What worldly thing do I want most?
Worldly thing, as in normal items, objects, material possessions, and things of physical nature without a divine experience necessary to enjoy?
(True love with a beautiful maiden to marry and live happily ever after cannot be given by anyone or taken by anyone. A maiden and her true love will simply love each other, but that cannot be forced or prevented. If there are none who can possibly love me, and I think I’m fairly easy for this type of match, then that’s just the way it is and there is nothing I can do about that. That’s what I want most in the world but requires a divine experience of free will and thus is unrealistic to ask for or think as something that can be obtained or given like any ordinary object or experience. Thus I do not seek to obtain that. I simply go about being my best self and no more or no less, hoping a maiden will see me and be so overwhelmed with desire, she will move heaven and earth to have me by giving me a clear sign to let me know she wants me. I do that every now and then for maidens I want, but they rarely ever message me back and rudely ignore me which rules them out as “glitter that isn’t gold” as the saying goes.)
Anyway,,, back to the innocent question I feel like I should answer for a random reason I can’t explain except an obscure instinct that a cute and lovely maiden out there wants to know what could be given to me to make me happy of all the things in the world…
First, anything will do that you feel expresses yourself. That is something I have so seldom enjoyed as a gift that I treasure the occasion even if it is non-romantic. So don’t even worry about that.
Second, generally I like things that are semi-useful if not highly useful or artwork or creative trinkets which are their own justification of value without any use other than being seen and displayed or enjoyed for the altruistic happiness they provide. I also like educational materials intended to teach or deepen one’s knowledge on a particular subject or topic. Learning is a hobby of mine I hope to enjoy with my spouse, especially spiritual topics which are endlessly enjoyable with new contributions people are making, but I also like science, history, and paranormal/occult subjects … 0._0.
Third, most specifically as an item I am interested in purchasing now as one of the first things I intend to buy when the tyrants are removed and the money damn opened is:
A brand new Macbook Pro to upgrade the one I bought in 2015 and was later seized by the government and is now fubar. I have a decent and modest RoG Zephyr laptop now, which I chose because it was a reasonable price for the value, and the name reminds me of a childhood friend whom I want to see again but idk how to contact her. She’s probably behind a stack of books in a library somewhere and ignoring all the real world while it collapses around her. In fact all the apocalyptic b.s. is probably annoying her because it occasionally disrupts her reading which is far more interesting. She’s probably like… “Why are people making such a fuss over antisemitism? Don’t they know what Jews believe? It’s only natural for people to oppose that and they have every right to do so also. Weird. Still probably ought to keep my distance from that without someone like that “Nick” guy or “Sean” or “Danny” who I went to school with to do the guy’s part, because they all had some sense and wouldn’t be pushed around by people who pretend to know something they don’t.”
Anyway this here for only $7,999.00
Apple M3 Max chip with 16‑core CPU, 40‑core GPU, 16‑core Neural Engine
128GB unified memory
8TB SSD storage
16-inch Liquid Retina XDR display²
140W USB-C Power Adapter
Three Thunderbolt 4 ports, HDMI port, SDXC card slot, headphone jack, MagSafe 3 port
Backlit Magic Keyboard with Touch ID - US English
Final Cut Pro
Logic Pro
Basically the most expensive Mac Book Pro with all the top level options, bells, and whistles.
Most important is the Final Cut Pro and Logic Pro, because I found Logic Pro to be audio editing software I could figure out how to use, and Final Cut Pro would probably be like that too for video making. Also, I want the highest level processor and memory because those particular kind of programs eat up a lot of RAM and require fairly expensive equipment to function without crashing or stalling or having problems. That’s a 100% business expense for me because I prefer the PlayStation for gaming, even if some of their recent innovations are not what I would call “improvements”.
For any kind of work of art, like a video game, a good rule of thumb is to never be concerned with what your audience feels as something you can control, influence, or affect. You have no control over that because people are complicated with personalities so diverse and unique you could never know why something makes them feel the way it does unless you at least talked to them personally, and the audiences are too numerous to realistically be able to do that effectively before the product release. You can still sample test audiences, but take that feedback with a grain of salt because it’s more reassuring than a resource to inform creative work. That’s often vital to an artist because of how sensitive we are about our own work, uncertain of how people will like it, and most concerned that they will because that is the entire purpose of making art: to provide an experience that will bring happiness to people in some way. If you are trying to manipulate people for political purpose or simply collect their payments, you are in the wrong industry and should be doing merchandise for games, not the games themselves. I wish there was more video game merch out there for me to rep my favorite titles, characters, and games, but there isn’t a whole lot of that on the market.
So as a creator, limit your application of talent, skill, ability, and knowledge to the context of the work you are creating. You cannot affect the way a person is going to feel, but you can create something that you hope will evoke an intended feeling that weaves together an entire tapestry of story and entertainment. Notice you are not concerned about doing things to change the audiences responses, but are focusing entirely on what will they will be responding to. Then if you put your all into it like that and people don’t like it, you won’t take it personally even if you are disappointed that your work didn’t get the reaction you were hoping. That’s all the more reason to revaluate what you did, the way people naturally reacted, and take that back to your workshop to boil down into some experience points that will hopefully level up your ability and grant another skill point or two and then give it another go.
It’s a lot harder to do than it may seem because of how much you have to think, empathize, and imagine every little detail so that nothing is dissonant unless you intend it to be as kind of foreshadowing or something else. If you read the first chapter of StoryTeller, you’ll see what I mean about that method of dissonant foreshadowing. I’m not sure if I learned that somewhere, but I did want to give some kind of warning about what was going to happen so people could brace themselves a bit for something emotionally unpleasant.
Probably what I think most people would have trouble with in the current media industry is knowing how to instinctually sense the quality of a something being perceived in ways that are unintended and disasterous. As a writer, that could be a detail in the story itself, or the word that is used in a situation that could evoke other kinds of meanings, connotations, and experiences through no fault of my own or the readers. Then if you use a different word, that affects the tone and rhythm of everything around it, which gets increasingly complex.
Sensing things like that requires a kind of awareness of reality that is not very different from having an divine reality as a spiritual worker. They are not the same, and just because there is some overlap in the artisan’s perceptions, doesn’t mean an artist is a spiritual worker. A spiritual worker is less concerned with entertaining than they are with teaching, healing, and repairing, and that requires an additional skillset and knowledge repertoire than that of a creative artist. However, a creative artist can be extraordinarily successful as an entertainer without needing to concern themselves with having the skillset and knowledge of a spiritual worker.
They may also provide some sort of worthy spiritual work they are aware of doing too, but won’t be able to do the more difficult things. Likewise, a spiritual worker can make worthy entertainment without being an experienced creative artist, but won’t ever be able to create the greatest quality works of entertainment like that of a master artist. Also, they may not be entertaining, may not be sensational, and may be as dry as a barren desert in summer, but that is not an indication of their efficacy and ability as a spiritual worker. They may have a different means of working than using media, and there is no requirement to being a talented storyteller in order to be a miracle worker. You may not ever notice them working, either, but if you do, you ought to maybe show them a little gratitude because that kind of work is done as charity, but we often don’t receive charity ourselves to cover our expenses for maintaining our profession. Gratitude goes a long way there.
As far as I can tell people know I am doing spiritual work and are trying to create problems in society while they watch me, mock me, study me, collect data, and attempt to exploit me for their monetary gain, knowing I am not going to stand by and let problems I can solve make all of our lives worse, including myself. All those problems they are creating on purpose to try and manipulate and exploit me, are very costly to keep up with, and I can’t do much more because I’m all out of resources. So all the problems they recently created are going to go unresolved because I do not have any of the resources I need to do anything about them. Especially not when they are blocking my access to social groups, interrupting my communications, and attempting to economically bankrupt me.
I suppose they thought they would blame me for not solving those problems, but don’t realize that they created those problems on purpose, and that is a more important problem that needs to be addressed with law enforcement, justice, and national government. Since the national government is to blame as the people causing problems for people on purpose, that is an even greater problem that requires international intervention with warfare before their problems spread to other nations. Because that is an international problem where they are causing problems on purpose for everyone around the world, that is an even greater issue that is going to require divine intervention from the Word of God himself. Not any person, but a divine miracle of wrath that could potentially be the destruction of our entire planet to prevent those intentionally created problems from spreading any further. That’s what I would do anyway, and intend to make happen to resolve the situation. Sounds a bit extreme, I know, but if you knew what I knew about the kind of suffering they are causing, and what kind of suffering would be caused if people like that were allowed to continue doing so beyond the limits of Earth’s gravity, you would destroy this planet too before they could start an intergalactic, interspecies, interplanetary war just to be destroyed for being evil. Seriously. We should not be leaving Earth’s gravity expecting to be fighting wars among each other. All of that can be resolved now. That was the first problem I created a solution for as a spriitual professional. After that they started making more and more problems to try and ignore that.
However, that solution is still good, but I will need to tell everyone some things myself. This cannot be done with some idiot dickhead baboon pretending to be my representative when I have granted no such authority to anyone ever. They will never accomplish anything I intend to do because they do not have the ability, skill, or experience necessary to work with my solution because they are evil minded, dishonorable, criminals, and immature adults who have the minds and judgment of children. All the more reason to throw out the Bible for misleading you fools in such a disastrous way.
They have tried, failed, failed, and failed again, and there is nothing I can do to help them because their entire perception of reality depends on denying the very truth that needs to be accepted to even be able to do any kind of spiritual work, but that is certainly not enough to do what is necessary to make the solution work. You need an entire lifetime of experience, which I have whether you want to believe that or not because of my age. To make matters worse, they are trying to erase my life history from public record so people will not be able to see examples of my experience on record. Seriously… destroy this entire planet if nobody else living here has a problem with that, especially those who are causing the problem! What the hell do they think they are going to accomplish for themselves or anyone?
What kind of person, especially one who works in the government, is okay with anyone ever doing what I have described they have done. They have done it. I experienced what they did. That is all I need to know that this planet needs to be destroyed, because people like that have come to exist and lead our national government along with the cooperation of other world superpowers.
I have no hope in humanity, but that’s not my problem, that’s yours. I hope in the highest divine, and am content knowing we will all be killed or the planet destroyed with a nuclear war on purpose, all to prevent humans from escaping Earth’s gravity to plague the rest of the universe with evil that should not exist.
Whatever. That’s all I want to write for now. I thirst, this is going nowhere, and this isn’t going to do the future any good when humanity doesn’t have a future because the people now didn’t realize how a small good could make a big difference. All so they could protect a “small evil” to be tolerated. They will not allow someone like me to do a small good which doesn’t even concern that "small evil” directly, they are just paranoid because people will know I am not circumcised and they think that will ruin them. If they are that paranoid, they need to be ruined.
All of a sudden what was a “small evil” has become the largest evil to ever threaten a world and the entire universe. So much for being “small” you monstrous Jew. So much for being the “little guy”. So much for you “small population” compared to everyone else. All of you against one of me is a very big problem from what I can tell, and with everyone else backing you, supporting you, and helping you, that problem is magnified even more. Go ahead, do your worst. The smallest attack you could try is going to expose you with a huge amount of destruction you cause to someone on my level of the world. Your attempt to cover me with a basket to prevent me from getting people’s attention is going to cover the entire world in darkness, and that is not going to be received well by all of the world.
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