Little thing or big thing

Part of the reason why the evil minded, arrogant fools who made the mistake of antagonizing me as though I were some privileged and entitled repressed homosexual is that they do not recognize what is important in life or of highest quality.

For example, consider that you have two children. One of them is given a guitar and guitar lessons to learn music, the other is told no because they will make too much noise and never learned how to play a musical instrument as a child. Just because I was interested in drums doesn’t mean I couldn’t have been directed to anything else. Parents like the ones I have don’t think at all about what would be good for me, only what would be good for the circumcised brother at my expense.

Is that a little thing or a big thing when it comes to hate? The passive kind of hate. One is allowed to grow their hair out long and do what he wants in other ways such as get a tongue piercing, The other is not allowed to have long hair because he won’t take care it. Is that a little thing or a big thing? As a kid I didn’t really think much of it, but as an adult I remember being told that and I think… damn, that was a shitty thing for my mom to do. Why did she always try to divide life up between what my brother wanted and what was left?

Two boys go with their father on a fishing trip, one of them is not allowed to fish. He doesn’t think much of it then, but if I recall now and think about it in consideration of the professional fisherman in my family as something significant carried through the generations, I can understand what that was about. Quite clearly, my father did not want me to enjoy those family values because I was not circumcised nor welcome in the family. Little thing or big thing?

That is not the only thing my father did not want me to inherit, but fortunately for me, what is most important in life is never inherited. You cannot inherit spiritual authority, you cannot inherit the divine dignity that makes a king a king. You cannot inherit passion, you cannot inherit truth, you cannot inherit faith. All those I discovered within myself because that are universal to the human condition and I suppose without anything else good to enjoy about humanity, that is what I found myself drawn to. Ironically, my interest in passion, truth, and faith had a reverse affect on my family who hated me, because they are without passion, truth, and faith, even though all human beings should enjoy that and they have only themselves to blame for being inadequate in those ways.

So, maybe I don’t know how to fish nor really have much of an interest in fishing, but I do like fishing for people, knowledge, and wisdom, and those maybe are what I was able to learn in the absence of what I was not. If I am not too bold, I seem to have quite the talent for catching myself some lovely maidens hook, line, and sinker, and not in the way that you may think. They just are the ones who are capable these days after so many generations of circumcised men being coddled, lied to, and cheating to get what they want without hard work or ability.

I suppose there is a lesson there about the secret teachings of Jesus, but I’m not going to put it into words.

I suppose if I needed to catch men in that way I could, but a skilled fisherman catches what they intend to catch most often, and I certainly have no interest in men. I’m not saying I don’t have additional interests in my catch which I can take or leave because they are not the priority, but a significant part of the reason why I have become a fisher of women, is because I desire maidenly company. I do not even want to be around men after the kind of adult life I had in the Navy. Nothing but dudes all the time. So… I guess that is another ironic turn of events after being in the company of men for most of my life. I now have an inordinately passionate desire for the company of women, which has allowed me to pass through the waterfall trap of insecurity that made many a man a butt fucker, without being scathed.

It is like I said earlier today when someone commented about something else I said. They said something like, “so that’s like saying you are not by, but you are both gay and straight?”

This topic is exceedingly annoying today because of how many people are stumbling over human sexuality and taking a fall.

In that regard I would say "I am more like the left hand of darkness.”

I don’t want to do a thorough breakdown of Ursela K. Le Guin’s scienc fiction novel, but the portrayal of sexuality is very much how I see it as well. Man or woman? Depends on who I love and what they need. There is no shame in any part of human sexuality. More specifically that is to say human sexuality and not beast-like sexuality. You should always feel at least a little shame if you behave like a beast, even if you are just having fun playing and it is not a problem. That does not have to be a bad thing.

In any case, that’s how I feel. Personally, I don’t care what my true love’s body is like, as long as they can counter balance my impressive manliness. Most women would be naturally perfect in that way in healthy communities, but in today’s toxic and evil society poisoned by the intentional limits to knowledge that have been imposed on the population to force ignorance of a lesser age on the public, maidenly women are exceedingly rare. So are feminine men, because there is a great push and attempt by media and government to homosexualize as many men as possible in the USA. That makes them masculine and gay, but not maidenly, and that is of no interest to me because they do not have at all what I need in a spouse nor what I desire.

I recommend you approach sexuality the same way, and if you like to read science fiction, read Ms. Le Guin’s novel yourself. It is titled The Left Hand of Darkness.

Anyway, that’s all. This was a relaxing break from the video games unload some stress off my mind.

Oh, one last thing:

Taylor Swift, the last thing I heard in my dream last night before I awoke groggy and poorly rested as I always do these days with so much impersonal attention on me, was you singing. Clearly and perfect. Very nice.

However… it occurred to me what the problem is with both you, Ms. Kinney, and a great number of Hollywood fools. It seems that you people are attempting to draw on my individual person to evoke the passion you have for a failed love you had in the past. That is a big mistake on your part. You have put yourselves in love debt to me, and I certainly did not feel good when you took that from me while also pretending like you don’t know me. You don’t know me, but you are singing as if you do. I am not those people, and in fact am completely different. You do not know me, and you should not be singing about others as though I were them. I don’t know this like theology, but I do have a strong suspicion that will end up poorly for you if you don’t reconcile your debt with my true love.

You don’t need to do that only for me, but also for yourself, because the reason you felt that way so long ago along with someone else who did, is because you were true. If you are replacing that truth with someone you don’t know and not only that, is highly insulted to be considered as anyone other than myself alone and nobody else, especially not “the Christ” or my vile pretender trying to hijack my life for their selfish and inhumane purposes, then you are betraying yourself who felt true love then. That person who was yourself, is still within you somewhere who you ought to take some time getting back in touch with. If you don’t, it’s likely you’ll make a mistake like that with people who will be less then absolutely forgiving when reconciliation is made because they purposely tricked you by pretending to be real. I didn’t trick you. I am real, but you tricked yourselves by thinking I was a pretender.

Do you see how having that backwards is going to make things difficult in the future as your life plays out? As my first clients who will be applying the Way of the Story, I will offer my consultation services totally free and without strings attached. Normally for celebrity individuals, popular idols, and corporations as an entity (non-human), I’ll be charging a modest fee for my work. Everyone else will be able to pay me as they feel is best, even if it is not with money and only an expression of your true feelings in something you say.

After your successful recovery I hope my reputation grows, which is what I hope to gain from this as a businessperson, but quite honestly, the only reason I learned and became capable of any of this, is because of my genuine desire to help others, simply out of the kindness of my heart. I can think of nothing more worthwhile to do with my life, but I also need to face facts and make a living, so… that’s where the business angle comes in. If I am going to devote my life to this kind of work, I need to find some way to use it for public business.

Here is the thing about sexuality: everyone has uncertainty about their sexuality until they are certain, and for that you have to know both what you are and are not when it comes to qualities of sexuality. Naturally that is “confusion”, “curious”, and you get what I am saying. This is the same for boys and girls, men and women. Sometimes people confront that decision when they are young, sometimes when they are long since grown, and unless you are honest with yourself, you’ll have to confront that mysterious Natural part of yourself again later with more intensity.

So… the butt fucking waterfall trap I mentioned that lots of people were caught in. That’s rather tongue-and-cheek while also a reference to something in the Hogwarts video game. The point is, if the “trap” caught you, likely it just means you stumbled on your life journey, maybe lost your balance briefly with a misstep, maybe fell all the way to the ground and skinned your knee or elbow before getting back up. The point is, that is not something as concerning as many other dangers in Life. No matter what happened. It’s just water. Really.

What you need to know about it is this: 90 percent of the time when a person is faced with an identity crisis or sexual uncertainty that involves butt fucking— and I emphasize 90 percent, because it is not always the case— what they need to realize about themselves is that no sexual act is going to give them the answer, solution, or certainty they are looking for. 90 percent of the time what you need to do is “put childish things aside” and "learn to eat meat instead of live on milk.” You don’t have to totally abstain from sex and become celibate, but you most likely need to look deeper within yourself to the source of your desire or elsewhere entirely.

Do not worry! You are not growing up, Michael Jackson! You can always be a child and childlike, but in case you forgot, when you were a child, you very much wanted to be a grown up, and that is what this is about. Maybe not always, but probably at some point adults were being adults and you were like… “when I grow up, I’m going to show you all!” Then a kind one says something infuriating like, “okay, kiddo, you do that. Here’s some hot chocolate to enjoy until then.” Then after some outrage at the insult of being bribed for your silence, you realize there is nothing else you can do because none of them are paying attention to you anyway and you have better things to do. So off you go while enjoying the hot chocolate before it gets cold and totally forget about whatever it was you wanted to grow up for.

The point is, when you are thinking about doing something serious concerning the kind of adult sexual behavior that kids shouldn’t be troubling themselves with while they are yet young, ask yourself this before you do anything drastic: What is the main difference about you, and people in general, that makes a person an adult, or person a child, besides your age. 90% of the time if you are in this particular situation, you need to find yourself true where you are not at all motivated by sexual activity. There what you are concerned about or enjoying is something much better and important to you than sex.

This kind of thing is not easy. It’s not like that is going to shut off the experiences your body is having, and you may find it easier to just do what you think you want, but… most of the time it is not that simple. What you want is most likely something you need to find that is beyond what you know how to think about, and if you only did those things you already know the answer to, you could be wasting your time because you won’t be any closer to that which you seek than you were before.

Socially… there is unfortunately a lot of negative connotation to sexuality, and I will refrain from why that is, but it is unhealthy and shouldn’t be like that. There are natural boundaries between genders and they are important, but they are not so serious as something to be mad about if someone has crossed from one side to the other to enjoy the side they came from.

This is a really awkward situation in human civilization, for everyone in the entire world, and that is why it is called an “apocalypse”. This moment (in general) was predictable 2,000 years ago because of what had happened in the universal human culture of public life when that prophecy was recorded as true.

Maybe that demystifies it a bit for you to get a grasp on the spiritual stuff, but if you try to better understand, I’m willing to wager that you will find the terms of the applicable Story very useful, but not entirely adequate. You will need new stuff from our time and the future, and that is where we are going. Do not bring the old world that is being done away with into the future carelessly or you will likely regret it. If you intend to do that, it will need to undergo a change to fit with the way things are now and will always be, while also being consistent with the way they have always been. Only those will pass on. All else will pass away. We are 2,000 years apart from the people who wrote about this sort of thing happening, and there is a lot about our public lives that is different, so this shouldn’t come as a surprise.

However, the mystical secret of enlightenment that mystery schools teach is most definitely not butt fucking. If one of those secret/mystery schools is trying to sell you mystical enlightenment and they require butt-fucking to do that, they are charlatans and fools who are misleading you. That’s true now, always will be true, and was true back in Jesus’ time and people like me were outraged by the insult to our spiritual profession that such pretenders were causing by tarnishing the reputation of mystics who rightly deserve the highest respect because of what they do professionally. That is work that is the most essential in civilization, and you cannot do without it nor do many people have the ability to do or even to understand because of how difficult that journey is.

The easiest thing for professionals like myself to do, is chastize the arrogant who think the mystical truth of divine spirituality is all an act, a show, and the performence of entertainers. You couldn’t insult us more by comparing us to the common media performers and entertainers of popular culture and idolatry. Your lesson will be most humbling because of what you are claiming to be yourself by passing judgment with such arrogant ignorance—that is to say, you are judging us false because you believe we are no more than entertainers. You will be most humbled, and I will have the greatest time humbling you— and if entertainers think the same thing, deluding themselves with divine knowledge derived from their idolatry, then they will be humbled too and all the public will be entertained while we do it.

Better to be a king and humbled by a prophet in your council room, than a president and be humbled on his stage of power by a man from the earth who is a citizen. The latter would be most humiliating and the roars of laughter at their embarrassment will tear the world asunder, and everything will have to be rebuilt. On the bright side, we’ll all be in a merry and cheerful mood after such a heartful, death reviving laugh so the work won’t be a chore or even seem like work at all.