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Basically, whether I am working to save the world from its imminent destruction at the hands of fools or not, or doing anything with a divine purpose— you have no right to expect me to do anything more than a man is capable of.
I never made any claim to being more than a man or having powers that a man does not ordinarily have, nor do either of those things apply to me.
Your unwillingness to be human yourselves and rely on human cooperation to do what must be done is one of the most uncharitable, selfish, and sinful things possible.
I will find a way to do what must be done, not that I have any idea how that will be, but I will do it. I will do what you think it is impossible for me to do and thus are requiring of me.
When I do you will see that I owed nothing to anyone, least all Jesus the Christ. I don’t owe you anything, or the future anything, nor do I have to atone for some sin of my own. I owe nothing.
However, because what great cost that which you are requiring of me is, it is not going to be charity, and you who are requiring it will have to pay that cost.
Do you not realize that you do not have enough to pay that cost? At the very least, you pay the same price that Jesus paid, because that is what he paid for and you will not accept because you do not believe in what he accomplished. You apparently need to see it again, and there is no excuse for such ignorance, hate, selfishness, and uncharitable evil in this day age, especially not after all that is known about the work of Christianity.
You will be made to pay that price, not me. I will do the good of it, and you will suffer the cost. That is what you are bringing about for yourself.
“Ask and the door will be opened?” — You damn fools! That is not for you to open! Ask up to the divine and that is who will open the door to the divine for you personally! That door was opened for me many, many years ago at the beginning a long journey I saw to completion, and you have yet to pass the threshold and take your first step. Do not think you can even begin to teach me spiritual wisdom when do not have any yourself. All you have is some false piece of paper that says you have authority, but it does not grant it because it was written by fools just like yourself.
You should not require being asked to do something before you do charity unless you don’t know how you can help, in which case you should ask.
If you notice someone in distress because they express it, approach and say “Is there something I can do to help?” If you do not want people to help, do not express your rage and sorrow for the distress as though it affects other people. If it is something you prefer to do on your own, simply carry that burden with dignity until you can lay it down. However, you should never hesitate to ask others for help even if you are asking a lot and the burden is small, because such help has no cost. It is only profit for everyone.
All I can think of doing, being a man expected to do miracles as though I were a fantasy fiction god, and not any relevant spiritual divinity to real life, is appeal to the conscience of my enemies. Rather hopeless, I know. However it is the only possibility considering what they think I don’t understand about them. If I am successful and they recognize their conscience, they will witness the divine and finally experience it within themselves to know what a miracle actually is and why you should never ask for more than what has already been done.
Though I am not fully responsible for the power of that being possible, the use of human language to reveal what is unseen to them is my work, and that work results in the miracle. I suppose that may count as the supernatural experience they think they want but are too ashamed to ask for because they know it is wrong to even think they want such a thing.
The maidens who are waiting on something like that from me are the absolute worst. As I was considering their brainless, heartless behavior a moment ago while slaying zombies, it occurred to me that they are robot scarecrows. Not with courage or power, neither with brains nor a heart. Robot scarecrows used to scare off birds with no life of their own. Useless as human beings, minimally useful as an object.
The say such things as “we are pussies!”— as if that is my problem. You think I don’t know how cowardly and weak willed your wretched and useless gender is, good only for shitting out children, which I have no use for? Your cowardice, and “pussy” nature is your problem to overcome, not mine. Do not expect me to ever accommodate you for that failing of your own self. I would be only making it worse if I did not require you to be an adult with your adult body. Unless you have some disability as a legitimate excuse, I will not ever cater to your selfishness that avoids all responsibility as a human being because you are afraid and uncomfortable about doing what is decent.
Useless because I will not bring another human life into this hateful, wretched world. I would not curse a soul with life among you people. That is why they are useless to me. Life is not worth living because human beings are making the human condition worse on purpose. Being born into this evil world and cursed with life I have no choice but to accept and make the most of, the only thing I can do is not make another person suffer that. There is no future I can possibly accept on good conscience if I make it another person’s problem to solve, and not my own.
The maidens that I expect to do something, I expect of their normal human capability which is extremely easy and not even the least bit difficult, because it is simply not doing nothing! Doing nothing amounts to total consent with evil when they are tolerating evil by doing nothing. That apathetic, useless inaction and selfish, uncharitable hate of women in the world today is costing them infinitely more than if they gave their lives like Jesus did. Ironic because of how maidens are usually far more insistent on the Christian ways than men are.
In any case, I do not believe it will be possible for me to have any sort of romantic intimacy with those maidens, so they should not be thinking about that either. That ship has sailed, and they are far too dirty, defiled, and undesirable to be acceptable to me. Concerning themselves about me being acceptable to them is nothing but their own arrogant vanity because they are in no position to expect anything of me even if they were the cleanest, most beautiful, or most desirable maidens in my eyes, which they are the total opposite of.
That look of degradation and humiliation I have for them about is only appealing in romance when it is fake for certain kinds of abnormal private relationships. They will be lucky if they ever feel desired by me again. Certainly the ape minded fools and gorilla men will pound their holes without human passion, and that will never change, nor will that ever be satisfying to them either. It’s a shame they haven’t learned what human goodness is after all these centuries of examples and resources that have been provided to help them. Wretched cunts is about all they amount to.
However, I do think there are multitudes of lovely maidens who I will find irresistibly desirable and beautiful out in the world who do not presently have the privilege of such popularity and fame as those whore celebrities do who are trying to destroy the opportunities of others, and those are the maidens who I am romantically interested in. If the fat, wart ridden, cyst covered pigs like Emily Kinney, Emma Watson, and Taylor Swift would get out to the way for a moment, maybe we could see some beautiful women in the starlight for a change.
Will someone please usher them off the stage so we can get some new heroines who are capable of the role? How is it they say it in Hollywood where they have their allegiance above all else? Sorry, ladies, but you didn’t make the cut and you are not on the call backs. Try again next time… except, there won’t be a next time, because there is only one wedding feast for this king in the soapy opera I will play the bad guy for on the small stage of the world, and a supporting role on the big stage of real life.
Obviously, I am the hero in my own soapy opera, but that should not concern anyone else unless you are personally involved in my life or happen to be through no fault of our own. Do you think I have some part in your soapy opera? I don’t know what that is, because all the maidens I know, know me, and I believe I am playing that part to the best of my ability. If they think I can do something better, then I am sure they will let me know, because that is the sensible thing to do, and the maidens I am personal with are all sensible and good. I have not ever met a maiden I would say is a bad one. There was that one recently… but she never even told me her name and nearly everything about her that she claimed to be was a lie so… I don’t think I ever met that one truly. However, the fake one she presented certainly was bad, but also not real, so it’s not as bad as if that were really her.