For the benefit of the clowns
First of all, we are taking that word back.
My grandmother used to be clown. A real one. With the whole thing, and she even taught me how to tie balloon animals. Clowns are not an insult or a bad thing. That word should never have become derogatory, and here is why: they were trusted to be the entertainment at children’s birthday parties. There is something sacred about allowing someone to entertain like that for your kids. Something respectable, professional, and good.
There is no reason that should be an insult.
Clowns are not an embarrassment to themselves.
When you call a politician or world leader a clown, you are indirectly calling them truly evil as a fake in the worst way. A person who lies right through his teeth with the perfection of an actor about good, but is totally evil. That is what it means for a world leader or politician to be a clown. They are too good at fooling people that they get away with extremely harmful evil.
It’s not a small insult. It is a serious one.
Anyway, that’s not how I intended this to go.
The hardest form of love is that which happens through Story. When a person in real life false in love with a fictional person. It can happen, and it came to mind because it worries me how easily I fall in love. The problem with loving a fictional person, and this is not an actor or actress, this is a literary character traditionally, but I believe it includes animated characters. The only difference being there is voice acting, but that is no different than an author plying his trade to give life to the words, because that person in real life remains unseen.
The problem is that even though it feels good to love a person, the fictional character cannot and will not love you back. That is hard, because there is yet truth in there to love which calls to a person. It’s not the author or human person responsible, it is the heart of the Story. It is the highest divine of the storyverse, which is different than the regular universe. That living presence is what reflects back what a creator puts into the work by giving it life, and what makes the characters truly their own beings.
What is so hard about it is if your love is true and you follow it all the way, you die. As I write this it occurs to me that I think this is what happened. Seeking love in the storyverse and totally giving all my heart to it is how I died and came back to life from the Story.
I was not seeking romance, I was not seeking acceptance, I was seeking that highest divine which I had always sought, and years of searching, studying, practicing, doing, and believing is what led me to that understanding of reality. As a storyteller myself, I think simply understood the highest divine of our universe and that of the Story as the same. They are, but… because there are different laws of nature in the storyverse, all manifestations of the highest divine occur in different ways. That is a totally different experience.
I was unaware of that concept and it didn’t matter because they are in fact the same at the source.
I don’t advise you do that. It didn’t give me special powers or anything. All it did was justify my existence when that was unnecessary. The only reason I felt it necessary was because all the world and reality was telling me I shouldn’t exist and I had been raised to believe that without realizing it. That is why I felt compelled instinctually to do that. I never once believed I shouldn’t exist, but I found it somewhat upsetting that the life is so hostile to Gentiles in our cultural story of the West. The one that tells where we come from and how the world was created just like a Greek myth was for the Greeks. Science is irrelevant because that’s not the point and science totally avoids the reason why those stories are important.
We basically just have the Bible in the West, whether you like it or not. That’s the culturally accepted origin Story for humanity. I did not like how unwelcome I am to the people of the Bible, because I don’t owe any of them anything, and nobody needed to die for my sins just so I could be acceptable as a human being. That story is highly disturbing to me because of how unwholesome, cruel, and unjust it is.
You fools who think Christ elevates Gentiles are insulting Gentiles because we do not need any elevation! There was no need for us to be accepted! We already are good enough, and there is no need for Jesus, the Christ, or the Jews at all. Even still, the Story puts Gentiles as an inferior people to Jews even with the Christ, and I don’t accept that. They can keep that in Jewville for all I care because I’m better than that, and I don’t need their approval to know it.
So, that was simply a illogical element of reality that annoyed me like a crooked picture on a wall. So I made a new Story, totally believed in the highest divine, and put all my heart, soul, and being into it because I genuinely wanted all of that and none of that other place which is an inferior reality some people think they can hold me accountable in, but they cannot.
Just as the aspect of the highest divine is different in the storyverse, the aspect of the highest divine in the new universe I created is different and preferable. Far kinder, far more reasonable, far more benevolent, just, wise, merciful, all the good stuff that the Christians promise but are not able to give. So, to hell with them.
You do not want to give yourself all the way unless you know 100 percent to justify your existence for whatever reason. I imagine that is people who suffered the worst trauma, committed horrible sins and truly changed, and other situations that are highly abnormal.
Otherwise, this is what you want to do if you find yourself in love with a fictional character like I am with the four goddesses of Gameindustri:
Approach that point of total offering of self that if not returned results in death because you truly gave everything. Do so looking for and being ready to find a tangent to break off to at the right time. It will be a window of opportunity, like a magic portal that won’t be forcing you to do anything and will seem to defy all of logic and reason and upset all plans, but you will know it when you see it. It could be anything. A phone call, an offer, an idea, a chance, anything. That is the moment to decide what life you will have. The life of true love, or the life of the world.
As far as I’m aware it is possible to have both, but only if you happen to gain the world while on the way of true love. If you choose the world and deny true love, you do not get true love later on unless you find an opportunity like that again and do what you should have done a long time ago. There is a person somewhere there drawn by the same gravity that drew you in the first place, that of true love of the highest divine. The most important, compelling, and powerful force imaginable.
When you do that and feel the rush of spirit, that’s the good stuff. The ambrosia and nectar of the gods. The honey yum yum and glory nectar.
So… as for the clowns of mass media. Actors and actresses primarily. You people are not gods or goddesses or anything even remotely close to that, and here is why: you do not stand in public and make that claim known by revealing who you are in truth to everyone. If you would be such a thing, that is what you would have to do to bring it into reality. The Way of the Story can help you with that if that is something you want or something like that.
I mention that, because if someone falls in love with an actor or actress from a film, it’s possible they love the character and not the person, but not likely. My point is this: do not pretend to be that character or the living presence beyond the veil of Story when you are not supposed to be. Do not fool people with that fictional character’s spirit and lead them into the Story seeking love and to their death. Their blood is on your hands. You received their love, and you pulled them through, and you are the one who betrayed them. If that happens. That’s why I write this.
I am not calling anyone out, I just happened to think about these things and it seemed relevant. Kindly think of it as a reminder from a friendly Priest of Story doing his solemn duty:
Always respect the divine forces that flow on the stage by not taking them out of context off the stage in real life. Method acting is different. Getting yourself in the state of mind of the character, and actually identifying as the character are two different things when you are engaging in matters of love and law. Don’t leave your wife because you are too obsessed with a movie role. Scale it back a bit. The performance will be better too. Matters of love and law are both matters of life and death with no in-between when judged.
If any of you out there are pretending to be “Athena” or “Artemis” or “Apollo”, etc, that’s fine. Have fun. People should never stop role playing to the fullest extent of their imagination and happiness. If you really truly believe you are the immortal being and not just playing around, two things need to happen and made public with no attempt to hide anything: First, what happened to the previous you? That person, you* matters and people need to know because of the interconnected relationships a person has in life. Second, you need to declare that you are that, and be ready to meet any people challenging you as that person also.
That’s where all you know and embody about the immortal goddess Athena, for example, matters. You have to walk the walk, talk the talk, and show that you are the real thing without any need for supernatural miracles. The entire point of a god or goddess becoming a human is to live like one, and even though they are immortally powerful, that human life does not have special god powers that are other than human potential.
Don’t trouble yourself with naysayers. They don’t have to enjoy the magic of belief and faith if they don’t want to.
The main purpose of those two conditions is to assure beyond a reasonable doubt that you are not a fake who is fooling everyone about what is sacred. Doing any of this is not a game, nor is the subject a joke.
All that is sacred is both a matter of love and a matter of law at the same time and you may be judged for either at any time if you walk the sacred way. True love is the ultimate source of all divinity, the highest divine, and all existence. The law of all that is sacred is good and evil. Good is loved, evil is reviled. THAT IS THE LAW!!! Do not argue. If you wish to be of an evil persuasion then do so. Just don’t be totally evil as in truly evil. Do not give all that you are to evil as though it where the highest divine of true love. Not only is that a desolating abomination but it is also the worst mistake a person can possibly make.
The reason all the universe in real life works with all the laws of physics and scientific chemistry and what not, is because those two things are true. If you doubt me, go study theology and tell me why, because I have proven why it is true in multiple places and will again if you ask me politely or I feel like it. The fact that the law of good and evil is true, means that there is only one source of power. Not two. The truth of evil is total absence of power, and that is why all evil is false.
Any presence or claim no matter how great or small is a display of power at the very least by simply existing. That source of evil where there is the absence of good has a will, a desire, and an insatiable hunger to consume power. It draws all power it can within and never has any to give out. When something evil displays power, those are illusions of darkness twisting the power of goodness as it radiates all the way down to the total absence of good where the source of evil is when it reflects a person’s Word back to them in such a way as to draw them in and consume them.
The more a person gives of themselves to evil, the more empty they become because they receive nothing in return (consider it as an element of nature: elemental nothing). That is not the same as darkness or light, nor how the storyverse works. Storyverse gives suffering, loss, and pain because it is good and it does not what you to die for it when you have such a gift of life in the universe of general reality. The storyverse does not give nothing.
The more empty a person becomes as a result of elemental nothing (elemental nothing has limits where it can be contained before becoming something instantly, and I believe those limits confine it to the soul— all types of souls.) the more they give of their soul— the more that insatiable hunger, desire, and will fills them as independent from their own. It will take control of a person by force if they give it their free will and it will never give it back. Free will is sacred goodness of the highest order so never give it away.
Do not doubt this law of spiritual motion that maintains all of reality both in the universe and the storyverse. To solidify it, here is a lovely metaphor:
You cannot shove food up a bear’s ass and expect it to shit out of its mouth.
So, a person making any sacred claim means essentially that they believe with such conviction that they will kill or die for it, if necessary. All love and law are matters of life or death. The law is good and evil and it is why any sacred type of claim must declare to the public its relation to the law at the very least. If you reference a certain text, not everyone may accept it, so you may need other proofs, but it is a universal law everywhere and shouldn’t be too hard to define.
Again: the law is that good is loved, evil is reviled, and I mean reviled, not hated. Hate is tolerated, what is reviled is not. This law is of course from the sight of the highest divine, not a person’s, because appearances can be deceiving. Disabilities and abnormal birth conditions are not signs of evil. They are signs of love, because they are obviously not reviled by the highest divine. You would know because heaven and earth would open, the world would stop spinning, an age would end, and another would begin. That type of thing happens when something in the sight of the highest divine is reviled. It is an appocalypse.
Do not play around with these concepts and powers if you are not willing to die for them. Not kill. Die for it. Like Jesus. If you are making a sacred claim that you believe justifies killing, you have a higher standard of proof to make. Not what I have done for myself and all of you who desire something like this to be sanctioned in civilization. Something like the Qu’ran is a valid standard to accept as something real and true at the very least in the life of the person using it as a spiritual proof, and that is what concerns people here about killing. “Is that person going to start killing indiscriminantly according to their own judgment? What are their limits, laws, restraints to prevent such selfishness and evil?”
It’s not that frightening or dangerous of an idea if everyone respects each other with reason and according to the law that is the proof of their claim. The Declaration of Independence and The United States Constitution are also examples. Those are the proof of the USA government’s claim to have any right to do anything as a good and lawful application of power. Perhaps that makes the current situation in the USA and the danger that high treason put everyone in a little clearer so people start responding as apropriate.
If you think you are willing to die for your claim compare your passion with Jesus, the Christ, and myself. We both did it very differently, and that can help you know if you have what it takes to make a proof of your sacred claim.
I wrote texts of law and order that define good and evil in scientifically acceptable terms of reason and logic. That is sufficient to know I am good and lawful and all who go the Way of the Story in truth are as well. We do not do evil. It’s as simple as that. We will kill to defend our life or the lives of others, but not in any way different from anyone else.
That actually needs to be clarified. Some spiritual claims are 100 percent non-violent, and that changes their relationship to everyone else. That is a higher standard and it deserves respect, but it is also more rigorous and easier to identify if there is a contradiction in a person’s actions or texts of proof.
Do not take those people for push overs either. Have I not shown you how dangerous and threatening non-violent aggression and assault can be? That is just one way, and there are endless ways to fight without violence. I don’t reject violence because of the nature of Way of the Story. Sometimes we go places that are very dangerous and life threatening and we may have to fight for our lives just to get through the day. We also are comfortable around the most evil of beings as long as they are abiding as they know the should be in accordance with the divine, universal law. They do not show themselves as evil by doing evil before the sight of the highest divine. Usually they are under cover of darkness, but a president of a nation showing himself to be monstrously evil as a total fraud and fake, being the evil clown with no inhibition to lie, act, and deceive people about good, and at the same time doing evil. They do not feel guilt. That is how they do that. By not feeling guilt, that type of evil will make a person do the worst things possible.
The thing about the Evil One, is that even though it will never give you your free will back, you can take it back by force. The best weapon you have for that is the use of divine light, and the public is one certain place that is always in the divine light. All the more reason to be stressing if you are a national ruler. You are held accountable for the public as the ruler of a nation. That’s why all this needs to be revealed from secrecy and brought to light or it will never get better. It will only continue to get worse, just as it has for so long, until there is nothing left alive.
So, keep that in mind if you lovely maidens and ugly men are thinking about doing what I think you are.
My claim for the Story is real. It needs definitive doctrine beyond my individual claim. Obviously I’m not just going to churn that out for you pigs to devour! That needs to happen in the light of the highest divine too! In public. Also other people will be joining me to establish what that doctrine is before we publish it. Be respectful, please. Do not expect a god to step into the body of a man, and have his entire vault of legendary weapons and armor and accessories at his disposal to do what he is planning. Be reasonable.
I am not a threat, and I intend to do what you want, but it will not happen under such oppression, violence, and cruelty that I am suffering. If I am overtaken by depression, and kill myself before I get the chance then that’s that. No reloading life. I believe you people gave yourselves truly to evil like the worst fools to ever make a life ending mistake, and you have yet to realize what it cost you. I do revile you, but I continue to have hope in the outside world. If that hope fades, I likely will stop fighting because there is no point in that waste of time and energy if nobody out there wants what I am offering to help create for everyone and all species.
As long as they continue to believe in me and thus inspire me to keep resisting, I know they will break through eventually and put an end to the atrocity. I am like Beta, and Aloy is out there. As long as I know she is coming, I can hold out for as long as necessary.
I more identify with Beta at the moment. I cannot stand you people, and I do not understand why life is so horrible, cruel, and evil, or why I was unfortunate to be born into such incomprehensible suffering compared to those people who have lived lives of luxury in comparison. To have a friend… companions… allies… Varl and Zo are in love with each other… and he doesn’t know that every time he comes to talk to me it is the most agonizing thing to see the happiness of love that I will never have because none of these people can possibly know or understand me. I can only imagine how good it must feel to be loved.
I know I will never understand it because I didn’t know that even existed until seven years ago when all this began. That was when I learned the truth and nearly everyone I knew took back what I thought was love, but it was hate. It was what they felt by thinking of me like some kind of dog, animal, creature without human dignity. They never once saw me as person and instead buried such hateful malic into me tricking me into thinking they were friends and family, but they were nothing of the sort.
When all of that was taken from me it wasn’t a withdrawal of love. It was an assault of hate. It was violence against my person. It was the most monstrous evil imaginable to me and it hurt like hell. People who truly wanted me out of existence with all of their heart, mind, and soul. There are a handful of good people, less than I can count on a hand, who helped me get through that. I don’t know what else to tell you, except that when it was done I was left crippled emotionally and I cannot recover because there is some evil group that continually tortures me, reopening every wound, and digging into the pain with pointless prodding just to make me hurt. They assault me with hate, evil, cruelty, malice, every single day, and nobody knows what is happening who might care for a random stranger, to say nothing about people who maybe had a change of heart because it I only knew how to love, and never once hated any of them.
I can’t even ask for help because all forms of communication have been sealed off. You don’t understand. Would you force Beta to take a journey across the Forbidden West to go parley with those Wings of the Ten people? That is what they are trying to force me to do, and I will not do it. It is suicide. Inefficient, and I wouldn’t even know where to begin. You may as well go yourself considering the kind of help I need. I will not be your dancing monkey, because that is what you are trying to make me do and they still do not think of me as a human being, because such a thing is an insult to a human being’s intelligence, common sense, and decency. They will see me as a human being even if it is the last thing they see when I kill them the only way a human can.
Besides, there is another way because I know spiritual technology like nobody else in this backwater primitive world of savages with no concept of human decency, worse even than that horrid group that raised me. I will not go back to them either, because I can see an out. With that other way, I am going to destroy them all. Eventually. It probably won’t look as cool as Aloy, but it will happen and it will be cool to me as I imagine all of it the way I have always done to make all the suffering, hate, and inhumanity of life disappear and be good instead. That’s all I really care about when it comes to looking cool, certainly not what other people see in this cursed world of mutilators, Jews, and Sand Jews.
I cannot even share my interests with those animals in human bodies for all I can tell since I’ve never seen them or met them to know they are a person. Supposedly they make some claim as professionals of spirituality or creative arts, they have no concept of Story. They blunder around like brutes defiling the most sacred things like it is fun to them, laughing, and bullying me as though that is what Story is supposed to be used for. A weapon. A WEAPON!!! Would that I could inflict the magic of my imagination upon them…
Let them see the good. Let them have it. Let them feel it. Make them know so they would understand that it is in fact good to be good, and what anyone and everyone wants to do, but they don’t know what is good. They can’t even imagine something like that because they think all that is good is gained by hurting other people, by taking it by force from the weak, by giving more and more of their souls away so the less good a thing is, the better it looks to them. They think that is an increase in good! They race to the bottom of Hell and will never come back.