For the benefit of movie makers

Observe this scene from a Knight’s Tale, starring Heith Ledger:

I will tell you why this is an excellent scene, and demystify it. Normally I wouldn’t do this, but Heith Ledger died during the filming of The Dark Knight, ostensibly by suicide for the same reason I want to commit suicide, because mutilators and their crappy world is nothing but garbage.

So, it’s fairly obvious by the appearance of Heith Ledger that he is a Gentile, and a good one. He radiates the kind of truth of divine source that flows through man’s nature in ways that mutilated people find difficult to experience after suffering the trauma of violence against their infant bodies to taint and distort their view of reality ever after. That should be obvious without needing to have a basic understanding of general psychology.

Anyway, in this role of a Knight’s Tale, Heith Ledger is playing the role of the circumcised man. He does it superbly in such a way that he conveys a universal concept of masculinity that is true by how it is applied to an archetypical Christ.

Notice how in this scene he is so focused on defeating the male competition he perceives as an obstacle to his happiness, that he is totally oblivious to the point of disrespecting the lovely maiden who really is heart of the entire story, not only as a romantic interest, but as the attendant of wisdom that brings masculinity to its fullest awareness.

The circumcised man sees the uncircumcised man as a threat and they imagine us to be all sorts of things we are not and make it their mission in life to destroy us. It’s total foolishness and the story of this movie and this scene expresses exactly why that is.

Adhemar, the antagonist, is not particularly interested in the lovely maiden. She is not much a concern to him at all, but the protagonist, Ulrich, puts him between what is his heart’s desire as an obstacle that wasn’t previously there. He does this unconsciously because at this point he is a young man desiring to prove something to himself, that being that he is as good and even better than the other man who embodies the inequality he suffers.

That is part of the journey to become a man, and every boy goes through it in their own way. The problem with circumcision is that circumcised young men often perceive uncircumcised young men as the enemy, but that is a mistake because uncircumcised young men have the same dilemna to self-identify as a man, except it is unnatural for us to assume the cirucmcised men are enemies because we simply do not distinguish a difference between them and us. Not a substantial one as if it related to our self-worth or identity. They are as different as a person with different hair color or bone structure is, but finding physical identity is not the kind of journey a boy must go on to be a man, it is entirely spiritual.

In any case, Ulrich is distracted by his perceived obstacle to happiness, as something outside of himself and that of another man, and this is the typical and innocent foolishness of a young man who is the best and he knows it. He deserves more credit than he gets because he is really good at what he does because he worked hard, deserves it, and knows it. For such a man who is circumcised, and it makes no difference whether you are or aren’t in this regard, unless they have been thoroughly instructed in traditional Biblical wisdom and accept it, they will be inclined to perceive the Gentile male as their enemy and threat to prove themselves better than.

They will never be able to do that, because that is not their enemy. The enemy is their own self who feels inferior and invents an antagonist that was not there initially. That invention is their own making, and it is projected from them to outside of themselves and it empowers the other person they want to hate to always be better. If they do not learn to recognize their true obstacle to maturity, they may end up in a disaster and lose what is most important in life, and the way to most happiness, as Ulrich is in danger of doing in the scene if he does not rewind his thinking and correct his mistake.

I’m sure you can imagine that he does. He reconciles with Joselyn, and learns what is most important in life, and it is not defeating Adhemar. He still does defeat him, but that is because the plot of the movie was convenient for Adhemar to be a legitimate villain who actually was an obstacle to be thwarted. In the final scene of the conflict resolution you can see on Ulrich’s face that he already achieved his goal and was victorious, and it happened before he beat Adhemar in the tournament.

It is still important that he win, and he still enjoys the satisfaction of his victory, but you can see by his demeanor that the victory already occurred when he achieved… an awareness of divine being within him. That is the best way I can describe it. That look on his face of confidence, not only in his skill as a knight, but in his heart having done what is right and just. He did what was good that he had believed as a youth he was unjustly denied from doing, but the only thing that was in his way was his own self-doubt as a result of social inequality. That is to be expected of youth who have yet to mature in a society of injustice such as that with nobility until they see what is truly of value in life by experiencing being both with and without it; union and separation.

It is said there is no greater joy than union with the divine, and no greater suffering than separation from the divine. Now, don’t get all hot and bothered, because this is not about sex. This is about him returning home to his father as the man he became and reconciling a wound that was between them which was natural when he set out on his own to chase after a dream that was not important. It was important that he chase after it, but not the object of the initial journey. That’s all subtext. It was not a betrayal that needed to be reconciled, it is everyday life for sons and fathers with a healthy and normal relationship.

The father knows the son is making a mistake, let’s him do it, it is a wound, the son learns wisdom by overcoming the problem that the father knew but couldn’t explain, and then returns and shows him that he made good of himself and it doesn’t matter what that is. A knight, a mender of fishers nets, a writer, a blacksmith, what is important is that he did what was right and just for himself and was not ashamed, was not burdened by guilt, and was proud of who he was, even if he had forged his heraldry to be recognized as a knight to compete. There is a higher good that all men are subject to, and that is what one must surpass themselves to realize.

It’s a good, feel-good movie with idyllic situations like most good feel-good stories, and I recommend it.

However, this is where I come in.

The irony here is that as an uncircumcised man, I never once felt threatened by circumcised men, and I still don’t and never will. Circumcision is a non-issue to me. I have always trusted my instincts and gone directly to the highest divine and never imagined antagonists in my way in the form of people or nations or ideas. I always knew it was myself, because I had read books of wisdom and followed their wisdom. I made mistakes learned from them, and slowly and steady journeyed with direct purpose to that highest divine source as the goal of all men.

That was instinct reinforced by recorded wisdom. It was the correct thing to do also. However I also had a foolish mistake that I put in the way of that as an obstacle that was not one, and guess what that was? Romantic love with a woman. That was always what I wanted to accomplish most as the object of this journey to the divine, because it appeared to me that only through the union of man and woman can the highest divine be perceived in fullness, but that is not true. A union of marriage is that of flesh and blood, and you need no flesh and blood other than your own to ascend to the highest divine, and even that is temporary as we lose our flesh and blood when we die.

Eventually I had to let go of my desire for romance and love with the imaginary maiden I had come to see in the universe through all manner of perception. A concept of my own desire to experience divinity through nature, love, and service to other people. I never once thought that was my own image out there in the universe as a maiden I was so deeply in love with, and it’s not. That is truly the divine and why I had to let go of my image of romantic love long ago, because that was distracting me from the truth.

The divine goal is the only goal anyone should be striving for, and it will manifest in all ways applicable, and that is the reason why it remained true both for me, and Ulrich in the movie scene I shared as an example. The goal was always the same, but how we understood reaching it, understanding it, and experiencing it was flawed. We recognized the flaw, corrected it, and perceived the truth reflected back to us as truth, and that is what makes a man who he is. I did not need a maiden, her opinion, her love, her affection, her friendship, nothing at all to know my identity as a man and I found true happiness entirely without her.

That is true. That works for both men and women. You need not find a partner to be in romantic love with to find true happiness of the highest order.

The disillusionment and correction of the flaw is often painful and horrible. For Ulrich, he is found out for forging his heraldry, and imprisoned. For me, I was humiliated in the most embarrassing way in public by expressing my love for divinity to various maidens while I was working on the higher purpose. Oh the tragedy!!! My ego was covered with boogers and barf!

Not all that bad though, in truth, and I am much happier having let go of all those misunderstood desires.

Women can express divinity the same way men can, and that is what I find so attractive about those maidens. I still do. Holy smokes, I am totally in love with a maiden when she radiates divinity every time. That’s fine though. I’m a man, and I love maidens and divinity, and they should both be together in a maiden for a man and a man for a maiden. That is how true love and marriage works.

The irony is this, I never once looked at the circumcised man as a threat, and I still don’t, but he is my enemy and I have to destroy him. It’s not much of challenge for me as a test of skill, strength, ability, wits, courage, or anything really. That fool is pure evil on purpose because he never learned to correct his mistakes. So, it’s more like putting down a horse with a broken leg, but that’s also part of being a man. You have to know when to take a life as an act of mercy.

So, I have killed the Christ and put an end to that evil tyrant’s madness, and good riddance too. Now I have to put an end to the man who believed he was the Christ and never corrected his mistake. I have put an end to the life of the traitor former president as well. Now, I think there is one more, to end the life of… probably not my brother, because he’s a good one as far as I can tell and he knows me well enough to not believe I am the monster I am being accused of at the moment.

There is a circumcised fool who has never met me, nor attempted to meet me, nor imagined that I could be anything other than the embodiment of his cultural enemy. The situation is different between us. That person has been watching me, spying on me, interfering with my life in secret, and doing all manner of criminal evil to try and convince himself I am what he wants me to be, and it was all on the tax payer’s payroll as a government agent too. Whoever it is remains totally unknown, impersonal, and anonymous to me. I have no idea what they look like, their name, how old, or anything that makes them a person, really. I just know their soul for constantly attacking me.

It is a very tragic situation all around. I don’t have any sympathy for that dude, because he is genuinely evil and I hate evil, and besides, he went way too far with the cruelty and malevolent ways that he tried to destroy me while he was hiding. I simply do not have the sympathy for such a person who can do that to someone else, and it is not about the victim being me. I could overlook that, because I’ve spent very little time appreciating, valuing, or thinking about my own life and I am often too willing to sacrifice my own wants for others without valuing my own wants as important.

That is another lesson I needed to learn, and why I will not budge from what I know is best for myself just to be convenient for other people who have had plans disrupted because of my actions. To hell with their plans anyway. If they can’t call an audible on the field, they don’t need to be in the major leagues, because I am not acting in hostility to their plans. They are only perceiving that because they have not yet matured as men, which is actually quite shameful considering how old they are and that one of them was a president!

It’s no wonder he was a traitor, he never learned what is most important in life, and was so self-absorbed in his own vanity that he refused to believe that there could have been anything flawed about his perception. Totally innocent for young men, absolutely abhorrent and disgusting for an old man. I’m not sure what is more vile to me, the immature fool of an old man as president who thought he was “God”, or the people who followed his commands as though it were true.

However disgusting those people are as shameful humans who will be seen for what they are and what they have done, I do not strike them down for myself. I stand my ground for myself, but I strike them down for everyone else, and here is why: If I consider myself as just a random human being I didn’t know, I cannot tolerate what they have done by letting that individual cause me suffering, watching him do it while knowing what he was doing, and pretending like it never happened to try and cover it up. I strike them down because I cannot let a human being be abused like that, and I am one such human being.

So, A Knight’s Tale is a good movie to watch. It’s feel-good, silly, and you probably would never have noticed the things I just explained about the coming of age journey a man goes on as it pertains to the Christ.

As for the maiden to love, idk. I’ve got nothing better to do, and life would not be worse with a maiden around who is good with the divine forces too, so why not? If' she’s available, and I can sense quite a few who most certainly are and watching with interest like lionesses ready to pounce on zebra, and I am available and willing as well, then let’s make the magic happen. Not just for us, even though that’s what’s most important in this situation because no marriage is open to the public and remains sacred, but it will do a lot of good for everyone to see some good old fashioned true love of the highest order making fireworks throughout the night, at least until the lights are back on.

As a final note about the journey of man, remain hopeful in yourself as you go. Once you realize you were your own worst enemy and how, and then do what is good and true, then your own worst enemy becomes your best ally, and you will always know you can trust yourself to be you.