards, and I will never befriend nor trust anyone who lives like that. They threaten law and order itself, causing crime to proliferate with the abuse of legal interpretation and malevolent manipulations of other nation’s justice systems while they don’t even follow their own justice system of faith. Monstrous people, I tell you, and all the more monstrous because they feign innocence and trick you into trusting them.

However, why should you care about the ultimate scenario? Maybe because nuclear war is imminent this very moment and survival is in fact a serious threat to all human life. That is something that reveals your ignorance and foolishness if you are not aware of that threat to your life, and why I will not tolerate your presence, nor that of the circumcising cowards who dishonor and disgrace themselves with their vile antagonism toward humanity and the universal laws of civilization. Keep them the hell out along with your brothel of whores who suck on them to keep them motivated. Survival is at stake more than ever before with the lawless state of the USA which has military leaders so incompetent, foolish, and incapable as Trump who are liable to destroy our entire planet with a stupid and unprovoked nuclear attack based on delusions and paranoia because they think they are an idol of the Jew god by being a government leader. In the USA of all places, where that is most inappropriate for a government leader to think about their role!

If you will be with them, then you can die too, because I don’t need you trying to sneak that evil into my home and I will know if you do because I’ve also got the power to know what the fuck people are thinking, what they have done, why they have done it, what they are going to do, and see into their minds and souls like an open book when necessary. Get over those pitiful, pathetic people if you have any common sense or human decency left, because we don’t need them, nor their evil and treacherous ways. If men want to be submissive and womanly, they can do so without needing to circumcise the children. However, if one of those children is found enrolled at the school with ours, I will kill that entire family myself. So, to prevent that from being necessary, I am not going to allow you to bear my children and have drawn a line between them and my home, and am respectfully telling them to stay the fuck in their assigned area by the covenant of their faith: Israel.

It’s obvious those fucktards in the government think the situation is under control because of some idiotic delusion of secret peace they established in secret without the entire world and all the people that peace concerns knowing about it. However, if that idiocy was not enough to know they are bat shit crazy and criminally irresponsible with their incompetence and failure to understand the gravity of the role a government leader has, just take a look at their faces.

Take a look at the face of Biden. Is that the kind of man you trust to be in control of an international agreement with nuclear armed nations? Would you trust anyone to be keeping that kind of secret from you? The kind of secret where nations have made agreements that involve military alliances without the public who form those militaries being aware of what the alliance is? That kind of secret is unnecessary and exists for one reason only: to kill our own people. That is the kind of secret that was kept when Uriah was killed by the Betrayer Jew.

The government does not need to kill our own people to protect the temporary officials who are elected by the public from having to answer for the sins they are responsible for as government officials. That isn’t appropriate for a divinely appoint king of a hereditary tribe in ancient days and is even less appropriate for a human appointed politician with extremely limited authority now. I realize you are not concerned with matters of war, but how can you be so stupid as to not know those idiots are trying to kill you on purpose by asking you to trust them? You have no reason to trust our government. You do not rely on them to think for you, decide for you, know what is best for you, and the fact that you have descended to such a state of worthless inhumanity as nothing more than a human condom for circumcised men, is all the more reason why you should demand every last one of those temporary government officers put to death for endangering your life with their betrayal of duty and insult to your dignity.

Look at their faces on TV, the internet, and anywhere else they are imaged. Look at those senators, representatives, and executive cabinet cronies and judge them by the appearance they are showing you and asking you to trust them for showing you. Do you trust those people? Why should they be keeping any secret from you when they are showing you they are not trustworthy?

They are asking to be put to death, I am demanding they be put to death, and you are still most concerned about being a human condom because you can’t keep your legs closed or stop swallowing their fetid, stinking dick filth. Why are you such a whore? You say that is woman’s nature? The woman I love would kill you herself for such an insult you are accusing her of. She may be a maidenly maiden, but she can defend herself just as well as I can housekeep. I doubt you could even lift a weapon while you have the dishonor of being depraved with vile, foul, unworthy lusts trained into your behavior like an animal. Trained into you on purpose by a scheme of parasitic human monsters calling themselves doctors, who are nothing more than the inferior, malignant aberration of men who covet the honor of women in times of peace by subjecting women in times of war underneath them. That role underneath both them and true men of honor and integrity like myself who they are beneath, is where you have accepted the place they have given you to be their human condom for any dick slime slurping that needs done.

Do us all a favor, and kill yourself, your circumcising whore. Kill yourself if you circumcised your child. Kill yourself if you ever defended a Jew. At the moment you do it, think of me and beg for my forgiveness knowing you will never be beautiful in my eternal sight after what you have done.

Seriously kill yourselves, you vile, wretched whores. You won’t be missed and everyone will be better off without you obstructing progress, being an inconvenience worse than useless, and generally being frigid and heartless cunts with no grace of presence worth having around.

As for the lovely maidens who are good and love each other, that is good and I am happy for you. I think both of you understand what I am writing here. I would never ask you to break apart the love you have for each other on my account. What a ridiculous and foolish idea! Jealous? What have I to be jealous of from anyone, man or maiden!? 😂

Regardless, come be with me and I will love you both tremendously and better than any man will ever possibly be able to do, and also without ever being in conflict with the love you have for each other. It doesn’t matter if this is fair or not because I do not love any one else, and certainly no men. I only love you, because you truly love me for who I am, and that is all I need to love someone else. You have no conditions that require something of me to be acceptable. You love me just the way I am, the way I love you just the way you are, and that is the easiest and best kind of love people can share. I’m sure if I did love a man the way you two maidens love each other, that would not be a problem, and merely accepting the possibility is enough to equate our relationship, but if you insist, then present one you think I would find acceptable. You will be hard pressed in this day and age to do so, because men these days are cowards, fools, imbeciles, and weak willed, spineless idiots who never even knew what being a man was to be able to reject it for being a woman. Forget them. I don’t need nor want that. I only want you, my loves, the both of you and any others you love as well, because I am certain all whom you love will be loveable to me.

Look at them, those pitiful, pathetic, unworthy men! They are all looking at me to save them, to give the answers they seek, to do for them what they should do for themselves but are too afraid. Seriously, how could anyone love a disgrace of a man like those fucktards? All the more reason why I hate the women who coddle them, because they are only more disgusting for coddling something so vile and parasitic when those fools would be better served with a rebuke. It’s not the coddling that I hate them for, though I do hate that, it’s the fact that they have decided to give their lives to defend what those men believe and not what they themselves believe. That is what I hate most about them, they betray their own lives with their natural feminine power to serve their enemy, not the enemy who has made their lives miserable.

The Gasoline Fight

Zoolander.

Have you seen the movie? Do you recall the gasoline fight that happens?

The four male “models” who are professionally “good looking” all have an imbecilic frolic at a gasoline station. We all know that males are always ugly, but in this case the term is a metaphor to indicate they are people who are literally evil but appear as good—nothing about beauty.

In any case, that gasoline fight is like the circumcision situation in North America.

There is a Jew, Ben Stiller. There is a Mexican. There is a Black Person. There is a Native American. All four are circumcised and are making the Jew claim, except the Mexicans, Black people, and Native Americans are trying to make them for their own identity group as nation, ethnicity, or both.

They do so thinking they are having fun and innocent playtime with sing song jolly jacking but in reality they are irresponsible fools spraying each other with gasoline. In the movie, Ben Stiller leaves the area for some distraction, I forget what. Then he looks back at his friends playing, and admires the scene. It is in that moment, when one of them, completely oblivious of the danger and situation, lights a cigarette and they all die in a fiery explosion except Ben Stiller, the Jew.

That is the circumcision problem in the USA.

Jews and only Jews have a right to that claim, and only when they accept Christ as the truth. Not necessarily as Christians, but they definitely need to be making a public claim about identifying as Jews who accept Jesus as the Christ because it is a simple logical, rational, and necessary conclusion to provide reconciliation with everyone else in the world despite their hateful, inhuman beliefs carried on since ancient times. The group Jews for Jesus is an example of Jews who do that.

First of all neither Black people, Mexicans, nor Native Americans have a sacred claim equivalent of the Jews. They have indigenous beliefs that trace back to ancestors vastly removed from modern day civilization just like everyone else does. Nothing special about that. They also do not have a national claim to identity. Mexicans are the most idiotic on that account, because they fail to realize that at the relevant time, Mexico was non-existent as what they are attempting to claim as a national identity.

Native Americans are similar in that case. They were a diverse collection of tribes, much like Jews, but the difference is that they do not have a unifying doctrine of written sacred literature that ties them all together in Story. That doctrine has to be written for the sacred claim that the Jews make. Literally written in human language with the use of words to communicate information. That human act of creation is what is spiritually sacred about their doctrine, and why Jesus is referred to as the “Word” and there is so much emphasis on written laws and texts.

What makes the Jews unique is that they have a continuous thread of Story that traces back to an ancient origin at least 6,000 years. That Story has changed and evolved over time, been edited, modified, texts added, etc. but that is not the point. The point is that they maintained the same collective written Story continuously without breaks all this time. That is why Jews (and Christians) have a valid sacred claim that includes the practice of circumcision, when nobody else does, not even Muslims.

There may be loose collections of diverse ancient texts and writing to reference for all other cultures, but the difference with the Jews is that they were nationally recognized as a legitimate foreign nation in ancient times by all other secular authorities at the time, such as the Roman Empire, Babylonian Empire, etc. They have that history of a valid, recognized identity that is embedded in our shared cultural hstory, and it is why their claim cannot be ignored, while the Mexican, Black, and Native American claims to circumcision are entirely false, frivolous, evil, selfish, inapropriate, and born as an abomination of hateful ignorance with no concept of what they are claiming.

They think it is just about having a special club to wear a special nametag with, and some faithless Jews encourage that because they have no faith in their history and are stupid, but being Jewish is not just about being in a special club. It is about having a divine purpose in the world that provides meaning to ones life as it applies to a highest divine will of incomprehensible goodness and wisdom. Just as the Christian claim is. That is certainly what they believe, except if they deny Christ, then they cannot make that claim because they deny it with Christ. They choose evil, hate, and worldly injustice for greed, coveting, and idolatry by denying Christ.

Because they are faithless, and have always been faithless according to their texts, much like a decent amount of all types of people, they do not want to believe in the purpose and function of the Christ, Jesus to their culture. By denying his purpose in the divine plan, they deny it to all of their people, because of how they deny it as legally written and recorded by sacred texts maintained by Jews— the first Christians. It’s always been like that for them. 12 tribes, 11 of them are stupid and revert back to Paganism with their circumcision and it makes evil worse than ever, intolerably so, and they eventually get destroyed by some nation or another because of how vile they are. Then in their pathetic state of suffering, they all scurry back to the one who was keeping the doctrine, just as they will do to Christianity now that this is becoming so simply explained even small children can understand that mystery if they can read this far.

That’s why they are evil. They think their identity in the world today is all about denying Jesus, but that is simply identifying with evil! They reject the only good thing about their entire sacred claim to identify with the opposite without knowing what that opposite is. The opposite is incomprehensible evil— stupidity. It is so obvious in the evidence of their crimes and lawlessness in the world today. They go around thinking they are fulfilling a divine purpose by being purposely evil, hateful, and destructive to good! Those fools! Would they have ever been created in the image of the divine to go around the world doing evil to all of creation!? Would they have been cast out if their purpose was to be evil!? Would they ever have been tolerated all those thousands of years if they were doing evil!? No. They would have been destroyed again and again and again for the same thing they are doing now because it is typical of their faithless minds to conclude when they misunderstand the purpose of circumcision. They would attribute that destruction to the wrath of God because someone told them that their toxic, poisonous, and hateful behavior in the community is going to rile up all forms of good people who desire justice, law, security, and safety, to exterminate them.

Just stop being stupid you damn fools! Find a way to incorporate the Christ into your doctrine and make it public to everyone so we can trust you! If you continue to make your public claim as a denial of Jesus the Christ, then whether we are Christian or not, faithful or atheistic, there is only one way we can interpret you people: evil doers, toxic parasites, poisonous betrayers, and malignant fiends to be excised!

The easiest thing to do would be to just accept Catholic doctrine because that is already taken care of and has the continuous story they’ve been maintaining ever since Christ and before. However, they could also write something totally new. A completely new Story that totally redefines their mythos and theological beliefs and identity. It could totally contradict or be in conflict with their original doctrine if they use the faith I provided with the function of Story I am establishing a religion from. Not because of the faith in that object of utility—but faith in the implications, and universal spiritual value and significance of it as a work of Story. They don’t need to if they manage to come up with some sort of continuous thing that does not contradict previous doctrine, but if they need to start over, they can keep the old doctrine as valid, use Goto as a conduit—passageway, doorway, and object of impersonal matter—to maintain continuity with whatever new Story they provide for themselves.

In any case, until they do that they are evil. Unless Mexicans, Jews, and Native Americans do that, they are also evil, except infinitely more stupid and entirely powerless because their claim is impotent, based on made up concepts that are entirely falsified, illogical, and have no ancient tradition that has been maintained as justification. They were never recognized as ancients, on par with Jews as being in harmony with the universal truth of divine being of unified singularity that was philosophically understood before it was theologically understood. The theology was added to make the philosophy easier for less privileged people to understand with the use of Story.

That application of Story, as a means of transforming wisdom into faith for people who do not devote their lives to the study to be able to understand it, is what I am working on establishing as a practical religion that all other religions should be able to participate in as well without conflicting with their current beliefs. All they would need to do to justify their cooperation is create Story that explains how they connect to the “Halls of Remembrance” as it is called in the first novel, but that is not the formal name, just the concept.

Anyone can entirely redesign how that place looks, works, and functions, how the mystics are trained, what they do, and all that, while still maintaining the concept of a unifying source from which all forms of Story are derived. That source of origin that is the same for both philosophy and theology, only talked about differently depending on which direction you are contemplating it from.

The purpose of the religion is to have a single concept that is designated as “canon” for the definitive terminology, laws, and rules of existence as a foundation acceptable by all faiths. There needs to be one place designated as the authority on that concept and only one place. Others can be in harmony with that authority with their own, but if there is ever conflict, it will be the one traditional source that diligently maintains doctrine, law, and tradition without end that is always the final word, just as the Roman Catholics are for Christians today.

All manner of Christians can make all manner of claims, and Protestants are most frivolous about doing that. However, whatever the hell they say, it is usually pointless, a waste of time, and not worth contemplating if it is in conflict with the Roman Catholic Magisterium. This is why: when the Pope makes a formal, definitive statement about Christian doctrine, Christianity all over the world changes in accordance with his authority. Protestants do not have that authority, power, and never will. The very fact that they are combative, antagonistic, hostile, rebelious to authority, and defiant to law, doctrine, and faith are all indications of their unreliability and untrustworthiness.

However, having a designated single source of authority is why all other religions should take an interest in what I am doing. They should have a say in what that foundation is, especially if they are going to be using the spiritual technology, science, and understanding that the faith of it makes public freely, charitably, and for the benefit of all people. If they are going to be using that, they should probably have someone as a representative there who can speak for them, ensure their concerns are being addressed, and work together with everyone else to maintain a peaceful community without necessary conflict.

The problem with cirumcision in the world today is that it creates necessary conflict because of how they take away the rights, security, and safety of a man’s life within his private home. If it becomes dangerous to be uncircumcised, such as in the world today when we are threatened by national governments, social systems, and all manner of idiots on the streets, then our very home is threatened because we cannot acquire the resources to live our lives safely. We cannot get food, water, and shelter without being under constant threat in the community, and that defeats the entire purpose of civilization and government.

That is why conflict is necessary. We will have to fight you for all of that authority back, and prevent you from ever being able to have it again, because that is the only way it can work. For you to have your wants in your private home as safe, secure, and protected, you need to respect our laws in the public domain with government, economy, and entertainment. However, because those have now been violated and defiled to such an extreme and intolerable way, the circumcised people will lose their privilege to be tolerated in a community, because it will no longer be a protected “right”, which it never was in my opinion, but now that is unanimous as truth and fact.

End.

You can't handle the truth!

Bull shit!

You are the one who can’t handle the truth!

You are the one who is weak minded, cowardly, and dishonorable!

You are the one who is ignorant and a threat with your ignorance!

Everyone else does not have that problem. 99.9 percent of the people, that is. The mental impairment of the government tyrants trying to control what is infinitely beyond their ability to control or understand, but also entirely inappropriate to attempt to control, is like a rare disease. It is psychological in nature, but just as debilitating as the worst of those that are known to affect the body.

That mental disability is their extreme cowardice, lack of intellectual ability, and unwillingness to accept the reality of the origin and reigning authority of all law and order. That stupidity and arrogance of theirs is of such a dangerous condition that we cannot let them live normal lives. They need to be locked up because they simply cannot handle the burden of human existence.

It is true that human beings have a responsibility that apes, dogs, and cats do not have, and carrying that responsibility is in fact a burden to the bodily animal nature. If you cannot carry that, then you are not only handicapped and disabled, but you are dangerous to others in ways you do not comprehend! That requires confinement and supervision.

Accepting the reality of the authority and origin and law is part of that, and so is accepting good and rejecting evil. If you cannot do those two things, you cannot be tolerated to abide in civilization. Not because you are offensive, even though you are, but because you are a severe and real threat to others.

For the benefit of movie makers

Observe this scene from a Knight’s Tale, starring Heith Ledger:

I will tell you why this is an excellent scene, and demystify it. Normally I wouldn’t do this, but Heith Ledger died during the filming of The Dark Knight, ostensibly by suicide for the same reason I want to commit suicide, because mutilators and their crappy world is nothing but garbage.

So, it’s fairly obvious by the appearance of Heith Ledger that he is a Gentile, and a good one. He radiates the kind of truth of divine source that flows through man’s nature in ways that mutilated people find difficult to experience after suffering the trauma of violence against their infant bodies to taint and distort their view of reality ever after. That should be obvious without needing to have a basic understanding of general psychology.

Anyway, in this role of a Knight’s Tale, Heith Ledger is playing the role of the circumcised man. He does it superbly in such a way that he conveys a universal concept of masculinity that is true by how it is applied to an archetypical Christ.

Notice how in this scene he is so focused on defeating the male competition he perceives as an obstacle to his happiness, that he is totally oblivious to the point of disrespecting the lovely maiden who really is heart of the entire story, not only as a romantic interest, but as the attendant of wisdom that brings masculinity to its fullest awareness.

The circumcised man sees the uncircumcised man as a threat and they imagine us to be all sorts of things we are not and make it their mission in life to destroy us. It’s total foolishness and the story of this movie and this scene expresses exactly why that is.

Adhemar, the antagonist, is not particularly interested in the lovely maiden. She is not much a concern to him at all, but the protagonist, Ulrich, puts him between what is his heart’s desire as an obstacle that wasn’t previously there. He does this unconsciously because at this point he is a young man desiring to prove something to himself, that being that he is as good and even better than the other man who embodies the inequality he suffers.

That is part of the journey to become a man, and every boy goes through it in their own way. The problem with circumcision is that circumcised young men often perceive uncircumcised young men as the enemy, but that is a mistake because uncircumcised young men have the same dilemna to self-identify as a man, except it is unnatural for us to assume the cirucmcised men are enemies because we simply do not distinguish a difference between them and us. Not a substantial one as if it related to our self-worth or identity. They are as different as a person with different hair color or bone structure is, but finding physical identity is not the kind of journey a boy must go on to be a man, it is entirely spiritual.

In any case, Ulrich is distracted by his perceived obstacle to happiness, as something outside of himself and that of another man, and this is the typical and innocent foolishness of a young man who is the best and he knows it. He deserves more credit than he gets because he is really good at what he does because he worked hard, deserves it, and knows it. For such a man who is circumcised, and it makes no difference whether you are or aren’t in this regard, unless they have been thoroughly instructed in traditional Biblical wisdom and accept it, they will be inclined to perceive the Gentile male as their enemy and threat to prove themselves better than.

They will never be able to do that, because that is not their enemy. The enemy is their own self who feels inferior and invents an antagonist that was not there initially. That invention is their own making, and it is projected from them to outside of themselves and it empowers the other person they want to hate to always be better. If they do not learn to recognize their true obstacle to maturity, they may end up in a disaster and lose what is most important in life, and the way to most happiness, as Ulrich is in danger of doing in the scene if he does not rewind his thinking and correct his mistake.

I’m sure you can imagine that he does. He reconciles with Joselyn, and learns what is most important in life, and it is not defeating Adhemar. He still does defeat him, but that is because the plot of the movie was convenient for Adhemar to be a legitimate villain who actually was an obstacle to be thwarted. In the final scene of the conflict resolution you can see on Ulrich’s face that he already achieved his goal and was victorious, and it happened before he beat Adhemar in the tournament.

It is still important that he win, and he still enjoys the satisfaction of his victory, but you can see by his demeanor that the victory already occurred when he achieved… an awareness of divine being within him. That is the best way I can describe it. That look on his face of confidence, not only in his skill as a knight, but in his heart having done what is right and just. He did what was good that he had believed as a youth he was unjustly denied from doing, but the only thing that was in his way was his own self-doubt as a result of social inequality. That is to be expected of youth who have yet to mature in a society of injustice such as that with nobility until they see what is truly of value in life by experiencing being both with and without it; union and separation.

It is said there is no greater joy than union with the divine, and no greater suffering than separation from the divine. Now, don’t get all hot and bothered, because this is not about sex. This is about him returning home to his father as the man he became and reconciling a wound that was between them which was natural when he set out on his own to chase after a dream that was not important. It was important that he chase after it, but not the object of the initial journey. That’s all subtext. It was not a betrayal that needed to be reconciled, it is everyday life for sons and fathers with a healthy and normal relationship.

The father knows the son is making a mistake, let’s him do it, it is a wound, the son learns wisdom by overcoming the problem that the father knew but couldn’t explain, and then returns and shows him that he made good of himself and it doesn’t matter what that is. A knight, a mender of fishers nets, a writer, a blacksmith, what is important is that he did what was right and just for himself and was not ashamed, was not burdened by guilt, and was proud of who he was, even if he had forged his heraldry to be recognized as a knight to compete. There is a higher good that all men are subject to, and that is what one must surpass themselves to realize.

It’s a good, feel-good movie with idyllic situations like most good feel-good stories, and I recommend it.

However, this is where I come in.

The irony here is that as an uncircumcised man, I never once felt threatened by circumcised men, and I still don’t and never will. Circumcision is a non-issue to me. I have always trusted my instincts and gone directly to the highest divine and never imagined antagonists in my way in the form of people or nations or ideas. I always knew it was myself, because I had read books of wisdom and followed their wisdom. I made mistakes learned from them, and slowly and steady journeyed with direct purpose to that highest divine source as the goal of all men.

That was instinct reinforced by recorded wisdom. It was the correct thing to do also. However I also had a foolish mistake that I put in the way of that as an obstacle that was not one, and guess what that was? Romantic love with a woman. That was always what I wanted to accomplish most as the object of this journey to the divine, because it appeared to me that only through the union of man and woman can the highest divine be perceived in fullness, but that is not true. A union of marriage is that of flesh and blood, and you need no flesh and blood other than your own to ascend to the highest divine, and even that is temporary as we lose our flesh and blood when we die.

Eventually I had to let go of my desire for romance and love with the imaginary maiden I had come to see in the universe through all manner of perception. A concept of my own desire to experience divinity through nature, love, and service to other people. I never once thought that was my own image out there in the universe as a maiden I was so deeply in love with, and it’s not. That is truly the divine and why I had to let go of my image of romantic love long ago, because that was distracting me from the truth.

The divine goal is the only goal anyone should be striving for, and it will manifest in all ways applicable, and that is the reason why it remained true both for me, and Ulrich in the movie scene I shared as an example. The goal was always the same, but how we understood reaching it, understanding it, and experiencing it was flawed. We recognized the flaw, corrected it, and perceived the truth reflected back to us as truth, and that is what makes a man who he is. I did not need a maiden, her opinion, her love, her affection, her friendship, nothing at all to know my identity as a man and I found true happiness entirely without her.

That is true. That works for both men and women. You need not find a partner to be in romantic love with to find true happiness of the highest order.

The disillusionment and correction of the flaw is often painful and horrible. For Ulrich, he is found out for forging his heraldry, and imprisoned. For me, I was humiliated in the most embarrassing way in public by expressing my love for divinity to various maidens while I was working on the higher purpose. Oh the tragedy!!! My ego was covered with boogers and barf!

Not all that bad though, in truth, and I am much happier having let go of all those misunderstood desires.

Women can express divinity the same way men can, and that is what I find so attractive about those maidens. I still do. Holy smokes, I am totally in love with a maiden when she radiates divinity every time. That’s fine though. I’m a man, and I love maidens and divinity, and they should both be together in a maiden for a man and a man for a maiden. That is how true love and marriage works.

The irony is this, I never once looked at the circumcised man as a threat, and I still don’t, but he is my enemy and I have to destroy him. It’s not much of challenge for me as a test of skill, strength, ability, wits, courage, or anything really. That fool is pure evil on purpose because he never learned to correct his mistakes. So, it’s more like putting down a horse with a broken leg, but that’s also part of being a man. You have to know when to take a life as an act of mercy.

So, I have killed the Christ and put an end to that evil tyrant’s madness, and good riddance too. Now I have to put an end to the man who believed he was the Christ and never corrected his mistake. I have put an end to the life of the traitor former president as well. Now, I think there is one more, to end the life of… probably not my brother, because he’s a good one as far as I can tell and he knows me well enough to not believe I am the monster I am being accused of at the moment.

There is a circumcised fool who has never met me, nor attempted to meet me, nor imagined that I could be anything other than the embodiment of his cultural enemy. The situation is different between us. That person has been watching me, spying on me, interfering with my life in secret, and doing all manner of criminal evil to try and convince himself I am what he wants me to be, and it was all on the tax payer’s payroll as a government agent too. Whoever it is remains totally unknown, impersonal, and anonymous to me. I have no idea what they look like, their name, how old, or anything that makes them a person, really. I just know their soul for constantly attacking me.

It is a very tragic situation all around. I don’t have any sympathy for that dude, because he is genuinely evil and I hate evil, and besides, he went way too far with the cruelty and malevolent ways that he tried to destroy me while he was hiding. I simply do not have the sympathy for such a person who can do that to someone else, and it is not about the victim being me. I could overlook that, because I’ve spent very little time appreciating, valuing, or thinking about my own life and I am often too willing to sacrifice my own wants for others without valuing my own wants as important.

That is another lesson I needed to learn, and why I will not budge from what I know is best for myself just to be convenient for other people who have had plans disrupted because of my actions. To hell with their plans anyway. If they can’t call an audible on the field, they don’t need to be in the major leagues, because I am not acting in hostility to their plans. They are only perceiving that because they have not yet matured as men, which is actually quite shameful considering how old they are and that one of them was a president!

It’s no wonder he was a traitor, he never learned what is most important in life, and was so self-absorbed in his own vanity that he refused to believe that there could have been anything flawed about his perception. Totally innocent for young men, absolutely abhorrent and disgusting for an old man. I’m not sure what is more vile to me, the immature fool of an old man as president who thought he was “God”, or the people who followed his commands as though it were true.

However disgusting those people are as shameful humans who will be seen for what they are and what they have done, I do not strike them down for myself. I stand my ground for myself, but I strike them down for everyone else, and here is why: If I consider myself as just a random human being I didn’t know, I cannot tolerate what they have done by letting that individual cause me suffering, watching him do it while knowing what he was doing, and pretending like it never happened to try and cover it up. I strike them down because I cannot let a human being be abused like that, and I am one such human being.

So, A Knight’s Tale is a good movie to watch. It’s feel-good, silly, and you probably would never have noticed the things I just explained about the coming of age journey a man goes on as it pertains to the Christ.

As for the maiden to love, idk. I’ve got nothing better to do, and life would not be worse with a maiden around who is good with the divine forces too, so why not? If' she’s available, and I can sense quite a few who most certainly are and watching with interest like lionesses ready to pounce on zebra, and I am available and willing as well, then let’s make the magic happen. Not just for us, even though that’s what’s most important in this situation because no marriage is open to the public and remains sacred, but it will do a lot of good for everyone to see some good old fashioned true love of the highest order making fireworks throughout the night, at least until the lights are back on.

As a final note about the journey of man, remain hopeful in yourself as you go. Once you realize you were your own worst enemy and how, and then do what is good and true, then your own worst enemy becomes your best ally, and you will always know you can trust yourself to be you.

The best scene in cinematic history:

The US government losers are like, “but, Nick, Nick, my investments! I need this!” … “DRAAAAIIINNNAAAAGGGE!!!!” Look at them scurrying like cowards frow my wild bowling balls. Whack…. well, I guess I better get this over with. Splat! Sigh of relief. “I’m finished!”

When woman is a vile whore sucking the circumcised smegma, life is better without her, and the further she keeps away, the better.

On Hellraiser II: Hellbound

While I am a fan of horror movies, the number I have seen is relatively low compared to what I would refer to as the Horror aficionado. Perhaps that may change as I take a more focused interest in the genre.

Anyway, as someone unfamiliar with the Hellraiser series, I recently watched Hellraiser II: Hellbound because it was the only one available on Amazon Prime Instant Video. I think I may have seen part of a cable tv version of the fourth one when I was a youth, but I hardly recall it. As it is, Hellraiser II left a lasting impression on my memory and I am glad I watched it.

There is something exquisite about the special effects of the eighties that remains poignant to this day, and the special effects that were employed in Hellraiser II were marvelous. I think what most impressed me about the film was how creatively the demented horror of Hell was presented in the movie. The grotesque macabre of the genre is one of the qualities that I am most interested in when it comes to horror, and Hellraiser II did not disappoint.

The plot seemed to be loosely strung together leaving much to the audience's imagination as to the hows and whys that certain scenes occurred, but I think it works out in favor of the movie overall. There was a kind of logical consistency between plot gaps that did not disappoint, and having to leap through darkness from horror to horror is part of the fun. So, even though certain matters were not explicitly explained in the film, it seemed clear to me that the creator had thought about the connections that were being made, lending it a sense of genuine creation.

It not only delighted my morbid interest in hellish gore, but it made me feel somewhat uneasy about my own fascination, which is one of the most valuable parts of the horror viewing experience. Not only that, but it left me with a lingering interest to know more about the Hellraiser universe, and I want to better understand the lore and inner workings of the system of malevolence that seems to exist in Hellraiser Hell. Perhaps that topic is further explored in the subsequent films.

If you are in the mood for a wholesome horror film that challenges the borders of the imagination with representations of the grotesque, I recommend this movie. I use the word wholesome, because this movie was not gravely offensive, despite it’s exceedingly twisted imagery. It maintained a sense of dark integrity that does not betray the audience’s sensibilities, and seemed to illustrate a higher truth that was worth considering. There was meaning buried underneath the blood and violence, which redeems it from the seeming senselessness of pure sensationalism.

It is no wonder that it had such a positive review written about it as a worthy sequel to an original film, and I hope to add my own words of praise into the vast galaxy of writing that circulates the internet, whether it find a reader or not.

Merry horror watching, friends.