The Sexual Identity of Nick Bylotas
This is the greatest topic of discussion for humanity in the present age and world. Strange, uncomfortable, and highly inappropriate to be making such a fuss over, but that doesn’t change the fact that people seem to be most concerned about my sexual “preference” category more than anything else about me, themselves, or anything at all.
I don’t understand why they think like that— with such importance on such trivial concerns, but I figure I can maybe state clearly how I think of my sexual identity for the benefit of everyone, and maybe they can move on to more important concerns.
I am sexual.
That is all there is to it. I don’t define myself any further than that when it comes to sexual identity. Romantically I love women, and sexually I am attracted to women, but I also enjoy sexual activity like any sort of fun with lots of different ways to enjoy the activity, and don’t ever concern myself with what that means about my “identity” or “who I am”. I have no doubts about that.
If you are curious about my sexual identity, one of three things seems likely: 1. either you want to marry me, 2. you want to have sex with me, or 3. you want to marry or have sex with me and don’t want to admit it to yourself.
Why else would this topic be of any concern to you?
Whatever the case, decide what you want and then approach me to see if I want to that too, and I don’t particularly care who you are. I am not going to be rude to you if you have the courage to tell me something like that, but do not like being objectified like some sex object for people to use and abuse how they want, or a pet for them to keep.
If you are the first option and want to marry, do not worry at all about my sexual activity or attraction. I am a sexual being and I assure you I can get it on with you. I doubt there is anyone I won’t be able to get it on with if I don’t have a mind to do so. Sex is fun and easy with people who are honest about themselves with me and not keeping secrets or experimenting with me as I’ve found most women to be doing.
For the second thing, whatever. I’m pretty much open to anything. It’s not like I have many options, but even if I do, it’s not that I don’t want to do anything fun like that, but I find it difficult to motivate myself to put in the effort for something like that when I can usually just take care of myself. So if that is you, just come on strong to me, and don’t worry about it. If I want you to back off I will tell you easily and carefully unless you are being rude to me in which case I’ll propbably tell you so more firmly, and then use a hard rebuke if your are ignoring what I tell you.
I don’t want persistence, I want honesty and clear communication. I don’t care how strong you are coming onto me or how unpredictable and passionate you may be, but if you ignore what I tell you as though I didn’t say anything or you simply didn’t listen, then you are asking for trouble, because I don’t waste words with people. When I tell you something, especially in writing, I 100 percent intend what I am writing, even if that intention is subtle and indirect. I never “go through motions” without meaning or say things that I don’t mean. I never have empty words. I never lie, deceive, or do anything to try and manipulate other people. I may change my mind, my feelings may change, or something else which will contradict something I said, but that does not mean I was lying to you, and I will let you know when something changes when it changes, and not hide that until the “right time”. There is no better time to address changes like that than as soon as possible.
If you are practicing some kind of bizarre social mysticism with energy that you are afraid of losing, don’t worry. I’m a permanent source of that and if you feel like you need to restore personal power like that, you can come refill your supplies from me personally at any time. I never run out, I never have limits, and you can renew your power with me as often as you need. It’s fine, but you will most likely need to know me personally for that benefit.
It’s hard for you to understand because you don’t have my spiritual professional expertise. Socially people are somewhat correct to be careful with that kind of energy, know it is risked in social situations, possibly losing personal power and possibly gaining personal power, but that specific kind of thing is something I have mastery of and don’t ever risk losing. I have a personal source of permanent power in my own identity that is who I am and always will be me, and that cannot be threatened, taken away, or diminished no matter what people do to me that would affect someone without that kind of personal mastery.
Some people have social problems with that kind of energy, don’t know how to ask for help, don’t know what to do about it, or even how to describe what they are experiencing, and that kind of work is the type of thing I specialize in. They can consult with me in private, and I will work with them as a “shaman” of sorts who can help them discover what they need for themselves. This isn’t something that can be bottled and sold, but it is something you can visit me for and receive at any time.
That’s the main difference between a popular idol Christ and a true Christ. Popular idol Christs depend on popularity, and true Christs have enough experience with good works that attain what I believe is called “self-actualization” in Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs. That is a lot more difficult than it may appear, because you have to do something for yourself that actualizes your highest potential as an individual. When that happens, you no longer need anything from anyone else. You become entirely self-sufficient for who you are and that is a state of permanent “Christliness”. You don’t stop attaining your dreams or becoming more, but you stop understanding your own self in relation to other people. That is what happens when a “boy” becomes a “man” but that has little to do with age. That is about attaining a kind of social milestone with your life that requires interconnected relationships with other people, their approval, and what you understand your purpose in society to be, but is also the end of that, when all things change because you realize a kind of self-transcendence about how being your best self requires indpendence from the judgments of others. That does not mean that their judgements are meaningless, because they are still powerful, but your own self-worth will not be affected by anyone’s judgement of you at that point, and you will never doubt yourself again.
Sounds amazing, yes? That is the goal all people should have for themselves, and it is not so easy as just deciding that you will attain it. You must actualize yourself in such a way that you can see your reflection in the world around you in a way that reveals your eternal self-worth. Attain your goal in life, in other words, and then realize that your goals were too low, and you need to start over to raise the bar higher now that you know who you are and what kind of power you have. Don’t set your goals too high at first though, but just high enough to be realistically attainable as the most important goal you have that will demonstrate the fulfilment of all the work you are putting into your life to be who you want to be. That takes time, effort, practice, patience, and taking risks.
I don’t know like… say you want to be an architect and your passion is to design a dream home of your artistic vision. You have to go to school, study, learn all the stuff about architectural mastery and then put it to practice. Maybe start working at a company as an intern then becoming staff, and spending some time doing general architecture work building commercial and residential designs that other people are assigning for you to build. That is good, you can be proud of that work, feel accomplished to see it done, but that won’t be enough for you. However… that may gain you a reputation and money you earn that eventually you can invest in a design that you find an investor to fund, and then you build that dream house of your artistic vision for them, see it done, and are satisfied with your work.
Most likely, you learned a lot more about architecture at that point that informs you on how you can do better or maybe what else you want to do with architecture other than an artistic vision of a “perfect” home. However, you did it. You finally saw completed that vision of yours that was the culmination of your passion for deciding on becoming an architect from the very beginning, and then everything starts over. New game plus. Keep your experience, skills, abilities, weapons, but you will see life from an entirely new perspective at that point because you attained self-actualization, and you will never need other people to provide their faith in your vision for your vision to be manifest, because you will have seen your vision manifest and will not possibly be able to doubt your own self-worth. No matter how self-confident and faithful you are, until you accomplish your life’s goal, you will always still feel like “you aren’t ready yet”, “not there yet”, and “not at the top of the mountain”. Not the tallest mountain there is to climb, but the one you set out to climb way back when.
That can be any number of things. I imagine for an actress, that could be starring in a movie theater movie, or even something like… starring in a movie and having your own trailor. These visions are personal, unique, private, and only for you to decide and you should keep them close and protected with care, but there is nothing wrong with sharing what they are, talking about them, or seeking help from a professional. Just take care not to be too casual about your deepest darkest goals because too much outside interference can corrupt them. Keep them hermetically sealed until the time comes to pop the cork and drink the vintage from when the journey began.
Do not worry about these more idyllic dreams either. These same feats of self-actualization can be humble, more common, and much more realistic for most people. Like… being a plumber and installing a fancy new bathroom where there previously wasn’t one, requiring new pipes, new walls, and more. Or a mechanic who wants to pull an engine out of an old beat up hot-rod that doesn’t run, repair all the broken parts, and then put it all back together and go for a ride. Also, not necessarily a labor of work— could be climbing Mt. Everest, visiting every state in the USA, spending a summer in India learning yoga from a master yogi, getting your black belt— however, one word of caution do not set a life goal like that on something that requires another person, or you will have a catastrophe of failure. Something like getting married or having children. Those things are not “self-actualization”, because you cannot do either without the other person and it is not a “self-actualizing” experience. I’m not saying those aren’t without value or accomplishment, but that’s not the kind of thing I am describing here. This type of thing is something you have to do for yourself and only yourself— just make sure you aren’t being entirely selfish so you forget to pay attention to how your goals affect others, because the last thing you want to do is have the castratphe of failure that results from vanity as an ambitious goal is pursued at the expense of others who are suffering unjustly for your goal, because those who are made to suffer for such a goal are what prevents you from being self-actualizing, because they suffered when you should have.
Anyway, I got way off track, but my point is, I’ve done that, and am on a new thing now, and what I did is actually good for renewing the sexy sex spirit power as an eternal source. Not my intention. Not what I was seeking, but a perk and silver lining that I did not realize I was going to receive.
I just making up this statistic, but 90 percent of a shaman’s job is untangling sexual confusion, providing clarity for a person’s sexuality in regard to their gender role, and helping couples resolve their sexual problems in a marriage. That’s the dirty nature of the job that is the reality which scares most people away from the profession, because they’d be too embarrassed to admit they know what it’s like to indulge in enough wild fantasies to have enough sexual experience to do that kind of work, but that’s just the beginning. Where that’s 90 percent of the job, that’s 10 percent of the qualification. I wasn’t even going to a goal of being a shaman either! I just want to make a Story that I could believe in with my own true faith as well as anyone else who wants to . Turns out, accomplishing that was the capstone project of a shaman’s work! So… I guess that’s what I do now, but that’s not all I do, because I’ve set my sights on a new goal that’s also been somewhat in development: solving all the worldly problems of the world.
Right now I only have the plans made, but I do need other people’s cooperation to carry them out. They can add their faith, which will be good, but I don’t need them to believe in me. I know my plans are good, will work, and that I am capable of seeing them through. The cornerstone of that work will be firmly established when Freedom and Democracy in America is secured with the final doctrine of Lawful Independence. I’m not going to write this, but I will supply the faith the people who will write it need for their own self-actualization. I don’t know who they are, but I know this is the type of thing that will do that for them. They will be like Jefferson, Adams, Washington, Franklin, etc. except now, in the present, and the way that group should be, with women, African-American descended Black people, and no prejudice or corruption at all with private interests or secret organizations involved in what happens. These people will be Free Citizens who are the best for the job and won’t need special authority from ancient mystical cults backing them. They will have their own authority from America and will have their own merit to affirm they are capable of the job.
As for Black people— personally, I’d prefer you forgot all about being Black as different than being white. Instead let us account for being Black as being “American”, because Americans are new, all of us who identify with what the USA was established for 200 years ago are a new human identity. We are too diverse to be categorized by race, religion, or ethnicity, because the main thing that makes us who we are is that we are a community of all types of people. When the first Black slaves were brought to the colonies, they were from Africa, and that is different from Black people today who grew up here in a time where racial justice is so important and race equality protected. You can see the difference between the kind of personal identity you have as a “Black” person by considering the qualities of a natural born American citizen and a Black person who has immigrated over here from Africa. Do you see what I mean? The natural citizen is more accurately identified specifically as an “American”, and the immigrant is better identified as an “African-American”, but in neither case does the color of your skin matter in what makes you good or important as a human being. That’s why you should drop this whole “Black” crusade business, because that is not going to help. You are not different from any other Americans here and if you need to learn that the hard way, you are only going to justify why white people enslaved you in the first place.
Notice in the Constitution how elected office requirements specify a “natural born citizen”. That is what I am suggesting we agree on identifying as our common human identity in America. If you are a natural born citizen, you can claim “American” or the other identifiers of your ancestors, which for Black people would be African American, not Black. However if a family of African Americans who has immigrated here has children who are born here, those children can legally identify as “American”. The definition and difference is important because of that Constitutional requirement that needs to be maintained. We cannot have foreign nationals immigrating over here and becoming our national leaders in the highest levels of government at present. Their children can, and anyone else who was born as a US citizen can, but if you immigrated, please just make having a new life and enjoying your life the priority and do not trouble yourself with trying to take care of everyone here with the government. Let us take care of you, and if you need something special, do not hesitate to let us know.
I’m not saying you won’t be able to, but there is a special quality that a person has if they grew up with the identity of Freedom and Democracy as their blessed entitlement that will make it easier for them to be culturally aware of the most subtle and invisible energies of this place. It has nothing to do with worth, ability, or human value. You can lead your own state, and states have a substatial amount of autonomy apart from the national government, and I think senators, representatives, Supreme Court justices, and vice presidents should all be immigrant eligible, with the president being the only natural born citizen role. The reason is because of the spiritual nature of the job of president which is rather mysterious as an idol’s role and requires communication with all states and their citizens. They need to be able to be on the same wave length as new born babies, so to speak. If you want to change that in the future, change that in the future, but first we need to get our nation back from the brink of death and into a healthy state of stability again.
Anyway, that document is going to be the first step on that second life goal, and until I see that happen, I have no other purpose to my work, because the stability and security of the USA is necessary before any work can be reliably done. It would be a total waste to make a big organization of labor and economy in the USA just to have the lawlessness and treachery of the government provoke a war and then lose national sovereignty and all that work being useless because a new government will take over and have a new way of doing things that will be a vast improvement from lawlessness.
Finally, if you are wondering what my sexual preference is: I prefer two maidens in love with each other, with at least one in love with me. Whether that is you or not and you find yourself wondering about my “orientation” ask yourself whether you want to marry me or have sex with me, then decide whether or not you actually want to do that. If you do, take an action to introduce yourself to me and let me know what you want, either subtly or directly. If you do not, forget you ever wondered and do not bother yourself with that question again.
Finally, for the new race designation make it “North American” and “South American” as the distinction between natural born citizens of the respective continents. I recall a lovely maiden emphasizing how aggravating it can be to hear people from the USA say they are American when they are referring to their USA nationality, because down in Chile they are Americans too, and that is the truth. I can testify to that truth as well. Chileans are in fact Americans, as are Brazilians, Uruguayans, Columbians, Dominicans, Panamanians, and Mexicans. Canadians are the only ones who aren’t.
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To Hell with God… I bless America.
(last thing, don’t do anything to change the identifier for Native Americans— the reason being is that Native Americans retain sovereign territory apart from everyone else while also remaining US citizens.)
One final thing: Stop fussing about circumcision. That is not up for debate in the USA or a matter that is subject to vote or popular opinion. One single citizen’s rights are enough to determine the ruling of law on that matter. With that law you can then arrange for necessary exceptions that can be legally sanctioned with a special document for people to know they are lawfully protected. The people trying to make circumcision our cultural identity in the USA are trying to take the inheritance of children away from children and give it to the old people. That is not okay. You are stealing candy from a baby, and you are an old man who can buy all the candy he wants because old people will continue to be cared for and respected. Stop being nasty and mean. The inheritance is not about gender or identity, it’s about youth being respected and valued with a similar kind of necessary respect and honor due to elders. Children need to be regarded as full citizens with complete human rights and protections under the law as any adult, even if they cannot speak for themselves. (restrictions may apply for drugs, guns, and boobs) That is no different than the reason why adult mentally deficient people who cannot speak for themselves and are completely and fully protected under the law. Children’s interests need to be considered as a priority interest of the government, and that is what the inheritance of the USA citizen is about. Children receive that when they are born, and they have their entire youth to spend it how they will, because once we are adults, life is different in the same way for everyone. That is all that issue is about, and the longer crusty old geezers fight about it, the more they destroy whatever credibility circumcision had as a cultural group.