By halves

I don’t do things by halves or wholes. One and a half at least, so you’d better have a big appetite if you think you can handle me.

There is a reason why I came in here, and I can explain it. The thing is… if I explained what that was, I would have to explain something else, and then another thing, and more. The next thing you know, I would have to open an entire school just to make sense of what that first occassion was.

Suffice it to say that I simply wanted a drink and here was convenient. For a friend.

Additionally, during my unexpected outing tonight it dawned on me what perhaps may satisfy the Jew/Jews on my case like the Devil on an unpaid debt:

For that, I give this image, and I cannot ever explain what it all means, but my tattoo artist did know, and the other one did not need to know because they understood enough. That is the way of life. You should never demand of yourself total knowledge before doing what you know is best. The moment you know what is best is all that you need to understand about what to do, and you don’t have to explain your reasons to anyone, not even yourself.

The point is this: I did offer my flesh for what you think I need to. Perhaps not the way you expected or is traditional, but I did what I believed best, and whether you believe it or not, the highest divine found it acceptable and I need no priest, rabbi, or pope to give their approval.

That is what it means to believe what you want to believe, and that I am telling you I am not your enemy, because I also endorse and advance that purpose.

You would not be you if I were not me, and your claim would not be yours if I did not have one of my own either.

The writing says this: “The Words were made flesh.”

I knew what I intended to convey at the time and so did my artist, a man of two thumbs, as well as the maiden, the heart of the Pacific, but I don’t think any of us needed to understand the reasons. Now I understand. For you to be you, I will be me, but I will be me with or without you, so it is up to you to be or not to be, because I made my decision, and I already am.

For the record, I was enjoying spicy ramen with Sapporo draught. It was so good, it brought to mind the vivid memory of the ramen shop I wandered into that time I was in Japan alone without my ship, trespassing where most fools fear to tread for they blanch at the thought of cutting flesh and spilling blood. Not cowards, but they know themselves well enough to know what they are not willing to pay. I will pay that, and I have. Not in this image, but in all that has happened, and will be brought to light.

It is greater than a bodily sacrifice of my flesh, unfortunately, because the mind and spirit is greater than the body, each individually, and both all the more. That was not necessary for me to pay for myself or anyone, but it was taken, forced, stolen from me, and I, like Jesus, allowed myself meekly to suffer because that was the only good and also what was greater than them who took the tax. Doing so defeats them, but also ensures the protection I can grant to those I love, as an extra support. Not necessary, because there was plenty of safeguards and failsafe, but now there is a whole and a half reason to do what is good, not just because there is no shadow of a doubt, but simply to save your own skin, and I mean all of it.

It will not be wasted, because that price is a double proof for the Christ. What Christ completed, was an expense gained by his people again through me by another sin. Like the Christ, I made a way for a final confrontation, but unlike the Christ and I, whoever breaks that reckoning better be the last Word on the matter, or there will not be another chance.

If you allow me to live, not that I need your permission, but I do need you to stop attacking me, I will give endless reasons why it was a good idea to do so that will not only benefit you, my sworn enemy, but my people as well, and equally too. My goals are not intended for my side or interests alone. They are for everybody, and that is how I am in fact lucky. My choice was to be or not to be, but not only for myself, for all of humanity, and that is not something any of us need argue over.

Accept it move one, and hope in this: none of us can possibly know what will happen, let alone be possible after the breaking point. This is what I am implying yet again for the benefit of Trump and his team of Pennywise clones: you cannot know that it is hopeless, death, and the consequences that you fear resulting from a world you know. The world will be entirely new, and not even I know how it is going to work, aside from this: it will be better. It is will be more good. It is preferable for us all. I do not owe them anything nor have any interest in how it will benefit me, but i do genuinely care for them as much as I do for any stranger, and that is a considerable amount not only because of who I am as a person and what I value, but because strangers who remain strangers have been the saving grace of my life, and their compassion taught me the lesson of proof for my own.

There is one account I remember most fondly. I was walking out of Grand Junction Colorado, took a few rides, wandered a while, had my tarot read by a man who liked blueberries and also taught me the secret of ants, and eventually ended up a passenger in a car of pilgrims. Pilgrims is the best word I can think of describing them, though I know nothing about them, their lives, where they were going, or why. It is just what I think best describes what I saw.

The gave me a sandwich from their cooler, it was delicious, I was grateful, and then I dozed off for most of the ride. Eventually I asked they let me out at a turn on their way, and I doubt we will ever see each other again. I don’t even remember their names, or if they even told me. I met a lot of people like that, who simply took the time to show me compassion, and not a single one who was cruel, hostile, or evil. Not a one. Never once did I encounter a person committed to evil in the true sense of the word, until these recent times. I have not met those people, but I know they are people, and I know what they do is committed to true evil. I think perhaps the fact that they feel impersonal to me makes it easier for them to disregard me as a person, but that is no excuse.

I don’t judge them as evil because of what they do, I judge them because I know what they are doing will result in. Not because I understand the depth of the consequences because I do not, but because I know for a fact that they are greater than what I do understand, even if I don’t understand how or why. What I do understand is what they fear and more. The imprisonment, loss of assets, dishonor, and all those human concerns are horrible consequences none want to pay, and they see that too, but their mistake is that is the extent of their knowledge. What I know is beyond what can be seen without faith or without genuine and compassionate study of faith.

That is a cost that maybe can be imagined by considering the future on a scale of ten, with each digit being a thousand years. If we made it a thousand years, what might our culture look like? What might be our values? Will the be the same now? Are what we value and believe now the same as that which was in the time of the Crucifixion? No. We will advance, we will become wiser, we will become better.

So this is what I tell you, Trump and any who committed treason with him: face your fears. They are rational and not a sign of cowardice to feel afraid. Fearing your fear is cowardice, not feeling it. Remember that. Sorry to the dude who said “the only thing we have to fear is fear itself,” but that is simply a statement of great cowardice. I’m not sure what he meant, but I don’t think he meant for people to choose cowardice. That should be explaind better by someone with an interest.

So this is what I suggest, advise, and offer: go boldly to the guillotine, even if it is in full faith of yourself knowing that what you did was what you believed best and you will defy the reason for your execution because you hate Freedom and Democracy so completely. That is the only way you can show that at this point, because the more you resist answering me, and the public through me, the more you prove yourself false and cowardly.

The USA, a nation of Freedom and Democracy, needs a strong military and a capacity to fight that is better than anyone else. That is true. The reason being for the same one that I defy the USA government at this time. Those evil fools intent on enslaving and controlling everone for their limited perspectives and foolish plans of world domination will do anything with no regard for law, order, reason, intelligent thought, humanity, sanctity, what is morally good, what is efficient, prosperous, or anything other than what they think will momentarily satisfy their urges. They are dangerous. They rule as kings with a monarchy and ignore the citizens thinking they know better than every single one, when all it takes is one to know better to make all know better.

We need to be ready to defend ourselves and willing to. We never need to press the assault, by tyrants and evil fools do from time to time deceive, betray, and steal their way into power and authority that is not rightfully theirs and they endanger everyone without any thought or concern for other people than themselves, and least of all for the future.

Go and face your trial, judgment, and execution as the previous world demands it. When you do, the ages will change, because that will be the final sign. Then, hope, have faith, and show that you believe in what you do, and do not expect to know what will happen. I personally do not want anyone to be punished, which is why I am so insistent on people not being evil, because I am most adamant about enforcing justice when it is necessary, and nothing will move me to mercy if I know wrath is what is needed, and I will be able to explain it, like I can now.

If there is anything you can be certain of, it is that the new world is going to be vastly more merciful, forgiving, and compassionate in the ways of national government. Crimes will not be punished to make people suffer, they will be to make people realize what is good by giving them what is good. People in prison will be given comfort, entertainment, and all that is good about civilization to cultivate the reason and understanding why we have laws and enforce them.

To that end, that stuff is not going to be withheld from people like the fools do now thinking the only good is having something when others do not. Do they not notice how it is rotting their soul into unpleasant, undesirable, monstrous villains? The highest good is giving everything to make others happy, and having nothing left yourself. That will bring a person true happiness, just as it did me, and just as it did Jesus as he died on the cross, forsaken by the Evil One as no longer useful.

That happiness other people enjoy that you helped them aquire, is happiness for yourself as long as you do not take credit for the happiness, because that is not something you gave or created. Take credit for the sacrifice, the suffering, the cost that you did take on for yourself to bring the happiness about, but do not ever think you are the author of happiness itself. All that is good comes from the highest divine and leave it at that. If there is any way you can cover the highest divine for what is unpleasant and inexplicably so, like an infinite number of things in life, do that in faith and you will know happiness.

Divine energy will flow through you like a bridge between the highest divine and the destination, and though the experience is transitory, there is something greater than the happiness of pleasure: pain. Suffering. Payment of a price. Covering costs. That is not pleasant under normal conditions because you have to give something away to never be returned, but when you know it is accomplishing something as good, such as bridging the highest divine through the world, it does become something desirable.

Obviously you do not want more pain than necessary because pain is not the point here. It is not suffering itself that is good, but relieving suffering, paying the price so that is fulfilled, and covering costs for others when they cannot do so themselves that is what is good. This is the least obvious concept of Christianity. Jesus sacrifice is necessary, but it is not a sacrifice that is necessary, meaning it is not a body, a human, life, blood, flesh, or any good thing; it is paying the price that is good, not the price itself. Jesus paid the highest price a man can possibly pay for a person’s happiness, that person being the people of the Jews, and consequently because of what happened by the Jews acknowledging him, even if it was in the form of mockery, Jesus paid for the happiness of those who are not Jews but live like Jews for all intents and purposes.

Normally you should never have to die for someone’s happiness, because that means there is intolerable, reviled evil that is far beyond normal tolerance present, but for whatever reason you believe, that moment became necessary for Jesus. I advise you simply accept that as fact because it is true and inconsequential to everyday life. If you do not, then study it until you do learn why it is true, because it is a logical fact derived out of Story in accordance with the Universal Law of Good and Evil which makes all of reality possible, physical and spiritual.

Christianity does not require physical reality to be proved as a certainty, it requires the context of the Story it is relevant to, and that Story does not include everyone. If it does not include you, such as someone like me, it need not concern you unless it is encroaching in a way that is concerning. That may not be apparent, but if someone tells you it is encroaching even if you can’t notice it, I advise you listen and give them their full attention until you have an understanding yourself of what they are communicating.

As a final note, as much as you may want to cover the cost, so to may a person want to cover their own costs, because that is effectively the same thing here. The situation is relevant primarily when a person is unable to cover the cost, or it is egregious for them to do so. Who here does not want to be able to pay their own bills on their own without it being a burden?

So, please stop being an asshole, walk forward to a presumed fate as though it were the worst of all possible scenarios, but know this: the result of an apocalypse is not going to be that which you can know (if you are entering the final moment before total change and not after it. Obviously scholars will know what happened through historical events as facts.) This is applicable now at the turning of the age primarily. If you know what is likely and should happen such as summary execution for treason, go forward knowing it like a meek, compliant lamb, humble, and willing to be slaughtered for the good of everyone else. I’m not telling you what will happen, I am indicating what will not happen.

The source of all power comes from the highest divine and only the highest divine, and everyone with power, not only me writing things like this at random, with no instructions, no master other than myself, no agenda, no group interest, etc., everyone with power does not want the worst case scenario to happen but will accept it if necessary. So, if you do not want the worst case scenario for yourself, do not make it happen by going head first into it so that what is lawful and good has no other choice but to grant you what you desire because of all that you have done.

In the language of fools: You do not have to do everything I say if you change the situation so that it is different.

In the language of the Eastern maiden’s girl talk: The maiden who was the heart of the Pacific at that time, not saying she isn’t now; she is half Japanese and half Hawaiin ancestry. …. It is not like what some of you may think! It is a story like you would expect, but nobody betrayed anybody, and she kissed me and caught me by surprise when she did. Nobody did anybody wrong either when we parted ways, because she told me what I needed to know. Not what I needed to hear, what I needed to know, and that is the way I like it. Besides, we were both young with our lives ahead, and while she may have been willing to be tied up by me, I knew she had somewhere to go herself (having been somewhere myself) and I wasn’t going to be in her way. I also was not yet finished with where I had to go. I am now finished with that in case you are looking for a man to not only watch your back, but your left and right, and up and down too ;)

Now that I think about it… men should never be hiding anything from maidens. Never. If they are, it’s either a problem you need to learn about or something you want to pretend you don’t already know. The wise words: “maidens lie as easily as they breathe,” and “beware a maiden’s tears”, are certainly true. So, as for men: just simply accept the fact that she is hiding something, you will never know everything, and do not be mad when she tells you the knife that is in your back is hers and was lodged in there and twisted by accident. It’s probably true, considering how maidens sometimes behave, and you ought to just forgive her because you’ll only end up with more knives if you don’t.

When it comes to roles of men and women for all time, those are the main differences: women are excused from the truth, and men are never excused from the truth. No matter what crime a maiden commits, how thoroughly it is investigated to prove her guilty and lock her up, I guarantee you there is more to what happened that she is not letting on. Just accept it and do what needs to be done and no more.

Do not allow men that priviledge. There is something about our nature to make that different for us and I don’t know what that is, but as a man, for the benefit of all of us, I am telling everyone now that is simply how it has to be and we cannot allow other men to betray that because it concerns us all.

Expect men to tell the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth if demanded of them, but do not demand it unless necessary and with a good reason, because whenever such truth is revealed, the world may end like it did when I revealed the truth as necessary and with a good reason. It is highly dangerous, but men have it, we protect it, and it is sacred to us both (men and women/man to man).

Of course maidens can know and reveal truth, they simply are excused from it and it not their responsibility as a role unless they make it theirs as an individual, and that is fine. Men may admit maidens into the mysteries of manliness and all of its secrets and powers as long as they become accountable to truth as we are by swearing an oath which is required of any male being taught mastery over the mysteries, secrets, and powers to be the wardens, guardians, and companions of truth. Those revelations require an expression of words as truth for entry because of the mystery of that truth. That is all I will say about that.

Maidens have their own responsibility anyway, and I imagine that has something to do with their mysterious nature. Whatever that may be, and I don’t claim to have the foggiest idea of what that is, men are responsible for the truth and that is why we must be accountable to reveal it at any time as appropriate. That I am in full knowledge and clear understanding of. By my deductions, and by that I mean the shadow she is casting right in front of me by standing in the light, there should be a maiden with her part ready to destroy the evil with the male part when the time is right. That is her call, and another reason why we always need to be ready to do our part.

I don’t know if anyone except the maiden at the time will understand the fullness of that truth, but whatever it is, unknowable and mysterious as ever, it is truth just the same and meets the requirements for the highest order of male truth.

Don’t try anything sketchy, you fools. This is not something you want to crack open and reverse engineer, loot, or savor yourself, because cracking it open means the end of everything and all of our deaths, including yours. If you wish to know, go the proper way. If that is not enough, be warned that the other way is guarded, by good and evil alike, and you will not be allowed to do it false.