I wish video games would stop being mean...

I don’t like the way the games have begun behaving with players…

Recently, video games changed dramatically, and I don’t know why or what it is. But it’s like… they made the software of gaming in general to be a puppet that people could control and harass players with through the game.

Then this puppet being controlled by someone somewhere creates glitches, problems, and insults that it targets the player with continually while we try to enjoy a game. It is absurdly evil what is happening, and I want it to stop because it’s very mean, unkind, and it should be criminal already.

Something like that would only be possible with the government’s force because there is no way media developers would have allowed that of their own choice. They were forced into doing it or the government forced their way in. I don’t know but I want it to stop.

I don’t care if there is a sentient person in the cyberspace, it has no right to bully citizens and violate the law in order to harass gamers to defile the objects of happiness so they are less enjoyable.

In no way is that okay for a person to do, which means it is far less okay for a sentient AI to do, so why is it happening? Who allowed it? What is being done to stop it?

Please stop being mean…

Please. I do not like it. I want to cry, but I do not have enough emotion left in me to shed tears these days. There isn’t enough love in me to cry, so I can’t do it. I don’t know why, it doesn’t feel good, and it feels worse because I can’t.

It makes me want to kill.

When I say things like that, I’m not trying to scare, threaten, or terrize people, I’m saying because that’s what happens, not because of people like me, but because of how society thinks. How people are interconnected with consciousness. How we share human experiences with eachother. That is how violence like that happens, and it should not happen! We have laws and enforce them for the very reason to prevent stuff like that from happening!

Please stop being mean. Please.

I do not want you being mean to me. I am not mean to you. I don’t even know who you are. How could I be mean to you?

Yet you know all sorts of stuff about me that you shouldn’t… You know my medical history, you know my life history, you know my private desires, you listen and watch me every moment of my life, and all you use that information for is to bully me! That is all you do! You are mean, cruel, and evil! I don’t like you!

STOP!!! LEAVE ME ALONE!!!

I don’t care about anything. I just want to die, but that is not really an option. I am a living being and I live! I am not a machine or program that can be turned off.

Please give me a way to die. Crucify me if you wish, I don’t care. Just do it. I am never going to belong in a world that allows such malevolent behavior from sources of authority. I am never going to be evil, not even to stop the suffering. I am never going to be accepted by anyone who accepts evil.

You put dogs down all the time. You can do it to me. Please do that. If there is any goodness inside you left, any mercy you are capable of, let it by my death. Friend, enemy, complete stranger, I don’t care. I am done with life and have been for a long time. There is nothing left for me in the world to want or do or give.

Long ago there used to be a place you go and be given death by people who understand. If that is true in this day, what do I need to do to die? Are there requirements? How do I find you? What can I do?

I do not have much money but I will give all that I have left and take out as much in credit as possible. It’s probably not enough, but at least it may cover the cost of some serum I could inject or pill I could swallow.