Insufficient Funds

Well, at least they aren’t charging a fee for charging a fee. That’s what I like to call an aluminum foil lining.

The debt collectors have been calling, at least I’m assuming that’s what the 1=800 number is that I’m not going to answer either way because if anything can’t be trusted it’s a 1-800 number. For some reason my phone doesn’t have a “reject call” button, but that doesn’t stop me from answering and hanging up so the music can continue.

I tried to get a loan, tried to explain how I could pay back the money, and tried to find a way to prevent this from happening. With both banks I use too. Military veteran banks. They wouldn’t even listen to me. They wouldn’t hear my request at all. Just filtered me through an automated machine with no soul or common sense and sent me away with a rejection. I was insistent about talking to someone but “that’s not what we do here, at USAA” the lady says. “Nobody talks to the underwriter of a loan.”

Whatever you stupid bitch. I tried. If they are going to be that rude to me when I make an effort to be financially responsible and make ends meet, I’m not going to do a damn thing to pay back that money, talk to debt collectors, or work with them in any way. They are going to have to go to extraordinary lengths to even talk to me, and then I’ll turn them away with a rejection as though I didn’t listen to a word they said because my response will not be applicable.

What a waste of a nation.

“You do not have high enough income to receive a loan.” The bank tells me.

Yeah, no shit! I wouldn’t be requesting a loan if I had “high enough income”.

I don’t have any income for that matter. I’m disabled waiting an appeal with VA on my third year for that to happen. I can’t work one of those jobs you make to keep people poor because that is dangerous to my mental health. I have autism and severe depression that has been created by the difficulty I’ve had transitioning to civilian life where all of a sudden everyone hates uncircumcised people with the most insane, hostile, cruel, and oppressive bigotry and persecution. I’ve been terrorized by the government making false accusations against me, arresting me, putting me through a nightmare of an injusttice system, and I tried to go to work, but I just can’t do it. I am a danger to myself and others in the kind of mental health state that kind of work does to me when I do it, and I am not going to endure that for the rest of my life while I try to pay back 200k in student loans I invested in my education for my profession of choice and nobody else’s decision.

I don’t care what is convenient for the conspirators, because they are never going to get me to cooperate for a circumcision scheme that is most certainly hostile to my own interests. I can say this much to them: you will find it highly inconvenient for yourselves if you try to control my life, manipulate me, or do anything to decide how I should live. That is going to cost you a lot more than you stand to gain with me doing what you want, and that’s what I call a win for the good guys that I can take to my grave and none shall ever be able to deny me.

Anyway, I work very hard as a sole proprietor who owns my own business, and I just am not successful. I don’t know what else to tell you. I’m doing all that I can, but it’s like I can’t even communicate to potential clients because every time I do I never get a response. So either my messages aren’t going through, or nobody has any manners or common human decency. What the fuck am I supposed to do for “high enough income”?

Any suggestions?

This is rigodamdiculous!